Giulio Bevilacqua

I've reached a point of total confusion, I really don't know what to do in my life. All this spirituality has brought a lot of confusion. At the moment nothing matters, only my inner journey. I have to come to make a decision about how to move forward . At the moment I do not have a social occupation I often have this idea to leave everything and live somewhere in nature or in a monastery, but I also doubt this . I do not have more this feeling where I can say "this is what I must do now" everything looks flat, empty without colours . I told my parents that in September I would start a Percussion Music school, I have great skills in it, but I feel it is a forced decision, only just to do something and try to see how the situation would change. If I where alone without parents, I would know what to do, just trusting this not knowing and wait what happens . It's a total block. The spiritual journey is going quite good , I feel lot of moments where I'm totally empty, maybe this creates some turmoil in the external life. Is this a normal phase and will pass ? Have you had similar experiences ? Thank you very much. Sorry for my English

I feel to do nothing and wait , but this feeling is in me quite long .

Yes , the situation is temporary, that makes me feel more grounded. My spiritual journey consist in witnessing, it has done a lot . Also doing nothing technique. I have taken lot of things from osho, sadhguru and eckhart tolle . I feel lost because I can not feel what I have to do , it"s a not knowing , not knowing what action to take , everything that comes in my mind is forced just to escape the confusion. The areas in which I would like to step in are Tai chi, Yoga in India in sadhgurus ashram and music. I have a band, but it is very ego oriented, so I do not even know if I have to leave them . My main occupation in this time is spirituality, and this brought to a huge lack of interest in external things.

Hi everyone. If enlightenment is your life purpose, what do you do with the "material" "external" activities ? Does it mean you have to live in an ashram or in so called spiritual places? Can you persue enlightenment and at the same time becoming a great musician or businessman ? Eckhart tolle has a view about this. There is a internal purpose (enlightenment,presence) and a second purpose that is your material aspect. What do you think ? Thank you

Hi everyone . Now it's quite long that I'm stuck in this situation . I'm struggling with the idea that I would like to do more things contemporary , but at the same time I've heard many people saying that it is better to follow one path . I would like to go to university and study a subject just for knowing and enjoyment, not for career and so on . At the same time I invest lot of time in practices like tai chi, yoga , different kinds of meditations and in playing drums. I've heard lot of people that can handle different activities . But is it worth ? Maybe one can arrange them into one path, and make one thing out of all those . My fear is also that if I choose one thing I have to give up the others . Sorry for the English . Have you any tips ? Thank very much .

Could someone explain me what is Karma Yoga about ? I've read something but I didn't understand It well . Thank you !

Hi everyone . I'm experiencing doubts about my relationship . I'm in a relationship for 4 and half years . In these days I've know a girl during a theatre project that i' m working on . There is a strong connection,attraction between us, and I have a big pull to speak with her and spend some time together. So what to do ? In my actual relationship I don't have strong emotions towards her, and also with physical contact sometimes I get a little bit contract . I've often tohught to break up , but I think deep down there is a fear to hurt her . She is very fragile , I feel more to be a brother to her. But there are moments where i"m relaxed and not too judgentmental , i feel very good with her . Sadhguru says that there is not best person to live with , it's only involvement My mind is getting very confused. In a bigger view I think that you can live happily without discrimination and judgment with everyone , so there is no best decision . Is this only a trick of the mind ?

No at the beginning I was a bit skeptical . I didn't have a strong emotion , but I decided to go with her . After some months I had big crisis , with big doubts , maybe because It was my first relationship . I didn't felt the beginning" emotional storm". There was always this fear to hurt her in thinking about a break up

Hi everyone, I feel very embarrassed writing about my actual inner problems because they are really absurd and foolish , but in the last time they really took possession over me , so I try to write about it. I think they concern excessive perfectionism and mind categorization about everything . I can not enjoy the simplest things in the last time . I always want all the cake and never a portion. I explain better with examples. If I read a book about nutrion or nature (or any possible field) I get irritated because I want to know everything about the subject, I want a degree in it , I want a profession with it . My mind says " you are not a professor of botanic or nutrition do not read this " My mind want to maximise everything. Or a walk in nature watching flowers " you are not a student of botanic so do not watch them" A philospical discussion " you are not a philosopher you don't study philosophy so do not discuss" Listening to music " your life career is not concerned with music so why listen to it " Or meditation " you are not a meditation teacher you can't meditate " I can not study or read something for my self, I want always everything about it ,I'm not content with a portion . I do a thai chi course but I feel frustrated because I want to a have a super professional school where they teach all about it . This mechanism is invading a lot of things , also coocking. I do not know what to do . I know it is crazy and stupid Sorry for the English

Hi , i'm experiencing strong head preassures . I'ts like a bubble that is expanding inside the center of my brain and sometimes between the end of the spine and the brain . It is not hurting , but sometimes it gets very uncomfortable . Have you experienced something like this ? Has it to do with chakras ? Thank you very much

Yes correct

Hi everyone. When I practice self enquiry I come to a feeling/sensation of "i" that I indentify with, but that also can be seen . I think it's the I thought that Ramana Maharshi spoke about. It so a subtle feeling like a little energetic cloud very small that appears on the field of awareness . What is that ? Because it has no content like a thought. It's strange . Do you know what I'm speaking about ?

@Rilles diaphragm throat and head. I can't understand it . Its too strange No it is not the Watcher . It's a little energy wave that refers to be the i . I can observe it so I can not be that

No it is not the Watcher . It's a little energy wave that refers to be the i . I can observe it so I can not be that

Yes it is so triky because it is very subtle very small and with no content . I do not know how to overcome it. I think it is the source of the Ego

Hi everyone . After several days of hard introspection , where i have experienced deep spaciousness and emptiness inside me , i find myself in these days with a lot of thoughts attacks and strong emotions . The thoughts are like a machine gun but i still can remain the observer but sometimes i get caught in . I was wondering if this emotion and thought stuff is something normal after days of introspection or am i doing something wrong ? i'm i trying to hard ? Or is it a sing of progress where a lot of trash is coming on the surface ? It's really frustrating and confusing . Have you expericend someting similar ?

@Anton_Pierre Sounds good

Is disidentification a different "process " from Witnessing ? I think it's the same "thing" but only said with different names . I think we have to make some clearness about this topic , because it can bring us in wrong directions . Do they need an effort to be "done" ? In my experience no, because instead of being we are doing and that could be ego. I would like to explain better but the leanguage is limiting my expression sorry.

I find the same difficulities . During music i can not be aware i get so lost in doing . I'ts hard

But witnessing is needed to disidentify

Ok very good

Hi everyone , in this last days i've experienced blissfull experiences . I've practiced a lot , conscious doing , awareness , doing nothing. The point is that i want more of that states in number and in quantity = Spiritual Ego hehehe. I would like to do nothing all the day, it's kind of an addiction . How to handle this of awakening flashes ? Thank you

Yes, thank you very much :))

What do you think about working on two life purpose ? I think we can quietly work on two aspects of life if we can organize in a good way our time . There are and have been a lot of people that were masters in different areas of life Some examples : Benjamin Franklin : Author , politic man , scientist , activist , printer Galileo Galilei : astronomer , physician , philosopher and mathematician Maya Angelou : poet, activist ,historian, musician, actor, performer , movie director , teacher David Bowie : musician , actor, poet . dramaturg, painter and stylist and many others . Leonardo da Vinci

Wow , nice ! Thank you . Are you a psychologist ?