Consilience

Nothing and everything. Im just pointing out that my mind starts losing the ability to think linearly, past and future break down, the subjective meaning entangled with words breaks down, and thus the ability to have what we may otherwise consider coherent thoughts is completely gone on 3.5g of mushrooms. All of this is a tiny fraction of how subjectivity has altered on psychedelics. Thus the idea of doing a job interview tripping on 10g of mushrooms seems impossible. On 10g of mushrooms the idea of jobs, interviews, language, self and other would be completely obliterated. I think of the most effective ways of analyzing perspectives, in this case psychedelic trips, is to become very clear on both the differences and similarities between that state and the sober state. Falling into “it’s all one state, there is no difference if you concentrate on god” may be true from a certain pov, but it’s also a limited and partial perspective if we’re concerned with the highest tier of understanding psychedelics, sobriety, and more generally states of consciousness.

Not in my experience. Quite literally the way form, specifically form we could label as “mind” is operating in an entirely novel way under doses this high. Yes the mechanism of interpretation has changed, but so too has the subject of interpretation and the tool doing the interpretation. But hey Im open to the possibilities you’re citing, they’re just very far from what I can relate to.

@electroBeam I dont see how your claim is possible. 3.5g of mushrooms and my mind has literally melted. The ability to even speak english is gone. The truth between sobriety and tripping (God) hasnt changed at all, but form and the way it interacts with itself has completely and utterly altered.

Direct experience is literally all you have. Like... there’s NOTHING else.

Day 24 - No Porn/No PMO Day 17 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat

Never understood this one. The more I meditate the more beautiful everything becomes... was not my intention when I began the practice.

Day 23 - No Porn/No PMO Day 16 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat Not much I feel like saying tonight.

Day 22 - No Porn/No PMO Day 15 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat This isn't on my counter at the moment, but I've been really consistent with my hatha yoga practice recently. I've actually more or less stopped my traditional workouts and switched to only yoga, walks, and hiking. In terms of health, this is actually the best I've felt in months. Sometimes i'll still wake up and feel like shit, lethargic and lacking that extra edge that I think most normal healthy adults have after a normal night's rest, but overall I'm having more good days than bad since shifting more of my focus to yoga. What's more interesting though is the effect this practice is having on the mind... I can't quite articulate how this practice is rewiring the mind, other than to say I feel subtle differences in my emotional state, as well as a very faint shift in the background energy of "me." One thing meditation has really given is this incredibly perceptive awareness of the mind. The experience of mind doesn't really fit well into language though. The energy of the mind is more like an oscillating wave that glosses over raw empty perception and breathes meaning into the world. It feels like yoga is changing the current and wave like structures of the mind, but the specifics are still unknown other than I can tell something is shifting internally. As has been a theme since starting this journal, I plan to patiently wait and see what arises. On a side note, I was very proud of myself today. The yoga sessions I've been doing lately from the YT Channel called "Breathe and Flow" are quite challenging compared to what I'm used to, but I've kept up with it. Today in particular I felt a lot of resistance towards doing the practice, but I did it anyways.

If you are truly self realized, these wild experiences will not touch the self. Psychedelics can be a great litmus test to see just how awake you really are. How can one claim to know the self if aliens and wild experiences are still shaking them to their core?

Day 21 - No Porn/No PMO Day 14 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat Building some momentum. Have to say though, I miss porn haha. I 100% feel better without it and it's not worth the emotional/mental haze that follows a solid porn/pmo session, but I do miss the stimulus. Pure hedonism.

Day 20 - No Porn/No PMO Day 13 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat Keeping the bed timer at 13. Last night I actually stayed up a little later last night.

Day 19 - No Porn/No PMO Day 13 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat I didn't realize I didn't journal yesterday... Weird. Anyways, I met those two goals yesterday and now I am for today as well.

Interesting. Meditation has gotten me farther than Kriya yoga or mantra. I think it just depends on the person. @Anon212 If you've been going hard at self inquiry, this would be a perfect time to crack open the mind with psychedelics imo. The increase in Self Inquiry would act as a primer to really dive deeply into a psychedelic trip. Keep up the self inquiry even while tripping and you'll most likely have a breakthrough.

