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I also notice a lot of number synchronicity, the last to days i think i have seen the minute 55 on every waking hour, you can look up the meaning of the numbers, according to numerology they are signs from our Angels and the different numbers numbers have different meanings wish get amplified depending on how many digits you see, not sure what exactly an angel is tho...? Also notice what you are thinking at the exact moment of seeing the number.

Hi! After workout and sometimes during workout i get alot of pain just beneath the shoulder blades, someones posted about a similar problem on reddit with this image but he only got the tip to stretch more. I seem to have the same problem but only beneath the shoulders, so the two lower circles basically. Pls help:(

Reading this thread at what i suspect to be my last few moment of tdkots, cant know for sure ofc but im at The Point where i feel alot of bloss comming back, there is just a small residtance, a fear of how amazing im feeling, soon time for meditation. It, s been about 6 months of darkness, pain, fear, angesty but it is ofc worth it no dout about it.

Im goin threw something simillar, actually crying alitel right now haha, for no reason im aware of. Also i cry during meditation, especially sencing The sensations around The eyes and forhead and relaxing there years just start flowing and I dont know why... I do have alot of fear in my chest aswell tho so probably is conected. I deffently see it as progress and healing.

I recognise this same thimg in my self. Would literally self sabotage while playing games or having an argument and act lazy/stupid to not stans out to much, for me i think this was maybe not so much about being smart or w/e dependa on how you define samart but i have an intuitiv sence of what is logical and strategically correct, that i for one reasons or another became ashamed of and tried to hide, i think it May have to do that i feel bad when i just completly break other pepoples views in an argument cus i see where they are not making sence. The defense mechanism was very deeply rooted in me and Im not sure I have completly healed it yet, im currently in The dkots and healing inner Child so i suppose this Will help me let go of that behavior. I suspect it is the same for you and you need deep healing in order to ler it go.

Hey I have smilirar experiences where i can take on the roles, thoughts, behaviors, feelings, defensive states and so on. Pretty sure this is all good and is something that will increase as we continue to grow our consciousness. I see it as a gift that i can use to help others by getting these relay strong and clear insights into what they think and feel etc. Fear always needs to be dealt with tho. I experience similar fear, i really dont wanna become like my brother who is also somewhat autistic, or are last very very thought focused person. You need to let go of fear tho. It can be dealt with best in my experience by feeling your chest, letting you feel the fear and applying positive self talk, and/ or compassionet self talk and feelings of love and compassion towards it. Also just pure vippassana meditation on the bodily sensations of the chest or where ever your fear is located works wounders. Usually the fear is in the stomach/chest area.

Thanks for The replys. Will chek out The exercises. @MeditationdudeI do yoga like 1h a Day... I used to sit at a desk all Day for like 7 yrs or something. Now i started exercising alot, running, yoga but keep geting this schoulder pain and it is geting worse and worse. But you are right ofcourse i do sit hunched over alot still. @Kidorikko Haha Who knows. I deffentely encourage you to take care of this and take it seriously as it dose get worse and worse. Im at The point where i cant really do any other excercie untill i fixed this.

What makes u belive in a next life? Are there any prof of past lives or reincarnation?

Hey! A Girl at work is showing interest, she has Boy friend, when she told me (just in passning by, not as obv sign like IM Taken!) I said "damn" but in swedish so "fan" and we continued talking and conecting alot. A few days later as we were waking d to our bikes she said "damn" i took my owm bike today (wich ment i had to walk abit further to get to The work bikes) seems like an obv signal to me?? I feel like t this is almost ment to be, geting alot of signs both from her and The universe. Sadly im quite shy and havet dated a Girl since my last gf broke my heart completly, then took me back just to break it again. This was 8 years ago. So my flirting skills are obv not very high.. IDK really what im asking for or hopeing u can help me with, just any advice on how to proceed?

OH and btw, beeing The boosted bonobo that I am when it comes to Girls i didnt even wait for her i just said, have a Nice Day " name" and started bikeing..

Meditate bro and be serious about it, sit up straight and breath deep for 1h everyday, you will transcend the ego more and more and "destroy" the parts of yourself wish you don't need. But you have to let go of this desire to destroy the ego, it is the egos desire, instead be aware of the desire.

