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I baited him, my bad D::::::

Is that essay somewhere I can access, or is that personal?

Curse you, don't worry though, you've joined an ever growing list of people I've asked. Have fun next week though lucky bastard

Are you Canadian or can people get 5 Meo U.S. if they look hard enough? Or maybe you are from somewhere completely different

No tricking yourself, just ask yourself the facts. Have you felt any noticeable shift in consciousness? Have you integrated the lessons you've learned into your daily life yet? Do you see yourself having a productive trip? I've been doing acid almost once a week spiritually for the last few months, sometimes just a half dose to get in that insightful head space. I don't regret it at all, it's cheap, and it really has worked wonders for me, I'm sure you'll be fine. If you haven't integrated your lessons from the last session, then what's the point, you still have lessons you need to integrate, get to work. Anyways gl, trip safe

Wish you luck on the down swing, hope it never comes though, gl!

I will definitely consider it, just so that I can make that judgement for myself, thanks!

Would this be improved by SDS while looking at your hand or hindered, and more importantly, why, if you can give me an explanation?

I certainly laughed when you capitalized HATE, I'm slightly confused because you seem to strongly believe and adhere to spiral dynamics, which is in effect admitting that green people are at a higher stage of consciousness than yourself, at least according to your self-diagnoses. I think you are treating it as too rigid of a system, free of nuances. You don't have to shove green down your throat, the truth will come. I don't remember having a distinctly green phase in my life, I certainly remember some of the thoughts I had on the importance of love and remember some more of the yellow ideas coming into my life, but that's happened throughout my life. You don't have to force the truth, you just have to keep an open-mind and look for it. I agree that green can be very emotionally charged, often to the detriment of their cause. They are often unable to listen and take the perspective of those they are debating with, and instead a cycle of demonetization occurs, which I believe you may be in. You don't have to adopt the intolerant behavior that some of the darker side of green shows. You don't have to love every behavior of every green person, they have their flaws and are deluded like the two of us. I do think however that you need to understand that a lot of the ideas green people have genuinely come from a place of love, and while it isn't right for them to crush everyone in the way of their agenda, we've all been ignorant. Learn to love. Learn that sometimes pragmatic solutions and advice we give our friends to end depression are sometimes far inferior to a hug, or letting them know you care about them. Take the good of green that you can accept, and move on. Yellow has plenty of digestible ideas such as non-judgement that you could work on too if green ideas are really giving you the ringer. Find ideas that resonate with you and change your perspective on the world, don't force feed yourself a list of green values when you haven't realized them yet

Alright I feel an end in sight, this has been enjoyable. You're absolutely correct in saying that because a sub element has some property, that the larger system as a whole doesn't have to rely on the same properties to function. My brain certainly doesn't appear to be a quantum computer, despite the QM of reality. I think you chose electron of the three (electrons, atoms, and larger molecules) so that you could use your example of magnetism and not because you wanted to dramatize the electron to brain scale ( a brain being 1.5369415e^32 times larger than an electron quick googling the two). My argument is trying to stay at the same level of abstraction. https://medium.com/the-physics-arxiv-blog/physicists-smash-record-for-wave-particle-duality-462c39db8e7b Here is an article, for you to criticize it's authenticity if you life, but from it I am taking one quote "But physicists have seen this wave-particle duality for protons, atoms and increasingly large molecules such as buckyballs." I'm focusing on bucky balls, which have about 60 carbon atom Seretonin is C10H12N2O These are certainly on the same order of magnitude as eachother, which suggests seretonin acts quantum mechanically. The stage of abstraction I'm working at is on the AI side, electrons and transistors. On what I would consider the roughly equivalent layer of abstraction for brains as neurons and serotonin. Considering the mass of serotonin and other much smaller ions in the brain, it's impossible to correctly model the brain without considering QM effects in the potential ways these small molecules may tunnel, interfere, and well everything they do. If you don't consider the QM effects at this layer of abstraction, you don't end up with a brain functioning in the same way we do. However, until recently the "equivalent" layer of abstraction of electrons on transistors developed without a strong knowledge of quantum mechanical effects. In fact, now that transistors are getting so small, and there are like 40 electrons or something on a charged bit, they have to actively avoid quantum mechanical effects. In this way, these layers of abstraction between the two differ, and while I'm not nearly intelligent enough to consider the ramifications of that, if any, I think it's a noteworthy distinction between the two to think about. I hope I'm not keeping you from helping out other people haha, I just enjoy the intellectual challenge

Hi this all comes off as really "woo woo" to me, but I think I have an open-mind. Have you tried having a friend placing a crystal in a random part of the house, and you looking for it to prove that this isn't placebo? You'd convince me to buy them certainly

