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I've been writing IA on my hand to remember that throughout the day I want to be contemplating existence and who I am, I don't think you have to get yourself into any loops like this haha, just ask what behaviors you want to have throughout the day and take the necessary steps to make that possible. You don't want to be as distracted or forgetful (seemingly), so put up reminders, have a schedule, write on yourself, set your intention at the beginning of the day, visualize yourself living the kind of day you want to live, list goes on for you to choose from... I'm slightly confused though because you titled the thread about recognizing ego backlash, and I think you mean that distractions are a way that you think your ego might be backlashing. In THAT case, I wouldn't really call that Ego Backlash because that is just always the case haha, your life would be an Ego Backlash. When I think of Ego Backlash, I think of something that comes and goes, maybe a particularly moody night after I've made good progress recently, or kind of an extreme laziness over habits that I thought were cemented and it seems like it's fighting against those changes I've made

Leo's neck looks pretty normal though, not too beefy, but it's a functional neck

I don't think so, they seem most upset with people who are misleading people into thinking that everything is going to be sunshine and roses on this path, in order for you to get to try their techniques and listen to them. People who say what other people want to hear. Leo may sometimes do this, I don't know, I'm not in his head and don't know if there are any games he plays in order to maximize the amount of people that end up listening to him. That being said, it seems like Leo actually fairs on the side of this path being super difficult, and life being challenging. If anything, Leo to me seems to aire on the side of telling us it's going to be at least as difficult, if not more difficult than it will be in reality. In that way, I don't think they were taking a shot at him other than using that buzz word "actualized" which relates back to Leo. So maybe a bit harsh, maybe ignorant, I don't know, but I didn't interpret it as a shot directly at Leo

Could you be specific by what you mean when you say pursue the heart, do you mean do whatever you feel passionate about in the moment or something else?

By that definition Mcdonalds is a forums, I mean come on, when did the word "forums" become so loosely used, this is getting out of hand

Need to work on being grateful daily

That sounds more like a classroom than a forums, going to have to disagree, Buddha didn't have a forums

Not really a fair comparison cause the Buddha didn't have a forums to talk shit on

Why is enlightenment so difficult and rare despite there being so much literature and enlightenment teachers out there who have been through the process?

That's a really good description of why when you're afraid and you ask yourself who is afraid, the fear tends to dissolve after that, at least from my experience

I had bad weed anxiety after some synthetic weed almost killed me, could barely smoke with my friends for a year, or at least didn't enjoy it. I did shrooms in the middle of this, and I had the same worries but my body for whatever reason accepted the drug really well and accepted the head space it puts you into. Since then I've kind of fallen in love with psychedelics. I don't see any reason you have to go balls deep, even a half tab of acid will likely give you good insights into how your mind works. It will also push you out and cause you to merge a bit more with reality, making it a really good time to practice self-inquiry techniques, one Leo recommended is looking at your hand and just asking "what is existence"/"who am I" etc... Try a half tab if you're worried, see what you think from there, if you aren't worried, I'm sure you could handle a full 100 micrograms or more, but I think you can use your intuition, would recommend 100% though

What is said to exist in the final analysis? What can one say about the "final analysis"?

First of all, your RM self-inquiry has been fantastic, I feel like I can merge with reality a lot easier and to a much greater degree than ever before. Everyone should try this technique. Anyways, could you briefly explain whether or not "karma" exists, and some of its basic principles?

Enlightenment work is super easy and can be done during the day while you're just out and about, here is a technique that has produced the most for me. This was from the post called "I'm enlightened, sincere seekers ask me anything", you can go there and he will answer any question you have within like an hour seemingly "The recommended technique is Ramana Maharshi's self-inquiry. It's very simple. You know that "I am" right now, right? It's obvious. Well, how do you know it? Where is that feeling coming from? Try to find out where in your experience it is coming from, that certainty that you are. Start in your body. Just like if someone asked you where you were feeling cold, and you searched your experience and said "Oh, my feet are feeling cold." In the same way, ask about the feeling of the "I" that you somehow know with certainty. And every time you think you know where it's coming from, the rule is that you must ask yourself if you are aware of that thing which you think is the source of the I. If you are, you haven't found the real source yet. So you keep going If, for example, you say "It's coming from my head" -- well, ask yourself "Well, I am aware of the feeling and sight of my head, right?" Notice that. So where is the "I" that is aware of the head? It's not coming from the head -- it is aware of it. So where is the I feeling? It's just like you notice that there is light in a room, and you're looking for the source of the light. Is it coming from this chair? No. The chair is lit up by something else. Is it coming from that table? Same deal. So keep searching until you find the light bulb. You'll know it when you find it."