Hey! Ive been following act.org for a while and lurking tho forum for tips on how to better my self and to read about you guyses perspecives and experiences. But never really felt the need to share anything myself. This insight i really wanted to share tho haha and most ppl i know would probably think im crasy or smth. I just realized that i don't exist, and come to think about it non of you do either. I know you all heard about this before but i just thought id share this small story of how i got this insight. Ive been meditating for 2 years now and last month or so ive been getting in to some states where i truly observe everything thats irising in me so thoughts, feelings etc. I started to realize that what you put your attntion on or what you are aware of is what becomes "real" in the sence of actually happening at that time. If you focus completly on a sensation that sensation is what is "real" at that time. F.ex. when i was our running to day, i notced clearly that i can simply chose to not focus on my thoughts complaining about that pain. (That actually makes the pain go away basically) And so as i got home now i realised, as i was cooking that I am just a bunch of learned behaviours that exist and come in to "reality" only when I am aware of them. So what is truly real? well i gues the answer is awarness it self. Idk what that is tho.

@Soonhei Yes thank you. Good advice.:)

Accept meaninglessness and accept the feeling of meaninglessness, "meaning" is just a small part of life, life is beautiful in and of it self, meaningful or not. You are beautiful for trying to improve your life, that is your meaning, that is meaningful, by helping yourself you help the world and the people around you, what could be more meaningful?. But fighting the feeling of meaninglessness will not make it better. just accept it, let it be, be aware of it, embrace it, integrate it as a part of your self, you are someone (basically everyone is) who sometimes feels meaninglessness.

Wich book are you guys using?? <3

@luckieluuke Yes that approach deffently works for getting rid of addictions and it works when you fall back as well also just trying to stay aware while doing the thing you are addicted helps, kinda hard tho as most addictions do involve tricking your self in a way. @PsiloPutty Just the cold like soar throat, runny nose, couching, sneezing, small fever etc, the degree of sickness has been varying but ive not been completely well since i got home about a month ago. I went to the doctor and they just said i probably got the flue two times in a row.

Hi! I meditated daily between 30min-1.5h for a year before i went to my vipassana retreat about a month ago. Before going i was doing very well in this work imo, except for my meditation practice i was also, doing yoga every day for atleast 40 min, i was jogging 5/6 days a week for atleast 30 min, i was eating healthy, reading books, taking only cold baths, contemplating daily and so on. Was almost completly free from gross addictions, previously i had been addicted to video games, porn, junk food, drinking, tv, and so on. I was pushing my self hard and i felt i was abel to deal with ressistance alot easyer due to having raised my awarness. I was peaking in terms of consciousness and health before i went to my vipassana retreat. At the retreat i kept pushing my self to follow all the rules and try my hardest during all the sits and also kept trying to stay aware during the breaks. On the last day of the retreat i started to get sick. Once i got home the first days i was doing fine, i was sick but did not have an ego backlash or anything. I got home just as my course in philosophy was was starting so i was going to that. But i kept getting more sick. So i had to stop going to the lectures and was just staying home laying in my sofa. Then after about a week or so after i got home i watched a few movies while sick, then i watched more and more and I started watching series, i kept up my meditation some what but some days only for about 20 minutes, all other practices fell of mostly due to feeling sick. Now it's been abit over 1 month and im still fking sick. And struggling to let go of addictions to tv and now the world championship of league of legends is starting wich i used to be HEAVILY addicted to so im struggling not to watch that. Wether my mind is causing is tricking me that im sick or not as apart of some kind of ego backlash or not i cant really tell, i truly feel sick and cant take a walk for more than 15 min where as before i used to run 10 km. Anyway, i deffently felt a big boost in awarness after the retreat and i loved meditating at home that first week after getting home. But the ego backlash was very real for me and coupled with getting sick im now in worse shape then before i went but that will of course change and i am finally starting to get back on my feet. And i am still happy i went there, it was a great experience and i grew alot as a person and in terms of consciousness from it. I wish you all the best at your retreat and i encourage you to keep up meditation practise everyday, it's truly amasing what can happen in only one year of daily meditation coupled with a retreat. But as others said don´t have to high expectations of the gains from only doing a retreat, you must keep up the daily practise. Sorry for writing so much...Good luck on your retreat<2!