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Thanks for making this post, I had a super insightful mushroom trip this morning full of notes and notes, yet was left feeling a bit empty and hollow. Look forward to the deeper insights that are full of love, beauty, joy, because these feel very matter of fact and dull

Don't cling, yet paradoxically, don't cling to not clinging this is key

I'm clinging to my passion, I'm having a hard time relaxing without thinking about personal development in life. I still want to have these thoughts and want to have a vision for my future, but it's seeping into parts of my life where I just need to relax, and I can tell it won't be sustainable. How do you manage having a vision and being serious about it, without being too serious about it that it overtakes other areas in your life? Figure it out

What I am trying to do, is to create a path for myself to live a more fulfilling and profound life, that others may or may not choose to follow. How can I expect to beat myself over the head with 80 hours of work a week in a never ending cycle of optimization, and then at the end, come away with happiness for myself and others. People would look to me and the path I followed with dread and never follow it. However, if I can prove that a more profound life is achievable in a reasonable amount of time by focusing on the right areas of your life, that's a path people will follow. I'm trying to live the most profound life I can live that other people could reasonably follow, and see what I'm doing and think, yeah I could do that too, not look up to me like I'm some god who busted his head open and sent himself into psychosis to find the Truth

I want to create a path for myself and other to live a more profound life, a template. I can't expect to bust myself 80 hours a week and expect at the end i'll find some magical truth to set us all free. I don't expect others to do this, they won't. By being reasonable and smart though, I can create a convincing path that one can follow while living a BALANCED life of thinking and improving your moments, and just ising out

I want peace from thought, yet expect these thoughts to bring me towards peace

Taste like fucking shit

Focusing on the "I amness" has gotten easier and easier, it manifests itself right in my center of gravity, right in the middle of my brain. I try to put my awareness there, I'm not used to trying to be aware of the center of my brain, I cross my eyes struggling to get my awareness pushed back into the middle of myself where this vibrating sense of "I amness" is. However, as you examine it, it's clear that it's just a bodily sensation, a tingling in my brain no different than a tingling in my arm. As I overlap my awareness with this bodily tingling, it seems to squeeze away, I follow it and follow it around my head, to the crown of my head, to the tip of my nose where I don't usually go. It runs to the front of my face, but I've been here before, here I'm good at being aware, I've got it. I hover over the sense of "I amness" with ever more awareness and intensity, it's ran to the wrong place. With my awareness shining it's light, it realizes it's too bright here and quite literally goes down into my chin and almost as if it were one contained amoeba of "I amness" slips down my chin and down my thought into my chest, stay there I think as I feel the warmth and clarity, I wonder if I've won or something, I don't feel a strong sense of "I amness". I check back in the center of my brain, a lighter tingling sensation is there. After repeating the process, I realize that a small piece of this broke off while I chase it around my head, and slithers back to the center of my head. I try to play goalie as I chase this sense around, making sure that it doesn't reach it's way back to the center of my head, I need to increase my awareness. Today we do shrooms with the intent to really bring out and make clear what my deepest values are. They seem to be knowledge, teaching, and clarity. I want to not only figure this path out for myself, but also optimize it wherever possible, maybe enlightenment of the future can be simple, the norm.

Fake humbleness is not the way, if you can make a difference, make it. However, don't let your ego find out you think this.

My question is, can life be a game?

Can you imagine a planet with only ISIS members ^_^?

Although this sounds like an epic "RoboCop" sequel, there is not separating different ideologies in this world. If you saw an island whos ideology was having kids, and throwing them off a cliff if they weren't fit, you'd probably at least say something. Tensions would rise is my point. Ideologies clash. I like the idea, but this ends up causing a lot of demonization between groups of people, it just wouldn't work out and as Leo said, did not work out in history. Also, just because we are on our own islands, we still share the same planet. Issues like "who gets to fish in these waters" would come up. I actually just remembered one of my favorite shows "whale wars". I think the crew was like U.S./Canadian/Australian and they were lobbing like acid at Japanese whale boats to make it difficult to whale. One country believes whaling should be illegal, the other legal. These ideologies clashed in neutral territory

Were you scared at all? I had such bliss/love/adrenaline while at the same time my ego was acting like it was in a plane that was crashing. I couldn't stop laughing at how big of a bitch my ego was after it was all over... Low key wondering what other people's experience after just smelling tracks/seeing the ox is like

I think people who work 80 hours a week mean they are at work for 80 hours. They could be being complete idiots, talking, pretending to go to the bathroom every hour, and get almost nothing done. But, they were at work for 80 hours. I can't really tell you how much I work, I just work, try to be efficient about it, and I know when that efficiency starts to go down and I need a break, I take it right away. You're putting work into worrying about how much work you're supposed to put in. Don't. That time could be spent doing work, or resting better so that you can come back even fresher. People love to exaggerate what they do, you're completely normal, probably a harder worker than most all of us, don't stress it!

