digitalkaine

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  1. I have alot of friends that are girls while also not having a girlfriend of my own. I do have some romantic relationships from time to time but nothing ever serious lately. I'm just writing this because I had 3 seperate conversations today with 3 different girls that were all similar and I like I dont want to be an asshole or rude but Idk why they all do and say the same shit. The first girl is my ex whos been with her new boyfriend for like over a year now and their whole relationship is a mess. Today she comes into my room and starts telling me about how she found text messages between him and some girl about how he wanted to give her a massage and then she contfronted him about it and then he broke his ipad over leg and had to go to the hospital for it because he cut his arm. This type of shit happens like weekly and then she just tells me how she talks to other dudes and even asked me if I wanted to hook up with her soon and I just said no. She then started talking about how she felt powerful because she was talking to her boyfriends cousin (while saying this shes getting ready to go hang out with her BF because he threw a fit and wanted to come pick her up). I'm just like how do you feel powerful if you just do whatever he says all the time? She kept going on and im like dude I really dont want to talk about this. She knows I hate hearing about toxic relationship shit so she was like "alright I'll shut up." Not in an angry way but she just knows that im not interested in that stuff. The second girl is my friend who like without my consent basically just starts telling me about this dude shes dating and how like he wont let her break up with him, and I'm just like what the fuck does that even mean? like how does someone not let you break up with them. and then she goes on about how he just shows up to her house and like demands she sees him and then she does it and then like last time she cornered her in her room and was yelling at her. and the whole time I'm like trying to be her friend because it sounds like its abusive but I just dont understand like how it even gets to that point if you dont want to be with him to begin with. Dont get me wrong I got my own problems for sure which is probably why I'm single but when I hear shit like this I'm like wtf. I get being in love and shit but like I really dont understand how you just continuously chose to just do things like that knowing the outcome and then like complaining about it constantly. And then I'm not going to lie it almost makes me feel like I'm in the wrong for like not being insecure or something, but maybe I'm just around the wrong type of people? I really hope everyone is not like this but this is all I see most of the time. Like these dudes get all insecure because they're dating hot girls and then it becomes abusive and the girls act like its such a huge problem but continue to stay thinking they can fix them or something and its just like why even waste your time doing that. truthfully I really dont care if my SO gets attention from men as long as shes like not being blatently disrespectful then I wouldnt give a shit at all, and even if something was to occur where she did do something behind my back I would just leave. I wouldnt like hate her or disrespect her or be petty back, like I understand we're human she doesnt owe me anything and I'm really just usually appreciateive of any time spent but like I dont have to deal with that. It just seems like everybody has an attraction to being in toxic relationships and its just kind of annoying in all honesty. Everyone talks about how they wanna be with someone who is fine with or without them but they continuously chose people who are willing to crash out if they dont get what they want. I'm really not trying to act like i'm the most secure person on the planet either, I have insecurities for sure but I'd really rather do anything then just be in a toxic realtionship where I'm like doing all this stuff that isn't me just for someone to love me.
  2. Thats what I've been thinking too. Seems like hes maturing and giving genuine advice.
  3. I see what you're saying as well. I do appreciate that type of advice in all honesty. I know its not the answer to all my questions because you are right my situation and my psychology is nuanced and complex along with the world and society its not as easy as me just staying fully committed to being the best me. I really dont have anyone that gives that type of advice in my life though so it is kind of nice mostly everyone around me kind of enables me to just be the way I am. Nobody is ever real with me, I'm not looking for like respect or to be coddled I really want an honest opinion or response so I can better understand myself. Sometimes other perspectives really help with that, I feel like everyones too nice and its cool I mean we all need that at times but I'm just interested in seeing things from a different perspective.
