Ampresus

@tsuki Damn that is a good point

I don't understand this. Today at school I realized that nothing mattered. All the moments I lived in, the teachings, the girl in front of me. All didn't matter. Why would it matter? Really? It is not like I will remember any of it when I am 20. It doesn't have a point, but that moment at the same time was so funny that I just laughed at it. So pointless and so beautiful. Can anyone explain this to me?

@DavidK @Etherial Cat My bad, I only saw the glory of the EU. I should've done more research before posting something like this. I am interested in reading more into EU though, so thanks for replying.

Hello everyone. I am just a young person and have this dream of becoming part of the EU. Technically I already am, since I live in The Netherlands, but I mean it as working there. Actually being involved with the EU. I am amazed with the successes it has. I am not only talking about the political part, but also economic and geographical parts. Ofc the EU has a lot of experts, since it is so big, and I really look up to them and their work. While fantasizing about them and how I could work there, I wondered if those experts can be put on the Spiral. Or if the EU in general has its place on the Spiral. Because of my admiring I think the experts in the EU belong in Yellow. It makes sense to me that the countries combine their best experts and make a strong force on the global field against America and China. I wonder what you guys think.

@Strikr Literally so many people told me to start meditating as soon as possible. I don't know what you mean. I don't even know you. What do you mean with ''we told you''? I think you are the only one spreading bs here.

Hello everyone. I haven’t started meditating a long time ago, but I noticed some strange things today, yesterday and past Friday where I did a shamanic breathing session. I felt like losing control over my body and going into something new. It felt weird, strange and scary so I always made sure it didn’t happen completely. Later on I tried to let it happen, but not much came from it. Next time it happens I will not try anything at all. I got some new insights because of some of those weird experiences, but I don’t know what they possibly could mean.

Hello everyone. I have a struggle with jealousy. Let me explain my situation: I am a student, 14 years old and only a few months ago joined this forum. In my class there a total of 5 good English speakers. 3 are like that because they were raised up in an English country. 2 I don't know how in the world their English is better than mine. One of them is a girl which I have an eye on and you have to understand that all the good English speakers are kind of a friend group. During class, instead of staying they are allowed to leave to go somewhere and write an assignment. Everyone else has to stay in class, but they are allowed to leave. While the teacher explains stuff, I see them come back and forth, laugh and walk away. Can you understand my situation? I have to sit in class while 5 people can leave and write an assignment for the teacher which needs to be entertaining for the teacher to read. Why not me for heaven's sake too? I want to spend more time with her, I don't want to stay in the class and English for me is also very easy. Maybe not compared, to the 3 who are raised up with the language, but certainly to those who aren't. I hate the general fact that there are people who can speak the language far better than me, apparently, and get these privileges. In 7th grade I was the ultimate pro, now in 9th grade I am introduced to 5 new ones and look like an average English speaker. My friend, who is a very smart boy, told me that we don't need to try to do the same thing they do. He thinks that they probably are doing extra work, instead of skipping what we are doing. I still don't know yet. The thing with this is: I practically am better with all the other classes compared to them. They have more inadequates than me. In fact, I don't have any. So I actually shouldn't be worried at all. Still, here I am. Worrying about some bullshit. While writing this I realize how stupid this sounds. Sorry if I wasted your time.

Hello everyone. Currently it is Black Friday and I saw some psychology books in sale. Yesterday however when I went to the bookstore I saw a series of Osho's books and Tao Te Ching. Surprised, I laughed. I couldn't believe how much knowledge I was holding in my hands. Then I wondered if I should buy those books while I am 14, or leave that to later in my life. I am basically asking for some recommendations about these books.

Hello everyone. When I first joined this forum I was probably Blue. Not deeply, but to a certain degree for sure. I was muslim. I have put that behind me, but I am struggling with a few things. I am young and telling my parents that I am not a believer in ''the one and holy God and his prophet Mohammed'' will literally make them hate me. I wouldn't be scared of that if I wasn't dependent on their support. I am planning to be completely on my own when I am 18, but right now I am still 14 years old. Should I just participate in things like Ramadan? I already don't celebrate much in the islamic holidays, but if I for example eat non-halal food my parents would destroy me. On the other hand, when I asked for healthy food advice on this forum people said that I shouldn't eat meat that much at all. So it is kind of a win-win situation to a certain degree, at least for me. Am I supposed to observe my behavior and needs to find out where I am on the Spiral? What I do know is that I don't care much about material stuff, do care about my career and spirituality, have some Green in me, would like to engage in New Age stuff and want to go on a Vipassana retreat. I have my eye on a girl in my class, my grades are good and sports are going well. When I was younger I looked up things to manipulate other people, but couldn't get it over my heart to engage in those activities. I grew up most of the time telling the truth and now instead of lying I try to make it clear when I don't want to share something with someone. Any advice will be highly wanted. Thanks for your time. Take care.

