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Some disruption to my meditation routine again. Drifted over into a yoga period. Then I started sitting again on monday. So: Monday: 45 min meditation Tuesday: 45 min meditation Wednesday (today): 45 min meditation. Somehow it is interesting that I allow myself to be more lazy with this meditation project these days. Maybe it is a good thing in this ever on-going fine-tuning of finding the perfect balance between effort and surrender.

Some disruption to my meditation routine, but then I've sat for 45 min friday, saturday and sunday again.

45 min meditation yesterday and 45 min meditation today. Very sweet <3

45 min meditation today. Very nice meditation. Powerful and vitalizing. Deep stillness.

45 min meditation today as well. Gosh. It is so necessary to meditate. I always go through very intense emotional cycles, but meditation seems to clear it out over and over, and renew my vitality. It even seems like the emotional cycles becomes fuel for transformation.

45 min meditation today as well. Nice groove.

45 min meditation yesterday and 45 min today. Very nice.

45 min meditation today as well. Even better concentration than yesterday. That is really nice since I'm a bit squeezed on time and sleep, so I get some solid rest in my meditation these days.

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice flow. Lots of peace, silence, but also refreshing and balanced energy.

Zen and the Art of Kayaking Saturday: 45 min meditation Sunday: 45 min meditation So I've been speaking a lot about my explorations of kayaking in this journal, and trying to make it into this theme of "zen and the art of kayaking," which is a theme I really like. I made a goal of doing 10 sessions of kayaking this year, but I'm going to abandon that goal. The season has almost ended and I'm simply not up for it. I'm too busy with working on my more important goals. But anyways, I completed my biggest goal in kayaking this summer, which was to round a big island outside of my city. It is 25 to 30 kilometers to paddle there and around the island and back to the kayak club I'm a member of, and it took me 4 hours and 40 min. I also paddled 11 sessions least season, and I like round numbers, so alltogether these 4 years that I've been paddling I've paddled 70 solid sessions. 2021: 20 sessions 2022: 30 sessions 2023: 11 sessions 2024: 9 sessions In total = 70 sessions So this might be my last year of paddling. I think I feel done with it. I've explored everything I've wanted to explore through it, and I think my focus will go to other things, but these paddling sessions have been a really great framework here in this journal to build my meditation and self-development project around. This year was also really great regarding paddling contributing to physical exercise, because it really kick-started my interest in physical exercise again, and now I've been flowing with kettlebells already for several months. Most likely I will cover my physical exercise needs from now on with something that is very low-profile and quick, so that I can just do it in my home and get it done with and then spend my time and focus on my real goals. So anyways, this kayaking project has been really awesome, and I'm very grateful for having had this experience.

45 min meditation today as well. It felt amazing and powerful.

45 min meditation today as well. Very nice. Feels like I'm getting into a nice groove again with my meditation practice. The process that was leading up to my last ayahuasca ceremony, and the after-process after that lead to a lot of changes in my life so that I can sharpen up my focus around my priorities, and it has required quite some emotional processing, which might now start to get cleared out.

45 min meditation yesterday, and 45 min today. I feel I'm acknowledging the extent to which anger, fear, anxiety, judgments and lack of understanding is still many times dominating my consciousness. Wanting to be a "clever spiritual practitioner" it can be difficult to fully acknowledge what needs to be worked on. I'm still not someone who has softened into peace, warmth, forgiveness and understanding.

45 min meditation today as well.

Friday: 45 min meditation Saturday: 1 hour meditation Sunday (today): 45 min meditation