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Strong Determination Sitting for 1 Hour straight every day (Or on some days making an intensive). But you have be willing to suffer. For me personally this method is really effective to calm your mind. Because you are forced to do so But its only my experience. For other people it could be not effective.

I had a similar experience on weed a couple years ago. It was before I was into this spiritual endevaevour. I smoked a lot of weed and It was a life chapter in which I was a bit lost with personal issues and issues concerning finding answers to what reality, self, life is. On this particular evening I was naturaly in "contemplation-mode" and I know I was really desperate to know what my life and reality was all about. While sitting alone in my room I remember how I become very open to all kind of considerations about reality. I know how I was really on fire and I was in a mood i thought I could handle any truth and fact. I really really really wanted to know. Like a special forces bad ass soldier on steroids ready for anything would come into his way. BUT I also was really really high. And I remember my last thoughts before something deep switch clicked in my mind : "What if my lack of knowledge is by design. What if I should not know. Because I AM GOD all the religions are talking about? And what if there is a mechanism installed in the universe, which will cause that I will automatically die when I realize I am God?" I started to panic and I was really open to the possibility that I could die right now. But I didn't know anything about awakening and ego death and so I really thought my body would die. I was identified with my body. I remember I ran to the bathroom and I looked in the mirror to be sure I am still there. Then I calmed down. Obviously I was still alive and I was happy The time after that I didn't want to think about that experience. I was so freaking terrified that I thought that I was at the edge of becoming crazy and ready for the asylum. Just slowly I realized through youtube and books I maybe discovered/experienced something really important and valuable. Now in 2020 I am in the middle of the journey. Or rather at the beginning

A few days ago I worked on observing and handling negative emotions. Found a simple technique from a psychologist on youtube. I just hold my breath as long as I could and stay as coscious as I could. As doing so follow the points: 1. Notice sensations, thoughts and emotions 2. Allow them to be there while still holding you breath 3. Notice any thoughts that come up and gently thank your mind for the thought 4. Expand your awareness, notice other sensations thoughts and emotions 5. Imagine you want to feel the "out of breath feeling" 6. Be curious - what does discomfort feel like? The moment when the body wants to breathe really bad is the most interesting moment. There I crash with the "boundary". It seems like the body take over controll and just start to breathe. I was wondering If its possible to just pass out, if your will is strong enough to withstand the urge to breath. Im not planning to do this and I dont recommend it, but I think there is something to grasp there with this technique. Maybe Leo's thesis : "There is no boundary between body and mind." Just wanted to share this with you guys. Maybe its worthwhile for somebody. :-*

Hey! I emphasize the points Nahm made. Meditation every day. After you made a solid routine I would recommend doing meditation retreats once in a while. After such Retreats my daily meditations improved massively. At start are single day retreats the best option. And you can do it solo.

Yes I also think thats true. Pick up coaches are telling shit and want to sell their shit. Maybe on the short term that pick up teachings are good for experimenting and get in contact with more than one girl/man per year and explore the basic sexual needs and behaviour of the opposite sex, but I think on the long term most people truly want a long lasting intimate and honest relationship. I think especially honesty is a quality everyone deep down knows is a important part of a healthy relationship. Sharing even the ugliest truth about oneself with the partner is a powerful way to really connect and a deep level. But what do I know, never had such a relationship.

Here something from another galaxy. Also sober very intense.