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There's a quite similar festival in Hungary. It's called Ozora. It's held every year and pretty much the same stage green crowd, psytrance, lots of psychadelics and besides music and dancing, there are yoga classes, meditation sessions, etc. I'm pretty much into electronic music (psytrance included) so I really should try it sometime.

Well put.

I don't but I will check it out!

I've been also doing cold showers every single day since January. If I'm being honest, I haven't experienced anything out of ordinary. It gives me a little bit of energy boost after I'm done and it's pretty cool but basically that's it. Plus, my beard is softer and more manageable But hey, good for you!

My childhood was fine but things got quite bad in my teen years. No friends, lonliness, anxious thoughts, worrying all the time (which I still struggle with), etc. After many years of suffering, I started reading some self-help books. At that time, I didn't takem them very seriously and obviously I didn't do the necessary work. The suffering continued and then one day I hit a rock-bottom and I was really-really miserable. That's when I found Leo's no bullshit guide to meditation video. I immediately knew that I needed to start practising meditation right away. That's how it's all started for me. Also, I've always felt deep down that there's more to life than material success. I couldn't put my finger on it back then and I didn't communicate it to anybody either but still. The feeling was there. I was also interested in meditation even as a kid but never bothered to 'learn' it because I thought it was a really complex thing to do and I needed to read books about it, etc. Actually, I wondered a few times about why I was interested in meditation. My parents and friends are not into spirituality at all. Never heard about it in TV or in any radio program. But still, as a kid I always thought it must be a "cool thing" to do. After all, I was right Biggest challange: Staying present when things got bad and not giving into anxious thoughts

Spot on

I'm 29 and I haven't had a girlfriend and never been with one

20 minutes and ~30 minutes Kriya

There was one time when I was sitting in my room and for some reason, I was staring at my bass guitar which was in front of me. After a few minutes, the neck of the guitar started to wave around and the more I stared at it, the freakier it got Funny thing is, I was completely sober (in fact I've never taken any psychedelic) and despite the fact that it was just a natural visual hallucination, my ego freaked out and I got legitimately scared for a short period of time.

One more point should be added to this list: You are now aware you don't exist

I pretty much agree with this. There are still lots of wisdom in his older videos and they're not 'outdated'. It could take many years before somebody actually internalizes self-development stuff like not caring what others think, self-acceptance, self-love, etc.

This is like the best video ever. The best part is the "machine gun of truth" bit.

Mind = blown

I don't mean to preach but when you have serious emotional and self-esteem issues, I don't think reincarnation is a subject that you should be concerned with right now.

Man, that was a great story

Dude what

Trying to convince others about your beliefs

@bejapuskas Found a pretty neat list. Check it out, you might like 'em https://myanimelist.net/featured/1700/Top_25_Best_Psychological_Anime_of_All_Time_Updated

I've heard good reviews of FMAB but never started it for some reason. I think I'm gonna start watching it. My favourite one is Death Note. It raises some great questions about morality.

I used to feel superior to them to a certain degree, but a while ago I've realized that I'm not better than anyone just because I meditate, do yoga and do various self-development/spiritual stuff. There's always something you can learn from a person and it doesn't matter how conscious he or she is.

Okay, so here's the thing. I often experience suffering at work. This suffering mostly involves frustration, impatience and the typical uncomfortable feeling of "I-need-to-get-out-of-here". I've been trying to find the root cause but I just can't seem to find it. Here's a little background info about me: I work for a water treatment company and I'm a technical assistant/aspiring engineer. This is an office job and I'm in the engineering department. I make 3D models based on a 2D drawing, make technical drawings and occasionally I need to translate technical documents to English. I know this does not sound like a superexciting job but I kinda like it. I never studied engineering in school, but a while ago I thought it would be a good idea to try out myself in this engineering field, so I asked my boss and he was supportive about this idea, so since then I've been working as an aspiring engineer. I like to be creative, I like working with the 3D software and in the process I'm learning a ton of new stuff which is always good. My boss is a great guy, he's willing to explain new things to me, he's always been helpful and supportive. All of my direct colleagues are guys but it's no problem. The atmosphere is usually good in the office, we often make jokes, tease each other and whenever I have some problem, there's always somebody that I can turn to. Okay, this is sounds good and all, but the problem is what I mentioned above. There are frequent times when I experience suffering like out of nowhere and it really distracts me from actually working and it often ruins my well-being at work. I've been meditating and dealing with self-improvement for ~3 years. I meditate every day, I read books all the time, I've tried self-inquiry (altough I stopped doing it because I realized I needed to deal with more basic self-development things first). I regularly exercise and I do hatha yoga once a week. I've got some friends so I have a company to hang out with at weekends. I also have hobbies (making music, playing bass, skateboarding, make bicycle trips with my friends, etc). There's one thing that I don't have at the moment which is a girlfriend. I've never had a one but I'm not that desperate to find one either. Tho I realised that after all I'm a guy and I need to experience what it's like to be with a girl emotionally and physically as well. The thing is I always thought that I was too shy to actually approach a girl, low self-esteem/self-confidence, you know, just the usual... I do know that these are serious matters and I've been working on these for a while now and I think I made some good progress. I still think that these are not the main reasons why I suffer at work. It's important to notice that I mainly experience this kind of suffering only when I'm at work. When I go home or do something in my freetime, usually this kind of suffering disappears. Of course I'm not saying that I suffer all the time, I do have some great days in the office when I feel like I'm on a roll. Still, I want to solve this problem. Also, when the suffering occurs I always try to be present and not giving in to the anxiety. It's really difficult sometimes, but a few mindful pauses sometimes help. Anyway, I still think that there's something deep and I'd like to find the reason. What should I do? Should I contemplate on this deeply? Should I just continue doing self-development/spirituality and hope that one day this suffering decreases somehow? Tl;dr: I regularly suffer at work even though I have a great boss, great colleagues and I like what I do. I want to find a reason and I'd like to solve it once and for all.

I'm trying to make a habit out of staying mindful throughout the day. It's quite hard though and I'm often lost in monkeymind. I use small reminders (random objects on my desk), watch my breath and for example going to the toilet is a great reminder (funny but still).

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