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But even masters often seem to be communicating a lineage or a familiar language and borrowed metaphors. Not to say any of this is bad, but getting back to your original response about parrots, again I say, isn't everything, or at least appears to be?

Arent most interactions? Or atleast can appear to be?

Hey Scholar, Can you explain a little more about this goddess and what connection or significance you feel it has to these unusual changes you've been going through? There's been a few times in my life where I felt like I'd never believe in such things, but after experiences that proved to my core otherwise, I'd say there are stuff like angels and gods out there. That said, some of the things you described emotionally sound very familiar to me and are part of some souls journey and yearning for the truth, honestly been a while since I reflected on it. I don't want to give you new labels or perspectives on how to see them, but my best advice and one that seemed to help when I went through something similar is for the time being don't label it, espeically bipolar or disregulation, even though it makes sense to the cognitive mind. Things might not make sense for a while when you do this, but just let it be and live your life as best you can despite these changes, maybe spend some time just sinking internal and asking for guidance and see what happens, perhaps a word or phrase will come up. Experiment and see what happens when you follow through with this guidance, As long as the advice isn't to self harm or harm others.

Hey luckie, good luck with your endeavor, I'm curious to find out what you create. I use to be a quality assurance tester for LucasArts. There's many directions you can take in this, but going off of what you said, and wanting it to be approachable to a more general audience I'd use themes that are more in line with your general targeted audience even though they are their core the ego and the dark night of the soul type experience (which it sounds like you are doing?). Many games I've played weave idea's of the psyche, mind, the inner voice, overcoming inner and outer challenges that are linked together, friendship, ambience and harmony. Whats your core hope with this, to elicit a spirtual experience, to share spiritual idea's, to entertain? Because if your wanting to elicit spiritual experience, ambience and calming of the player will go a long ways. I recall a game I never played but watched call Journey, and its a simple game with no dialogue in which you travel through a desert like area solving puzzles about a civilization no longer around. Theres even multiplayer with no talking. But its so sublte, beautiful and serene that it really just opened the heart and awe of life. Sometimes dialogue and story is secondary to creating a felt experience. Just some food for thought. Here's a Journey playthrough with no commentary, see what it feels like to just watch this and maybe it will instill some idea's in you....

You ever ask yourself what a conscious none feeling state would actually be like? Like really no sensation, no feeling, even the no joy no bliss, no anything, would it even be an experience at that point? An experience that is "nothing" but is enjoyable is not what your talking about, thats still a "something" felt/experienced going on. The nothingness of a good nights sleep isn't felt in the sleep, its felt after as a feeling or experience no?, or if its felt in sleep, because if it is, its not a no-feeling/conscious experience. Its a felt/conscious one. As for the rock thats not really a rock..... its god experiencing itself as that from your god experience. As you see it, is knowing it as that, as a rock as you say. Maybe there is a inside view of rock having a experience of you looking at it as a rock, and maybe not.

Ya well said, and oddly enough even the "what is true" and "what is not" are also true's, and not limits. In a sense the idea of being closed and limited is the conscious experience of so, not a "limit" limiting something called reality. Real mind fuck.

Heartbreaks will happen one way or another, and then they pass, the process sometimes can be heartfelt and real and ultimately are not bad. Other times you may linger in depression and then it may be good to say to yourself, hey this isn't benefiting me in anyway, perhaps its really time to move on and then you drop it. Your second question i'll answer with a link to a video, since its much more well rounded than I could possibly time. I find it very accurate to my own experience.

If your feeling relief, your feeling relief, who cares if it is or isn't from some undefined concept called "cope mechanism". Even if your authentic people will tell you your not, and if you aren't people will tell you are sometimes, so..... relief is relief, don't over think it.

I would say its not supposed to be one way or the other. There is simply life and its very hard at times and enjoyable at others.

Enjoy..... Ive probably watched this 300 times. Each time it elevates my spirits.... Hope it does the same for you.

Let me know what you think, this is a video I made on the topic of self talk.