  4. I really struggle with coming to terms with what Actualized has done for me personally. I want to be as honest as possible when I say this and try to keep it short. I discovered Actualized in 2013/14 ish and watched on and off for years until about 2020-2021. I was in a toxic and abusive relationship with an ex girlfriend and watching Actualized actually helped me get out of it just by allowing me to love myself and love my ex while allowing things to just be as they are and develop boundaries and respect for myself. I was able to tell when I was being manipulated and was able to set my foot down in many instances and eventually was able to move out and live on my own and have my own life. Looking back on it now it was really minor in comparison to what I'm dealing with now. Everything was going decent, not perfect but better then the toxic mess I was in during that time. Then one day in late 2021 I ended up getting sick and developing an autoimmune disease (Unvaccianted) and since then things have kind of steadily spiraled out of control.(Also when i stopped consuming Actualized content regularly) Firstly, it was really hard for me to understand and talk to other girls after our relationship and getting sick made things 10x worse but I eventually pulled myself out of it and I was even able to date someone briefly for a little while this year. ATP I'm single I would like to be in a relationship ofc and I've come to understand I'm actually deserving of love in any state where as before I kind of didnt feel that way however, I'm in no place to even worry about a relationship right now because of my living situation, health, finacnes. Everything is just completely fucked. I really dont want to come in here and complain but this is the only place where I feel like people might understand where I'm coming from because I feel like everything Actualized has taught has resonated with me deeply and I dont know anyone else in real life who kind of understands reality on this level. I dont frequent the boards. I dont particpate in conversations to be honest I dont even care to, but this place feels like home when things dont make sense maybe because the content itself has helped me through rough times and understand myself better (I'm hoping at least). I really only come here when I have issues and or questions and sometimes I get decent responses. I'm really emberassed to say all this but I'm a felon over some really stupid shit in 2016 I was caught with a tablet of Alprozlam after leaving a party, I would have had a misdemenour however I failed the drug program and it landed me with 1 and half years probation and a felony. Since my felony of course its been hard to find good jobs, but in all honesty it doesnt even matter because I'm so irresponsible that even if I do have a good job I ended up calling out alot and fucking it off because I hate working. Thats not the worst of my issues, I was so broke last year that I actually had to end up moving back in with my ex after not living with her all year. On top of that my dog and her dog ended up having 7 puppies. We were able to get rid of 3 but I was not able to find homes for the other 4 and now we have 6 dogs in a small 3 bedroom house. I do my absolute best to care for them and make sure they get love and attention while i find them homes but shit just isnt really working. I feel like a piece of shit most of the time because I cant believe that I allowed for something like this to happen. I'm dirt poor and my ex is barley ever here because shes usually with her new boyfriend and the house is so dirty but everyday I bust my ass to clean it and all the money I do make making art goes to the dogs and then me buying fucking coffee and meals for myself. In 2012 before I discovered actaulized I was actually on the road to becoming famous and making alot of money producing music for a hip hop group that was blowing up at that time. Then around 2020 I had another brush with success doing cover art for really big artists but ended up just self sabotoging it all away to shit. Now I'm basically like an internet bum boarderline begging for musicians to pay me next to nothing to make art so I can survive everyday. It actually wasn't until today that I realized that the way I see myself is the reason things are the way they are. I'm worth way more then what I charge and I realize that and I actually allowed myself to get to this point. I actually made a promise to myself that I would never sell myself short again when it came to my artwork I dont care how much I struggle. I just want to be as honest as possible so hopefully maybe I could get some decent advice if anyones willing to offer, I'm absolutely retarded with money. I literally got 3000 dollars in the begining of this year and I bought a ps5 and some burberry glasses. I love fashion and more often then not since the time I was about 18 I would have no problem going broke so I can buy shit that I could not afford just to look cool. Sometimes I did make enough money to pay for everything but more often then not Id be working check to check and then spend alot of money on clothes just because I liked wearing designer. I was poor my whole childhood but always liked dressing