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Was this your first time doing this or doing this with this person? That might also be the reason, sometimes first times feel awkward I mean, but of course you need to find for yourself.

Thank you so much Leo for what you are doing. I have been watching your content since I was 14 years old and it really made my life better, more passionate. Even the video about how to make a girl squirt, I know it was a filler one, but still, very amazing. I hope you stop feeling this kind of pressure, it is your own creative process, plus ideally, there should be no teacher needed in this world. I think you taking a break will give many of us space to realize things about life ourselves, get back to our spiritual practice, back to what matters, perhaps practice some pick up from time to time, I don't know. I also want to say that I am really happy about you being no bullshit and realistic in your last video and I am also grateful for the many mature responses to this video of yours. Get well soon, shit happens, but if somebody does the work it is you.

I think this thread could be in both subforums, but perhaps by relationships you could also see same sex non-romantic relationships (friendships for example) and what you posted about has to do with solving conflict in relationships. The thing with fighting is that you can never know how strong your opponent is; if you learn that a problem can be solved with fists, then you can easily get yourself into trouble. You might attack somebody who is very aggressive and they could send you to the hospital very quickly. So I think teaching kids to talk things through is a kind of a protection. Plus self-reflection and open-mindedness are much more sustainable solutions to conflict.

Some pills can be addictive also. I second the trying to please the other person, it doesn't actually decrease your own pleasure as some might think. It can be a lot of fun for both of you.

I suspect your values might have developed over those three years, but perhaps not so much in the area of relationships. I think if you only imagine things from the state of not being in a relationship, it is like imagining how to play sport vs. playing it. If you actually enter at least one relationship and get a new experience, that by itself is going to teach you way more than any response you get here. You might be overthinking this idea of relationships too much, trying to create some sort of moral code, plan or whatever without understanding what you want.

Yeh I think you are making a lot of assumptions. Have you ever actually tried a poly relationship? I am confused about whether you are actually asking without the background experience or with some degree of experience...

It seems to me like you just need more experience in order to know better what you want

Do you have like a source for similar exercises other than intuition? I mean book/videos.

@Nahm Do you practice this with your wife?

This week, 18th to 24th January 2021, we had an American regional week. We had a special American dinner without beef, snack making (we made empanadas) in faculty's houses, futbol tournament, movie night and also our own Burning Man, which turned political. (our school does not have the policy which discourages its students and faculty to openly express their political opinions, so burning Trump and Bolsonaro was not against anything)

For a certain time period I had a personal crisis, which stemmed in me asking why am I so lucky to be white and European from a nice middle class family. After meeting so many people who have experienced war, racial discrimination, sexist violence etc. I just started thinking how the world is fair. Back at home I could easily dettach from such issues, but they just became a lot more personal to me at this school. I asked my English literature teacher whether he could talk about this with me and he took me to a hike to a nearby hill in the Western Ghats. We ended up talking about how in the last academic year, some students visited Karnataka's red light district, which is the second biggest in India, as a part of a project experiential learning week. At one point, one of the sex workers asked him whether she can dance for the students and the faculty, he had to hesitate, but then he thought it is probably something she does and is proud of, so he gave her the permission. It ended up not being erotic.

14th day of quarantine, 24th December 2020 - Everybody is celebrating, but not because of Christmas - those were celebrated only by me, my Czech co-year and some few other people that day, most of our students celebrate Christmas the day after. I saw a bus from the window of my hotel room and I knew that it was the bus that was supposed to take us to the school's campus. Nobody was certain about whether the campus actually exists, we have been waiting since August to see it. After two hours of yet another very interesting ride, we took our bags and headed to our new homes. We were told that we are not supposed to hug, but when I knocked on the door of our house, my neighbour from Afghanistan hugged me so tightly that my feet left the ground and he picked me up in the air. The same was done to me by my other housemates from Chile, Brazil, Nepal, India and Bangladesh. I later realized that everybody is very very touchy even with people of the same sex, nobody ever laughs at anyone's sexuality here and there is almost zero repression of expresiveness. On the same day, we sat down in the lanyard of our house and talked about the very much needed house rules - in a multicultural community like ours, nobody can ever know what to expect from their housemates and roommates. The most important rule is that we are not snitches - we really do not want any of our friends to lose their scholarship for "experimenting" and "exploring" as we call it. But of course we behave very nicely. (thanks for teaching me about all the different types of sex you can have Leo, it is very much appreciated) The day after, there unexpectedly wasn't any snow and my body was very confused about that fact. I wanted to look fancy that day so I asked my roommate from India to borrow me his kurta. (traditional Indian clothing) It was a very good way to raise my social status in the eyes of my South Asian friends. I seriously need to buy one for myself. (the girl in the picture is my Czech co-year)

@Ima Freeman Don't learn more, you already know what you want x)

Listening to actions as well as words.

Guys please tone this down a bit, you are not learning anything by swimming in your pain and confirming biases. It can get better, really.

@Ima Freeman You are overlooking that you just publicly opened up about this on this forum and many people accepted you without stigmatizing. Sure, there will be people, usually those who have never experienced these thoughts, who will judge you, I don't know if it is the majority, but like you do not have to talk to the majority, nor is it really possible, you are good to go. What Nahm says is good.

