Giulio Bevilacqua

I am stuck in the same loop in my kundalini awakening, I can't pierce though this block stored in my lower body root and sacral. I am thinking to take some substance and see if it can help to open up this knot. Quite scared it may be an energy explosion for the body but I am tired with this situation. What would be a good substance that helps to heal more on a physical basic level ? Not something like lsd I know it operates more on the mind level. I was thinking on ayahuasca but again I am not sure how safe it is to do it during a Kundalini awakening. I feel that this block is relative to fear of body death and dissolution. Has anyone an idea about this things ? Thank you

Much time has passed since my Kundalini activity, around 1 year now. I am loosing hope, but still trying to cope with this process. it’s so challenging. I am writing just to express my self and sharing. The most difficult thing is the spontaneous energy movement that the body goes in the moment I start just relaxing, whirling and spinning very fast like a Sufi dervish in a clockwise direction. It’s a healing movement, but I can’t cope with the speed and violence, I allow even the body to fall on the floor like a dead leaf, but the thing is not over and have to start again. If I decide to do other activities it feels so miserable, like swimming against a river because I have always to control and tense the body in order to not whirl. Need always to walk some kilometres to reach a grass field where to allow the body to do its thing, can’t do it in my room My anxiety is very strong because I think I will not come out of this situation. I just wish to enjoy my life again, playing music or just have a job. sometimes I get suicidal, not because I am depressed or whatever but because it’s so difficult situation and wasting my youth in this awakening process. I fear it so much , sometimes I can’t get out of bed in the morning because I know the hole horror story will start again so I try to distract myself with sleep or with social media. Why all this ? I know i just need to push through this whirling with more trust and giving away every concern about the body, but damn god why all this struggle and pain

Yes absolutely. I was 12 years old when i first played the drums. I was so excited to play it. As i hit the drums i went into a state of trance/explosion. I was very young and did not know what it was and felt quite normal about it. Lately i discovered that that event triggered my Kundalini energy

Hi. I would suggest natural surrender yoga. You surrender your will over your body and mind. Your body will move as it wants to moves. It has the natural intelligence to heal it self without forceful techniques that could prevent a total and clear healing. Spontaneous body movements will clear the stuck energies from your body in the best and natural way possibile

Maybe this can help https://youtu.be/sT-w7iE5B9M

But if the energy is trying to express it self through whirling why should I try to control it ? I thought that I has a innate intelligence and knows what is best. Am I wrong ?

Beautiful thank you ?

Have you checked Ayurveda?

Yes i mainly did echography/scan test in different parts of the body. Especially two times in my stomach area. They could not find anything

If i get through this challenge, i'll invite you all to Italy

Thank you guys. I appreciate your support. Thank you very much to all of you.

Yes i went, to doctors. I did many tests and they could not find anything. Quite funny

The anxiety came because I got so scared of this motion, and have never been able to surrender to it fully. I think it’s a quite and natural body expression, even children do it.

I found this today

I think I had it since childhood. But the main manifestation happened last year. I lost interest in sexuality so I did not ejaculate for 5 months. Along with that I was consistently practicing tai chi Qi gong, and often I was smoking weed. One night before sleeping I fall into an empty space. The day after many symptoms appeared, like shaking and mudras and increased awareness, than this motion started to manifest. @happyhappy

Kundalini can make you whirl spontaneously :,)

I am curious to know what have been the most difficult situations that you have faced during your life and how they have transformed you

Still in pain after 1 year

“There is something wrong right now” ”I should be different from what I am now” “I should not feel this “

I think it will develop the moment you drop the need to control it

Hi everyone. By now I have tried many approaches and techniques but none of them seem working effectively. I have tried Tara Springett methods, crystals, meditation. The discomfort is too much in the stomach and sacral area .I surrender as much as I can to it but then comes a time were it is unbearable. I am getting afraid of it because I do not see any improvement since months now and my concern for life is growing about what I will be or do in the future if my conditions remain as this. Life is not more enjoyable with this stuff. Trying too see if there are beliefs hidden in my psyche but the stuff is so deeply rooted that no thought come to the surface and can not see what those blocks are about. I am planning to do a 3 days intensive Shaktipat with Jan Esmann, that is my last pill. have you any idea or tips for this stuff ? Thank you very much

@Salvijus are you familiar with bandhas ?

I am sick of this shit, I do not know where this patience of going forward is coming from. This K energy is breaking me in all ways. I feel this massive tension/knot in my lower stomach, it is filled up with worry and anxiety, sometimes it gets very strong pressure. I have tried some many things like microdosing lsd, didn’t felt anything, a Kundalini Healing course with crystals and kind of things. I try to be present with the sensation without resisting it or seeing which believes are triggering this shit, feel some relief but there comes a point where it is overwhelmingly strong and loose hope. It’s a loop of worry. Feeling of worry > tension> more tension about the tension>fear that this will not pass>more fear about the tension that is growing and so on. The body wants to release this trough a whirling movement in a crazy speed. I am just searching for an alternative way but worrying that there is no one and this creates more fear.. I do not know how to get out of this hell

Do you know the cause of what is triggering this pain ? Like thoughts loop ?

Surrender control