different and then in high school I learned about designer clothes and ofc I became consumed by it. I dont know how to save I dont know how to do shit but spend. Its been like this since forever. My dad is also horrible with money hes literally in his 50s and hes so perfect and awesome at everything in his life but I can tell he still struggles financially. He bought me like 30 dollars worth of food and gave me 15 dollars the other day and I broke into tears for the first time in like over a year or two because I could tell he didnt really have it but just wanted to help me out. The thing that sucks about this all is I'm so fucking talented that its a shame that I'm where Im at right now. Not to mention I've made so much money over the past decade all on my own. I've for sure made more money than my mom and dad combined just by doing art and making music and I'm so grateful for that shit but I have nothing to fucking show for it and even more then that I feel like I was supposed to help so many people out. I have so many artist friends who make music and are into fashion and I feel like I'm so selfish because theres no reason that I couldnt have built my platform up and then used it to bring them up and now instead Im sitting here watching them do their best and charging them for stuff when I dont even really want to but have to just beacuse I have to eat. I know people see me online and think I fell off and tbh that doesnt really matter to me I always have hope regardless and I dont care about being "on" really. I just keep working and working and working. I desperately just want to live of my art. and not just live but thrive. I have huge dreams when it comes to it and I know everyone who knows me believes in me but I'm my own enemy they can see that too. I cant lie when I say I want to be rich and actually use my platform to influence ppl and just help others and I absolutely believe its possible and if I'm dellusional I dont really care but I've been pretty open and honest with people about this and no ones ever said yeah dude like its time to do something else. When me and my dad talks he never says you need to man up and get a job I mean he does say that sometimes, but more often then not hes just always trying to tell me ways I can maybe find new people to market my art to. My mom does try to get me to get into ultrasound because thats what she does and its stable and I actually agree with her and want to look into it. The whole reason for this post is because I feel like when I stopped watching actualized after I got sick my whole worldview changed. I remeber I actaully had quite a bit of resentment because I couldnt understand how I was supposed to be all loving and seeing death as some sort of illusion when my body was literally turning on me. I went through so much shit and till this day my body does shit that scares the fuck out of me. My heart is completely fucked. The last time it was good was in Feb last year after fasting for over 14 days and strictly eating nothing but fruits and veggies for 2 months. Now its like everyday its palpataions and pain and odd sensations. I want to fast and change my diet but my money situation is so fucked that I cant eat the food I want to. I really got turned off by Actualized and it wasnt because the content was bad but I'm realizing its just so fucking advanced and deep that its hard for me to actually sit there and watch it and think about certain things I dont want to face realities it presents. I'm still into self help content but I can tell nothing really compares to actualized as far as youtube goes. I watch mostly feel good shit/redpill type shit (joe dispenza, Impact theory,hamza, Jullien, owen cook.) and while some of those guys are really good I can just tell that it doesnt really compare to what Leo teaches. I also struggle with an internal conflict which makes me not want to go back to watching it because I would like to feel as if, if my life is good then I feel like it would be insincere if I was only able to attribute it to me consuming the content. I would like it to come from inside whether or not the content is there or not but maybe that takes more time and more understanding. I also tune in anytime Leo drops a new video but the last ones dont really have the same affect but it could also be because I'm constantly polluting myself with so much other shit. I'm coming to the conclusion that I'm actually going to give it another go. I would like to take it seriously as possible but my discernment also makes me feel very gaurded and kind of less open then I originally was when I was first into it. I'm not a psychonaut at all, I've done alot of psychedellics but its never been because of actualized those things have always been seperate tbh. The only time I ever even mixed the two was a time I took shrooms and caught the solipsism episode. The reason I say this is because me and my friends talked about Actualized alot when I was super heavy into it. I stopped hanging out with my best friend of 15 years for like 8 months and when I came back he told me Actualized was a cult after watching a Turkey Tom video LOL. We joke about it now but hes told me I've been in multiple cults especially after I