@Nahm I can laugh about it all day. I also realized that everybody takes life too serious. If life doesn't have a point, you shouldn't take it serious if you aren't giving it a purpose yourself. This made me more laugh, because everybody in my class (including my teacher) was exactly doing that. Taking one class way to seriously. The girl looked behind at me and thought I was crazy. Same for my friend next to me and her gf next to her.

@Roman Edouard I thought that trying to use logic with enlightenment (what you are doing here) is everything BUT reaching enlightenment. I personally am not enlightened and therefore won't argue with you. I suggest you do the same.

@Outer My goals are right now: finding my life purpose, build charisma and learn as much as possible while I still am young.

@Angelite Purifying myself from judgement & attachment, thanks for the advice. I should basically just think everything through and not do something what I could regret later in my life.

@non_nothing I am glad that I am atleast going the right way on my journey.

21-11-18 OK sorry for what happened there. I accidentally triple-clicked the enter button. Right now I want to focus on charisma and life-purpose. Not everyone has money and so I can't just buy the life-purpose course. Technically I can, but making such a big investment in video content will not make my mom accepting this. I don't want to explain everything about actualized.org to her, I want this all to stay secret from her. I will try to put 300 euros to my PayPal account and from there pay the life-purpose course. A Black Friday sale is wanted Leo!!! Any book recommendations about life-purpose and charisma will be highly wanted.

21-11-18 OK sorry for what happened there. I accidentally triple-clicked the enter button. Right now I want to focus on charisma and life-purpose. Not everyone has money and so I can't just buy the life-purpose course. Technically I can, but making such a big investment in video content will not make my mom accepting this. I don't want to explain everything about actualized.org to her, I want this all to stay secret from her. I will try to put 300 euros to my PayPal account and from there pay the life-purpose course. A Black Friday sale is wanted Leo!!! Any book recommendations about life-purpose and charisma will be highly wanted.

21-11-18 Hello everyone. Not much to say really. I had an operation at the hospital to my toe on Monday. I skipped school on Monday and Tuesday which resulted in me needing to catch up with the physics test. The girl I have an eye on and one of her friends messaged me during the day to ask me where I was. Which needs they are concerned about me, which means I make more chance. She thinks about me after and during school. Tomorrow I will be going to the mall in our city with her. Again. This time to buy a scarf apparently. Because of the toe operation I couldn't go to sports on Monday and today. Believe it or not I hate that. I really want to go. I feel lazy during the days I am not going and don't have the energy to practice. I guess I am attached to sports now.

21-11-18 Hello everyone. Not much to say really. I had an operation at the hospital to my toe on Monday. I skipped school on Monday and Tuesday which resulted in me needing to catch up with the physics test. The girl I have an eye on and one of her friends messaged me during the day to ask me where I was. Which needs they are concerned about me, which means I make more chance. She thinks about me after and during school. Tomorrow I will be going to the mall in our city with her. Again. This time to buy a scarf apparently. Because of the toe operation I couldn't go to sports on Monday and today. Believe it or not I hate that. I really want to go. I feel lazy during the days I am not going and don't have the energy to practice. I guess I am attached to sports now.

Hello everyone. I am Ampresus and am currently a newbie on this forum and everything related to Actualized.org. I just discovered a great playlist on Spotify with all sorts of guided meditation. Here is my issue however: Leo said that if you want to start meditating, you gotta build the duration of the session up in a period of 1 year. From 20 min to 1 hour. Right now I do 30 min sessions, but not all guided meditations are 30 min. Some are 10, 20, 15, 40. There was one with love, something I think I need to develop early in my life, that was 12 min. Can anyone offer some advice? I meditate for 30 min a day, I do shamanic breathing sessions every Friday and read my books everyday. I am 14 years old. Any advice will be highly wanted. Take care.

I think the title says enough. I am planning to live on my own when I am 18 (currently 14 years old) and have seen different video's and Leo talk about minimalism. When I start to move out, should I go for that minimalism lifestyle asap? Oh and does anyone know any good books about how to keep your shit together when living alone?

@111111 Thank you for the advice. @111111 Yes people already told me about this. I am planning to read books about how one should sustain all these different situations (such as financial situation) and want to combo it with minimalism as soon as I leave my house. Oh I am gonna post about this right now.

Hello everyone. This might be a silly question, but I don't really understand this. I am new to the entire enlightenment thing. For example: I can't remember the definition of mindfulness. Pretty new as you can see. For some reason I have this satisfaction with the words ''conflict and chaos'' and wondered if it had anything to do with enlightenment. Take care.

@now is forever I heard that if you want to build up charisma you have to be real, so here I am.

@Jack River Can you explain this further I don't understand this.

@tsuki Thank you for that fragment.