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@Preety_India so i have one more question. what would i do if he came in right now and began yelling? would i stand up for myself or would i just basically ignore him. telling him to leave me alone hasn’t worked before. i know it’s not so black and white but which would you say would help our situation more? thanks

@Preety_India okay thanks so much. it feels like a weight off my shoulders already to have some reassurance

@Preety_India so true thank you for the advice, i intuited that in a way. i often can spot abusive people

i have begun this over the past year because i left the house and lived in another state and dealt with some very interesting characters. i slowly became more capable during hard situations with people. but i feel that to a degree i’ve regressed coming back here because unlike the people i faced before he’s like a videogame boss or something because of the emotional attachment. so yeah that’s interesting i can see how that is happening in my life

@fridjonk i feel u. i didn’t even chose to watch the simpsons it just kinda happened in the particular situation i was in. but the times i have been in silence just being myself is where the true magic happens for sure. what’s the most beautiful/insightful thing you’ve experienced on a trip?

absolutely. in some ways it’s made me a very empathetic person and i try my best to never inflict the pain i feel on anyone, especially if i ever have kids in the future. i’m always conscious on my impact on my little brother. but yeah man i got my work cut out for me lol. wish they taught parenting in school

@No Self damn i had no idea that had a whole wikipedia page that’s super interesting. when it all goes down i just shut down. i remember one time he happened to go off on me for leaving some tissue paper on the ground in bathroom, but i was on shrooms lol. that was one of the rare instances i didn’t give a fuck and i went off on him with my whole heart and soul. but it did nothing further reinforcing my silence later times

@FredFred yes but not as i got older. just constant judgements, yelling, indifference, blaming, ridicule, name calling. the whooole package can’t remember the last time he said he loves me. not to be overdramatic just trying to paint a picture

Come up: girlfriend and i bought some albino magic mushrooms only taking less than 2 grams each (we wanted an easy trip to get back into tripping together, we had a traumatic acid trip before that a year ago). we take the 2 grams each and find ourselves tripping balls like never before. i never had visuals like this and at one point was on the verge of madness but i hugged a blanket and “plugged in” positive thoughts and dived into euphoria for most of the rest of the trip thankfully while my girlfriend was having a great time ? The peak and insights: i was glued to the floor with my blanket. i was euphoric, but on edge. my body was tremoring but it felt good like i was letting go of blockages and tension. i faded in and out of consciousness, and expanded in consciousness at points experiencing my girlfriends point of view as well as my dogs. i was warping so hard i couldn’t get up. finally at some point i was able to find my drawing pad and pencil. it was then that i became aware of true creation as i drew on the paper the lines grew from the pencil to the paper. fractals on a plane of fractals. i was aware it was my mind or Mind that was creating this line. as i went threw loops of drawing intriguing scribbles i felt a deep impact that lasts to today. Love. Love is creation and creativity. and it is my sole purpose and mission to continue to be a creator because it is love. even just thinking about this makes me tear up. it’s utterly precious and unfathomable. i realized why i’ve been an artist my whole life and why i do any of the things i do at all. why i never cared what anyone thought, why i won’t let anything stop me from doing this. it’s almost a burden. you can’t not create because it’s in the name of Love. you would die inside without it. to birth anything into existence is your God given right as a human being. your gift that god gave your role as this particular creature (or gave yourself you could say). you must honor it if it’s by making art, building things, making new relationships, anything new that can be spawned in your heart and imagination. a vessel of light and Love, that is every humans potential. fuck i can’t help but have a speech when i think about Love. another insight was that my vessel is embedded with nature. i felt very ape-like. it felt good, i felt exciting. i went into the backyard, i have very tall trees and i wanted to sleep outside on the grass. i began to resent modern life (always kinda have). i also saw that no other places exist because there is only one place, here and now. Aftermath: at the end of the trip i was basically very contemplative with some mild visuals. everyday i wake up that love of creation ignited in my heart. if i’m sad or angry i remember the flame of creation and it gives me hope. i could lose everything but at least i’d still have Love

@AMTO the shrooms were dried, i wasn’t expecting much of a trip at all because about a year ago i took that much and only felt like i drank a couple beers and saw some visuals, so the intense trip was unexpected. and that realization was strange. i was looking at my house from outside and realized that it’s all one place. you never “go anywhere”. all places are just thoughts. like a school or a house or nevada, those are all just thoughts. as for people being imaginary i either didn’t go that deep or i just see it differently because that wasn’t apart of it

song lyrics lmao

i know from my point of view i don’t like texting people often because i hate having to always feel like i gotta talk to someone. i just wanna be home and not speak to anyone, and needy people always trying to talk and asking why i didn’t really bugs me. respect that your friends have a life and put yourself in their shoes. i’m not hating though, but yeah man just grow out of the neediness and enjoy your own company. best of luck

man some days that’s all i think about is going deeper into it. i’ve been reading Tryptamine Palace by Oroc and his descriptions of 5meo and of course yours as well make me so excited but also anxious lol idk when i’ll be ready for that wild ride. i think i need more trips under my belt. ? keep making your amazing content you helped me to get here

i watched the simpsons on a heavy trip and had insights on what a cartoon is and why they exist. lol it seems you can have realizations about anything on acid

so this strange thing occurred to me one day as i was looking at my friends face i noticed his smile reminded me of my childhood friends face, i thought that maybe i adopted some characteristics from that friend and then that rubbed on to my current friend? but then when i was tripping on mushrooms i also noticed the same thing in my girlfriends face and ever since i can’t unsee it. it’s not gross or scary or anything just really interesting. i also begin to see it in certain people. has anyone else experienced this in anyway? is this just a chain of characteristics being passed on?

