Shadowraix

I think you misinterpreted me. Language starts to break down here. If you have watched Leo's video on "What is Consciousness" or "What is intelligence" or read the Kyballion you will get a firmer understanding of what I mean by mind. By everything is a creation of mind, its saying everything is mind/consciousness and when that manifests itself you get humans, animals, all of the perceived reality. Imagine a person in your head walking around a park. Its sort of like that but on a much more infinite limitless scale. In this case Mind != human perception but it does include human perception since that too is a manifestation of mind. If all is mind and a manifestation of mind then everything we do is nothing but a product of such a mind. Hence why its all intentional. It very closely relates to simulation theory. I was first exposed to this notion through the Kyballion and later saw Leo too had some interesting perspectives on it.

Why limit yourself exclusively to web development? For me personally web dev is a major cluster fuck of technologies and consistently shifting design standards and its more of a headache to keep up with than other parts of programming. But I have a bias for game programming. Also have mercy on your soul if you intend to use PHP for all of your projects. The design of that language is so so painful to look at. Who thought global namespaces was a good idea?

This seems like an extremely naive generalization.

Half truth. God is in the earth worm but the earth worm is far from God.

I feel like this comes from the idea that: All is mind and you are a creation/manifestation of such mind. Literally everything and anything you do is purely 100% intentional. But to us the meaning ultimately boils down to: Just exist.

This is a very difficult thing I am currently working through. Say somebody is blinded by societal conditioning. I may get frustrated because it seems so obvious to me. They may be perpetuating their own suffering and then I wish to break them through the illusion? Should I? The fact I even ask such a should shows I must be off track. I may develop a goal for the world to be whether its to move up a stage or whatever, but that isn't inherently evident others should follow my goal or that I should put any effort into what other people see to align with what I see. Is it a trap for me to get people to conform to me for a sense of belonging? I go on YouTube and see a dumb comment and I may write a in depth reply as I calm down my emotions to give my point of view but I always question why I do it. I quit a lot of social media like Facebook so I could explicitly stop getting frustrated on what other people say. I could think my sharing of ideas might give something to make people happier or it may just serve to frustrate me in a endless battle typically of being attacked and lashed out at. Then I think of the the intelligence that is imbued in everything. Everything is as intended. In this present moment my post, you reading, my thoughts, their thoughts, nothing is ever unintentional. Including my replies and sharing of information of others, and so are others attack on me. This inherent nature of should, should not, good, bad etc being all some construct can often leave me feeling groundless. It ultimately comes from a big conflict in either me prioritizing my own development and growth to if I should give no, some, equal, or more consideration for the well being on others and when would be most suitable to just let it be. I see when things are counter intuitive to what people want, or they perpetuate their own suffering and it causes me a great deal of pain. Do I really want their well being or just to remedy my own pain? I think I feel a deep sense of care for others (which is funny because its ultimately me caring about myself and changing myself but I digress) I'm kind of rambling at this point about my own conflict of interests in often what I wish and if those wishes are deceiving me and/or if I should even give it time of day at all. This is excluding those who come and seek what I have to offer to them but more about replying to a comment or some statement in which interjection is allowed but is not requested of me directly.

Are you really human? Or is that an identity you've created through thought? Identifying yourself as human comes through distinctions which must collapse to become infinite. A lot of religions used the idea of a "spirit" that inhabits the body to try and point this out.

Not sure I get this? The relieve of sexual energy is not ejaculating per se but the orgasm itself. An explosion in pleasure. Women may not ejaculate but they orgasm too and orgasm isn't "free" just like running or walking uses energy. Orgasms will use chemicals and functions of the body which is converted energy.

@Rilles Sounds good. One of the benefits of extracting is you'll be able to dose more accurately. How much mescaline is in each cactus varies so you end up possibly under or over shooting your intended experience just going on a "30g" "20g" etc dose of cactus. And by the time you figure out what dose works for you the supply for that particular cactus will be low.

And some people will just not be able to follow nonduality no matters how much they try. Does that mean the work itself is pointless? No. Yes there is potential such shadow work may just not 'work' but that doesn't imply its a waste of time for everyone. Its more accurate to say what intentions such shadow work can satisfy and for people to decide if those satisfactions are what they are after.

I've heard a lot of good about mescaline. I'd do an extract if possible. Eating 30g+ of cactus/powder can be nauseating.