In my direct experience they are one in the same. True God Consciousness is independent of state. Sober, tripping, drunk, high, caffeinated, doesn't matter. If Shunyamurti is enlightened he knows this. If Shunyamurti is teaching about chasing states, then yes sober God Consciousness is different than tripping God Consciousness.

Day 17 - No Porn/No PMO Day 11 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat Today was a good day. I slept through an alarm and was almost late for a meeting so I missed my normal 1 hour morning meditation. However, after work I did a 30 min yoga session which was fucking crazy, and then was able to realize my deepest rooted authentic desire was to get the hour in even though my conscious desire was to go distract myself with high dopamine yielding activities. So I did the meditation. Had a few minor breakthroughs as well. Sometimes It feels like meditation is moving the equivalent of tectonic plates in the mind. The day to day shifts are barely noticeable if at all and then one day WHAM, earthquake, you have a massive breakthrough or emotional release. The Yoga video for those interested:

Not saying this is true or false, but just concede for a moment that you're interpreting all of this non-dual theory through a human ego. If you were to really merge with the absolute, how would you conceptualize suffering? Or perhaps a more grounded question - the closer your experience moves towards what is absolutely true, how does that change your relationship to the nature of suffering? All of this post is cool to think about, but it does very little justice to this infinite mind you're speaking of.

It’s a complicated topic which can be examined through a variety of lenses and perspectives. However one quick question I like to ask myself which is really effective and practical is this, “If I had more discipline, what action would I be taking right now?” I find this cuts straight to the heart of what my “higher self” would “want.” This doesnt really help with transforming ones resting consciousness per-say, increasing your vibrational state into higher vibrational emotions, but it does allow for insight and practical action you can begin working towards. Hope this helps.

I store mine in the freezer wrapped in cooking sheet, wrapped in tinfoil, in a mason jar with desiccant packs, remove it from the freezer 1-2 hours pre trip, and it works great. Never have had an issue with potency decreasing. If anything my last few LSD trips have felt stronger than normal ? I do the same thing for mushrooms except they’re just chilling in a plastic baggie and it’s working great as well.

Day 16 - No Porn/No PMO Day 10 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat I woke up with some residual emotional unrest, but it felt like whatever emotional release I had yesterday really drained out the negativity I'd been holding onto. In a sense, it's still there because the context which generates those emotions is still very much apart of my experience. However, I think having such a powerful acknowledgement has helps with the overall inner peace of the situation I find myself in. At the very least, I can work towards letting go of the current context, and re-contextualize the situation into one of gratitude. For example, the moments I'm spending with my family are incredibly precious, intimate, and fleeting. I will never get this time back with them; what we have now has been incredibly special and healing for all of us. So in a sense, by being so disturbed about the situation, I'm ignoring the other part of my mind which fully acknowledges and appreciates what we have. Re-contextualization is key, so therefore becoming conscious of the context is key as well. I also suspect COVID is playing a role. I've felt this on an earlier mushroom trip I had which is that COVID is pressurizing humanity right now, forcing latent and unconscious emotions into the surface, and forcing us to deal with them. This is happening both collectively as we try to psychologically manage this new normal, but it's also happening on the individual level with our personal psyches. For the time being I will continue to sit with this, and be patient. I'm really trying to give myself the time and space to properly vision and plan. I'm also trying to take this opportunity to rebuild myself, to truly transform into a version of myself which has the psychological infrastructure needed to step into my vision. Hence this journal, PMO and porn use and to a lesser extend weed and caffeine have been ginormous hurdles on this path of transformation. Interestingly, I had a really wild synchronicity yesterday where I closed my eyes, started scrolling through a book I was reading, and then randomly picked a page to read. The page selection was entirely an intuitive decision. The page I stopped on was the beginning of a chapter labeled "Transformation." And all I could think was "Yep I hear you loud and clear at SELF." Things continue to shift. If I sit and reflect on where I am psychologically compared to where I was even a year ago, I'm much better off despite having no real material changes to show for it. And I think sometimes that's what a theme of life calls for. Some moments are about acquiring physical manifestations such as a University degree, or a high paying job, a house, etc. But this whole year has been about remolding my mind, riding myself of petty subtle addictions, and learning how the mind and ego operate on deeper and deeper levels through meditation and psychedelics primarily, as well as yoga less so. It's also been about learning how to more deeply accept my body for how it is, and its natural limitations. As bitter of a pill as it is to swallow, my body doesn't seem to operate at an energetic level with the likes of Tony Robins for example. Just purely based on physiology, the man will out work me every single time. And that's okay. My pace being less than, slower, more deliberate, is OK. Learning to be at peace with this reality seems to be an important lesson I find myself constantly returning to. How do I balance persistent action towards my goals when I'm working with less energy than a normal human? An answer I don't have yet, but am working on. I think one important step is clearly, and I mean CLEARLY, defining my vision which is a work in process. I could go off on another tangent related to that, but I'm stopping for now. When I'm on my death bed, I know this will be one of the big ones, how did I learn to accept myself, my body, my limitations? The fact that I'm recognizing this now at my age with so much life left is something to be self-grateful for.