@Ima Freeman Hey, thanks for bringing this up. Actually so many people have similar thoughts in this forum, I think it is a common theme among spirituals seekers. It is definitely very good that people are opening up and moderators will not be closing similar threads because of "dangerous content" or whatever. It is definitely safe and important at the same time to discuss this. I am just guessing, but do you ever think that you can see what other people think about you? The controversy indeed exists only in your thoughts, because you are a sensitive person. I guess it is usually connected with understanding death as something serious, taking yourself very seriously as an individual.

@lostmedstudent I was thinking about starting a youtube channel yeh I have been here for a month now. My parents are back in Europe, fortunately Yes, there are teachers, guards, nurses, doctors etc. who take care of us.

One day my mum came home from her job and told me that her co-worker's daughter graduated high school in UWC Costa Rica. She said that in a few months, there will be another selection process and that I could apply and get a scholarship to also study abroad. I have never imagined that something similar could come to me, but I was the kind of person who would accept that challenge and grab that opportunity by its horns. The day after she helped me to miss a day of school and instead attend a seminar about this scholarship. The girl who organized it was 18. She described her amazing journey in Armenia, how she learnt Russian and met so many amazing people. I was lucky to be the only person to contact her after that seminar, so I received her fully attention and she helped me with the essays and interviews for the selection process. Finishing high school in India was not the only option and I have had some doubts in the past about whether it was the right choice. My family and some friends were questioning my decision of going to India instead of for example Italy or Singapore, which are much more developed and safer countries. I relied on my experience with interacting with my Indian friends who work in restaurants in my home town in the Czech Republic. Since I have began the online studies and later arrived to India, I have never regretted this decision. The school year started in a rather unpleasant way. Many people were not convinced that they are going to get their visas, some of them are still imprisoned in their homes, specifically those who live in poor countries in Africa and those in China, because of the conflict near the borders with India. Our school has lost many beautiful faces who tranferred to other international schools. However, the online studying has been very enjoyable so far. It is definitely because of the dedication and passion of the teachers (I have discussed psychedelics with some of the faculty even) and the diversity of the student body, who come from 81 different countries, many of which have mixed nationalities, are queer, have experienced war, poverty, etc... My opinion on education has really changed. Teachers and students are friends here, we do not have to play any social games or be polite at all. We laugh, struggle together, learn, grow, make inappropriate jokes... My favorite class so far has been the English Literature class. Our teacher only has a bachelor's degree, but he has travelled around the world, speaks many languages and is very knowledgable. These qualities and experiences make him a much better teacher than the other literature teachers I have had, because of his life experiences and wisdom. The most amazing thing about the class is that when we read a text, everybody understands it differently. I have for example never thought that patriarchy, gender discrimination and colonialism have been a serious problem, because I have not experienced them in Europe to a great degree. This was mainly because of how western-centric and biased the education system is in most schools. How can people overlook the fact that most of what we read is from white, heterosexual male authors? Reading texts from India and Africa has blown my mind and pushed me up the spiral, most education indeed is brainwashing. There is so much beauty in diversity. However, I still oftentimes seek out my dear friends who share my sense of humor and with whom I can be sarcastically insensitive. Some few days ago I have finally packed up my bags and prepared myself for a long flight. I slept over at my friend in Prague and the next day we were in India. It was a big shock, there was smog inside of the Delhi airport building and stray dogs were barking at us in between the terminals. The airport staff were shaking their heads from side to side when we handed in our documents and we were the only white people to be seen. The flight from from Delhi to Pune exceeded our expectations, everybody back home was telling us that it would be a shitty airplane with a war veteran injured pilot who has suffered brain damage. But that obviously was not true! Music that resembled some sort lullaby before the plane took off was an invention we have never seen in Europe and it made us rate the flight with 1 extra star in our minds. In Pune, we got out of the airport building and immediately all the taxi drivers started speaking at us in Hindi and Marathi, I so hope they thought I am bhaaratiya, because that would make me very pleased. The next person we saw was our actual driver. The first mistake I made was trying to enter the front seat from the right side, how dumb of me. We left the airport and even though I was quite tired, I could not sleep, because what I saw was so incredibly diverse, interesting and beautiful. The roads are probably my most favorite thing in India. Nobody adheres to the rules, cows and dogs everywhere around, so many rikshas, tricycles and motorbikes, slum children walking without shoes, hijras (transgender beggars) knocking on our windows... I have never seen anything similar. After that we arrived at the hotel where I have seen for the first time some of my online classmates and teachers. The mandatory quarantine in a hotel was very very boring, I fainted once because of the shock my body was undergoing with all the different food, climate, air etc... The funniest thing that happened was when my Ethiopian roommate asked me whether I want to wear a jacket in 29 degrees celcius, which was too cold for him. (in my home country there is snow right now, Maharashtrian weather is basically a permanent summer for me) The teachers finally let us go for a walk around the hotel and its backyard where there were some dumpsters and very poor looking houses. I asked my friend from Delhi whether it is actually a slum and she said yes. I hugged the fence and observed the life there. It was very tragic for me to see, because I was spending time in a very luxurious hotel and from my window I saw these people living in extreme conditions. Right next to the slum were modern skyscrapers and a highway. It made me realize how stupidly rich I am, even though I come from a middle class Czech family, which is by no means considered wild rich in the West. The night before we headed to campus I spoke with my Ethiopian roommate about happiness in Africa.

Wow, so many Maharashtrians! I didn't know we have such a big community on this forum. I would love to see Mumbai. Hopefully we will be allowed to travel this year.

@Harikrishnan In Maharashtra

@Username Your mum might never change.

@Heart of Space Because the police usually knocks on the door of black families

@eggopm3 Sounds like you've grown.

Are you white?