hell yeah i’ve already been discovering some really awesome people and have contacted a few but you’re right this is a very good method. i plan on asking them business related questions as well. thanks man!

hey everybody so not to long ago i bought my first 3d printer after looking at doing this for years. never took the idea seriously until i just said fuck it. i learned 3d modeling in the 2 weeks before it arrived in the mail, then i just began making sculptures with the printer when it came. i’m 19 and have a 9-5 and wonder if anyone has any advice on how to grow my first business. it’s all i really care about I LOVE IT. it’s all i do everyday. i make tend to make sculptures that are emotional or psychedelic. this whole thing really took off after a very intense mushroom trip. ive sold a little over half of what i’ve made so far so i know that people are interested in my art. my question is what angle could i present these that would make them more attractive to the customers. i’ve managed to even draw in “popular” kids from my old highschool, most of my customers are locals. i need a way to really draw them in if that’s aesthetically or through some sort of deal. any ideas? i mostly sell through instagram. how do i get people addicted to these like crack but while also staying authentic? i don’t want to sell my soul. i want to spread the love i feel for these to other people... also make some money lol. sorry if these were vague questions, just hoping for some ideas. (shameless advertisement) also if you want to see more the instagram is @20o0o1 ?

thank you for the advice! that will be something i’ll put more focus into. i went to my local art fair that happens every month to sell graphic arts but then covid happened and they stopped doing art fairs so the idea of galleries hasn’t crossed my mind in a while. that would be really exciting

i can attest to this i’ve had vivid dreams that take places in different universes take it with melatonin you’re going to be digging very deep

heyo so i have a simple question perhaps many can relate to. so currently i am living at my parents house with my girlfriend on the verge of moving into our own apartment soon. we are both sharing a room with my 9 year old brother. i am in a super creative mood right now and am constantly making things and selling them on my computer. my girlfriend is very supportive and accepting of that. but she says she’d wish i’d give her more attention right now. this is just recently because i just got back into making stuff. i find it difficult to concentrate on what i love doing because i have a loud 9 year old in the room and she wants my attention. it’s a big inner battle with me because i already slave myself 8 hours a day at a laborious warehouse job and i think about making this stuff all day, then i want to just get home and do it! i feel completely burnt out also. i have no time to just recharge and be in silence. this is creating a lot of resentment in me and probably is in her. i feel really bad about it but simply can’t just not make my stuff or i will die inside. i will keep trying to talk to her about it, but if anyone has any tips on how to resolve this or encouragement it would be appreciated thank y’all

man ur lucky i smoked weed on acid and was in quiet literally a different universe. my girlfriend was a dream alien, she looked the same but wasn’t the same. and then another time it made my room just a flat 1 dimensional plane and my arms and feet went numb and it felt like i was in hell for 20 mins lmao

@non_nothing @Preety_India @Darlisto @aurum thank you guys i feel like i broke through a brick wall! i simply let it out but very sincerely and gently and it’s like this all disappeared. it’s still challenging living here, but way less divided. she seems even more supportive of what i’m doing and is constantly giving me suggestions. counterintuitive. we started watching netflix togther and i take her out a little more often now. balance!

man that’s wild i was contemplating this and i ALSO do 3d printing AND i’m stuck in the house with my girlfriend, very similar situation. i have come to the conclusion though that it’s what you make of it. the act is and act, you’re right. but you can chose to love that act and you can consciously chose to play within it. enjoy watching movies together, enjoy talking, enjoy waking up next to her every morning if that’s what y’all do. sure it gets stale sometimes but never forget you’re with another person that has many layers and a perspective different from yours. there’s a chance that in the stale moments you two could get to know each other better and share yourselves and love what you share. also never forget.. what if you woke up one day and you found out she was dead. what would you wish you would’ve done or said?

i think what he means about being more like a woman has a lot to do with being more intuitive. getting a woman is not a step 1 step 2 robotic plan. it’s a flow that you get into. there’s nothing to it in a sense. you catch your eye onto a woman that looks fit for yourself then you approach her then dance with her in a random conversation. be yourself to the highest degree possible. if that’s not for her then she’s not for you

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind made me cry after not crying for a year. and the truman show made me not give a fuck about what anyone says anymore. i’m sure the other movies are just as moving