Day 15 - No Porn/No PMO Day 9 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat I started thinking about my most recent LSD and mushroom trips tonight and broke down. Feelings of unworthiness loneliness disappointment pathetic lost unsure Selfishness Anger I feel so frustrated at my body, at my lack of energy that just surfaces. My nutrition is on point, my sleep is on point, my exercise is on point, literally everything except I have a major illness that makes living in this broken society feel like an enormous uphill battle the entire way. I feel like I'm in a never ending war with my body and energy levels. Grinding out a regular job leaves my mind and body in a total fog by the end of the day. I barely have energy to workout, never mind exert creative energy towards any sort of long term visioning. I'm frustrated about how badly I fucked up with the girl I texted while on mushrooms. I'm frustrated that I can't go out and meet new women from the virus. I'm frustrated about being a fucking wage slave buried under a mountain of debt I created for myself as an 18 year old idiotically listening to my parents and guidance counselors who told me "debt was okay." I'm tired of the utter unconsciousness of our fellow man. I feel like I don't truly connect with anyone in real life, utterly alone. I have nothing materially gained from the last 6 years of my life. Single. Living with my parents. Buried in debt. Chained to a healthcare system which financially rapes me just so I can stay alive. But somewhere in my heart I know that despite these challenges, there is nothing do but strive to share my highest gifts with the world. There is nothing to do in any one life but fight tooth and nail to self actualize.

Day 14 - No Porn/No PMO Day 8 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat I think Sundays have some how habitually turned into low vibration days. It's like Sundays are the day I'm likely to feel my worst physically, mentally, and emotionally. Today I felt WAY better despite working. I'm going to pay particular attention this Sunday to see what happens.

I suppose this ascension you speak of is outside of this current lifetime. There are no known cases of healing T1D. And unlike other diseases, there are multiple problems at play meaning that it would potentially require twice the effort of healing compared to other diseases. It’s autoimmune but also causes permanent physical damage. Even if I “willed” my immune system back into a state where it doesn't attack my body, Id have ro further “will” the pancreas to regenerate. Reaching some sort of ascended state isn’t what my life seems to be moving towards, but I feel at peace with this particular burden. A body is not who or what I am.

Watched this segment last night with a giant grin on my face the whole time.

Awesome analysis!

Day 13 - No Porn/No PMO Day 7 - Bed by 10pm Sun-Thur/ Bed by 11pm Fri-Sat Today felt like a true day of rest. I've been dealing with a lower back injury, and then it felt like my mind was just fried from the culmination of this week. I don't really feel ready to go back to work tomorrow, but interestingly I find work sometimes forces my mind back into productive patterns and get's me out of mental ruts, even if it's not something I'm passionate for. Thank fully tonight is the best my lower back has felt since it got hurt. It seems like my body took advantage of the complete lack of activity and just focused on healing. A LOT was accomplished yesterday... I honestly made some pretty decisive, intuitive and perhaps risky moves. I feel like today was a quasi ego backlash where I was just mentally processing from "yep I just did all of that..." I still have a lot of processing to do, but overall my goals for this weekend were fully accomplished. It just sucks because I don't think my living situation is the healthiest for emotional/mental processing, but it's just part of the challenge right now with this phase of life. I understand it will pass.