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Is this always true? Can war/disease or some other factors cause regression? Cant wait for the video btw

Oh absolutely, so long as you know that your own interpretations can be delusional and not apply to everyone else, I believe that's the best approach as well

Is the problem your perfectionism, or is the problem that you are insecure with people opinions about how you live your life? I used to act in all sorts of ways opposite to how people wanted me to act just to say fuck you, because freedom and the ability to make my own choices was really important to me. Your example with the rules seems perfectly healthy to me so long as it doesnt get in your way at all. How do you feel about your perfectionism? In what ways is it not healthy for you?

Your direct experience is True, but that doesnt mean your interpretation of a direct experience you had is true. I feel like this is a common misconception people have, for example people who believe God wanted them to kill their children in really horrific ways claiming that they felt a sign and a voice saying to do it. I dont doubt the experience, I doubt interpretations of those experiences, especially when people try to use their interpretations of their experiences to make assumptions about other people

Would you recommend this to someone else? Do you plan on doing this again? Sounds like a pretty positive experience

You must have copied that from somewhere, you nailed that. It's hard for me to decide personally how much I should push door B on people in my life because on one hand, "to each their own", and on the other, I was a skeptic too and really would've appreciated a very strong recommendation to follow this path even earlier in my life

Do you know what you want? Do you know how to get it? What more than this do you need? If you can't put it into practice I would guess you either dont have a clear enough vision of what you want in life. Or you do, but you're still stumbling over theories of how to put it into practice. Do you feel like you fall into either of these categories?

I'm not against what is being said so much as how its being argued, I love mooji and sadghuru has a lot of great things to say, but I dont think we should use them believing something as a proof that those ideas are correct. We should be able to argue points without using enlightened people as our champions. This seems like it could very well be placebo, but I have an open mind. How does this rudraksha create a cocoon of energy? Who are these other beings that want to touch me? Are they concious? If they have the power to enter my awareness, how is a cocoon of energy going to stop them? Also it doesnt make sense to just say energy, there are many types of energy, what type of energy is this cocoon made out of and why does that kind of energy stop these beings in their track? Finally, how did you come to these conclusions? I've had experiences where I feel like puking negative energy and I sit there throwing up energy that feels like it's in my stomach, that doesn't mean I actually have a vat of negative emotions physically residing there. To me it just seems that I kind of intuitively knew I needed some emotions purged from my awareness and both spiritually purging and actually puking play off the same neural pathways of feeling like I have to get something out. But that's just how it appears to me in my experience, and I dont think it should be taken literally, it's not like if I physically cut open my stomach these emotions would ooze out. In the same way that maybe it appears as though some beings are being expelled, when this isnt to be taken literally, it's just how you experience it. Thoughts?

I agree that perfectionism can reduce performance depending on the goal, but that doesn't make perfectionism bad. If perfectionism makes you happy, and that's how you want to live you life, fuck what anyone else thinks. I agree its not the most efficient way to solve every life issue, but who says life is about solving every issues the maximally efficient way. Then theres also just perfectionism in our hobbies and free time, who the fuck is anyone to tell you how you spend your free time? So long as your perfectionism isnt causing you to suffer, and that's genuinely who you are and how you like to be, go for it! We still live in the dark ages, people are going to have some really stupid ideas, myself included, so be confident in yourself. As far as practical advice, if its driving you crazy I would bring this up to your mom, if that relationship is important, then she will need to know this sooner or later, this seems like a core piece of who you are and you want to be authentic. Also make sure you aren't looking for other peoples acceptance in how you act, accept yourself.

Yeah that sounds awesome, thank you

No the more developed I've become spiritually the easier I've been able to connect with other people, being intune with my own emotions/self hate/thoughts helped me understand other people and become a lot more sure of myself. Maybe you just gotta bring it down to their level more? Maybe you have issues articulating your ideas/poor eye contact/ or just body language in general issues that make you come across as unsure when you are really sure. I'm serious about this one, I majored in physics and I remember describing ohms law which is as easy as f=ma, and in my head I'm super sure of this material, and my brother while explaining it asked me if I knew what I was talking about because it didn't seem like I was sure at all. Those are just potential reasons though, they could just be really bad at reading people and have no clue what they are talking about

Certainly the expression "sex toy" caught my eye too. But I see no problem with this so long as its communicated in a non misleading way and both parties are consensual. To each their own on this one. I also imagine that while they are kind of treated like a sex toy, it's because they enjoy it (which I'm just agreeing with what you already stated) and it's not that he sees them as just an object

This got my attention Haha, I was just wondering if there is any particular technique you were using on this drug. Is it just a do nothingisk let it flow kind of attitude or is there any specific technique you're using while on the drug to maximize the amount of purging? Also how do you set your intent for a trip, is it a quick "I'm taking this drug in Hopes to purge" quick mental thought, or do you maybe do affirmations before hand? How do you set the stage for the most effective ceremony? (Of course maybe you do nothing along those lines)

Alright, I feel 100% confident that I can do this to it's end, if I don't have any more questions for you, I just wanted to say that I really appreciate the thread and even though not every question on here might be the most informed, they've had a lot of value to me which I intend on passing that value along

