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Is s MeO DMT usually pure? How can I test it for impurities? I think that unlike LSD this one is less likely to be impure.

@Snick Thanks for the reply. I had the same thought in mind. I should start with mushrooms, peyote or even LSD, then move up to DMT and 5 MeO DMT.

This is really a cutting edge online interactive course that helps you develop your psyche. I highly recommend it. For as long as I've known the course, the price has been $1000, but this week they've had a special 70% discount and you can buy it between now and Friday 17th June midnight pacific time for the discounted price of $300. It has a refund policy of 30 days and if you do get one, you'll still get to keep the bonuses. You have nothing to lose. It not only has the in-depth course but also a community of self actualizing individuals.

I think the best way to deal with a person who's disrespectful and doesn't think much of you is to cut them from your life. And I did that. However, sometimes I don't have a choice. And that person can really damage my self esteem. How can I deal with such a person who puts you down? They don't do it overtly, but covertly.

@Toby You should read his 600 paged book called The Book of Not Knowing

Mastery by Robert Greene - The ultimate book on life purpose So Good They Can't Ignore You by Cal Newport - Some interesting counterintuitive ideas on career, good read

@charlie2dogs Relax Charlie. There's more to life than enlightenment

@charlie2dogs I think that it's okay if people charge money for personal development advice. If people can swing it, they'll buy it. I think they want some financial reward for their efforts. For those doing the work full time as their primary career, they need the money to make their work sustainable. Even Leo had to release a paid course. Generous people like you are rare though. Thanks for your contribution!

Beautiful.

@charlie2dogs Free service? Nice! However, let the creators of Superhuman OS decide what the price of their product is. Their product, their choice.

@Mal I'm on it. It'll take a few days though cause they release the course material over time.

@ChimpBrain YES! I knew the only people who'd buy it here are those who're familiar with it. Cheers, friend. I'll also be going through the course. Best of luck!

@Mal Kudos to that! I love this process I'm going through of purging neurotic and dysfunctional patterns in thought, emotion and behavior, and attaining greater and greater freedom, in order to be myself. I love it when I can just be me, authentic.

@Durka_Durka Ideally I'd recommend getting some counselling or therapy. You have deep self esteem problems, and it'd help you much to find an expert on it to help you. This will help you self actualise much faster than doing it alone, and will save you a lot of wasted time and frustration. Read Nathaniel Branden's The Six Pillars of Self Esteem. This is THE book to read on self esteem. The author had half a century of experience and practice in the field. He knows what he's talking about. Those two things are the higher level things. Now, some specifics: Try this exercise: write down in a journal all the drives and motivations you have. You want to self actualise? Write it down. You want to develop yourself? Write it. Want love, connection, or intimacy? Write. List ALL of them. This is one of the most important exercises to develop greater self understanding. You can only gain freedom from your "shackles" if you gain awareness of them. Now, some of those drives are probably superficial and have a deeper drive driving them. Make sense? For example, you want to pursue self development, but you're pursuing it because you unconsciously want to become good enough or adequate. For each of your drives gauge whether you seek that thing because you want it out of love, or out of need.. whether you're seeking it because if you don't you'll experience fear or low self esteem or inadequacy or loneliness. Let us call these Negative Drives. You have these negative drives because of some trauma (mild or serious) in your past that caused you to have unconscious mechanisms to protect you. All your drives, both positive and negative, originate from your subconscious mind. Once you've identified all your negative drives, sit down to do this visualization exercise to help eliminate the negative drive, one at a time. As you visualize, have in mind what your negative drive is. Visualize flying up from where you are now to the event in your past that you think is responsible for creating the negative drive, as an impartial outside observer. No one can see you from the past, but you can see everyone else, including yourself. Note how you were feeling. This next part is important. Identify the lesson that that event taught you about life. The lesson is going to replace the unconscious mechanism. Let an object like a diamond symbolise the lesson and suck it into your heart and stomach area and feel it replacing your unconscious negative drive. Next, fly out of that place and time travel through the years leading to your present life, visualizing how your behavior and your life have changed as a result of learning that lesson. Note: Credit for this exercise should go to Leo Gura from his Life Purpose Course, and he got it from Bill Harris. Do this exercise for all of your negative drives.

@Mal As I overcome these shackles my consciousness grows and I'm suddenly able to see how others are also tied to them, which allows me an opportunity to liberate them.

@Saarah Agreed!

@abrakamowse Thanks I'm glad to see that you're making progress too

That initial insight of self worth led to a far greater series of insights for me. I saw just how wide and far reaching this self worth problem is in culture. Self worth is associated with wealth, knowing famous and wealthy individuals, physical appearance and these are just the common ones. There are many more, and all of these must be identified. Ever since I've been dis-associating my self worth with anything. I try to make the distinction between that idea, object or person, and my self worth, and how they are unrelated, and how that thing cannot make me more worthy. That has been a significant improvement to my peace of mind and self esteem. I used to have emotional reactions, both big and small, which have dissolved. Note that my self esteem was fairly high overall, on average, before this. I also understood that this problem of associating self worth with ideas, objects, behavior, people and traits is the core of what creates low self esteem. This is the root of the problem. Once you understand that you have inherent self worth that is not determined by anything, you will have self esteem.

