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I'm hesitant to come to these same conclusions although it seems tempting, maybe these unmarried men tended to die younger because they had more stress or some other lifestyle choices. I think this is a kind of correlation vs. causation issue because it's highly possible (in my mind) that there is a third unknown factor that is causing both men to die younger and to be unmarried. I think there is an important distinction because it might push unhappy men to think that they might need to get married or have meaningful relationships to be fulfilled, when in fact it's actually a seperate related factor.

Optimization, taking what someone did or I did myself and doing it better

I noticed today that I got my best results from posing questions "What am I?" "Who is aware?" Followed by as deep of surrender as I can, every once in a while i can feel myself dissolve into bliss a bit stronger than before, so I'm pretty excited and really vouche for this

When you're wrong and your mind knows your wrong so it kind of scrims over the other persons arguement and never really reads the meaning of what they are saying, just the words, and then looks for a response. This ones tricky because it gets mixed in with stuff that is actually nonsense, so it's kind of hard to separate nonsense from difficult truths to accept. I'd say that's the most difficult to actively be aware of throughout the day. The hardest to realize in the first place is psychosomatic stuff for me. I found that I my body kind of pretends like it has to go to the bathroom more when I sit down and start being productive or meditating, and there are other forms of this that took a while to realize what was going on

Yeah so I meant separation in terms of I am not the content of my thoughts, however you're definitely right in terms of saying that the actual experience of the thought is very real to me, audio is one form conciousness can take

Well I do and dont struggle with anger. I'm personally not a very angry person and dont get the emotion much at all which gives the illusion that I'm good at handling my anger, but I really just dont get it often, so when I do I'm kind of like holy shit what should I be doing with this emotion. What I've been doing is just really listening to my anger as you should with all your emotions. On a day I notice I'm angry, I spend 15 minute meditation sessions until it's gone just kind of focused on clearing my emotional slate, feeling what I gotta feel and taking whatever message I feel like that feeling is trying to Express. But yeah most of my anger is to silly stuff and pawning off my own embarrassment, and I want to get rid of my anger, but me having it now is not seen as a problem so to say, more a reality, and just being aware of my anger and whatever silly thing made me angry tends to fix things over time, so its not a struggle so to say

They tend to shut up when you put them under more scrutiny with your awareness, but they still pop up. The relationship changes a bit, but I feel pretty concious of them and my separation from them

I think anger belongs here for a lot of people, myself included. It can be a defense mechanism against say sadness and embarrassment. If you've ever played a team game it's very common for the second worst player to kind of lash out at the worst player in larger team games, and I've found it's not that you actually care they are playing poorly, but are embarrassed about your own performance and want to pawn that burden off to someone else.

You don't have to hit rock bottom to start working towards your dreams, I see the primary problem as you thinking you have to hit rock bottom. It seems more like a condition that will never be met, like a really terrible trap, like you ego just completely indulging itself and lying to you and making you believe that once it has been completely indulged well then you'll be cured and want to accomplish your dreams. If you don't have motivation to accomplish whatever dreams you have, maybe you need to sit down and go through your feelings about your dreams and future and exactly what you will have to put in, and whether or not you are willing to do that. If your dreams are large enough, well you'll probably hit rock bottom pretty soon, so don't worry about that. Find out what you want, how much of it you are willing to take on now, and just start.

I do I do, I like you

I disagree, and that's not to imply lack of determinism means there is free will. But determinism seems to just inherently be disproven via the probabilistic nature of things like quantum mechanics. From a more non-dual side and less science oriented approach, could one not consider determinism vs non determinism a categorization, a big no no in terms of the Truth being beyond words and categories

No need to be sorry, that's kind of comforting

I watched the video, and I loved it. It did touch on a lot of topics that you've already touched on in say your AMA thread, and I think you've even talked about sounding like a broken record. On that note I think it would be cool for you to go more in depth in a video or thread on psychoanalysis or therapy or whatever you call it. Great video, hope in the future you can cover more topics

Can you be specific in what you mean by surrender? Are you just talking about trying to maximally surrender to the moment during meditation, or is there more to this?

I don't know if you need to say too much, unless you are getting like zero signals. Next time that happens try and like sit side by side, just a bit of touch, and see how she reacts and go from there. This could turn into cuddling and watching a movie, and from there it would be less awkward to talk about having sex, or at least there should be a lot of signals as to whether she wants to continue or not, but yeah, going from a girl on your bed playing video games to talking about having sex COULD be a huge step, I don't have any details so I can't say too much, but I'd try breaking the touch barrier and being really aware of how she takes that. As far as the how do you love your sisters, you don't have to force yourself to love them, I would just be aware of the reasons you don't love them and those reasons you don't love something tend to be silly and arbitrary as you are more aware of them. But yeah, don't force love/compassion where there isn't any, next time you think some girl is being a bitch or you don't like them, don't repress it, find the roots of why you dislike them, in your case this seems to be sexual frustration, and I think that just being aware of this over time will cause it to dissolve. Wish you the best of luck

Well I hope you don't have to sacrifice too much of your needs/desires to get what you are looking for, wish you the best of luck at the park

Wow I can't believe someone called you a nazi, that's intense. I don't think all men are afraid to be vulnerable or honest, I don't feel afraid to be either of those two, and maybe you can take my word on it D::: Sorry you had some bad experiences, I bet if you kept looking you'd probably find some genuine guys out there, although I can't help but say there might be slightly better places to look

Do you enjoy the fact that you are aware of the illusory world and have perceptions, or would you rather be no-minding it in the highest states of consciousness for the rest of eternity? Or in whatever highest states of analysis/consciousness there are

What is your opinion on seeking Truth for Truth's sake vs. seeking Truth only when it reduces the suffering of yourself and others?

I like how Mooji puts it in this video about fear being a bluff of the mind, maybe this could help you! He's great if you haven't watched his content. Wish you the best

Maybe, but I feel like most days I'm pretty content and would certainly relive this dream, I don't think this is pure selfishness either. What if my pursuit of the Truth made my ability to reduce my own and other people's suffering less for some reason, be it spending a lot of time meditating and contemplating etc. Truth for Truth's sake seems ridiculous to me, and of course I'm ignorant, but where I am at right now, I'm not going to pursue something that I don't think will reduce mine or other people's suffering, you can call that whatever you want, but I'm certainly very happy with the direction my life is heading under that notion, and if that's ignorant, well hopefully I'll find out

I'd take nothing over being miserable, I feel like we are just lucky that the Truth just so happens to make us happy and fulfilled, I don't see why it HAS to be this way, of course I'm still ignorant to a lot of things, but yeah I'm just grateful that we can pursue answers and trust that in doing so, we will probably be a lot happier. If I saw Mooji meditating for 20 years and he came out a miserable depressed individual after finding out the deeper answers to our universe, well I probably wouldn't pursue the Truth that intensely

Is this growth to you, or growth to everyone?

I don't think i'd be disappointed if I turned into a lizard haha, but thanks for the advice/knowledge, i'll keep it in mind in the future

I don't have a date, but I strongly intend to at some point, maybe that's not enough. Is this on a completely different ballpark than something like an eighth of shrooms, right I'm kind of on a schedule of taking shrooms every few weeks and integrating. I would totally make Aya a goal that I accomplish within a year if you felt there was significant consciousness to be expanded from Aya compared to your typical shrooms/LCD. I'm not scared, but I have it pretty burnt in my memory not to fight it now, which I think is a good thing for me. Man you're really making me excited, but I don't want to have expectations either