That's great that you love your family! Focus on that love, cultivate that love, be as aware of that love as you can be. You don't have to force yourself to be anything you're not or don't want to be, you don't have to be spiritual or seek enlightenment if you don't like. This life is your sandbox. Don't fix what isn't broken. Now if you are seeking enlightenment, you will have to work through a lot of your anxieties/depression and hard truths about losing your family, but you don't have to give up the love you have for them. That love is beautiful and will only grow with enlightenment and encompass more and more people. Enlightenment will help you work through the codependency and toxic parts of these relationships you have with your family members, and it will cultivate the loving parts you want to remain. You already are what you are, right? Discovering what you already are isn't going to hurt your relationships. While I'm by no means fully enlightened, this was the case for me and I don't think you need to worry

Just cause I've summoned him doesn't mean he doesn't take one look at this thread and say fuck that haha

I like what you said, and I think what you mean by boundaries dissolving is maybe what I'm getting at so you'll have to let me know. In the original post this was stated: "but where is the balance between that and your external life/environment?" This gives me this image of those scales that are symmetric such that when you load up one side, the other side seesaws up. However I don't think this is accurate, there are many cases where inner/outer work compliment each other. Ex: Maybe your emotional control and empathy gets noticed at work, and you get a promotion because your boss sees you as someone that can lead a team effectively with few issues. Meditation increases willpower, which can be used to keep you focused and push through tough projects at work or in relationships. Source: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-science-willpower/201004/meditate-your-way-more-willpower Now it also works the other way around, you can do outer work to work on inner work in the reverse direction. Ex: Instead of putting effort into meditation, you pump it into getting studying/projects/better job solely to gain capital, this extra money allows you to feed yourself/go on retreats/buy drugs <<<<<<<<< (personal favorite) which will inevitably help your inner-game. I think it's possible to get in these cascading positive feedback loop in which inner-game benefits outer-game which further benefits inner game and so on and so on, so this idea that there needs to be a balancing doesn't seem like the right mental image to have. I would say an ideal situation would be all of your inner-game benefiting your outer game, the first example I thought of was being a life coach or personal content provider in which the insights of your inner-game directly financially benefit you. Maybe @Joseph Maynor has something to chime in? as this sounds like stuff that he has thought about a lot

One last question before I work on integrating, are there any "traps"/limiting beliefs/behaviors that someone seeking enlightenment should avoid that you commonly see among seekers?

Are there any other teacher/books/videos or any other materials that you particularly recommend other than Ramana Maharshi and your own material? (only cause I know of him already and feel like you might have said him)

I'm back with a few questions, will also be getting your book after vacation which I'm really excited about, Etherial Cat kind of has me sold with her review, no pressure if I think it sucks though! 1. I hear some enlightened people claim they have no ego, others claim they have an enlightened ego, others a spiritual ego, for me I kind of feel like me and my ego are a team of sorts, my ego looks out for a lot of my survival needs but often needs to be redirected. It's like it needs to be taught by awareness so to say. Anyways, what is a healthy view of one's own ego in terms of seeking Truth? 2. What does it mean to be authentic to you? On one hand, I still find myself frustrated of course and wanting to tell people to eat my ass, but I also want to be a more loving person and don't want to be rude to other people, your advice on it being okay to fulfill your desires has really added so much to my life, but I find that these desires often clash with each other, how should someone seeking truth go about settling conflicting desires?

Slight dull headache, it was a thought heavy trip and my mind kind of ran itself at full power for a while and rattled off a lot of insights. I only spent maybe an hour or so in a mystical state kind of purging, and the rest was insights for like 6 hours. I was happy with it though, because I had a lot of beliefs I was holding onto for zero reason, that were doing nothing but bottle necking my happiness and growth. After a day or two, it cleared up and I was more conscious/more in the moment and ready to integrate fully

Thank you for taking the time to write all that out, you certainly demystified a lot of it. That's not to say I agree with everything or I think everything is crystal clear, but I certainly appreciate you clearing it up a bit, and above all, you seem like a loving dude so who fucking cares about all the ideas/theories/logic compared to that. Much love

I wasnt throwing up, but on mushrooms it felt like I was puking up negativity out of my system. My body wanted to make the puking motion and so i did, I probably could've repressed that but for what, was in a room alone haha

Fair enough, maybe you can help me decipher some of what he is saying though, I'll use the quote from the other user so you can answer both our questions (if you have time!) This quote 5:40 "And it takes time to anchor these memories which are gigantic from the higher realms into the vessel, because this is such a low density. […] So, let’s say, once the superconscious being is anchored in the moment and 360 degrees of self-love is developed, as in a complete cipher, that is when novelty can pour through you in the form of art, spiritual technology, anything that can hence living on this planet, and the better man for the human race and earth, this become activated as you become an active light anchorite […]." What does it mean to anchor a memory? If you can anchor a memory, what is unanchored memory? What are the higher realms? How does one access them? What is the vessel? Because what is such a low density? Low density of what? What is the superconcious being? What is the difference between concious and superconcious? What does it mean for the superconcious being to be anchored? What is the superconcious being like unanchored and why is it desirable to anchor it? How is a cipher related to 360 degree love? What is spiritual technology? What does it mean to be a light anchorite? How do you know you are one? I think those questions would really help me I know it's a lot

I wont have to go through a lot of wrong men, I'm into women. All jokes aside thanks for taking the time to write this out, I feel like I have a more clear vision of what I'm looking for because of it