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Hello.. Well... Life for me consciously started after an enlightening experience with smoking cannabis, were I was In a complete state of knowing, love - at one source you can call it and had a direct experience of an Eckhart Tolle enlightened state. These experiences occurred after working out, after a couple of paranoia experiences smoking habitually with my mates, that there was a right and respectful way of using the psychedelic, which was: 1. Having the right intention 2. Set and Setting 3. Dosage/Strain Type. I do not smoke anymore because I have noticed when I do, even though It puts me in this all knowing state, after I come off it, it puts my life on a bit of a back pedal, though fortunate for me it has gracefully pulled me out of a deep unconscious state. The problem is, my sober life lacks love and understanding/clarity which I would get from the cannabis experience, I feel as though my mind is out balanced and smoking the cannabis would align my mental and spiritual state. There is a lack of clarity in my everyday life, e.g reading books, contextualising texts and understanding and feeling into what is acutually being written, I have never loved anyone which I would experience from the cannabis. Life does feel dull and brain fog does arise. I feel the cannabis puts me in alignment, temporarily. Has anyone experienced this? Or does anyone know what I can do to balance out and put me into alignment with out the use of the cannabis. Looking forward to your insights and your help cheers!

Thanks guys..! appreciate the thoughts, no I don't meditate, consistently.. I struggle with it, even the simple breathing excercises. Cheers