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45 min meditation today as well. Same focus as yesterday. Very nice :-)

45 min meditation today. Focus: Feel whatever is there to be felt with honesty and openness, and at the same time to breathe deeply into my abdomen in a natural and organic way.

40 days without cannabis and tobacco Not much practice lately, but some sporadic practice here and there. Much process and things to figure out after this summers ayahuasca retreat, so I'm getting a bit distracted in all my processes. But after this retreat I finally managed to let go of cannabis and tobacco it feels like. It has been 40 days without now (yesterday), and I'm really happy about that. I think I found some of the root-causes for this addiction this time. Anyways, today I started the day with 45 min of meditation, and then I continued with 20 min of vinyasa flow yoga. My focus during yoga is to feel whatever is there to be felt, and to breathe deeply down into my abdomen.

25 min of yin yoga this evening. So gooood :-)

10th session of kayaking this year Very nice session. So good. 5 hours altogether (with pause). Amazing experience of nature, the sea, and friendship. Great conversations around spiritual and therapeutic processes.

45 min mediation today. Feeling into some insecurities regarding my future.

9th session of kayaking this year Yesterday: 30 min meditation Today: 2 hours of kayaking

And then 25 min yin yoga as I came home from work. Wow. Really nice.

20 min vinyasa flow yoga as I woke up. Wow. So nice.

45 min sitting meditation before going to work. 25 min yin yoga in the evening when I came home. Nice.

20 min vinyasa flow yoga this morning, too. Super-nice :-)

8th session of kayaking this year Ultra-nice! :-D And then 20 min vinyasa flow yoga after I came home.

On and off for over 20 years...

20 min vinyasa flow yoga this evening after working evening-shift. Wow. So nice. And after that a good and warm shower, and then a cold shower.

Weed is not a friend of mine. Maybe it is good for some people. I don't know. What I do know is that there is a general sense of ambivalence about it from many smokers and ex-smokers. It is considered a very "sneaky" substance. It sneaks into your life again and again and starts to take up more and more space and focus. Probably that is unproblematic for some, but for a lot it isn't.

25 min yin yoga today as well. So nice. With the yoga I did at the retreat I just was at it feels like my yoga-practice has actually been pretty consistent for a while now. That is a very nice feeling. I'd like to bring it back to full power again.

1 week Ayahuasca retreat completed 25 min yin yoga today. I came home from 1 one week ayahuasca retreat a few days ago. This is my first practice since then. I was catching a cold on the long buss and train journey back home. And I've been working two shifts in the psychiatric hospital I work in with this cold after I came home, but now finally it seems to be letting go, and I can start enjoy the amazing benefits of this retreat. 3 full-day ceremonies. Lots of yoga, meditation, and other types of practice in-between. And lots of beautiful people. And lots of sauna and swimming in a cold but oh-so-beautiful lake. Now I'm just looking forward to continue to heal from this cold and integrate the benefits of this retreat. And my work-schedule is pretty heavy from now on. But today at my job, almost healed from this cold, it was so beautiful to connect with my co-workers again. We had so much fun today. It was very obvious a lot of restlessness and disconnection was not present in my being today. And my guitar-practice is also really awesome after this retreat.

7th session of kayaking this year So finally I had the opportunity to microdose and kayak for the first time. It was really nice. First I paddled alone for 2 hours, and I was going through some therapeutic process, but then when that lifted I called I friend who joined me for kayaking and then I was pretty much in a very nice flow-state for the rest of the session. 6 hours on the water in total. I started the day with 45 min of meditation right after I took the psilocybin. In fact I was not in such a good place when I woke up today, because I've been working a lot lately, and especially night-shifts, so my sleep has been really messed up, but at least finally I had a good night of sleep and got my sleep-schedule back to normal, and even though I woke up feeling like crap I managed to shake it off thanks to kayaking and microdosing, and now I'm having 12 days off from work, so this was a really nice start on my little vacation.

1 hour meditation yesterday, and 45 min meditation today.

45 min meditation today. Very nice.

20 min vinyasa flow yoga, and then a hot shower ended with a cold one. Very nice.

Microdosing on psilocybin again 5th time microdosing on psilocybin since 5th of June. Very amazing experience this time. I started with 10 sun salutations, then a good and warm shower and then a solid cold shower. After that I meditated for 45 min. Then my guitar-practice began which was also really nice, and this was my main-event for this session, and then I did 25 min yin yoga. It felt like my guitar-practice was baked into a really nice and sweet yoga and meditation program, but I was also going through some kind of therapeutic resistance / contraction throughout this whole journey which was getting released in the yin yoga at the end, and when I was done with the program and could go on with my day I felt really energized and relaxed, and the afterglow is amazing. So nice. I'm glad I'm back into the microdosing game after a short break of 12 days when I felt this whole psilocybin thing in combination with support from ChatGPT became too much. Now I'm looking into stuff like becoming a microdosing coach and stuff like that because this feels like some really potent stuff. It is very poweful and so soft and easy to relate to from a normal everyday perspective at the same time.

45 min meditation today. Very nice and soft session.

6th session of kayaking this year Yesterday: 45 min of meditation before work. That put me into a strong flow state through-out the whole evening-shift I was working. Today: 30 min of meditation before day-shift. When I came home I went on a 3 hour long kayaking-journey, including stopping at a beautiful island where I did 10 sun salutations and went for a swim - so refreshing.

Starting the day with 10 sun salutations and a cold shower. Very nice :-)