came back and told him what Joe Dispenza was talking about. He just knows thats how I am. The funny thing is when I was really into actaulized before i got sick I could tell the stuff I was telling them was actually clicking and making sense and opening him and his girlfriend up to new perspectives. They changed alot and I feel like it was because of me and I also changed to because of them but its mostly because I was able to be so open. We're all alot less selfish and we actually care for and love each other as friends his gf is feminest communist and im like opposite of whatever that is but we're genuinely best of friends. Overall even though my life is relatively shitty and I want to desperately do better I'm able to maintain a state of peace more often then not. I know people have it way worse. I'm just drowning in my financial situation and need to do something fast because I need to take care of these dogs. These past 4 months I was actually able to quit a 10 year long weed addiction along with quitting vaping and all other drugs which is huge for me because I was a huge drug guy. I spent most of my childhood hating drugs weed especially because everyone around me was always fucking high, my mom, my dad, my aunt, uncles, cousins, grandpa, grandma, friends you name it. I went through most of my teenage years being sober because I thought drugs were lame and I just wanted to be different and then I decided one day that when my best friend got off probabtion I would start smoking weed and I hate to say that I really feel like that fucked off most of the success I was supposed to experience. I used to have so much energy before that I remember I was a different person before weed. Along with quitting weed I quit a 18 year long porn addiction which was super fucking huge for me. I genuienly feel alot better now because of it and I dont think I'll ever go back to watching it. I dont judge it and maybe my mind has kind of been warped by all the self help content I consume daily but I do feel a lil grossed out by it now. I think staying off drugs has helped my art so much I used to take so long to finish clients commissions but now I finish shit so quick and I'm way more focused and driven. That along with the fact that I can meditate for hours daily makes me really proud to be honest. My only issues is because I have nothing else to distract myself with at times I eat really bad especially because I'm poor and I cant fucking stop drinking coffee. Those two things combined are destroying my heart and body i can tell... Sorry for long wall of text, I would love to talk to a therapist but its just not in the cards at the moment and idk like I said Actualized just feels like home sometimes. I dont think theres any right or wrong answers to any of this shit at times but I was watching "How to fall in love with life" last night after not seeing anything in a while and I was just like damn Leo is really on point with so much shit in comparison to alot of other youtubers who while they are helping they do seem like they are trying to sell you something. When Leo puts you onto things he's not just saying yeah this is just a fact, hes saying try it for yourself and experience it and decide whether or not its true. In a sense I almost kind of feel bad because I believe in the content so much that it kind of sucks that my life is the way that it is. But at the end of the day I can tell its because I just wasnt applying myself the best that I could. I'm going to give it another go around. I think it will help me gain a healthier mindset and self image. I dont hate myself like I used to but I just know I'm meant to be "more" and even if thats like a relative concept I just know if I was hitting on all points I would actually be able to live off and do great things with my art which is most imporatant to me. Thank anyone reading this and I love yall, any constructive critism is welcome. sorry for grammar and spelling too. (TL;DR I think Actualized content is way more advanced than any teachings you're going to see on youtube. I can't tell if its a good thing or not but I can genuinely say it has helped me more than mostly any other content I might have consumed. I could be wrong all together but this is just genuinely how I feel.)
  5. I'll be honest this is the mindset I have most of the time. I hate the idea of being a victim and I feel like everything is in my control all the time. I appreciate the inspiriation seriously. I just wish I understood my own psychology more enough to understand what makes me not hit on all points in my life. I've been able to make great strides from time to time but in reality the thing that eats me up is the fact that I'm so irresponsible. I visualize literally everyday and I am big into affirmations. Sometimes they work sometimes they dont and for a while I actually gave up on the whole "we create our reality" Thing but instictually I really feel that way and the only thing that has made me feel otherwise was the fact that I was high and self conscious. I appreciate it though I will make an honest effort to actually do what you mentioned. I know even if it doesnt fix my internal issues it will actually make my life easier in certain aspects.