I walk around with sweat pants (they are so comfy) and right now I got this sick ass game of thrones t shirt on me. I really don't spend a lot of time maintaining my self image, I think it would be more accurate to say that I stress about the image I have. I finished first in class, I tend to do well in intellectual situations, and that has caused a sense of pride that when I say something stupid and get proved wrong I just cringe so fucking hard and causes a bit of anxiety, because that image is going to be affected. Even in some of my debates with for example Leo on here, I'll stress about him coming back with some great argument that puts me to shame. I try to just laugh at it, and can usually turn that attitude around pretty quick because I also really value truth and being aware of everything I can be aware of, including my delusions, but yeah, I still feel anxiety in my stomach when I have to come to terms with the fact that I am or could be far more deluded than I thought

I think this is interesting, because I'm kind of the opposite. I tend to have high confidence to the point of narcissism, and we still care about other people's opinions. We feel like we have to maintain an image, and when we get approval, we pride ourselves in our ability to maintain that strong image. I'm not disagreeing with anything you are saying, how could I, just letting you know that us in the higher confidence spectrum are also slaves to other people's opinions

Hmmm maybe I have my fixed ideas, but they don't feel very fixed to me. I have a rough idea of the kinds of teachers that benefit me and other people, and from my experience you differ from those teachers greatly. I wanted a chance to address this potential delusion more than anything, but you skirted again around many of the direct questions I had for you, instead insisting it must by some fixed ideal of what an enlightened person must be. I'm honestly here to learn, and I feel like I have a lot to learn from many people, just not you from my experience. If i'm deluded about my intentions here, I genuinely hope that pops up in my awareness, but I feel pretty certain that you aren't the teacher for me and don't have the intention to address my points. On that note, I wish you all the best, and I'm going to carry on my own way... gl!

Well I think there is some real beauty here, but I'm in love with anything most stuff STEM. how can we even predict things correctly? I'm not going to actually write out the code, but I can tell you how I would solve my ball example and how this could be applied to you. So for the ball example, until the variables in our system interact, they are linear and only dependent on themselves. The code for this wouldn't be too hard, it would start each ball at some initial position, with some initial velocity. It would make really small increments of movement in whichever direction I tell it to go. After the program moves each ball just a tiny tiny tiny bit in it's linear direction, we look to see if any of the balls hit each other. If they hit eachother, we take a break from out system evolving to create a new set of three linear systems out of out old system, but now we have new angles/velocities that these balls are moving. These angles/velocities will be dependent on this collision equation you solve. Here you will have to consider the momentum of the balls, the angles of incidence at which they hit each other, this is all doable though and from this you can have a linear system again that has three independent parts. The problem with doing this is it would be near impossible on paper ( BUT DOABLE!!!), you'd be spending all day with each ball slowly moving it forward and watching for it to collide with another ball. Then writing out more angles and solving more equations just to create a bit of progress in understanding the time progression of the system. What does this say about your goals, I mean you're a nonlinear system yourself. You get in these weird positive feedback loops. Say you start meditation, and this results in eating healthier because you need a bit more mental clarity (smarties aint doin it), but maybe this eating healthier gives you the energy to go to the gym, which makes you just feel really fucking good and now because you're feeling good you want to meditate more. You can't solve that haha, but we can learn to be intuitive. We can test inputs and techniques and not worry about the complex black box of interactions that is happening at the core. I'm not saying throw away logic, but if you do something that feels like it's making a real difference in your life and you don't know why, don't worry about it. While there would certainly be knowledge gained from learning about the complexities of why a technique might work for you, and the weird ways one habit might play off another, if it seems like you won't be able to wrap your mind around it, I wouldn't worry, you can still see the fruits. Final point is that while this seems to suggest you should treat yourself as this non-linear system, constantly recomputing the right approach you should take to life each second, that's not a good approach. You'd spend all of your RAM computing and computing what you should do, and never tackling the issues in front of you. You have a computer which at least for me can think/concentrate about/on on a finite amount of things each day. The game is taking enough points of your day such that you can get yourself back onto the best possible path without spending too much time figuring out the best path, because if you spend all day figuring out what you should do, well that's all you did. find your max(efficiency*time) if you have fun maximizing growth. I do this sometimes, and other times I watch Alex Jones call frogs gay, so don't be intimidated by this idea. I think it's just fun to think about if you were a robot heading towards enlightenment, the fastest way of doing so. Anyways I hoped that helped haha

