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Great to hear man!

Being involved in spirituality doesn't mean that you have to listen to yoga/meditative/"high-consciousness" music all the time. Even enlightened masters have shadows and violence/aggression often lurk in the shadow. If you feel like listening to gangsta rap, feel free to do so (as long as you don't go out and get involved in any sort of criminal activity :D).

I'll definitely watch this.

If you have nice guy tendencies, you should definitely check out this one: https://www.amazon.com/Not-Nice-Pleasing-Speaking-Unapologetically-ebook/dp/B076VVH14M

How about getting to a point where life is not 60 years of slavery but 60 years of gift? What's more, this gift can be even exciting and adventurous.

Intermittent fasting (8/16). In the eating window I eat homemade food. Although I'm guilty of not eating more veggies and fruits.

Yup, I've just recently faced the same issue. A project manager, who's way higher in the workplace hierachy than me, just bursted into the office and started heavly criticizing some stuff he needed to deal with. I'm not talking about calm and constructive criticism, I'm talking about loud, rude and inappropriate venting. The thing is, there are a lot of people working for him, so he didn't know that the stuff he was criticizing was done by me. At that moment, I didn't speak up (nice guy conditioning). I heavly felt the mixture of resetment, anger and worrying building up. I didn't know what to do, so I was just sitting at my desk and tried do deal with the anxiety by myself. Thankfully, I didn't succeed, so I decided it was time to bite the bullet and face the guy head on. I spoke with him and I calmly explained why I did what I did. He was also a bit calmer so we could discuss the issue in a rational manner. Funny thing is, I turned out that I didn't make a mistake per se, but the work I did could've been executed a little bit better. Overall, it wasn't really that much of a problem. So I think communication is really important in this case. Sometimes it's really hard to calmly accept the criticism, because the ego's reaction is just immediate defense at all costs. Ask questions like what could be improved next time and try to learn from it. However, if you feel that the criticism was unjustified and/or not appropriate, call him/her out on it. It takes balls, that's for sure, but in the end, it's really satisfying. It shows that you have boundaries and you deserve respect, just like everybody else.

@RawJudah Yeah, that would be the best case scenario.

If you give a high-end Ferrari car to a guy who has never driven before, he's likely to crash into the first tree he sees. I guess that's what happened here. This guy is full-on stage orange (as I can see) and he was so not ready for ayahuasca. Though I kinda feel bad for him, the existential crisis must be excruciating.

This is a pretty good documentary about diseases, mind-body connection and healing in a holistic way. Oneness and consciousness are also mentioned. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt5239942/

Since awareness alone is curative (check out Leo's video about it if you haven't already), I think you're halfway there. Build a strong and consistent meditation habit and maybe start journaling. You may be need to contemplate this issue a few times, but if you give it enough time, hopefully this whole thing will turn around and your motivations will also change.

How do I reconcile myself to my past? Little background info about me: My childhood wasn't ideal, but it wasn't that bad either. I even have some fond memories of it. Prolems started to arise when I was in my teenage years. I was anxious, I excessively worried about what others think of me, I wasn't satisfied with my looks. As time had passed, it got a lot worse. Back then, I didn't know about self-help and spirituality, so I was blaming others and myself for my faults. I didn't really have friends, no girlfriends and slight depression. Lonliness, frustration, confusion. It was really frustrating because I saw my peers and somehow I thought they were different because they had success with girls, they had friends, they went to parties all the time and I was at home basically 24/7 because I had no friends to go out with. No purpose, no vision for future, I was just spiraling into depression most of the time. Somehow I managed to stay at least a little bit positive and I tried to regain control of my life a few times, but I didn't persist and gave up too quickly. Fast forward to my mid-20s, I got into a great company and I met a few people there who became my friends eventually. Finally, I had some friends to go out with, parties, little experience with girls as well and I thought this was it. I had a few good years because I thought my friends were gonna stay around and we would remain friends for a long time. Of course, that wasn't the solution. Some of them moved away, quit the company and we barely met after a few years. I was back to square 1 basically. Depressed, lonely, confused. That's when I found Leo's video about meditation. It grabbed my attention because I've always been interested in meditation (dunno why, I didn't have any experience with anything spirituality-related prior and I always thought I couldn't learn it, because it's supposed to be really difficult, etc). Since the title contained "no-bullshit", I thought this was for me. I watched it and I started meditating that day. That's where my self-actualization journey started. Fast forward today: Life has gotten much-much better. Meditation, self-inquiry, WHM, yoga, exercise, journaling, reading, eating healthy, shadow work, having a vision. These are integral parts of my daily life. I'm all about learning and growing. Life is exciting. However, my past still haunts me sometimes. I've tried to work it out by journaling and shadow work. Had some success but I don't think I completely resolved my issues. For those who have healed old traumas and wound, how did you do it? What technique helped the most? Just to be clear, I'm not looking for a quick fix. I know this is gonna take long. I just want to make sure that I'm on the right path because I really feel that my past is a wound that needs healing.

@dinone Yeah, I guess you're right. I came to the same conclusion during one of my recent journaling sessions. I should be even grateful for those years, because that suffering lead to self-actualization after all. Intellectually it makes sense, but I still feel like I need some form of healing and/or closure.

I took this picture the other day:

I totally agree with this guy. What do you think?

That was a pretty awesome video report!

Yup, same here

My room made with Blender:

Watched the first episode. Surreal animation and maximum weirdness overall, but the topics are kinda high consciousness stuff, so I'm gonna keep watching.

Great stuff man! I struggle with 1 hour so I break it down to 2 sessions / day. This motivated me to work harder on my practise. What about your legs? Are you flexible enough to endure those hours? I think my legs would fall off if after like ~40 minutes

Been doing WHM every single day for a few months now. For me, it helped physically/mentally tremendously. Also, I think I'm getting addicted to the cold Highly recommend it!

I quite often experience the same on weekends. During weekdays, it's no problem. I'm busy with work, exercise/yoga, meditating, practising my hobbies, progressing in my art. Then the weekend rolls around with lots of free time and yet I can't bring myself to put hours into my hobbies, meditation, etc. I still do them of course, but not the amount of hours that I'd like to. Obviously it's much easier watching netflix or playing video games. What I do is that I try not to be neurotic about "distractions". So basically, if I want to play some video games, I'll do that (in moderation of course), no regrets. Then I'll proceed to meditation, art, whatever. I used to try to maximize every weekend and only spend time on 'healthy' habits, but in retrospect it didn't feel good. I'm not at the stage in my life where I can fill a day with only healthy habits and no distractions. Actually, I don't even mind.