Thittato

14th session of kayaking this year Wow. So nice. It was good to have a little pause since I paddled 3 days in a row one week ago. But damn, my muscles are totally getting adjusted to this activity, and my technique gets better and better. I felt like a machine today. Not much other practice lately, but both on sunday and yesterday I had two days completely filled with guitar and jamming, just like on saturday, so in total I've had three really intense guitar-filled days, and it almost feels like I've been on a really cool workshop with it. Did a cold shower again today, which was really nice. (Had a mild cold for some days now so I had a break from cold showers).

No practice today, except 4 really great jam-sessions. Finally I'm having a week off. Been really busy working lately, and I finished it off with a double-shift yesterday before this week off. Been really tired today, but I started the day playing guitar to a backingtrack jamming with myself, then I went to meet a buddy and we had a great jam, then I met another buddy and we also had a great jam outdoors in a park, and then I met my first buddy again later in the evening and we had an even better jam, Probably the best we've ever had. I promised myself on New Years Eve that this was going to be the year of the guitar for me, and it has totally delivered so far. It is only getting better and better. It is so easy to play guitar every day now. The possibilites are just expanding, and more and more fun ways to keep at it keeps presenting themselves. With guitar, it seems, it is really hard to get established on it, but at some point it starts to move by itself. It is not like it is difficult to pick it up every day now. It happens by itself. I'm addicted to it and I'm just always looking forward to the new things I'm going to explore. And then your friends also starts to catch on. I have many guitar-playing friends. Most of them are way better than me. But they seem to enjoy playing with me more and more. So more and more the guitar becomes the center of our attention and our friendships. It is all like a positive feedback loop. Both internally and externally.

Cold shower yesterday, and cold shower today. Busy days, but the flow is good :-)

13th session of kayaking this year Wow. What a day. I started with a cold shower, then a really awesome jam-session with one of my best friends. I have managed to get him back into playing guitar again. He used to play guitar before, but then he turned to piano for many years, but now he is getting back into guitar as well. So awesome to see him translate all his piano-knowledge into guitar. After that I did 30 min of yoga, and then I went kayaking for 5 hours with another really good buddy, and when I came home I sealed the day with a cold shower again.

12th session of kayaking this year 2 hours of kayaking this evening. So nice. It was getting dark before I came home, and at one of my rests in the middle of the ocean I noticed there were fish jumping all around me. It was dark and quiet, and fish jumping every few seconds was the only sound. It was pretty magical.

11th session of kayaking this year 3 hours of kayaking this morning, then spa with 3 cold baths. Sweet :-)

45 min meditation today as well. No practice yesterday. Very tired lately. One evening-shift tomorrow, and a day-shift on monday, and then I'll have Tuesday off, before three more days of work and then 6 days off. Holy schmokes. Looking forward to those 6 days.

45 min meditation today as well. So nice. Would not be possible to alternate back and forth between working night-shifts and day-shifts without meditation.

45 min meditation today. Tired, but it gave me some rest and energy.

10th session of kayaking this year Spa with 3 cold baths today, then 1 hour and 10 min of kayaking, and then 30 min of yoga. Sweet <3 :-)

Yesterday: Cold shower. Today: 45 min meditation, and a cold shower.

Cold shower today, and then later in the evening an incredible nice jam-session with two buddies. Those jam-sessions are getting better and more relaxed all the time. So nice. Feels like all desperation on playing guitar is gone. It is an established hobby which brings me a lot of joy every day. There are always new and surprising opportunities to discover fun ways to use it which keeps on adding to each other. I’m starting to see how it all connects. Looking forward to the day when all the over-thinking around it is gone, too.

Cold shower and 3 rounds of Wim Hof breathing today. Sweet :-)

Only a cold shower today, and a decent amount of guitar-playing. Seems like I’m getting more and more satisfied with my playing. It is a fun thing that I do every day, and there is a steady progress that I can trust will happen. I’m also reading a book called Zen Guitar, which is really perfect for me. And I have people I frequently jam with, and that is getting more satisfying as well. I used to project too much of my desperation out onto my jam-buddies, and even though we also had a lot of fun and got very inspired together, I think I contributed to creating a certain tenseness in our atmosphere which is now much more relaxed. So now that the guitar-playing is under control and no longer needs my total mental and emotional bandwith, I have even started to create visual art again. My goal is to remove as many frustrations from my creative processes as possible in order to just have as much fun with it as I can. Before it was very much something I did in order to prove my worth and to hopefully become «good enough» one day, and of course there are still elements of that, but my goal is to just be very relaxed and fun-oriented about it.

9th session of kayaking this year. Cold shower early in the morning, 3 hours of kayaking in the evening. I'm noticing I seemingly have less and less need to elaborate much on my experiences. Maybe my internal processes has become less and less overwhelming over time so that there is less need to say much about it. But anyways, the kayaking was really great today.

8th session of kayaking this year. Sunday: Camping with a friend this weekend, and doing a good session of paddling as part of this. First time trying a tandem-kayakk. That was pretty cool. Also ending the evening with a cold-bath in a cold and beautiful in-land lake. Monday: Spa with 3 cold baths. Tuesday (today): Only a cold shower, but a really good one.

Sunday: 2 x 45 min sessions of meditation, spa with 4 cold-baths, and 1,5 hour of mantra-singing with group in the evening. Monday: No practice, except a lot of music-jamming. Tuesday (today): 45 min of meditation.

45 min meditation this morning. So nice :-)

Yesterday: 45 min meditation in the morning, spa with 2 cold baths in the evening. Today: Only a cold shower so far, but it was really nice.

Monday: 45 min meditation Tuesday: No practice Wednesday (today): 45 min meditation before work, spa with 3 cold baths after work.

45 min meditation today. So nice :-) I think I’m moving back to making silent sitting meditation (vipassana) my main focus. I’ll probably alternate back and forth a little between all these various types of practice that I do, but at the same time with the intention to gradually focus more on just sitting in silence.

45 min meditation today. Damn. I’m so much more present and invested in my interactions at my job when I sit for that amount of time. It is like I clear out all the gunk so I just feel positive and I return to a sense of innocence and joy.

7th session of kayaking this year So nice! First time paddling with a buddy this year. And when I came home I did 30 min of yoga. Perfect day :-)

45 min meditation today as well :-)

Sunday: Spa-session with 4 cold-baths Monday: 45 min meditation and a cold shower. Tuesday (today): 45 min meditation and a cold shower.