I can't help you fully understand or mathematically model these systems, but let me quick give you a simple nonlinear-system. So it's not that Leo has said anything I disagree with, however I think he left out a key point that these systems often have variables that depend on each other. It seems you're interested so let me quick give you a general example Let's put a ball in a box and give it some velocity, we will call this ball 1. Knowing it's mass and velocity, with some initial conditions, we can know exactly how ball 1 moves around the box easily. The distance traveled will just be it's velocity(ball1)*time and that will be in whatever directions, but that's all very easy to figure out ( I know easy is relative, this COULD be easy for you). This is my linear system. Now lets add two more balls, although I think two would work fine. So these three balls are all in some initial position and we will be giving them some velocity in random directions. We want to sit down and figure out the position of ball one say in 30 minutes, after it has bounced of many many walls. So we start writing the same equations velocity(ball1)*time and then we think to ourselves, well shit, what about collisions! Ball 2 and Ball 3 might have gotten in the way. So now we think, well i'll be intelligent and consider Ball 1 and Ball 2 two linear systems, I will calculate their trajectories until they fuck with each other, and then I will write the equations for what a collision might be, and the continue on the system as two linear systems until they react. Well at this point you realize that you're an idiot, because Ball 3 probably interfered with even this simple two part linear system. So you kind of get in this hole of trying to calculate one variable with another variable, but you don't know that other variable because it depends on the first. In simpler English, you want to calculate Ball 1, but you need Ball 2 and Ball 3 to know Ball 1, but you don't know Ball 2 or Ball 3, because they also need to know Ball 1, but fuck I don't even know that after any collision has taken place. You can stop here, this is just one further example encase I didn't drive the point home. Leo mentioned weather as an example. Let's say today we care about rain because we're a witch and don't want to get wet. Well clouds predict rain, but the presence or absence of clouds might hinge on the wind that day, the wind that day is probably some function of temperature outside, that temperature outside now is a function of clouds because well shade. But fuck, now I need to know if there are clouds to know if there will be clouds and I don't know shit.... That's kind of the difficulty of non-linear systems as far as I can tell, hope that gave you any insight

Wooooooaahhhhh slow down, at least let me talk to you on Skype quick? At least tell me your full story?

Just remember they are over 50% of the population (although i'm sure this is heavily regional), that would make you weird for not having a baby or a period. They could have an even more valid idea than you in believing you and I weren't normal D:::::

Hi I'm no expert, but I often find that some sensations and reactions can be really subtle and difficult to realize you were even aware of them, or could be. I would train your awareness, specifically your emotional awareness. If you aren't already meditation daily, well you know.... But while doing that, use that meditation session to train your ability to focus in on your emotions and reactions, you will get better at being aware of more and more subtle emotional reactions. That being said, I hope an expert comes to help you out, gl!

Just focus on having a cute kid, it'll all work out. As far as this post though, really high props for trying to understand women and putting yourself out there on here, I hope you gain some knowledge/understanding that benefits you in life

When I really fuck up, I just remember that feeling bad about it really won't do shit. I've known many depressed bed-ridden who went to my school. That state of mind won't get you anywhere. So first of all break up the barriers that you need to be sad to make up for it, that's bullshit (in my eyes). You have to want to be happy, say it if you have to. I think second would come dealing with all the negative emotions that come along with deep regret. What I have found best to deal with lingering emotions (I feel them primarily in the stomach) is usually an hour meditation where I channel a sort of loving energy into those emotions while trying to be as aware as possible of them... Shinzen Young also confirmed my formula (im sure it was discovered hundreds/thousands years ago) pain/awareness=suffering, remember that!!!

I wouldn't be surprised if you changed your mind when she looked into your eyes all cute

Yeah, there are quite a few genuinely intelligent people on this forums, far more than myself, it's nice to have a good debate

We may not have the greatest hands on quantum mechanical knowledge of how neurons fire at the moment, but you can imagine how hard that would be in a living system to get those readings. What you do know is that everything we have observed to date from electron, atoms, to even larger molecules HAVE quantum mechanical effects. You have a wave length associated with you depending on how much you eat. There is a difference between measurable QM effects and shit. I'm lucky enough to work at a lab, and our devices get cooled to 50 mk or so, any higher temperature and your coherence would be destroyed by thermal effects ( you're also relying on super conductivity, which I think is a few kelvin for most materials). This however is in a lab setting, to say QM effects require very low temperature environments is slightly inaccurate. Measuring them effectively without your data being destroyed does (in the case of your quantum computers), but that doesn't mean they aren't there, we just can't measure them well. I believe the statement is false when considering something like a double slit experiment, but I can only guess that. As far as your commentary on non linearity and breaking up something into levels of abstraction, I'm just no where near qualified to talk, so thanks for your knowledge and I look forward to getting a deeper understanding of non-linearity/reality. Much love

But quantum mechanics depends largely on the scale of the system we are talking about. h/p where h is a constant and p is momentum. In this way you can scale up the mass and size of a computer enough to ignore the effects of quantum mechanics. It's not that quantum mechanics aren't happening, simply that the wavelengths of the components are so small that they won't have an effect. Certainly they will have some white noise effect, but the system will be able to be described nearly perfectly by Newtonian mechanics. You can't say this about the nature of small molecules and neurotransmitters in the human brain, QM matters there, you can't talk about the brain and consciousness fully without considering QM. That being said, this sub argument doesn't play a larger role in anything I had to say because I can't continue on the argument by saying that this distinction will have an effect, simply too ignorant at the moment. Appreciate the debate nonetheless