Awesome, I'll be following that tomorrow for 2-3 hours and see where we can get, much appreciated, your time spent answering my questions will be well worth it

Ahhhhh okay okay, I guess when I kept thinking "I am" and I didn't notice too much pop up in my awareness, I tried to hunt and hunt for it. When I couldn't find it, and I felt like I was being redundant, I tried to figure out everything that I for sure was not to separate that out in hopes that what I am could sneak through. What I am not is my perceptions and senses, at least that's what I believe right now, so I hoped that scooting all that to the side would allow me to put the pieces together as to what in my awareness I was aware of that wasn't a perception. That being said, I will spend the whole two hours next time solely looking for my treasure, and not where the treasure is not.

So I did my two hour meditation, in the way you recommended, and yeah it was great, insightful and I felt like I was separating myself from my perceptions well, I just wanted to ask some questions so I can continue to improve on my use of this technique. I intend on doing it this weekend for a day with a big ol bag of mushrooms and would like to get a handle on it. 1. I found myself a few times asking whether I should continue to build the intent of figuring out where the "I am"ness and trying to separate myself from the perceptions that enter my awareness vs. going out and searching every corner of my awareness for things that I can separate myself from. Should I be actively looking for this sense of "I am", or just building the intent for that "I am" feeling to come so that once it's at the front door of my awareness I can simple observe it with the knowledge that because I am perceiving it, it's a perception and not me 2. On a fairly similar note, could you give me the name of the game, or tell me if I have the right impression. I feel like there are two options, I can intently focus on one aspect of my perceptions such as my visual perceptions and separate myself from those to a high degree if I only focus on that perception. Or I can do a mediocre job trying to separate myself from my visual, inner/outer audio, outer touch, and emotional body all at once. Am I going for depth or breadth? 3. Also quick, I did eyes closed and that seemed fine, is there any reason that one is better than the other (I know there are people who do eyes half open as well)? Otherwise I'll just get a feel for what seems to work for me

My mother knows zero about my acid use or any mystical experiences I've had. I know its nice to talk about yourself to others, but if you are going to hate them as a result of it, leave it be. They may be ignorant, but they also weren't as lucky as you to stumble upon such a beautiful path. Love them, or leave them be, this path ends in love from what I can tell so far, dont expect to get there hating

@aurum I believe you're right, the egos job to protect, defend and survive. That doesn't imply that every action we do protects, defends, or leads us in some way to survival. The way the ego gets us to survive is by rewarding us with temporary pleasure when we eat, temporary pleasure when we dominate others. We are chasing pleasure, not the things that cause it. Think of people who do heroine, they aren't protecting, defending, or leading us to survival. In reality it's clearly killing you but because it's bringing you pleasure, you do it. I think there are likely two types of humor, humor which solely seeks after pleasure for the sake of pleasure, and humor which seeks to expose the truth. Ego dominates the world, yet there is humor everywhere, I think it's a stretch to say that all humor is a letting go of this. I used knock knock jokes, and I can see your argument there as something childish and raw, let's think of a more intense form of what some people would consider humor. Think of all the people who called Barrack Obama a monkey, or jokes that aim to put people down. There are people who genuinely laugh at these jokes, but it's a stretch to call them honest in nature, raw, or childish. Just like pleasure, humor probably has it's hedonism and surface level pleasure, as well as a deeper form of shredding off the ego. @Samra I hope I addressed both your points fully!

Could you run me through just one potential doomsday scenario that you could see happening with one low conscious person, so that I can get a better grasp of the worry people have over AI?

That's beautiful, I think this is the definition I like the most so far, or resonate the best with. I'm still not sure this fully encompasses humor. Think of your classic "knee slap" humor, knock knock jokes, etc. I don't think all of these have as deep of a significance but still lie within the realm of humor

I'm about to do my morning meditation, this morning I have two hours. Are there any specific meditation techniques that you developed yourself or endorse strongly that not many people know about? How would you recommend I best spend these two hours meditating?

After your body and mind dies, will "you" go back into the delusion and suffering in a future life?

I certainly certainly agree this has something to do with it, but I could punch someone's kid in the face and it would be unexpected, but not funny. Well funny to some, but imagine arbitrarily heinous acts. I think we are just naming facets of humor, and I don't know if we can define the whole gem at once, or have to piece it together via it's various facets

"Eliminate mast all together especially when having a GF that performs sex" I agree and disagree with this, for him this might be good advice. If I'm having sex everyday and then my GF or whoever i'm having sex with leaves for 2-3 days, and they come back and I've blue balled it for 3 days. I'd be lucky if I got my pants down