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stare at these https://www.google.co.uk/search?q=scary+animals&safe=off&espv=2&biw=1392&bih=1238&site=webhp&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwiF2PDZmc_MAhVLDcAKHeI-AoAQ_AUIBigB#safe=off&tbm=isch&q=trypophobia Good test for detachment

Thanks a lot. That was really inspiring man. I wish i could give multiple reputations for your bio!! You are doing so well. Congratulations on how far you have come. Most people who are deeply effected by drugs perceive reality with extremely low awareness they can't fathom how to escape or how is live different. Massive well done for spotting a way out and sticking with it. It takes huge courage and responsibility. I am truly inspired. Thanks again!!!

Thanks a lot guys. Have taken on your advice. I was thinking of buying the life purpose course this summer and going through it until the end of uni. Then after uni going to devote a year or so of my life at a zen Buddhist monastery to get deeper into enlightenment. @Jastilus @Ajax if you don't mind me asking what's your journey like now?

I think that in their perception all of what your saying is irrelevant in their eyes. Because what you are saying are all concepts. An enlightenment being has de-attachment from the meaning of thought ie concepts. So if you had the exact same experience as self doubt. You will assign a meaning to thoughts and perceptions creating self doubt. Some who is enlightenment realises the falsity in meaning and doesn't label the experiences therefore it won't bother him.

This guy is very touching. I was crying with joy watching this video. Follow his self-help channel. Is incredibly empowering

so your awareness is fixed on their speech. I used to do this. feels very weird so i stopped. Will start again

Same I could benefit from this. I guess try not to speak when your in the mind. Don't think of what your going to say the majority of the time, just let it come out. When you think, judgements etc might come in hindering you conversations.

I came clean about how I was completly manipulating a girl who really like me a year back. Was devastating. How do you draw boundaries without lying?? Because she asks questions that I don't want to answer. I was getting the feeling she was using this truthfulness as my vulnerability. I said no to some questions which weren't as involved with her in it

Thanks dude. I didn't go out of that way, it came up in conversation that I lied a lot in my past. I said I lied to her a lot in the past. She asked how I lied to her, then in that moment I told the truth of that happened i feel like telling the truth of your past lies, which you ego can't let go of is a way of release. It my not be coming from a place of being. But if your ego is suffering because of the lies you have told. Then come clean to strengthen it. If you ego is in constant fear of other people finding out the fabrications that you have created in your life, there isn't a better way to get over the suffering then coming clean with the lie.

I am sensitive as well. Share it with the world. Don't bottle it up. Its a beautiful thing. Cry in front of other people if its coming out. Don't repress. Your special dude, don't enclose it.

Today I came forward to a lie i told a while back. Its karma was taking a toll me and toxifying my psyche. I had to tell it but i was too scared how. Until i saw this guy - he's an absolute legend. I came forward with the lie and was crying in the process. It was like 5 years of bottled up emotion unleashed. A weight lifted of my shoulders. A aspect of my anxiety has drifted away because of it. Guys any lies you have told in the past that you can't stop feeling guilty about. Tell the truth. I will only do you good and take your personal development to new levels. You got nothing to hide.

thats by far my favourite way, you feel like energy is circulating around your body

where is Leo I miss his input on the forum

what this issue with is this is that you are infesting your mind with theories and believes. Its a lot harder to get to an experience by creating a map of enlightenment and its easier for your ego to mask the experience - meaning that you might not even believe it happened after. If you have an experience your ego will probably mask it with language: "is this eternal, is this nothingness , is this it, is this what i am looking for etc". Be careful , just do the work. I am saying this because this happens with me a lot. As a scientific/rational thinker I have built a model on enlightenment in my head. I wish i never did and it hinders you practice.

@Falken At least we got each other

@zasa joey There is no point asking about it because you won't understand it via language. You need to do the work and experience it, and it will become evident

