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@Preety_India can’t lie they’re pretty hot lmao. I have a very masculine look and style of dress but on the inside I’m a super emotional mess and softy lol. I’d like to think my girlfriend likes me for being a balance of both. Of course there are other things but she always says she loves my emotional connection with her

@caveman absolutely. I gotta lighten up a little lol. I know I definitely bring valuable bonding time when we’re at home, and some good sex life ain’t all about money

@mandyjw thank you that’s very inspiring. I think intuitively I know this but my ego felt hurt by other peoples judgements. Also I think to myself “why do they have a problem she’s obviously doing amazing?” So it makes me defensive for her as well

@Rilles beautiful thank you ❤️?

@Gesundheit the reason for the financial difference is that I just started the job a week ago, before that I was selling my art on Instagram and Etsy which she supported. But at that time she was working and I was doing the art not making as much as her. The new job is a door to door job which is a new learning curve for me so I can get over social anxiety, which she struggles with as well. But since she got a 2 month head start she’s a baller at the job and I’m still nervous at the door sometimes lol. I’m getting better everyday but i get down on myself sometimes. the emotional problem I would say is just feeling lost or inadequate, maybe I’m just doubting myself. Speaking of the job I’m getting ready for it so I’ll try to explain in more detail later

@neutralempty @neutralempty hell yeah!

@Recursoinominado thanks for reinforcing my fears ? we have been living togther for 2 years I don’t think that’ll happen. Like I said I am no bum.

Yessss the National anthem of sadness also anything by Corbin is good

I started working at a door to door job giving away free government phones for people who receive medical and food stamps. The work environment before we go out and work is really positive and uplifting, but also really hard for me because I’ve become a very introverted person and I’ve had social anxiety ever since I could remember Before this job I hardly saw anyone besides a few friends and I live with my girlfriend who convinced me to join her in the job. I took it because I needed money for rent cause we just moved out together. The first week was miserable and drained me of everything I had because of all the anxiety of talking to strangers and trying to convince them to take the phones anyway the point of this post is seeking advice. I’m picking up social skills and confidence doing this job, however it’s extremely emotionally exhausting and I can’t see myself doing this everyday for 5 years, let alone a few months. My true passion is art and I’ve been contemplating every night on how to start a good business around my passion. My art is the fuel for my heart and soul, without it I am depressed. All these silly jobs take me away from having the time to do my art. Do i stay at this job for the skills? Or am I wasting my time doing something unnecessarily difficult just to get by? It feels like psychedelic trips have given me too much self respect in that I know my purpose is art and that ain’t nobody is going to stop me or distract me from doing it. I obviously don’t want to be stupid and not pay my bills, I want to figure out a strategic way to put this all together. If anyone has gone through something similar I’d love to hear your stories! Until I get payed my girlfriend has been supporting me, it makes me feel useless sometimes, I’m in a tricky emotional bind. I want to empower myself by breaking free of wage slavery so I can share support with her and also have money and time for myself. ❤️

Just a funny thing I realized. My dad is a stage blue baby boomer, my mom is a classic money hustler stage orange, and I’m the stage green psychonaut. My dad always has hated everything about technology and only uses it sparingly for looking at news or trump stuff. My mom uses technology to write her books and make money, she’s always listening to podcasts to grow and expand her business. And me, I use technology to make digital art, go on here, make music, learn about psychedelics and read trip reports. That’s just using how we approach modern technology as an example of course there are many other ways the model is very accurate. The distance from me and my dad is insane but that also includes personal issues of his which is why we’re not close. We don’t see the world the same at all. anyways do any of you guys see this in your family?

Idk man she might just being cute I’d say joke around a bit with her and be like “what the hell is this I’m not doing this lol” u know just play against it a little to see how she reacts. If it’s some weird abusive shit you’ll know by the way she acts for sure THERES ALWAYS red flags, this may just be a cute game to bust ur balls a little

Lol same man I have this one spiritual shop in town that does it to me, practically gets me high when I walk in. I’m a super sentimental person so it’s also a trip cause I went there with this one girl I was dating for the first time many years ago. Embrace the new age fumes !

i agree i had to cut out caffeine because it made it so bad i would have panic attacks, even though caffeine was my go to for years before i had depersonalization this bad. weed is what i think triggered this for me too i agree ?