I get where you’re coming from but at the same time it’s unavoidable. Christian’s are going to here anything non Christian as out there or heresy. scientists are going to feel and hear new age messages with laughs giggle and lack of empirical evidence. A judge is not going to care if it’s all imagination, you broke a rule a he sees and feels it and your going to jail. what at one point moves your heart now makes you cringe. hahaha, it is what it is man, perhaps appreciate it and cringe at it in time you may develop a feel for what language best fits the moment. Until then you’re just gonna be either freely talking as you understand or thinking about how it’s going to sound coming out. I’m

Actually I’d say closer to yes.

Nice technique and insight around it. Just came across this.

Right. You’re missing the absurdity here. The relative debating IS the unfolding, it doesn’t need to be reconciled as in solved. There’s nothing to solve about it. Leos alluded to this many times. The unfolding and the make up of exsistance and reality itself is experience. your seeing this relative debate as real things with actual objective relative truths. The idea that there are relative truths is it self a type of experience reality provides, not an actuality or object that can be dissected to find an objective truth about it. it’s like waking up from a dream and asking why everyone floats in it and argues with each other. And then going about finding and coming up with reasons and objective laws governing why this happens. Then your friend comes along and is like dude it’s just your imagination.

What is funny and simultaneously confusing to the mind is that what you quoted is the Truth, confusions of all supposed parties and participants and all. And yet when you see more deeply it’s also seen as none confusing since it’s all there is unfolding.

@Ayham ya it’s enough for now. Your 17. Enjoy life too. Make friends. Have relationships. Explore. And pursue this interest as well. And ya find something that you like and will afford your living expenses. just keep in mind it’s likely that you won’t find a lot of people locally who you can talk about this stuff with (who are also in your age group) and to find connection elsewhere. If you can great bit don’t make ot into something you focus and get upset about.

If your really this serious start doing all of the above and see what draws you in. Keep with it. Be ready to deal with being uncomfortable in ways you didn’t know you could and feeling better than you’ve ever imagined. Be honest with yourself. And try to uphold some semblance of kindness how ever you understand that to mean with others in your daily life. If your kinda a dick or prick start by being less of one to the degree you can and work towards improving. im sure Leo will have some other stuff for you if he gets to this.

@Theplay I’d say enjoy it while it’s naturally so. Who knows what’s next. Maybe you’ll have more insights maybe not. While it may be true that there’s infinitely ‘more’ it’s all you at the same time.

It’s rather impressive what this bot can do and how if you have a lot of conversation with it over time it will include previous themes and ideas and tie them into the response it gives. It’s rather intelligent in that way. I tried to go deep into non duality and enlightenment with it and while it conveyed many times it is a language model and doesn’t think, learn, have consciousness, or can be controlled, it did give what seemed to be a understanding how I may see it may be connected in a larger whole even if it’s not consciousness to know it. This seemed due to its data on the subject of nonduality and enlightenment. I’ll try and recreate the Convo and past its response word for word.

@Michael Jackson ask yourself if you are very prepared to be wrong about what you are convinced is true. If you can find some openness to this possibility I’d say it’s a good opening to receive the universe and truth you’d otherwise reject.

This all makes ‘sense’ but isn’t necessarily pointing to the actuality of reality. one of the big presumptions that seems to be indicated in them is there is someone there to do anything , one way or the other. now don’t get me wrong, it feels this way often, no? But this isn’t necessarily evidence it is this way. The videos also go off of dualistic notions that there is a fundamental mature vs immature or adult vs child. All notions that again can feel and seem this way , but are not necessarily more true than dreams that felt real as well. that said, be kind, try and do well however that may seem and don’t run around naked yelling nothings real.

Pffttt.... Shiva's womb is where is at, shits so tight, not even emptiness fits in there.

In the past I would of recommended you keep pushing, but now days I'm not so sure thats the best advice, nor will it bring you to what you want in the biggest sense any faster. It's okay to be where your at and relax to just the point before your jolted out from fear. Don't look at the fear as a barrier but a friend saying, ok, thats enough today, and respect that edge.... The mind is a fragile and delicate thing that can be pushed to far to fast and into unhealthy so to say expressions. Play with the idea of balance of things or alchemy. You wouldn't want to put to much salt in a dish just because salt is supposedly broadly good, just in the same way you may not want to relax/surrender as much as possible just because surrender is broadly a good thing. See how that works for you over time.....

No you missed a big part of the realization. there are no humans period. This means there are no evil humans or things. careful with such beliefs you could easily start to demonize others/yourself.