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@Mu_ Thanks dude 26-10-18 Today was an awful day. I think I am starting to get addicted to porn again. I need to find a way to reduce my personal needs to once per week. Even my favourite pornstar seems to have returned after 3 years. This is not good. Both ''Iron John'' and ''No More Mr. Nice Guy'' have arrived earlier than expected. I have started reading ''Iron John'' and although it is a very good book I can't find any energy to read it for too long. I don't know why but I feel so tired all day. Since my toe injury on Wednesday both my parents wanted me to take a break from fitness. It is Friday now and even though I feel ready to go again, I didn't go. First because of the entire ''tired'' situation and second the fact that I am scared to somehow interrupt the healing process of my toe. The last one was a reason brought up by my dad after he brought me back to home from the doctor. School is close and believe it or not I am kinda happy. I wasted free time in gaming instead of reading which makes me feel guilty. I can't find energy to watch any of Leo's video's too. I tried watching ''How To Be A Strategic Motherfucker - The 7 Pillars Of Strategic Thinking'' during my gaming session but I can't recall what he has said after 40 minutes of listening. I am sorry Leo, but I tend to feel really tired when I am watching you. Btw this entire situation has also made me think about a theory. I think that because kids are raised up with all these action movies, video games and all that kind of stuff, things like meditation and book reading seems/becomes so boring for them. The only argument against that is that children are already full of energy, with or without action movies, when they are born. Today I will once again do shamanic breathing. Maybe today will be different. Last time I did shamanic breathing I couldn't feel my fingers and fell asleep for 10 min. For last I wanted to talk about my ex. I think she is trying to seduce me. For months now she sends kinky stuff to me on Snapchat. I don't want her back, so I am not gonna accuse her of anything. I just hope that she sends the same snaps to all of her friends, in that way it will be proven that she isn't trying to get me back.

I only just started reading. Because of Actualized.org I bought books. Without it, I would probably be playing games right now.

I only say that because I think his books contain just as difficult sentences as ''The Six-Pillars of Self-Esteem''

I just got back from the library and it turns out that I can get Deepak Chopra books there. There were also books categorized in ''Mindfulness'' and ''Psychology''. I was very suprised. You have to understand that this is the third time I visited the library in 3 months. An entire world just opened to me. I am still very young, so I guess I have an advantage on everyone who has started reading late in their lives? I am excited to read all those books, but it is kind of my issue too. I have no clue if I should follow my own booklist, or just go to the library every month and pick 3 books. Since joining this forum, the goal was to follow my booklist. Categorize what I am interested in and go on from there. I already have 32 books in my booklist. The struggle with knowing which one I should buy first is already kind of an issue. Now that I know my library has even more books, I don't know what to do. Oh yeah, does anyone know anything about Khalil Gibran? I saw a book of his, and he is some kind of founder of psychology? Something like that I think. All I know is that the guy was born in Lebanon.

Hello everyone. I am not sure if this topic belongs here. Everytime I meditate and my body hurts in some area, I tend to literally smash my head against the wall. I tend to be agressive. My face heatens up and I just want to hit the wall with my head. Fortunately nothing bad has happened, but I am afraid that it will. Any advice?

@Jack River Thanks for the advice

Whenever I don't know what to do during meditation (I'm still new to all of this) I listen to the silence around me. If someone makes noise I listen to the remaining silence. Is this a form of meditation?

@cetus56 Am I supposed to feel my heart and what's around it during meditation? Or should just look up a guide for clearer information?

I actually don't even know. I try to be concious for most of the time. Everytime Leo explained what typical methods of meditation are, I forgot them. And watching the same video again for 30 min isn't my thing. I try to look objectively to my thoughts, but I have no clue how that works. Then I try just letting go of my thought, that works really well. After that I try to be present in the moment as long as possible. The methods don't go as fluent as it sounds. A lot of fantasy distractions from my mind or the body tense gets in the way. Which leads to tend me to harm myself.

@cetus56 good luck

@Serotoninluv thank you for your answer and I'll definetly try that.

@BjarkeT Then I'll buy the booklist

Hello everyone. I was wondering if buying the LP course and the booklist is worth it for a teen. In case I should buy at least one, I will buy the booklist.

Hello everyone. By the title you can make up that I am a teen who is interested in eating healthier. I am 14 years old, 1.87 m (6.1 ft) and I workout 3 times a week in the gym. I do exercises like typical cardio, muscle exercises and stretching exercises. Stumbling upon the video from Leo called ''How To Shop For Healthy Food'' I wondered what I could do to change my diet. I should start off by saying that my family is like the typical family. According to Leo, we all learnt to eat BS. I want to change that from early on so I won't have the problems many adults face these days with their health. Leo also said that it's these ''devils'' who have infiltrated our systems (education, medication etc.) and manipulated it so that they can benefit from our suffering. That's why I don't want to go to a dietitian. I mean what are the odds they aren't manipulated by those ''devils''? Maybe asking random people on the internet isn't that smart either, but I have to try it. My mom always said, since I lost many weight, that I don't need to see a dietitian because I am already eating healthy. In the last year I lost a lot of fat and am basically not fat anymore . According to my fitness teacher I am officially healthy (we tested it). Watching Leo's video makes me question that statement. I eat a lot of bread, dairy products and that kind of stuff. What can I do to change my diet? Should I just command my parents to buy me all the stuff Leo talks about? To give you a little insight, here is my diet: Waking up at 06:30, first thing I do is filling up a bowl with milk and cornflakes. I usually fill it up one more time, so in total 2 cornflakes meals. Unlike the cornflakes I don't fill up my milk. In the afternoon I usually eat meat. Things like shawarma or sometimes macaroni. Evening is around the same as afternoon. If I get hungry, instead of eating cookies as I used to, I eat fruit. Apples most of the time. I usually drink water. I can't remember the last time I drank something like cola. I have to admit, I drink coffee, ice coffee and tea too. So what would you guys recommend to me to change? Should I go in depth about this while I am still young? Don't worry, I avoid things like big macs, ice cream, candy and chocolate. Those aren't a problem for me.