@charlie2dogs @abrakamowse @aurum @FindingPeace @Kenya Thank you all for your insightful replies. I think what all of you are essentially saying is that if I feel disrespected it's because I think of myself that way. After I posted the question, and before I read any reply, I had realized this. Yesterday. I saw that it was a problem of self worth. I had an automatic unconscious emotional reaction to what he would do. My self esteem would get immediately damaged, and it would be difficult to recover from that. Once I gained this awareness, it was easy for me to stop associating self worth with his opinion. I visualized that I have self worth regardless of what he thinks of me. And this helped sink this in my subconscious, which was important because I think this is primarily a subconscious problem. Once again, thank you all for your thoughts. They are valuable, and have certainly helped me reinforce my lesson: don't rely on others for self worth, cultivate it from within. No one damages my self esteem without my permission. Crucial lesson.

At first it seems like self acceptance and self improvement are mutually exclusive and contradict each other. This is not the case. Only once you accept yourself as you are right now can genuine motivation for self improvement occur.

@Blaze35 Go here: actualized.org/blueprint

@DrMatthewsausage I've bought both the course and the list. The list I think is worth it because Leo has read through many books and presents the best of the best. It'll give you access not only to the best but will also save you valuable time that would otherwise have gone into reading less important books.

@Annie I highly recommend watching Teal Swan's videos on YouTube. Her entire channel is focused mainly on dealing with the kind of issues you have. Teal has faced all of these, and helps people to overcome trauma and self sabotaging behavior. Her videos are insightful and informative. Highly recommended.

@Annie Hi Annie, Thanks for your story. Let me share a bit of mine: I also grew up with trauma and deep emotional and psychological issues. This especially affected my relationships with people and my social life. I know what it feels like to have self sabotaging behavior and feeling worthless. I had a lot of social anxiety, strong negative emotional reactions, low self esteem and OCD, both towards others and toward myself. I could see that my experience of life was very very different from the way other normal people experienced it. I also want to tell you that today, however, I am predominantly psychologically healthy, and have pretty much overcome most of my self sabotaging behavior, and rarely experience strong negative emotional reactions. You can get here. Believe that this is possible for you. For most of my life I didn't understand what was causing these negative experiences. However, in 2014 I came across a man called Steve Pavlina. He has a popular personal development blog, and I read it voraciously. He's a person who'd been pursuing personal growth for more than 15 years, and shared intimate details about himself, his thoughts, and his life. Pursuing growth for 15 years made him not only very psychologically healthy and strong, but thrive in life. This was important because it gave me a vision, a picture, a model of what life could be like for me. It expanded what was possible in life. His passion for growth rubbed off on me, and it became increasingly important to me. At one point, I became totally committed to personal growth. That commitment I made is what got me, eventually, out of all my problems. At the time I didn't even understand my problems well, but that commitment made me push forward until I did. I started reading self help books, looking for a solution. I discovered Leo Gura, and he was a blessing because he too had suffered from many of my problems, and published videos that talked about how he overcame it and how I can too. That was a good starting point, but it was not enough. Eventually, somewhat by accident, I discovered that the root of my problems was low self esteem. I read Nathaniel Branden's book The Six Pillars of Self Esteem, which was another blessing. Annie, I would suggest that you get therapy. If you're concerned about the cost, I think that overcoming these psychological issues is more than worthwhile for it. Also, scan through Leo's older videos, and watch any and all that relate to what you're going through. Important: Read Nathaniel Branden's book The Six Pillars of Self Esteem. This is THE book to read on this topic. Stay committed. Know that although you won't overcome your problems overnight, you eventually will, over a period of weeks, months and years. Reframe this healing process as psychological growth. As you grow, you'll feel very amazing inner psychological changes. At times, you'll feel like the core of you is changing - use this thrill of experiencing deep inner change and growth to motivate yourself and stay committed to this. Most of the work lies in your hands. Take positive responsibility for your life. Those who manage to overcome the kind of issues you have are those who know in their bones that there is an alternative, and that by pushing forward and persisting in the will to understand, despite difficulty, they can get there. Aim to not only reach psychological health like me, but to surpass that and live a richer and more powerful life. You can start with something small. Take a small step every day. Annie, I wish you the very best. Hope my message wasn't too long

@Leo Gura Agreed. Yellow/Green work tends to revolve around contribution, and I think Yellow particularly revolves around providing education. Leo, have you yet progressed to Turquoise?