hey man i feel you i’ve been in the exact same situation for the past couple of months (on and off for years). i also have HPPD which compounds with the depersonalization making everything seem more dreamlike. i took shrooms in the midst of this and it was an amazing trip and helped me, however i ate a weed brownie a week later and it destroyed me and now it’s the worst it’s ever been. i would say just stay sober like you have been and try to focus on the things you love doing, meditation, and relationships. best of luck to you! i hope ppl like us can grow from this

apparently the kangaroo doesn’t fight back because it only picks fights with worthy opponents. insane how he’s just holding the guys dog hostage lmao

man i’m going through this right now and can relate to you on college for the social aspect. the only thing i liked about high school was the sense of community and hanging out with friends after school like you said. i left my hometown for a year after i graduated and went on a little adventure, didn’t see any friends for a year, just lived with my girlfriend. when i came back to my hometown i was expecting all those fond feelings of friendship and community, but instead i felt empty because those things were already long gone now i have a good circle of friends and a best friend. but i will say it just isn’t the same. i’ve learned to adapt but i do wonder if i should go to college just to get a sweet taste of it just one more time. also covid makes things hard i don’t want to worry u though like you guys have been talking about above there are many other options

@Leo Gura sweet i’ll do that. just curious, i think it was on a video or something you said after doing 5meo so much you started having trips before bed without taking it? do you still experience that or have had that before?

after a really scary part of an acid trip a year ago i’ve had HPPD. this basically means i see colorful static over my vision as well as noticeable after images and distortions 24/7. other substances like weed and stimulants make it stronger while i’m on them to where it becomes really uncomfortable or scary. the trip that caused this was bad because my girlfriend and i carelessly took 400ug each on a bad side of town (self explanatory). anyway this wasn’t so bad the months following the original trip, i thought it was kind of cool. but for whatever reason since i moved cities the hppd scares me and can give me a sense of depersonalization. this may be because i ate an edible thinking it was a regular cookie and it basically wiped away my sense of reality, classic. also prob just the anxiety of moving. do any other people here have HPPD. does anyone know how to treat this or can give some advice? also just wanted to try a discussion about this on here since i haven’t seen anyone talking on this. how does HPPD relate to truth and the mind? what does it reveal about the nature of psychedelics?

@DefinitelyNotARobot it’s strange i think it relates to how anxious i am. when something makes me anxious, like too many people in a room or late to something or whatever my vision seems to go flat and everything looks like a colorful smudge. the feeling is indescribable and feels like my reality is just gonna disappear. i sometime wake up “tripping” thinking my field of vision is going to disappear. my guess is that HPPD is a form of PTSD

same here. to me this is a great alternative to social media. i can ask genuine questions and also get help. i don’t have to scroll through heaps of meaningless garbage and ads like on the other apps, there’s quality content to think about on here

hey so everyone talks about research chemicals but i don’t have the faintest clue where to even “start”. can anyone send a link to either a site or just something else that can guide me to help? hopefully this isn’t against guidelines i just don’t know where else to ask.

i don’t know the guys personality of course but i’d say just gradually bring some interesting topics up maybe talk about some of your past trips and how similar things have happened to you. show him some cool videos or books, start him off easy like terrence mckenna, sadhguru, or alan watts and just see if he finds any of it interesting. if he doesn’t seem to care then don’t be pushy. good luck to that guy and you as well ??

hey everyone so i have a question that i felt vulnerable about sharing but felt like i could get some good advice from y’all. so at home my dad has come in and yelled at me and my girlfriend. this started a whole screaming match between my girlfriend and my dad. i stayed silent pretty much the whole time which has been my strategy my whole life because he never listens, even the times years ago when i threatened to kick his ass or cussed him out. he gets worked up over meaningless shit or if his points are real they’re blown out of proportion like we’re evil bums who do nothing (even though we both have jobs and are kind). anyway my question is should i have stood up for my girlfriend in these situations? if i say anything it just seems to get worse and i barely even have the energy to respond as is. it makes me feel weak but i tell her it’s not worth her energy to even say anything. i’m sure there may be a breaking point for me and i’ll go off on him like i have in the past, but what would i even say? we’re working hard to move out ASAP but it’s very emotionally stressful and makes us feel like we’re walking on eggshells cause he just randomly comes into the room yelling on the top of his lungs at us over some random thing. and yes i try to understand his point of view and i try to love him but it’s just abusive and manipulative and i worry that like i said he’ll push me over the edge and i won’t be silent anymore and i’ll do something i’ll regret

@Arcangelo no lock

@Preety_India okay cool that’s basically how we’ve done it. we argued with him and told him to leave us alone and he hasn’t accepted the boundaries as per usual. so we’re on the long term of moving out, and we’re short term in our room trying to enjoy ourselves the best we can. he never leaves the house so we just do everything around him. thanks again you enjoy your weekend too