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"you in the background only as a silent witness" Beautiful!!!

I meditate with closed eyes and after a session I sometimes sit still with my eyes open but that's not for long time. I will try this tomorrow and sit still. Few weeks ago I meditated in the forest and after that session I felt like I was on mushrooms or something Walked really slow and looked at plants and ants for a long time I start to notice my unconscious behaviors also.. Yesterday I walked to the fridge for no reason, it's an old habit when I ate all the time. This time I drank some almond milk and I came aware of my habits. I told my self "Next time I come here I can take anything in the fridge but NOT almond milk" 20-30 minutes later I went to the fridge, reached for the almond milk when suddenly my hand froze. In the same moment I came aware of my unconscious behavior. Instead I drank some oat milk. Haha But the thing is everything feels like a video game. You set up the rules in the now and everything else will follow. My motivation for self improvement is even bigger now after the insight. This is to good to not be discovered deeply. Thanks, cetus!

Oh, now I remember. Strangers talk to me and good things seems to happen more frequently. I feel my own vibration. I can't explain it but maybe there is no such thing as coincidence. Seems odd but I will not try to stop it, why should I? If I tell other people this stuff they will probably think I'm losing my mind completely. So funny!

Haha. I read that a couple of times and started to smile. I have no idea anymore. I will go on my first 10day vipassana retreat in 2 months. Awesome timing? I will remember your words, keep calm and continue meditation. How did you go to the next step? I don't know so much anymore and I feel like I have more questions now then before! How many "I" do we have? Who is giving me the brilliant ideas? I can control my thinking if I want but if I don't the thoughts are there anyway and just speaks to itself. I noticed that voice is commenting everything I do. Is that voice a product of my beliefs and what the "reality" has told me? By commenting everything the ego feels like it has control? Yesterday I felt egoless but I still had thoughts. So I get confused on how many different voices/senses there is. The ego? The inner self and nothing? Maybe I just need to continue practicing. I don't mind

Thank you for your replies. I felt very alone last night but I'm so glad other people can see it. This is madness! I'm looking forward to what this day has to offer. Thank you

So I had this huge realization an hour ago? I can't remember. I hade an insight about my voice in my head and that it's always ON. I had to write down that. How could I not noticed that before? And after more thinking(?), it got so damn loud. I was just writing down this when it struck me that if I shut down that voice I have no fucking control! That freaked me out so I grabbed my jacket and went for a walk. I didn't care in which direction and for how long. I have a walking habit for 40-60 minutes each day. I didn't walk that much today... until just a moment ago. This means that the only thing I can do is to change my habits and l go for what I enjoy the most. I cant write anymore

I've tried this with tasty food. If my inner feeling is to eat something "bad" I go ahead and do so. It feels amazing! I'm trying to be better at this and I still have my fitness goals. It's only bad when you say it is!

Meditation, YouTube (self improvement/inspiration), go to the gym, walking, reading, writing. Lately I'm looking for other like-minded but they're hard to find

Don't deny what you feel and try not to judge. Just feel what you feel and eventually things will get better.

Shouldn't vegan be something that comes from within? If you practice presence enough you'll eventually find a truth for you. Eckhart Tolle and other spiritual leaders do eat meat. Dalai lama eats meat when he's traveling or if someone offer it to him, I've read that and I haven't actually spoke to him but it could be true. Couldn't it be harmful if you force yourself to do something you really don't like? Anyone with experience and I would specially hear from someone who went back from vegetarian/vegan to eat meat. Peace

What is your goal? Find what your goal is and work from there.

Hi, I have worked a long time for my boss and now I wanna help him out. I know there are so many things that I can improve and I have already started. My plan is to work more with that than my regular duties. Right now I keep my salary the same but I'm a bit confused over what I can ask for in return in the future. My first goal was to work more with the things I like but as a result of I'm doing more than and I "should", should I ask for a higher salary? I want to have a good amount of money some day and do the things I love and I'm in the process of getting there. I have no experience with this kind of tasks yet so I just go with the flow. Money comes natural if you just have patience or is it a time when you should set a price on the things you do?

