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45 min meditation today as well. Ok concentration. Neither good nor bad. Some restlessness. Some pleasure.

45 min meditation today. Really nice. Deep, soft, and sweet, concentration.

45 min meditation today as well. Restless and well-being combined. It was kind of strange. My meditation was going into concentration, and there was well-being and softness in my body, but still there was restlessness there coming and going. I guess I was processing stuff that was preventing my mind from fully settling down. It had to race through various issues, even though there was momentum in my body and mind for going into concentration. So these forces were pulling in opposite directions. I wonder to what extent, when there is momentum like this for going deeper into stillness, but something on the surface is pulling me back into mind-chatter, to what extent can I be more firm and still lead my mind into stillness?

45 min meditation today as well. Gosh. Busy days. I had to spend the night talking to my girlfriend about our long-distance relationship after a busy evening-shift, before a busy day-shift, so I was only getting 4 hours of sleep before the day-shift, but the conversation with my girlfriend was really inspiring, and somehow I woke up at the exact right spot in my sleep-cycle, so I was inspired for work and the day at my job was really awesome too, and I have said yes to working extra this weekend to cover up for my travel to Brazil a few weeks ago, so I went home after day-shift to sleep, and that was pretty perfect since I didn't sleep so much tonight, so now I'm working night-shift again, and after waking up from a very nice sleep in the evening I had a beautiful session of meditating for 45 min that felt very energizing. It seems like the cold is completely gone as well now. My energy is back and the depression and lack of energy from the cold is gone, so this has been some really interesting busy days with a sense of many great accomplishments. I think I'm starting to feel more and more fullfilled and accomplished in my career, and it is very obvious how meditation is supporting this career.

45 min meditation today as well. Gosh, the cold is still not completely gone, but fortunately todays meditation was really good.

Yesterday: 45 min meditation. Today: 45 min meditation.

45 min meditation today as well. Super-nice. The concentration and momentum is fully back. Interesting how much a cold is effecting the meditation negatively.

Friday: No meditation Saturday: 45 min meditation Today (sunday): 45 min mediation Finally this cold is starting to lift. Todays meditation was really awesome. Deep and peaceful concentration.

Yesterday: A second session of 45 min. Today: 1 hour of meditation. I still have a cold, and I have to go to work, so it is a bit rough, but I'm trying to increase the meditation to get extra powers. Today meditation was really smooth, so I'm getting some relief from this physically agitated state I'm in.

Did an extra session of 45 min meditation session yesterday to compensate for the session I missed the day before that. Today: 45 min meditation. I still have a cold, but the good feelings in meditation are becoming powerful again.

No meditation yesterday. I've gotten a cold. But 45 min meditation today. Very sweet.

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice ❤️

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice. I'm in the middle of 4 pretty intense night-shifts in my job as transitioning back from my vacation in Brazil. I prioritized meeting a friend today, when, unfortunately I probably should have prioritized resting, but it was really nice to meet him. Tomorrow I finally have a full day off between the two last night shifts, so then I can rest fully, and after the last one I have two days off which will be really nice. Then I will celebrate having "fully transitioned" back home again to my regular life. And I also need to take care off my girlfriend since these transitioning points are pretty vulnerable when it comes to regain stability in either being in long-distance mode or "spending time together mode." So then we will start to have to look at whether we have ambitions to continue to meet, or if long-distance becomes too difficult for us. But main-priority is just to land back home again, and not make or force any decisions yet. Fortunately meditation has been a safe haven lately, so this helps a lot.

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice and powerful experience.

45 min meditation today as well. So nice. I was really nice to continue my "meditation streak" through-out my whole travel to Brazil for 12 days. And the way I have been prioritizing my meditation lately has helped tremendously in how I navigate my relationship with my girlfriend. It feels like there was so much more space inside of myself to not get caught up in insignificant tensions between us. This ongoing training of disidentification with insecurities and shame-stories about oneself really helps, because these things really get into the "energetic field" between two people who shares intimacy. And not only are there insecurities and shame-stories about oneself, but there are also all the projections about the other that one has to disidentify from. So in other words a lot of confusing signals going in all kind of directions that meditation is really great at soothing.

Came home to northern-europe this evening. Have been too tired to do sitting meditation from all the flying, so I did 45 min of walking meditation. That was really nice.

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice. I've been in Brazil visiting my girlfriend for 12 days, and we have been meditating together 45 min every day (actually only 30 min one day, but then we compensated and meditated for 1 hour the next day). It was really nice that we could keep this focus together. I think that it probably was helping a lot in softening some of the triggers between us. And we have been hanging together very intensly, but I never felt any "need for space," as I was probably getting my space in meditation.

45 min meditation per day also on saturday, sunday, and monday (today).

30 min meditation on wednesday, 1 hour on thursday, and 45 min today (friday).

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice. Just surrendering into my life as it is. The mind is getting concentrated, and the center of gravity these days seems to be pulling me back again and again towards this centeredness, instead of towards the fluctuations of the samsaric mind.

So I have been keeping up my daily practice of 45 min meditation per day while the forum has been down, and it has been really nice. Sat for 45 min today as well, the momentum is good, and my mind gets concentrated.

Very awesome start of the day. First 45 min meditation, then 20 min vinyasa flow yoga, and then a good warm shower followed by a good and solid cold shower.

So two evenings in a row I have also done my favorite 20 minute vinyasa flow yoga program, and it has simply been really awesome. For some reason it has been difficult for me to have a daily practice consisting of both yoga and meditation. I usually have to choose one or the other. And I always know that meditation is the most important of them, so I'm very glad that lately I seem to have landed in this 45 min per day daily practice. But I also need some physical practice, and I find yoga really really awesome. So I'm going to see if it will be possible to stick with this morning-practice of 45 min meditation per day, and then see if I can also add some yoga in the evening. Probably that will be the best way for me to integrate both of them into my daily life. And oh my god - the way meditation has been opening up my body lately - it was so awesome to bring that body into a yoga-program again. It was like there had been no pause at all. Actually quite the opposite. So it is very interesting to see to what extent sitting meditation in itself is actually a physical practice, too.

45 min meditation today as well. Very good momentum. Going into concentration-states again. During this session I had a kick on sitting in a very errect, firm and relaxed posture - optimizing the energy-flow in my body. Amazing how the body can open up when the energy-flow is good.

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice