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Ya you may need to go into this with someone in person and really get the bottom of it. Maybe a therapist, maybe a person you can be really honest with. Who knows what the cause of this is, but it does seem to be effecting your life, so go to a professional.

Ok brown bear

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I second this. Sometimes this was the only thing that would change being depressed to just being happy because one can be what they want emotionally. Your free to manifest your emotional state.

Like what you said, theres truth in it. That said, people are still going to keep doing what you don't like.

Perhaps you just don't want to do anything. Your sociatal mind is maybe just making feel/think its a problem, since thats how these things are generally interpreted. I went through a 1-2 phase of this. Try letting it be and live it. If you just stare at a wall for a hour, do it, then do what comes next with no judgement. I did this. Lead to an awakening lol, but can't promise that part.

What if Consciousness, the witnessing, and the "i" were actually all one process called Self/Infinity/God, the actual YOU.

Bingo, and I dont feel thats actually a good thing, hopefully some of those people watch this and maybe let some of it in and let the true heart come more into light.

You'd be surprised how much the ego wants to stay away from real heart and joy. I actually changed my initial response to you since I don't like to jump to conclusions, basically I changed it to...Is that really how you interpreted the video and this thread? There's a subtle lack of heart in the "adviata" brown bear which I think was the intent of whats being pointed out. Plus I think it was demonstrating how someone with self defensiveness can use the teachings to kinda detach and protect themselves and attack others beliefs in "adviata". And I wouldn't jump to conclusion that heart or lack of heart shit is cultural. The video is also just poking fun and in good spirit. Anyways, Happy New Year.

Is that really how you interpreted the video and this thread? There's a subtle lack of heart in the "adviata" brown bear which I think was the intent of whats being pointed out. Plus I think it was demonstrating how someone with self defensiveness can use the teachings to kinda detach and protect themselves and attack others beliefs in "adviata".

Silence be with you.

Sorry to hear this happened to your family. Just be there the best way you can, what ever you feel in your heart. Sounds like by your response in general though, your heart is seeing more to the picture of life and your feeling for both parties with understanding. Sounds like spiritual growth from the efforts you've been putting into your life.

Lol, nice

This for me was probably the most important video I watched in the last 3 years. I had always been interested in the Truth and spirituality, but due to my dad and my first spiritual teachers influence I had a preconceived judgement of the advaita view of enlightenment. I was all about self responsibility and the power of choice for positive change, and so much so that I was a bundled knot of perfection, not allowing myself to simply Be. This video allowed me to truely let go and Be, to let myself Be without having to wait till I change all my negative qualities as I saw them and also recognize that there are things that can be done to help the personality/negative tendencies and others.

Ya.

The preparation I'm referring to is actually very simple and may only take a 20-30 seconds, maybe a few minutes if your really in the muck. Its like a quick little pep talk to yourself meant to prime you/prepare you for the day ahead (and this can be done when you know your about to go towards something that you know will be challenging). Its like the half time prep talk the coach is giving his team so that they are prepared to succeed with the task ahead. And like a good coach you want to tell yourself something that's just right to get your inward soul peaked. You want to feel like your ready to go inside, or clearer and ready, or even just at peace smiling and ready. Does that make sense?

@purerogue @Preetom @Aakash @Nahm Glad you all enjoyed it, and a happy new year.

@Aakash A good starting point for a lot of people to find a good life is looking into self hate. Its a subject that underplays a lot of peoples personality and psychology. Now forwarning, this can be a delicate thing to look into because it can bring up a lot of unexpected emotion, anger and self judgement. Remember, dont blame yourself for what comes up, see it, understand it and let it be until it passes. If this gets to hard, seek out someone who can help you through this stuff. Also don't expect everything/spiritual path to just work out great and happen easily; to easy to set yourself up for failure that way. Right now and daily/weekly, mentally prepare yourself that this there may be some tough shit, that will maybe kick your ass sometimes, and that when it happens your ready. This way when it does come up, you dont instantly panic and run away (inwardly/emotionally/or even externally) and are better prepared to deal with what ever more consciously.

Sorry, I dont know what your talking about, but sounds deep. Could you put it in another form? Maybe I'd understand.

Ya, I think I would agree. Insightful!

This may be most appropriate for SD Green thinkers hoping to move into Yellow, but offers something for everyone..... Something that I found very liberating along the path to awakening was realizing that we are just animals. If your like me, probably at some point along the path, if you self reflect, you may notice you start to subtly judge others based upon your new set of values developed through reading awakened masters of the past, watching Leo's video's, starting a meditation practice or wanting the world to be a better place. Now ask yourself, why don't you judge apes, dogs, cats, sharks, elephants, coyotes the same way? Is it because your society said your different? What would it be like to accept yourself and others with less judgement, like you do with animals? For me, I realized how much I self judged myself and others for being how we were all designed; animals essentially. We all came through this same process of a big bang, to formation of stars, and organisms, to more a familiar now nature as "animals" yet we separate ourselves from it and judge accordingly with, oh humans are territorial and act violent and we kill eachother, and steal, this is horrible, we should be One nation, One earth (and this can be something we can aspire to and work towards) but this isn't how things were created within the universe, nor was it ever a problem that it happened this way! This can very liberating to let in, and can help you let go of a lot of self judgement about being animal like in nature (territorial, fearful, skeptical, cautious, traumatized, selfish, all nature created conditions) and judgement of others who you see as problems who aren't or haven't woken up.

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Hey man, you sound like me when I first started on the path. Super focused and diligent to a tee and one pointed towards Self realization. But like you, there were mind/body changes and pains. Some of these are part of the course, even being less focused and the mind not working the way it use to. However, it sounds like you may need to tackle your pursuit from a new angle. To much spiritual practice in the form of Meditation overstimulated me at one point, along with all the spiritual energies released through questioning self/SElf and shedding old idea's. Now I don't want to say drop it all and just focus on school for now, but it could be the best thing you can do for yourself. If I were in your shoes and having learned what I have over the last 10 years. I'd heavily cut back on meditative practices, like full stop for two months and see how that helps, then maybe slowly put in 20-30 mins here and there, just listen to your body. I'd get your diet in order and If your not doing yoga, try it out, when I took on a serious yoga practice (4-5 times a week and teacher training) some of the energy offness I couldn't put my finger on sorted itself out. If you don't like yoga, a physical practice of some sort can be just as grounding, weights, martial arts, a sport, but something you really do and puts you in your body for at least an hour at a time. I'd also drop most of your spiritual reading/watching during this two months as well, just that can effect your energies and slowly bring it back into your life after if it feels right. Just focus on school, and relationships if you can. If your internally still yearning to wake up and enlighten as they say, doing what I said won't prevent that, your life lessons and growth will come in your new pursuits and you don't have to force anything, trust me

From where I'm from and in a lot of cultures, if some is being personable and says "You seem to have found something powerful and useful, I'm just sharing what I've learned as well. We don't have to meet eye to eye. " and the other responds with "It's difficult to meet eye to eye when the "I" stand between the two eyes". I know your not talking about yourself, so you must be talking about me. Your basically saying we are not meeting eye to eye since my small "I" is in the way, and you have no small "I" that's in the way. Either your joking, which ok maybe I misunderstood, or there is some power dynamic you've established inside yourself that you have no small "I" and "I" do, and its difficult to meet until I deal with mine.

We've talked before and I still think some of what I shared is of use, but again these things can be hard and take a unquantifiable amount of time or not. I'd say look for a non-dual teacher, perhaps maybe one is coming to your area, sometimes being in the presence of one who is awake can help you answer what you can not, even without words. Also, don't forget that things change, life is flow, it will change, this period of time that your mind is screaming about and feels horrible, will pass, and thankfully you will say at a future point, that oh that wasn't so bad, I'm glad to be through that and into the new space that opened up. Like I said before I believe, I was in a similar state on and off for a while. Also like Nahm suggested, getting the basics down can help a lot. For example, until I fixed eating to much sugar and also doing a serious yoga training, I couldn't handle energetically a lot of the "deep" I had gone into through meditation and contemplation. Physical foundational elements really help align these new energies and orientation changes I think your going through. Just muster up anything you can and just get yourself into the best shape, health, inward positivity you can (you may have to let go of some spiritual idea's, since some say this kinda stuff is just a ego thing).