I love that statement To me its very poetic

And thank you for sharing it. I am still in the baby, baby steps of this journey and I can say it is very similar to what you have described. I started of because I was depressed/anxious and Leo introduced me to the concept. My ego was shocked when I first watched his videos but I was also obsessed. I couldn't stop thinking about it and it was taking over my life at university. My ego saw it as an escapism for it to be happy and rid it self of the depression. But as the practice deepend it realised that its destroying itself and the depression started again. I always wondered why should i be doing this? is it real or am i wasting time? But I had a glimpse into the truth whilst doing Neti Neti and it became so clear that I need to follow through on this. After the glimpse (only for about 5-10secs) my ego kicked in and was telling me what you experienced was a lie and you were imaging it. The monkey mind went crazy that day, and all my insecurities hit me like a ton of bricks. I was on the verge of giving up again. It is because of this forum that I am able to persevere, with people like you sharing insights about enlightenment. The thing i have found really tough about this work is that it has distanced myself from some of my family and friends. My relationship with my dad is separating. I told him after uni I am going to live at a monastery for a year and he replies by saying, "you wasting time, I want you to have a good life, why you taking a step backwards, this is all confusing to me why are you doing it, I am losing a son, don't you want to be happy in life". That part I also find very challenging and struggling to cope with at the moment. They find it hard to understand what I am doing, and I don't blame them because if I was in their shoes I would think "this guy is on crack". Whats good at this moment is that I have come to the point where I am wise enough to see the potential it has for my life. Meaning its cemented in me, and I will continue for the rest of my life. I hope other people on here read this and do the same.

Try to teach yourself to not be afraid of being afraid and remember that this is perfectly natural. Raising you awareness is like increasing the resolution powers on perceptions. You will start to see things that wasn't there prior. This is a shock to the ego. It was comfortable before, living life blindlessly but then BAMMMM!!!. You have opened a can of emotional worms that you have never tended to with low awareness, all your insecurities have arisen and are in plain sight. See this as a beautiful thing, its the start of the purging process. Introspection and deep inner investigation is need to see why these anxeites are there. Look up some Teal Swan videos about limiting beliefs and how to deal with emotions. She gives good advice. Other spiritual teachers like Matt Khan, Rupert Spira etc deal with this effectively. Don't worry if you over think. So many people told me when I started this that I started to over think stuff, and I still do all a lot. Its because you are waking up, and you try to comprehend stuff with excess thoughts. Now heres the part where mediation comes in handy. I hugely recommend doing SDS and the do nothing technique simultaneously. It naturally calms the minds (over a long period of time) and teaches you to accept completely whats going on in the present moment. If you are anxious and have monkey mind you will come to a point where you are not afraid of it but accept it, and some start to enjoy it. When a "negative" emotion arises, see this as a opportunity to raise you consciousness even higher. Don't get scared and neglect it, be FULLY present with it. If you naturally feel resistance then accept that too. Its all a happening which you are observing and not a part of. It is your body-mind's way of seeking acceptance and love. @Ayla said it very well in the post, give a read of what she says: She discusses how to deal with this after a realisation, but its analogous to raising your consciousness. Remember you are going the the right direction.

Haha thats just your ego saying that. I think that the ego is telling you that you got enlightened and using it as an excuse to slack off. Don't worry its happened to me. You are fulfilling this self fulfilling prophecy you have created. Don't resist whats going on, do some introspection and mediation on why this is happening. Thoughts will arise giving you answers and follow the thoughts through buy asking "if this is a 100% true why is it so bad, or what does this mean or say about me" until you get to your limiting belief of why you can't study. Its just a form of procrastination maybe look into that. I can't speak because i haven't become enlightened, but i don't see why your mind should just stop working. You can still use it as a tool. Also, there isn't really a stage where you realise the truth of no self. The experiences of your true nature come in a progression that lasts your life time. Normally, realising your true nature is a continuous effort not a discrete event. I think your thoughts are misguiding you.

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Hi guys, I have started to become bulimic. I was a fat kid when I was younger. I lost like 30kg about 3 years ago. recently I have started to become bulimic. I have been tricking myself into thinking it's okay and feel awful about it. I have suffered from very low self esteem and still working on that. can anyone give me tips on how to overcome this and why I am doing this. I binge eat food and then throw it up. I have given up a lot of addictions like drinking, smoking, being rebellious, eating meat etc and these symptoms started to appear after

Thank ou so much for sharing that story. It was so touching. I have cut down on bulimia but this put everything into perspective. In the process of the throwing up you don't think of the repercussions it has over your body. It has impacted me and thank you to your friend. I am so sorry for what she went through, i love her and may she rest in peace xx I have stopped recently but this story has really cemented it

I have just watched Leo's video on lying. It scared the shit out of me. Thought I was starting to get somewhere with my personal development but back to square one. I have lied in my past to my family and peers, and am scared if the topics in which the lies where said arise again. To what extent should go cleanse yourself of lies, should I go and make amends for all the lies I have told. Or if it comes back up in a topic then admit where I have lied. Also, when Leo said when you act polite or give a smile when you don't mean it is a lie. Is he saying that you give up that type of stuff for good?