That crossed my mind once. Either this works or I get fired, lol. It's easy to criticize and there's no limit for how many things that could be better once you start looking for them. But I'm not trying to do that because there's no point in complaining if you don't do anything. I am really concerned about his health and the staffs situation. I'm a key person in the company and I can do so many different things that is needed. But I'm not in for just doing meaningless things I want to work to make the workplace a good place to be. After all, most people spend most of their lives on the job and I want them to like coming to work. Many go to work and feel miserable because no one listenes for what they need and how they feel. People are home sick way to often than they should and in many cases their not really "sick" they're just exhausted. The staff tells me things they don't dare tell my boss. For my self I can handle it and I always tell people that they doing a great work. In this case I need more of his support for making the changes and for me that means work hours. It takes time to change things but if you don't put time into it, it will never happen. I want to help him with that because he's not doing it. As some of you said I might be in a strange situation but I must do something at least. I can no longer just sit and watch what happens. Either this, or look for a new job but I'm choosing this because of my experience in the company and I feel that my boss respects me a lot. As I said I'm new to this but this will at least give me more experience. Things are happening and this is much more fun than doing nothing

Thank you for your replies! I'm still in progress and in a few weeks I'm ready to deliver my and all the employees opinions to my boss. I've talked to the most of the employees and all sharing the same experience. My boss is second generation in the company and what I can see is that he lacks passion and motivation... That can be either good or bad in my point if view. If he continues with this irresponsibility he will loose everything. Does he care? I think so but he has no clue what to do about it except denying it. My plan is to bring the madness to light and inform him how the staff actually feels about their situation. And I'm gonna offer him ways to improve the quality and that I'm willing to work for that. I not afraid to fail and I can't just watch the company throw away the possibilities. If this succeed it's great! If not then I have to leave. After all.. it's not my company and if he's not willing to give me a chance there's not much I can do. And that's were the challenge starts... How do you find a employer that is at least as passionate as I am about improving things?

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You need to do it and eventually you'll learn it.

Please come back to this thread in 2 years. I wanna know!

I don't know if you trying to loose weight but the most common problem is that people don't eat enough! They can stick to a low calorie diet but after 2 weeks of 1000kcal/day they cannot control the body any more and before they know it they sitting in front of he tv with a big bowl if ice cream and feel bad. You can't control that urge and it makes sense... A really important rule is to eat at least 85% of the food as whole foods. And stick to it. Find a way and if you can think yourself eating the same way for 20 years to come then that's what you want. Do not lie to yourself. Personally I want to eat everything so I do plan when I can eat the stuff I want. Always have food ready at home.

There's so much healthy foods out there but this question still comes up. Everything that's not a "food product" goes. Just pick from there. But you have to cook for this to work! Have 1-3 days where you just cook and prepare your food. It takes some effort but if he mind about food he should do the most of the cooking. Or you can just let him cook the basics and you can cook the side orders/salsas and so on.

You experience that the dog has a hard life. Have you asked the dog? Of course I think it's waste of life to torment beings. They don't understand their own suffering. Good to hear that you took care of the little one

You don't learn anything from drugs except that is not needed. You wake up the next day and feel like shit. Everyone can do drugs and become funny, outgoing and even get laid. But what's so special about it if everyone can do the same just by taking drugs? Not everyone can get high with just meditation or even be high 24/7 if you continue the progress. But if there is one substance that I respect it would be Psilocybin. You have an amazing time and you remember everything about your new insights the day after. I believe Psilocybin can open the door in your brain to become more open minded and interested in self actualization. But be careful and you really don't need it to become enlighten. Every other drug does no good because they won't last. Meditation and mindfulness lasts forever.

Eckhart said "You want to die before you die" Death is a one time experience. You can't prepare so the most powerful thing would be to watch and enjoy it just as it is. Like everything else.

I just can't shut up about this It is so fascinating and powerful it must be spread. People do not really get what I'm talking about and I have now starting to learn that they change when/if they are ready. I love socializing but it would be so awesome to have discussion with a mindful person. "Normal" conversations feels boring but in the same time it's a good opportunity to be present and it gets quite fun!

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