Hello everyone. I recently started meditating and made an agreement with myself. Everytime I would count off randomly from to 3 to 0 and my timer would actually go off I needed to set the timer a stage higher. Currently I meditate 20 min a day, but exactly today I followed up on this. Just around when the timer was supposed to go off, I randomly counted down from 3 to 0 and exactly on 0 the timer went off. I started a month ago and right now I am not sure if I should put the timer on 30 min instead of 20. The plan was to go for 30 min after 2.5 months.

I got halfway through Leo's video, I will watch the rest of it in a second. Trying to make this soup might be a difficult task. I'll just need to come up with this randomly on my mom.

Hello there. Today I lent my first book from the library. After looking through all the spiritual, self-help, yoga, self-realization, mindfulness, philosophy, psychology and meditation books I found a book named 'The Element' by Ken Robinson. I will starts reading in a few hours, before that I might meditate first. I don't know for sure yet. I went to the gym today. Regular cardio. The typical buffed guy is leaving the gym for a different one. I must say he is one of the few friends I made there. Not that I saw him that much, but surely a good friend. There were also some girls which a friend talked about with me. Those girls were supposedly hot. I have seen better. Today I am going to change my diet. I made another post which you can look up if you are interested. I asked for recommendations for change of my diet and got a few responses. I'll buy herbal tea, whole grain bread and eat a lot of salad etc. After posting about what kind of spiritual technics teens could do, someone suggested that I should develop interests. That's what I am trying to work on. For me it's gonna be 'hacking'. I always was interested in the topic and what kind of depth there is. Since the guidelines of this forum talks about how hacking is not accepted here, I won't talk about it too much. Right now I have an autumn break. A week of freedom. In 2 weeks on Wednesday I will recieve 'Iron John' by Robert bly and 'No More Mr Nice Guy' by Robert Glover. I ordered both books on last Sunday with a little of anger coming from my dad. He asked why I would read books for the hobby. I already know that he just doesn't want to spend his money, but that reaction made me laugh. For a last note, after the autumn break I will try to get closer to a higher grade girl. She is kind of my crush. I think I know her from back in the day and I will try to talk to her about that. My friend in another higher grade suggested I should stalk my crush on the internet. So far no results in stalking (I don't even know the girl's name).

Thanks for the compliment. I already discussed this with my instructor. When I asked for strenuos exercises she explained to me why right now I can't do that. She talked about how it could effect my body and ruin my growth. I might need to focus more on bodyweight and handstands. Stretches and sprints are things that I already do. Does ice coffee also fall in this category of stimulants? I will buy herbal tea this week, thank you for the recommendation. Fair enough. I already asked my mom for salad today. Anything you would recommend putting in the salad? Right now it's either chicken or tuna, casual tomatoes, eggs, cucumber and lettuce. Acknowledged. I think I will buy whole grain bread this week. Maybe later I will speak to a certified nutritionist. Right now I am already busy with school, reading self-help books and changing my diet. Thank you so much for the information.

I am still new, so this may be a stupid question. Can sports be linked to spirituality? Everytime I go to the gym, the motivation + the music makes it an extraordinary experience for me. I wondered while running for 10 mins if sports could be linked to spirituality.

Hello everyone. Since I joined this forum, I noticed many times that people are on their way to enlightenment because they aren't truly happy. They heard Leo talk about enlightenment and the next thing they do is trying it out. My first question is if your lives are really terrible? Like, can you describe me the feeling of missing the happiness in your life? All I heard is that it is the result of working too hard and not listening to your body and emotions. Second question: what would you advice to do as a teen, to avoid this kind of pain? If you are on your way to enlightenment and you got the choice to go back in time and fix some things to make your path easier, what would it be? I know that meditating early in your life is a good thing. What else have you guys got for me? In case you couldn't make this up, I am a teen who wants to know what he can do to avoid this kind of suffering.

1. Will meditation help me let go of attachment of identity and living in appereciation of mystery? 2. I used to do prayers because I was heavily muslim, I replaced it completely with meditation. I tried using the schedule muslims use for prayers as a schedule for meditation, but I guess I was too lazy to finish it.

@Adam M - Check - Check - Still gotta work on that - Already begun - Already begun (I will merge this one together with reading books about dating/social skills) - I don't have any as far as I know, since starting a booklist I found a book about hacking. I might wanna try that I already meditate 20 mins a day. I have acknowledged the importance of meditation since I was 13.

@Salvijus What do you think I am doing ?

@Salvijus Oh wauw tnx

@Sven Thanks for the advice. I will focus on experiencing rather than understanding with mind/intellect/brain. The last one already seemed to difficult, guess I don't have an option now. Also I would like to thank you for the compliments. I am glad someone actually read my first post of my journal. I guess I am bright