Consilience

Some thoughts after letting this trip sit for the last few days: One of the most perplexing qualities during the "Glimpse of God" was that it *wasn't* perception... I keep trying to understand what specifically changed in my experience to make my body react in such a way. When I think back to what happened, there weren't changes in sight, taste, touch, sound, or smell. The changes in the mind were that the mind was freaking the Fuck out at the grandiosity of what I'd stumbled into. But it wasn't reacting to itself... Formlessness. It somehow *feels* like I become conscious of formlessness, but see even declaring this using language is a misrepresentation of what happened. "Feels" is found within the domain of perception. We feel our bodies, we feel emotions, we feel experience, but none of these are what I'm talking about. So then the question - if what I become conscious of wasn't a perception, wasn't even phenomenological in nature, what IS it? Like what is it's existential nature? All we have is our direct experience, our perception, our phenomenology which presents itself as sight, taste, touch, sound, smell, and mind. These are the ways reality manifest. Yet this manifestation where "I saw" (again, not it) God was more like a clearing, in which raw insight took place, an insight so paradoxical that the mind couldn't hold onto it and instead shuttered, and was destroyed reacting violently through terror and love. Another question - why is my mind okay now? Where is this source of equanimity and peace that the mind has stabilized into now that the trip is over? What precise qualities of mind are in place now that prevent this level of consciousness from being seen? Because I must stress, this trip was not all that powerful in terms of augmenting sight, taste, touch, sound, or smell. The biggest qualities of altered perception was a clearing away of mind into the present moment. Perhaps it is a lack of concentration, or perhaps there are subconscious mechanisms playing in my experience, generating a shield from full consciousness. I'm unsure, yet there is a deep curiosity forming around these components.

Appreciate it I've also gotten these glimpses you speak of before, but dude... it was so fucking wild. I think this was the first real breakthrough into absolute infinity. Im glad this post stoked your craving... Keep going. Keep practicing. Keep priming your body and mind with sober practices! I know I'll be.. so... race ya

Thank you for reading. Yeah man it's a never ending process... LSD and/or shrooms will definitely help, but as I mentioned at the bottom of the post, don't forget about other practices like meditation, hatha yoga, kriya yoga, contemplation, silence, nature, breath work. There are a lot of tools at your disposal besides psychedelics. There's definitely something to be said with focusing on University, career, finances, and relationships before jumping into spirituality. Yet I believe that you must be willing to give all of that stuff up if you start seeking Truth... When you start to discover your true nature, your personal life will most likely change, but this is for the better. You start acting, feeling, and thinking from a more genuine, authentic space than before. So my opinion is even if you still have to go through a lot of "normal" activities like building a career, let your spirituality empower your direction and what you pursue. I'm glad I discovered enlightenment while still being in school.

@Nahm Hey thank you good sir (GOD aka the GOAT) @Javfly33 Thank you

@Ar_Senses Thank you sir Yeah the connection is definitely there... Couldn’t “prove” it to people, but I certainly feel it for myself. I suspect there has been some sort of reverse tolerance building over time. My trips have been getting a little absurd without really having to take that much. Perhaps that’s happened in your case as well.

Thank you, I really appreciate the support. Hopefully I won't be so horrified next time haha

Just watched the first episode and wow!

None of this contradicts what I wrote

The universe is your direct experience. It is the manifestation of formlessness as form. If someone where to become so conscious they died, physical death would be achieved. Yet other people are still occurring relative to their experience so their lives are unaffected. Form oscillates with formlessness. The people we see in our experience were never there and yet they are there, in their own universes which are interconnected and “one” with ours yet distinct nonetheless.

Thinking the universe will end after a mahasamadhi is a misunderstanding of what the universe is. The universe in which a mahasamadhi manifests is not the same universe in which a guru can verify whether someone left their body from a mahasamadhi

Check out the holistic psychologist on instagram and youtube, and look into the technique of future self journaling. Very powerful. Id also recommend meditation as habit transformation will pretty much always require mindfulness and concentration as we feel the ego trying to pull itself back into old conditioning.

Ive seen this before, very interesting indeed. From what Ive observed in meditation, there are more than two. There are A LOT more than two, but these “sub selves” generally appear to aggregate into a single “self” which is how we experience being a self. Yet upon very careful examination, our ego is a collective of drives, desires, aversions, judgements, thoughts, emotions, which are backwards rationalized as being 1 thing when in reality they are many. Not only are they many, they have different motives and preferences... super fucking weird actually and extremely difficult to be aware of as we live daily life.

When you live these “smart things” rather than intellectualizing about them, they most certainly help our situation on Earth. Bliss, happiness, love and truth are available right now, regardless of form. This is a radical possibility many do not see.