Merging with reality throughout the day more and more consistently, sometimes I do it particular well and almost feel like I'm losing my breath and I start to feel happier, especially around my heart and arms. I'm certainly ready to come home, I feel like I'm pushing against a membrane or throwing a ball up a hill, the ball can't quite get to the top and roll down the other side. So to when I try to merge fully with reality, I feel like I can get to microdose on acid level, but just can't quite throw the ball up the hill hard enough to get to the other side. Want to atleast keep up my 3 hr a day self-inquiry, focused solely on non-duality and enlightenment work. On top of that, I will be putting some kind of mark on my hands or body in the form of permanent marker as a reminder throughout the day to focus on BE-ing.

No no no no no no, I've been on this journey now for a bit, and I feel so close to waking up, it's on the tip of my tongue. Was not hell, it's full of days of ego-backlash, some bad moods, but overall it's fun and exciting. Who doesn't love the click when something they've been trying to wrap their head around for months all of a sudden makes sense. If you don't believe me, just put like 30 minutes of meditation a day, if anything gets too hard, stop and pick it up when you feel like it again. I had a shroom trip Friday morning and insisted to myself that I should take a break for the day, but ended up at night watching like three hours of Moojiji videos because it's fun and interesting. How much could you be doing that it would still be fun and interesting without you feeling like you can't live your life? I don't know too much about "Dark night of the soul", I think there is a certain loneliness to realizing that you are just a dream character, but at the same time instead of it being me zambize and you traveler, we are united in the fact that we are dreamers, and I think there's a beauty in that too, it's not me vs. you anymore. You don't have to give up your loved ones, you have to give up your NEED and clinging to them. You still get to show them all the love you want, and can make their dream as beautiful as you'd like. You're trying to change your relationship with your thoughts and ego, not slit your ego's throat. As far as what you should do, go hang out with your sister and act normal, be whoever you want to be, just be aware while doing so

Put the nail in the coffin, should watch it with your sister

Genius video

How are you acting differently that she cried? You don't have to change your level of consciousness to communicate with them properly. I began listening better, helping them get their feelings out more, and just not being quite as much of a douche, although still very much so. Watch Moojiji or someone who is super spiritually advanced. I'll even link you because he's phenomenal. What you'll notice is that apart from this weird thing he does when he closes his eyes for 10 seconds and opens them slowly, he's really funny and personable, you could go out to eat with him and he'd be fantastic to be around. You don't have to act like Jesus, you can be a fun charismatic brother who just has a bit more emotional mastery and other benefits of this work

When answering questions, it's possible that instead of deeply clarifying everything, you should leave something for them to figure out on their own, or ask questions yourself back at them. The number one problem I see in this field is the inability to think for themselves. However, teaching someone to think for themselves is no easy task, be engaging, you can be better than google at answering questions because google will just give you the answer, it won't help engage their awareness and mind in an independent way

I don't think the girl of your dreams has a 5'11"+ height minimum, could be wrong though

http://vividlife.me/ultimate/26035/the-enlightenment-trap-when-ego-takes-ownership-of-spiritual-experiences-by-maria-erving/ Great article on how my ego has been taking ownership of my spiritual gains, every shift in perspective and consciousness seems to present an opportunity for my ego to start bastardizing my new values and insights

Until I've found the Truth in my moment, everything is an assumption to be tested. I feel like a big pitfall I fall in is being intelligent enough to realize that everything is pointing in the direction of this Truth, yet not realizing they will still have to go out into their experience and find that. Is the nature of reality love and oneness and whatever other bullshit you've heard, I don't know you tell me. You're solutions to your problems have always been best, that's not being cocky, that's what you've experienced. Trust in that.

I'm sure that was a real gem, but I went to youtube and it was deleted for inappropriate and offensive content

If you think every moment is a lesson, then it will be you observing the lesson, I.E, the lesson and you. Well that's a problem because the lesson just comes in as a perception, and so do you, don't split yourself up like that