  6. I feel like at the end of the day theres no real answers or right or wrong to alot of this stuff. I can tell you I pretty much masturbated and watched porn from like the time I was 13 to now (30 yo) I developed a nasty porn addiction while in my last relationship, I was dating a really attractive girl but still watched alot of porn. I stopped watching it about a month ago for the first time in over 15 years and I actually stopped fapping all together at the same time. I didnt count the days of how long I didnt fap but Im sure it was about +25 days. I did get extremely horny at times and had to like sit and calm myself down. Being able to just stop porn completely actually made me feel really good about myself but I'm sure I could have still felt good about myself regardless if I stopped or not. I will say I do genuinely feel like I am not as like awkward and way more confident when talking to women or people in general but that also could be because I stopped smoking weed at the same time. I doubt I'll ever watch porn again at this point, I have my own personal feelings towards it. I dont think its wrong per say but I just feel like its not for me anymore. The fact that I was able to stop vaping, smoking weed, watching porn, and fapping all that the same time makes me feel like I have the power to do anything which maybe sounds kind of lame but I'm just being real. I did end up fapping however and kinda have been on and off w/o porn and it does feel different, I dont feel the shame and guilt I used to feel before. It kind of feels more natural and no where near as draining. I'll most likely do another round of nofap just for the fuck of it. I would like to just stop fapping all together and only have sex but I dont really think it makes a difference either way.
  7. I got really sick about a year and a half ago. Ironically right after I had a spiritual awakening that lasted about a month. I dont know how I got sick though. I just remember the day it happened I had a sandwhich from a place called Cheeba Hut, I had a stomach ache that I thought was going to go away but instead my whole upper half of my body ended up becoming inflamed and I started having heart problems along with lung issues and throat issues. Recently it actually started effecting my brain and eyes. I've been to docs and they dont know whats wrong. The scariest part is mostly my heart problems. I'm not the most healthy person although I can be at times when Im able to be deciplined enough. I went 2 full months eating nothing but veggies and fruits, I've done multiple 3-10 day fasts. My symptoms constantly change and actually after my last fast my brain issues went way thank god. Usually after I fast I see insane results in my health but then I start to feel better and eat like shit or start drinking coffee or whatever the fuck get all addicted and then decline again. I stopped doing drugs entirely because of this. I used to do alot of stuff, I wasnt a drug addict but I liked to party and for the past 3 months Ive been dead sober and I like it alot. All kinda besides the point. In Jan I really got into Joe dispenza. I was meditating for up to two hours a day and doing alot of visualization and affirmations. I actually changed quite a bit I had went sexless for a while because of how being sick affected my inner dialouge and whatnot but things started to change when I started really applying Dispenzas teachings. I was mainly writing this post to see what people thought about his healing techniques he talks about how people change their personalities and leave their diseases in the old body. I meditate and picture myself healthy and feel like what it felt like before I was sick. There was times where I did gratitude meditaions where I was picturing myself in situations in my future and I would connect with the idea so much that I would get like a high for the next 10 hours. Id go to clubs and bars by myself and just be really happy and having a good time like people were noticing me changing. I even kind of dated this girl I wanted to date for the past 5 years but never really had the chance, it ended up eing a dud but it was cool after just being single for a long time. Then I got the flu and everything went back to being shit again. Its been hard for me to meditate and break out of the cycle im in. Im slowly building myself back up, but I'm so turned off by Dispenzas teachings. When I watch him now he kind of just seems scammy and its not his fault I got sick the point of this post isnt to like talk about how I dont believe his shit doesnt work but im just giving some context. I was more so writing to see what people thought about meditating and healing the body. Has anyone had any experiences with healing themselves by doing so? The reason I ask is because obviously I watch Actualized and leo often talks about his health problems and I figure if it was as real as Dispenza makes it seem then Leo of all people would have been able to seen some sort of results. I dont want to say I'm desperate because I hate the idea, but sometimes the shit I experience is terrifying theres been multiple times within the past year and a half where I swore up and down I was going to die. Maybe its Covid related, Im not really sure but aside from dealing with that I really do try to stay optimistic and Actualized really help me deal with it in a healthy way. I understand that people wont know what Im going through and I get that if anything does happen that it doesnt have to be the worst thing I can still remain grateful and love my life. Not saying im perfect Ive def sacraficed so much in terms of everything I was becoming prior to me getting sick but I don't want to let it stop me. TLDR does anyone have any experience with healing themselves with meditation and visualization? or is joe dispenza full of shit lol
  8. bruh people are really bothered by this? lol its insane that people cannot read between the lines. They're acting like hes being abusive or something. I hate to say but reading that just made me laugh lol Its Leos forum, people who get upset by things like this are highly annoying. If you dont like what hes doing just leave but writing this and demanding an apology is ridiculous because no one is forcing anyone to be here lol.
