Meditationdude

@Lyubov interesting.. ya I have something called sensory processing sensitivity and my nervous system is affected by this. Wondering if it has something to do with that but I also have minor trauma and am in recovery (opiate addiction). I learned it from the insight timer app and I’ve only been doing it two months. Been meditating daily for many years though and also use mushrooms occasionally. The crying isn’t from sadness it feels like it’s coming from a sense of gratitude and joy. My whole body is lit up with energy and I’m vibrating like crazy.

@Bulgarianspirit I get these images during meditation sessions sometimes.

@Vagos I’ve still yet to meet a single person at tier 2, so being you have friends at that level is good enough.

@Serotoninluv @Neuroknot then there’s folks like me who understands what he is saying and thinks it’s great but can’t get behind the heavy psychedelic use. I appreciate the pioneering work with 5MEO but without it what do you have Leo? Can you stay as conscious, can you still grow? I ask myself the same question. After awakenings on shrooms I get good growth but if I don’t do them often I don’t stay as conscious. So is it a crutch? Is it something that’s necessary to achieve even a sliver of what Leo talks about? Genuinely curious.

@Angelo John Gage dude why are you always self promoting?

Any time I’m contemplating doing psychedelics (mushrooms in this case) I get anxious and worried and I sometimes talk myself out of doing them. Another thing that comes up is a get really bored on shrooms bc I just sit for hours in my house and do absolutely nothing. I feel like I wasting an entire day and the last few trips were pretty mild in terms of insight or growth gains. I need someone to help convince me to take shrooms today bc I’m feeling an energy shift and I want to be more grounded again. I just don’t fucking feel like it though, help!

@Depersonilized I’ve seen all the videos, some more than once, I practice contemplation and self inquiry, I meditate daily (4 years straight), I kinda study religious texts sometimes and personal development is a huge part of my life. I just don’t get much from shrooms anymore.

@pluto Ya it could be weak shrooms. I’ve had peak experiences on 2.5 grams before but that was years ago. Ever since it’s been mediocre experiences and boredom. I usually sit in my room and meditate for 4-5 hours while I shroom. I don’t like being around people when I’m tripping.

@Aaron p I understand what you’re saying. Ive been a daily smoker for years but I’ve gone weeks and months without smoking before and I’ve had those feelings of well-being without the drug. I am definitely addicted, I’ve never thought otherwise. I’m still working on it but I just have this problem where smoking enhances my life for the better and I don’t want to quit. Some people smoke and do nothing and eat like shit. I smoke and meditate, go workout and then cook the healthiest foods possible. This is my daily routine and it works bc I’m self employed and can do whatever I want. I’m happy and I’m still growing.

@Aaron p I don’t have anxiety normally, only before psychedelics. I make a million excuses why I shouldn't do them and I psych myself out. that’s funny, weed does the opposite to me. Less anxious and I feel much more grounded.

@Girzo I usually do 4-5grams.

@electroBeam hey man, just be aware this is still the internet, please don’t take someone’s evaluation of you (even if they are a moderator: @Inliytened1 ) as factual in any way. That should be determined by a medical professional. I have no idea how someone could determine this with a few paragraphs of words and zero background. @Leo Gura

I’m going through some sort of rut lately and my mood is really irritable. It’s a little embarrassing bc it’s very out of character. Somehow I get triggered by silly things that I would normally brush off. I’m mindful of when they happen and I apologize to any people involved right away for my poor attitude but how can I push past this? I feel like an asshole.

This show is really bad, like 2 out of 10 bad. I couldn’t get through more than 2 episodes without turning it off bc I was uncontrollably laughing at how stupid it is.

@ShugendoRa i have and I find it addictive and a lot like opiates. It’s also a dirty, sluggish high which does you no good and keeps you unconscious. Just sayin...You’ve been warned.

@Rasheed exercise. After my morning meditation I go straight into an hour workout whether it be a long run, bike or weight lifting.

@TrynaBeTurquoise said nothing about it being dangerous, I said unhealthy “behavior”.

@Leo Gura really dude!?! You’re not going to say anything about how this guy did DMT every other day for 9 months straight? You think this is healthy behavior? You’re losing me man. That’s insane.

@Conscious life Look, everyone path is different and this is especially true for Leo’s. He’s a highly gifted intellectual who consumes books and psychedelics like oxygen. Unless you are on this level I wouldn’t try to judge his content. That being said his newer stuff doesn’t really resonate with me and I don’t care very much about his videos like I used to but whatever, It’s just one resource out of many. He warned us he was going to outgrow us, I’m not surprised nor do I care. I plan on outgrowing actualized.org soon if not already.

@Bridge to Infinity in almost every single video Leo warns us of the dangers in one way or another. Your argument can be made for any piece of content. I could argue that watching a commercial is dangerous for my mental health. If actualized.org is dangerous than we are all FUCKED. That being said, the forum is a breading ground for devils and dark knighters. If anything keep your friend away from this forum. But again that’s any forum anywhere. People are just fucked up and we are all trying to improve ourselves. To say that Leo is hurting people is a perfect example of someone not understanding spirituality and specifically Leo’s content. You can’t understand bc you’re not conscious enough to understand.

I’m currently reading one of the books on Leo’s list (The Universe is Virtual) but his last episode said that reality cannot be a simulation... isn’t virtual and simulation the same thing? Should I stop reading this book?

I’ve been in a rut for the past 6-12 months and I’ve lost my vision for higher consciousness. I used to be so much happier and motivated for this work but I don’t feel like I’m growing anymore. It used to feel like every 6 months I was a new person and growing exponentially. I’m extremely dedicated so it’s not for lack of effort or skill. I’ve asked similar questions on the forum as to how to move through the dark knight (and I’ve been implementing them) but I’m still stuck. Everything in my life is really good and I’ve hit all my needs (love, sex, health, career, friends, etc..) but it feels like I’m just going no where! its weird... like deep down I’m truly happy but I still have negative thoughts and bouts of serious depression. I know that doesn’t make much sense but that’s how it feels. I’m happy sad lol. if anyone has some tips on how to deal with the dark knight please let me know bc I’m so lost! I want out!! Sometimes I wish I had never started meditation. Sometimes I think it saves my life. Oh boy, what a wild fucking ride.

@Raptorsin7 ya you’re right I should find a teacher. I’m going to do that this weekend, Thanks man.

@Nivsch 1. I meditate the same way; in silence, seated, eyes closed with my object of focus being the hum of electricity/vibration/life force within. I hear it so loudly its kinda like I have tinnitus (but i don't). 2. Yes, I am super loving and open when I'm in a meditation. I feel joy in almost every sit. 3. Yes, I have a lot of freedom in my life. I work for myself from home (only 25-30 hrs a week) and I basically do whatever I want. I work outside and love to exercise and take walks with my dog and girlfriend. I also workout with friends regularly outside like running and cycling (at least 2-3 times a week). 4. I am in my head when I want to be (and prefer to be in solitude) but I can easily switch it on and be very social and engaging. I have tons of friends but I don't know why because I much prefer not talking and being alone. For reference I am 33 years old

Spiritual work for me is something that I feel more passion for than anything else in my life. It's all I think about and really all I care about at this point. Not in an obsessive way or anything, but something I know I was meant for. I recently had some channelling done by a renowned spiritual teacher in Guatemala and she told me in one of my past lives I was an eastern Monk and I travelled the world teaching spirituality. She said I wouldn't be happy in this life unless I was spreading spirituality in some way or form.