bmcnicho

@Leo Gura Do you think it’s possible though that there could be entities living in other planes of existence that have access to knowledge and wisdom that humans lack under normal states of consciousness? I’m also open to the possibility that this thing only exists in her imagination (although I suppose ultimately the distinction between real and imaginary breaks down) Yes, generally I would like to make my own informed decisions regarding substances and dosage. However, it seems possibly foolish to reject a potential spirit guide, if such a thing exists. And I wouldn’t want it to angrily visit me in the future, although I don’t know how likely that would be

I tried to take ayahuasca at home using mimosa hostilis and harmine hcl. It came on strong about 30 minutes later with some nice visuals and body feeling, but about 15 minutes later it began to fade a bit. I waited another 15 minutes and was feeling surprisingly mentally sober. I thought maybe I didn’t take enough of the harmine, but attempting to take more made me throw up immediately At that point, I was feeling too nauseous to attempt taking more, and figured it might have not been the best night anyway. I was basically sober at that point, with a bit of an altered body feeling and a bit more emotional Does anyone know what went wrong? I’m thinking not enough maoi because there was definitely a large amount of dmt in there. Also, is 1 hour in too soon to throw up? Does it take longer than that to fully absorb? Thanks!

@Razard86 As long as we’re talking about classical psychedelics, combining doesn’t seem too dangerous from my experience and what I’ve read. If you pick two substances you’re already experienced with individually, and start with less than half your normal dose of each, there’s not a whole lot that can go wrong. It can add a new flavor to the experience, but some combos will be better than others. It does add an extra element of unpredictability though

@Batman Right, do you think it’s a different experience despite having the same active ingredients? I chose mimosa hostilis because it’s more potent than chacruna and thus I would need to ingest less plant material. And the harmine was extracted from syrian rue which is a common substitute for caapi

Update: I think it was just resistance I was experiencing. An hour later the effects came back and I ended up having a good experience

In the latest video, Leo said that one aspect of love is respecting someone’s survival agenda and helping them to succeed. This naturally raises the question of what happens when their survival contradicts yours. Loving yourself is also important, and therefore you would want to promote your own success also Obviously, if someone presents a physical danger to you, you would want to get away from them and take necessary actions to protect yourself. But what about lower stakes issues, like day to day personal preferences? If you hold their needs as being equally as important as yours, then how would you decide whose preferences to go with? Love can often feel zero sum to me, like in order to love others, I would need to love myself less

@axiom Why do you think he shouldn’t? He seems interested and open to this kind of stuff. Do you think he’s more prone to being destabilized?

@puporing Yeah, compatibility is important if you want a relationship to be at all functional. I’m wondering if the type of metaphysical love that Leo describes has that same limitation. That practically you can only love things within a narrow range if you want to continue surviving

@Preety_India That would be the extreme case. A murderer’s survival agenda might include killing you, because otherwise he would not be a murderer, but letting yourself be killed as an expression of love towards him would be so irrational and dysfunctional that almost no one is capable of entertaining that thought But in cases of lower stakes ego and identity survival, it’s not as clear whose needs should be prioritized

I naturally contemplate a lot throughout the day, especially in the last 5 years. It can get pretty exhausting, so I always get a lot of sleep (8+ hours). I've gotten to the point where my mind gets twisted in paradoxes, and I sometimes get stuck going down deep rabbit holes. When you're able to let go of prior assumptions, metaphysical terminology begins to lose all meaning. It's getting very psychologically destabilizing for me right now, so I may need to take a break for that reason. The end goal, though, is beyond all concepts and beliefs. It can't be thought about or spoken of, for any thought you have about it is itself not it. Eventually, all ideas will dissolve. Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds (LSA) show me that very quickly, I'm sure other substances could as well. Contemplation is a bridge that helps you get there, meant to be abandoned once you arrive. Essentially using the mind to destroy the mind. I'll get there when I'm ready, right now it feels like too much to handle personally.

Tier 2 transcends and includes all of the Tier 1 stages. Survival is a prerequisite for existing in a finite human form. When you cease surviving, you no longer have a spiral dynamics stage, you simply merge into Nothingness/Infinity

Earlier today I was having an emotionally charged conversation about existential topics, and I started going on an unhinged rant. Whenever I reached the point where I would sensibly stop, the person I was talking to told me to keep going. So it kept getting crazier, and by the end I was talking about how all words and concepts were meaningless and how there was no difference between what was and wasn't real. Then after that, it legitimately felt like I was on a low dose of mushrooms. My body became very loose, I was laughing quite a bit, and I had difficulty forming complete sentences and keeping track of thoughts in the same way that mushrooms cause. No visuals, so it's not HPPD. I'm worried psychedelics might be destabilizing my mind a bit. My last trip was 5 days ago, but the one before that was a few months ago. I'm wondering if this is cause for concern or just part of the process.

@puporing Yeah, I've had psychedelic dreams also, different from my actual trips though. My friend also saw psychedelic mandala fractals randomly while on a hike today, but they went away afterwards. I wonder if trace amounts of the chemical are still active days afterwards, or if neural pathways are opened up that can be triggered by stuff.