  9. I've been learning about manifesting and was able to manifest alot of things within the past month or two. My biggest issue is with money though. I have alot of skills and have made alot of money in the past with no need or help from a 9-5 job. My issue is I cannot seem to break through a barrier I have imposed on myself when it comes to having alot of money. My biggest issue is that everytime I start to make alot of money it changes me and I don't want it to be the source of my happiness so lately it prevents me from making more because everytime I start to get excited about it I start to recognize that my sense of happiness and sense of who I am and how I represent myself Is coming from the fact that I'm cultivating alot of wealth on my own. It almost doesnt feel right for me to be that happy when I start to make alot of it and it stunts me to the point where I just end up not having money at all and end up going broke alot. I do also have a broke mindset that comes from my parents years of just being told we are always in lack. I guess writing this I recognize the fact that I have to actually let alot of these feelings go and assume the identity of someone who makes and maintains alot of wealth. I'm hitting on every other point in my life I'm healthy, completely sober off drugs, productive, I read and meditate for hours daily with no problem. I guess I just am wondering any tips for how to stay humble and myself as I become someone who identifies with making alot of money. When I start to make alot how do I make sure that my happiness comes from within? I'm pretty good at being happy dead broke. But I get terrified at the thought of my happiness solely relying on my money situation when I actually start to make it. Sorry if these are dumb questions I really just want any advice because I dont plan on ever going broke again and I think this is the one thing that is holding me back.
  10. I suppose so, I guess coming here for unbias takes was a silly idea lol.
  11. What the fuck is happening in this thread lmaooo.
  12. I feel it but nobody is perfect. I think if it produces any kind of results or change in behaviour then it has some merrit, we're all trying to help each other out. Or maybe I dont know enough about the self improvement guru world I just cant think of any teachers that I know that are damn near perfect.
  13. He looks kinda badass not gonna lie.
  14. again I feel like he is playing a character I dont think he sincerely believes his bugattis make him who he is, I think he says it to have fun and piss people off because why the fuck would you care about what some millionair bozo dickhead is doing. Its boarderline satire I think hes only as strong as powerful as people make him out to be in their minds he knows that which is why hes as ridiculous as he is. Trump is a whole different thing I think trump genuinely believes his own nonsense.
  15. He's clearly trolling why would you chose to take that serious and use that as a reason to disregard the positive things he says lol.
  16. Have you watched his content? It is not simply just instagram thots and attention seeking lol. Hes done numerous interviews and podcasts where he is giving genuine advice despite whether or not hes flexing he is still teaching people to value themselves. I think his foundation is shitty and shouldnt rely so heavily on material aspects but the fact that he has such a huge following and is telling them to be healthy mentally/physically/spirtually is better then alot of the other shit that is getting pushed. I dont really care if its surface level because as far as surface level needs there are not alot of people with tates influence who can reach out to that many low conscious individuals and point them in the right direction. again what you do with his information is up to you.
  17. and tate teaches you not to focus? lol how is that distracting thats basically the core of what he pushes to people.
  18. What part of what I said was brokie copium lol.
  19. I think its spot on. I was very toxic masculine 10 years ago, I then became extremely aware of my feelings and others through actualized. I wouldn't say actualized feminized me but I just became extremely aware of how my words, beliefs and actions affected others to the point where I didnt judge anyone at all for anything and wanted to allow people to be as comfortable with themselves even if it meant i had to sacrafice my own opinions or just drop my ego really fast to avoid a nasty argument that I know would make the person feel bad about themselves. It did have a huge on affect on my dating life but I believe achieving even like any sort of awakening or enlightenment from actualized was one of the most pitivol moments in my life however I do not believe it was great for my dating life at all. It kinda made me weird with women and since tate I dont know why but I do not have the same problems I had in my dating life before. Attracting women and maintaining conversation isnt really an issue because again I dont really feel the need to impress them. On top of that I feel as if was able to see my worth in a way that was fast and straight to the point, I realize that I do not have to sleep with whatever I can get. I'm not walking around feeling as If I am Top G and all women are beneath me because Actualized taught me that there is no better or worse when comparing human beings and that everyone is unique but I realize I dont have to have sex with just anyone to please my conceptual needs I can actually save myself for someone who is worth it and isn't toxic and shares the same values as me. I would not suggest tate to someone who is childish and doesn't have a mature enough worldview but again he def helped in areas of my life.