The book The Mind Illuminated teaches an extremely robust meditation method centered around developing concentration. As you move through the stages outlined in the book, not only will you make massive concentration gains, but your overall mindfulness will increase as well. Ive personally gotten to the point where I can create states similar to that of a mushroom microdose while sober... pretty crazy stuff. Im not perfect, some days Im more mindful than others, I have ego backlashes, etc,. But the overall direction is profound. There’s a free pdf of the book online. Id read the introduction and see if it’s what you're looking for. Feel like a broken record on this topic, but concentration is the number one skill truth seekers lack. Unless you have a profoundly stable focus, the likelihood of embodying insights and awakening are improbable. Truth resides in this moment. This moment requires you to break out of the illusion of time. Breaking out of time means detaching yourself from thoughts as these exist as a function of time. Detaching yourself from thoughts requires the massive mindfulness/awareness/concentration. We can create and stabilize this mindfulness/awareness/concentration through effective techniques. Ta-da! Insight alone aint enough. Embodiment is the real game.

It’s pretty simple. 1) All you have is direct experience aka consciousness 2) All you’ve ever had or will have is direct experience or consciousness 3) The idea of a material reality is an *idea* a way of modeling, conceptualizing, and thinking about our *experience* (refer to points 1 and 2) of reality. 4) All models, thinking, and concepts exist as mind, they aren't found in sight, taste, touch, sound, or smell. They are experienced through mind. 5) Mind is an experience and therefore consciousness. To think reality is material requires a belief system about reality. If you want to believe reality is physical, that’s fine. The ego mind enjoys building grounding around the unknown, as this provides it comfort and a sense of safety. However recognize that you buying into an idea of materialism requires a belief system. Reality being consciousness is prior to all beliefs, it is what is direct. Your reality is LITERALLY consciousness, has always been, will always be, and could only ever be consciousness. “Something must be wrong with Leo’s theory” you’ve got it wrong here. Leo is pointing to an observation prior to all theories, as all theories fall into the predicament of 1-5. Look at actuality, look at reality directly and recognize that is is quite literally conscious experience. That’s the most you can say with Absolute, unquestionable certainty. I made this insight before ever taking psychedelics so they arent necessary, however they certainly help.

Yessir. A meditation practice with a focus on concentration/attention stability has been leading to a stabilized waking state of what feels like microdosing shrooms. The reason for this is one of the key effects of psychedelics is that they draw attention into the present moment. This moment is where insight and truth resides, so of course the more we can replicate this state while sober, the closer we will be to what is actual, what is true, which is what psychedelics help facilitate anyways. It’s my opinion that concentration is the #1 skill truth seekers need to actively be cultivating if they want to embody their insights from contemplation.

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Funnily enough I was tripping on LSD about 3 weeks ago and somehow energetically felt the damage caffeine was doing to my body, haven’t touched it since and havent had any cravings to. Tbh Im amazed at how much better I feel. Then this video came out a couple weeks layer haha. I pretty much agree with everything he says here. Caffeine is so embedded into our culture, no one treats it like a hard drug but it really is. Society is literally promoting the addiction of this drug too which makes it that much harder to quit. For me once I could clearly *feel* the extent of the damage, something inside of my mind clicked. I now can wake up within 5-10 minutes feeling normal, it’s wild. Edit: just to put this in perspective I was only drinking 1 cup per day. Nonetheless have had crazy results abstaining.

I think Id rather just ride the wave no matter how bad. Psychedelics are a great bullshitting test for people who claim they’re awake or conscious of the absolute. When reality is crumbling around you in chaos or you’re literally conscious of the collective suffering and horror (Love) of humanity, how grounded in Truth will you remain? Why have a safety net when you could use these as opportunities to see practice the embodiment of Love? Moreover, after around 20 trips Ive found that the best perspective to take is that there are no bad trips, just ones that are more challenging than others. Just my 0.02.

Wow... I remember seeing a video of him posted on the forum awhile back and being inspired by his bravery. Very sad news.

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1) You *don’t* know whether Ralston knows what he’s talking about, you aren’t Ralston. This is a basic fact of realty. Ralston is something you’re imagining, creating, and interpreting, what he’s talking about you will only indirectly know. Again, fact not assumption. Basic philosophy dude. 2) Im not assuming you haven't taken 5-MeO, Im making the claim that unless you’ve tried it, you dont have the epistemological grounds to criticize Leo. Nice try there, but read more carefully. Notice you’re incorrectly interpreting my comment through a lens of bias and ego. Your mind sees what it wants to.

You have 0 idea if Ralston knows what he’s talking about. Notice how quick your mind is to project authority and criticize another. Id argue until you’ve taken 5-MeO you don’t have the epistemological grounds to speak. Take the wisdom from both teachers and find your own path. Notice the ego is the thing projecting value and criticism.

Your clear window and stillness is sound an awful lot like a state.

I see this possibility, but according to him this satori is beyond scales, states, or levels. To be quite honest though I have no clue what Peter considers a state. Not sure how he can't see the distinction between the "state" of being enlightened and the "state" of not being enlightened. It feels like a tautology. Idk.