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@pluto many thanks! ?

@pluto and others who have found CBD useful: what brand do you use? I'd like to try but have to order online, not sure which to choose.

Thanks you for replies & help @kerk@Esoteric@GreenWoods I've done more grounding activities (gym, dancing, yoga etc) and am no longer experiencing panic during kriya, only in other times. So that's good! Haven't tried shamanic breathing but I've been to holotropic breathwork sessions. Last time I vomited, mostly physical stuff. It's interesting and frustrating for I don't experience any panic or fear when doing breathwork: how to get to the root then? Still, afterwards, the feeling of terror has moved from my lower abdomen area to chest. I don't know..

I've been starting to experience panic-like feelings when doing pranayama (SantataGamana's, focus on 3rd eye). It intensifies on out-breath: pressure on chest and lightness on head. I'm not pushing the breath but doing pranayama as gently as possible. What to do now? Will I damage myself if I continue, because people say kriya shouldn't feel bad. Also, I have a history of having anxiety and panic attacks.

I've been thinking I'd like to try some guided meditation also (already do kriya yoga) so this post came in perfect timing for me. Thank you sooo much for sharing ?

Inspiring report, thank you ❤️ Keep going.

@moon777light Yayyy for getting motivation for yoga! Btw in another thread you mentioned you do hatha yoga, may I ask how did you learn it? I would want to do it but not sure how to start. I'm asking you because you seem to have been succesful with it.

Oooh, I'm almost finished reading that book from Bessel van der kolk! I just saw it randomly at the library. Loving it. Thank you for the tip, I'll go see her ig.

Hahahha. Where you read these stories, same page? Thanks for sharing!

Those Lahiri letters linked here are very inspiring. These guys are hardcore, reporting like "Yo Guruji I did 1728 pranayams in 12 hrs, blissed af" and 200 yoni mudras and 200 maha mudras - I'm often struggling with just a mala... It's hilarious.

@moon777light What kind of traditional yoga you started to do? I'm interested, even tho I have arches. And congratz!

Second time today I CRY for the description of non-dual experience. Lol I don't know why! It's just so beautiful. Sounds like a great trip

@Cocolove If you need to gasp air, do shorter breaths. You shouldn't have the need to gasp air. The breath will eventually get longer. @herghly I wouldn't worry about it, it will balance out if it needs to. Just remember to breathe everything out when you exhale. I'm doing pranayama from SantataGamana's book and have no need to count how long my breath lasts, because due course it will be fine.

@Space Yes indeed kriyas are not the point. I will absolutely start kriya yoga. But no idea how long should keep letting my body do its thing before I move into kriya yoga.. but that's most likely something nobody could tell. Edit: if there's anyone here who has experienced these movements and just let them happen: what happens after? How long did they last? Or maybe these are just releases of energy leading to no specific thing.

@Leo Gura Yeah, I will let these movements unfold. Thanks Leo @Cocolove I would love to do bioenergetic therapy with a professional. Unfortunately I would have to travel like 500km to a nearby therapist. Do you know if I can do it myself? @Space I have noticed the same thing, lol I know the point of kriyas but was just thinking that why would I do kriya yoga if these kriyas happen spontaneously.