  20. I was born poor still pretty poor
  21. @Kshantivadin agreed, I understand what they are saying its just genuinely hard for me to sit there and really consider him a mysoginist because if he was I dont think I would find him entertaining. Maybe you could say that is because I am a mysognist but I do not hate women, I find them to be annoying just as they find me to be annoying im sure , which just seems natural in my eyes but I dont think me saying that would make me a mysognist. I Think all the traditional shit andrew tate kicks is really how it should be but I do not think it should be forced onto anybody Just seems as if the world would be a healthier place if it did maintain traditional gender roles, but who ever decides to do or not do that is up to them and im not going to judge. I think I've watched enough of tates content to recognize his intent. He doesnt seem like a devil to me but I guess only time will tell even if he was I wouldn't let that stop me from using his content to laugh or like be motivated. I like him very ironically.
  22. I mean im genuinely trying to understand the risks, but I understand if you would rather not talk about it. and yes I do all this other stuff as well, if it wasnt for actualized there would be no way that I could meditate daily for hours on end along with being able to inquire about whether or not I am decieving myself in all aspects. I think there is different medicine for different people and honestly tate really helped me when it came to being responsible and grinding, actualized helped with creativity and just being free and open which is super important. I dont go around like scamming and hustling people I'm an extremely honest worker. But tate does motivate me just as anyone with that charisma who is getting to it would. I would not neccisarily call that toxic I can still be happy without the money lol
  23. I understand that, but again if you are only watching actualized content that is not healthy, Leo even talks about that I'm sure. Not saying thats what you do but either way you are responsible for whatever seeps into your psyche. To act like I shouldnt watch tate at all because theres a chance that my brain can like some how be infected by his ridiculous mysognist worldviews is kind of silly. My friend I do not condone treating any person as property to the highest degree. That is a huge thing that I disagree with when it comes to tate. I believe that so much that I dont even chose to date women. I make that very clear with every girl i come into contact with from the start. I do not believe anybody is mine to own and I do not believe I can be anyones property. On top of that those girls who chose to do that with tate is completely on them that has nothing to do with either one of us. I would not want a girl to only do what I want because that would give me 0 fulfillment in my life I actually enjoy allowing people to have their own autonomy over anything. I think hes dumb and insecure for saying that his girlfriend cant go to the club without him even though he clarifies that his girl would not even want to which is perfectly fine with me. I would let any girl I fw do whatever she wants she doesnt have to please me in order for me to like her so long as her actions do not fuck with my autonomy and if they do then its really not a problem I just stop talking to them. They do not have to compramise with me if I do something that they do not like either Im perfectly okay with or without them.
  24. I dont think there isn't a piece of actualized content I have not seen. I do not know how much further this conversation will go because I think you are taking the content way to seriously along with just kinda missing the point of my original statement. I do not watch tv due to what I have learned on actualized but I wouldnt go around referring people on this forum to that video as if its like some sort of rule that cant be broken. Especially if the question was in regards to something else I was just giving that as an example. U said it would have a negative impact on my psyche after repeated exposure but that goes with anything. I dont think that statement is wrong either but i dont think it would be healthy to have repeated exposure to actualized content or any other self help/spiritual content as well. Its not like i'm sitting here watching hella tate videos day in and day out, that would be extremely obnoxious. I'm not trying to be rude but it sounds like you are deflecting because you believe he may have something of value to offer if digested correctly.
  25. I mean that goes for anything though. If it was that serious I would probably avoid turning on the tv or just going outside in general. If you would like to elaborate I would be free to talk about it because I am genuinely curious but that statement alone isnt all that convincing.