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Sounds like you are just creating a story, but that's ok

What are you struggling with in particular?

No need to be angry or anything, you are only adding more wood to the fire, just follow the sensation.

Remember you don't have to lie to them. Fuck white lies. They don't exist in this sense. Just speak what you feel, you can just politely say to them that you don't enjoy that activity. Whatever that is

@willen1995 Tune into your feelings and senses, you cannot speak what is true to you if you don't understand what that is. Be conscious of the lies you are telling yourself. (thought that makes suffering arise in you) If you are lost and unconscious, you cannot be honest in my opinion.

Yes, I think you already know the answer, I agree with what others said. Be yourself, be open and honest, if you have only 1 or 2 friends who are truly there for the authentic you, that can be very rewarding. Contemplate on why do you want to have deeper conversations? How does a deep conversation with you? I wonder where it will point to.

@ethanb121 I sent you a dm, feel free to contact me

https://www.twitch.tv/videos/608182380

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClHVl2N3jPEbkNJVx-ItQIQ Don't underestimate this guy because of his brand's name, he is a yellow-turquoise addiction psychiatrist, who studied at Harvard medical school for 2 hours a day by practicing yoga on concentration and meditated before studying, he understands both western thinking and approach, but he also talks a lot about Ayurvedic diet and psychology. He uses basic high school level psychology to explain important phenomena in our society. He claims that older psychiatrists and psychologists aren't good enough at healing modern mental problems, because they live in a totally different world and they don't have direct experiences with them. If you are struggling with uncertainty, addiction, identity problems etc... this channel is gold.

One bias I noticed in myself is the bias of needing to talk/think about Love. I think I identified deeply with Leo and then wanted to enlighten others all the time by talking to them about Love, but actually it has the opposite effect, it throws me into unconsciousness, demotivates others (most of the time) and keeps me away from actually listening to people around me and staying present. Thinking is the same, only done inwardly. ?

A yellow value is also understanding the lower stages

@Natasha I don't know, it's just that sometimes people write you... That's about it

Unfollow them

@28 cm unbuffed I feel for you man, stuggling with this myself sometimes, this is what seems to work.

@28 cm unbuffed I understand your worries, but I think you shouldn't worry about what is narcissism and what isn't, this is a duality just like any other, you could be exploring it to infinity and creating it bigger and bigger... Instead, just try to see what feels good now Whether it is „narcissistic shit“ or „selfless shit“ doesn't matter, it can give you a clue, but you gotta figure it out. I trust you are „good“ at your core, you got this!

Are you genuinely enjoying this aspect of your life, is it something that makes you energetic?

@GodDesireOnlyLove Lovely

Hey guys, I was scrolling youtube and this video's title made me click on it and watch it: Sometimes I wonder how many people consider themselves to be weird... It's something very hard to define (just like any other duality), yet it's something that inspires many of us. Just an announcement - I am not saying you should start acting like a narcissist, seek approval and be attached to your weirdness, that certainly is a trap, but I think opening up in an unselfish way and being honest is one of the things that can help you along the path. I was thinking that making this thread would lead to some of us building a better connection on this forum, as we don't really know ourselves that much, although we write messages and try to help each other, or criticize each other. Lately, I've been staying up late in order to „interview“ people when they are at their most „existentialist“ - thinking about their lives when nobody disturbs them at night. It's crazy what kind of new things you can learn about the world in this way. I will start by sharing observations of my own - Weirdness is something that can bring you tons of approval, basically, I have been getting the largest amount of approval since I stopped hiding my weirdness. I understand that some of you might be afraid of sharing this, because maybe you live in less developed countries or you don't trust anyone or maybe you are afraid that people might report you and lock you down on a psychiatric ward because of your interests in mysticism. You can see this in Leo, he doesn't really care about anyone's opinion on his teaching that much (which I don't want to advocate for) but he is certainly receiving a lot of love and support. I know some of you out there think you are the only ones in your city interested in spirituality - you are probably wrong about that, in fact, Enlightened beings might live like directly opposite of your house. Another thing is - openness, honesty and trustworthiness resonate with people like really a lot. My friendships have improved so much since the time I stopped hiding in the shadows. It is insane how many thing you would think are totally unacceptable are actually very much accepted by many people. (Whatever that means for you!) You can usually get away with more than you think you can. One thing I like doing is not thinking about something I want to do would be weird, like asking that weirdo in the corner why he is dating that extraordinary girl or asking that artist, whose music you like, about their gender preferences, as you might not be quite sure about that when you first look at them etc... That also applies to other stuff, like maybe you would like to learn some exotic language which doesn't have that many resources online, so you can basically ask strangers who you think speak that language in the streets and become friends with them or find university professors who teach that language and just casually start a conversation with them. All that is very possible. Your life will probably become more interesting, amusing and also intriguing. It might seem like you fucked up at times, but you will love that in a way. When you start thinking you've got it all figured out, life will throw more obstalces under your feet just like that. I might remember more things as (if) this thread develops beyond this. Please, share your stories! (and don't mistake them for the Truth, while accepting them lovingly)

@VerballyHazardous Interesting, thanks for sharing that. @GodDesireOnlyLove What creates your hope?

It's always the normalness/sanity being freaked out that it's going abnormal/insane. You are always You. <3

@VerballyHazardous I thought it might be because you consider your anatomy to be somehow „broken“, therefore you enjoy seeing other individuals with broken anatomies being „accepted“. Could it be that? I am just guessing. Nah, I don't think you are dangerous because of this... Are there any other people who feel touchy? Do you guys sometimes have an intuition to touch someone in a particular way, maybe @Keyhole ?

You are doing that now, but unconsciously. You create what you unconsciously imagine, that's why you suffer. Just know what you want. How should I put this...

I was talking with a friend of mine about this and it seemed to me like both of us resonated differently with different facets of Love/Reality. But I wouldn't say either of us is more woke than the other, I would probably say something like @Preetom here: What are your comments on that? Sorry, my mistake, I meant, given that you've studied many teachers and probably have met many serious seekers of Truth, from which some have this and some don't, what do you think would help such a talented person to stop assuming stuff and become more mature in their communication? Lol

How do you know you have this special wiring? What would you recommend such a person to realize / stop assuming?