For me stimming feels similar to laughing or crying, a natural reaction to a corresponding emotional state. It's uncomfortable to suppress it, and I like to quickly find a place alone where I can do it when possible. I'm not sure if neurotypicals would benefit from it also, but it doesn't seem to be a natural inclination that they have. The main stim I do is I quickly flap my fingers or an object right in front of my eyes. It helps me focus my mind and release pent up energy. But yeah, I don't understand how neurotypicals can go all day without stimming, I imagine it's just not a desire that they have Endogenous psychedelic compounds could explain my vivid imagination and intellectual creativity that I link to autism. However, I feel very separate from the world around me and have difficulty relating to other people. Psychedelics usually break down individual identity, while with autism I feel very separate from culture, groups, and other people. So who knows

I had an profound experience on these seeds yesterday. They can be a great legal alternative to LSD or mushrooms. I’ll briefly describe my experience after this safety warning Warning: At high doses, these seeds can cause vasoconstriction and may not be suitable for people with certain medical conditions That being said, I took 7 seeds and the vasoconstriction was only mildly uncomfortable. I took the seeds orally, but they can also be taken sublingually or a few different extraction methods can be used to reduce physical side effects. I took a 10 mg THC sativa edible to potentiate. It’s a strong synergy, so for someone like me with zero marijuana tolerance, I’d recommend only 5 mg, as I could feel the edible overpowering the LSA at times, which was a bit distracting. It was definitely an intense experience as the LSA was strongly sedating, almost putting me to sleep at some points, but then the sativa would hype me up again, the two seemed to be competing in that sense I would describe the headspace as being similar to LSD with a sedative body high similar to mushrooms. The visuals are much more subtle, I saw a grid of pulsing dots when I closed my eyes. I imagine in the dark the visuals would be stronger though. The best part about this substance is that it supercharges contemplation! My thoughts felt so clear and meaningful. I would highly recommend going in with a list of questions and recording your answers to listen back to the next day. You’re basically guaranteed to produce some great new insights! I also experienced some ego-dissolution and probably could’ve had an ego death if I wasn’t resisting it. It seemed like my thoughts were deconstructing themselves and trying to reveal the eternal nothingness from which everything comes. At times, there was a sense of complete perfection. Not in the sense of some kind a peak experience, as this substance is more subtle than that, but a sense of wholeness and completion. I understood that we truly exist to spread love, because love and truth are identical I also experienced some pretty strong time dilation, like time was passing 2-4 times slower at some points. A 20 minute walk back home felt like it took almost an hour. Towards the end of the walk it got a little scary, as it seemed like I was taking considerably more steps than the actual distance I was covering. Like I was mostly staying still and the distance was stretching in front of me. It was starting to get colder and I was worried I would never make it back home. It would’ve been helpful to have someone there to tell me I was moving at normal speed In conclusion I would highly recommend this substance! It can be legally purchased online and I can tell that it has great potential for spiritual growth. In my view, 8 seeds should be considered the maximum oral dose. There are reports of people having great experiences on 12+ seeds, but you definitely pay a physical price for that My next trip report will be on 8 seeds without marijuana, so I can know what the effects are of LSA by itself. And then after that I’ll try it with 5 mg of sativa

1st Hawaiian Baby Woodrose Trip Report

I thought I’d start posting my trip reports here, as I plan to trip several times this year and I wouldn’t want to spam the spirituality section with all of them. I’m writing these to help me process things, and I like to include unnecessary details to make it feel more vivid for me. So if anyone wants to read these, feel free to skim over some parts. I’m feeling excited for this stage in my journey! I’ve spent the last 5 years laying a foundation in philosophical and spiritual reading and contemplation and handling things in my personal life. So now I feel ready to delve more deeply into psychedelics and spirituality!

@RMQualtrough Yes, there can be pretty strong nausea. I personally took them on an empty stomach and didn’t throw up. I drank a bit too much orange juice though, as I heard that citric acid can increase LSA absorption, and that made the nausea a bit worse For me it was 100% worth it though, as it was a truly profound experience. But if you have relatively easy access to another substance, then that might work better for you

You’re imagining that there are “others” reading your post. You’re also imagining that there’s a “bmcnicho” responding to it. These words I’m typing are you talking to yourself. At the same time, I’m imagining that someone else wrote this post. Your present experience is the entire universe. After your death, the dream will end and there will be a new dream. One of them will be the dream I’m having right now

My friend tried a low dose of psilohuasca (1.3 grams of dried mushrooms and 150 mg of Harmine HCL). The effects seemed to be about the equivalent of what a 3.5 gram mushroom trip would be, with lingering after-effects for a few hours after mushrooms would normally end My thoughts is that it’s good for getting more trips out of your mushroom supply, as harmalas are cheap and can be legally purchased online. However, it’s difficult to get the dosing right as reports on exactly how large the potentiation factor is vary widely. So I would recommend trying less than 1.5 grams of mushrooms for your first time unless you’re prepared to get absolutely blasted

Like someone wants me to do something and I could just say “There is no doer-ship” Or someone’s worried about something and I say “The future is imaginary” Or someone insults me and I say “The boundary between self and other is imaginary, so you’re really just insulting yourself” I would take the time to correctly explain these ideas to someone who was interested, but for people who aren’t, is there any harm in trolling them in this way?

@Leo Gura What’s cringe about it? I find it funny when you troll people on this forum. Maybe I need to come up with some better lines @Osaid This is hilarious! I get the point that the brown bear is taking things too far, but it does seem like a good way of shutting down ignorance

A couple nights ago I had a dream where I was tripping on an unspecified psychedelic inside the dream. Basically I was attributing the normal weirdness of dreams to this in-dream drug. Right before going to bed I was reading some trip reports and wondered what the commonly described feeling of merging with the surface you’re sitting on would feel like, as that hasn’t happened to me yet. And then it happened inside the dream, so now I have a lower-resolution sense of it

I explained that it had a high probability of being horrifying and that it didn’t have the same positive effects as other psychedelics. I also said that people have been severely traumatized by it. Trip reports that terrify me, instead are intriguing to them, so I’m worried that showing them more would be counterproductive It’s possible that a low dose in the right conditions could be a positive experience, but almost everyone on this forum says it’s dangerous. So what are the most compelling reasons not to take salvia?

My Trip Reports