I know dumb is a very subjective thing. Ultimately I am trying to refer to aggressively defensive, hypocritical, and any kind of fallacious logic. I had a conversation with my grandmother who perpetuates her own suffering by saying "thats just who/how I am" and I tried explaining this most likely not who she is and is just a following of cultural programming and her restricting her own thinking and self change by just accepting shes static. A self limiting belief. My responses to her excuses like "I am happy this way" (Happy to cause yourself suffering?) "Can't teach an old dog tricks" (Self limiting belief) etc etc seems to stump her but ultimately ends up not getting her to really think about what she is doing. The constant justification perpetuating your own stress and problems seems to be obvious to me and not for others. I give solutions and answers but they don't truly take in and think about what I am offering. That was significant frustration and I knew I can't make them change nor is there any fact she "should" change. Its like watching a person in an abusive relationship that fails to see the abusiveness in it. Good points. Those might be significant points of change, but I do see potential in being successful in helping individuals lives and that changing their lives which can change others lives. One small change chaining into a bigger change. I'd like to be expressive on my own YT channel so that those who can see value/benefit in what I say seek it out for themselves. My structured speech is pretty poor though and I am working on it. Being expressive always has some sacrifice and ultimately a big dilemma comes from realizing there is no should or should not, so then it comes down to do I put in the effort or just let it be. There are pros and cons to both sides.

Correct even the most minute details. But I am talking more in the perspective of the ideas humans follow or practice and the expression of those ideas to expose it to other people. When we share ideas it is often so other people can see our view because say one might think their ideas is a better way of living. Being enlightened vs being a blind cog in the wheel (Yes I am aware of the illusory dualism of that vs) Enlightened or stage green,blue, turquoise is just another stage. It can improve on the problems of the previous if you say its a problem which has to have some defined clear goal which can differ among others. People like me who are fairly early in this kind of work may feel frustration to those who don't see the more subtle manipulation of society, yet there is no should not to them being blinded by it but nor is there a should. So it can cause a fundamental conflict on if one would put any effort into showing others this path or just to let people do how they do. Its a conflict of interest. One can share ideas for very counter intuitive reasons in this path like trying to force those to belong with you. Or projecting your ideas of a better life on those already satisfied. I'm really having trouble conveying this dilemma

I made a comment to him that he hearted which showed to me he does recognize benefits for other people, he just didn't receive them when he used: "Cg Kid Psychedelics can be like packing years of meditation in a half day experience. Then you come back to baseline and have to deal with all of your usual thoughts and egoic behavior. They are most definitely tools for recognizing and stopping self limiting behaviors of the ego, but that requires one to use the experiences from the psychedelic and cultivate and grow it even in a sober mindstate. A lot of people don't want to put in the hard work to retain the mindset they held under psychs."

@Serotoninluv One core problem the thread title creates. Thread Title: "This why you should never do psychedelics" Video Title: "Why I will NEVER take psychedelics again" See the difference here? He is talking about his own personal experience to explain why he will never do them again. So the over simplistic nature of how he is describing his points is from how his experiences go and isn't inherently trying to sum them up as that being applicable for everyone.

Full and total enlightenment would be like all of your restrictions to the consciousness and intelligence of the mind that you are, being stripped away and having full and total access.

Its like breaking a bad habit. The more you give into fear, the more it is likely going to happen. A lot of our behavior you can track down to being very pattern based. Meditation is a very good tool at learning how to watch your own mind. What you're looking for initially is to not eliminate the fear, but be able to interject between the emotion and response to the emotion. Learning to watch the mind and not respond to every little thing it does can allow for such interjection. Once you stop responding to the response, not doing so will get easier. Your fear is ultimately because you are attached and grasping onto things. Fear is very manipulative for as long as you keep grasping onto them.

Psychedelics are very capable at stripping many illusions you have about you and your perceived reality. You may find it easier to lay the cards out on the table and see their contents. The psychedelic can help give you the mental mindset to think your LP out, but you must still do the conscious thought.

What do you mean by natural form? 5-MeO-DMT IS found naturally. Bufotenin is 5-HO-DMT. Data is kinda weak on the differences of these two substances, but I imagine they are miniscule.

@Thanatos13 It seems like you haven't finished your journey in self inquiry..which is fine, I haven't either. Takes much work of contemplation. You have not sorted out what you can and can't trust in yourself. (I still struggle with this myself) Some more meditation and inquiry regarding this would be useful.

5-MeO-DMT is a more rare substance to get ahold of than N-N-DMT but one option is to get the straight toad venom. I know this isn't entirely 5-MeO-DMT and also contains Bufotenin. (5-HO-DMT) How much of the toad venom is actually 5-MeO and can I straight up smoke it? Will the 5-HO differ the experience and how much is 5-HO vs 5-MeO. I'm wondering if in a financial sense if N-N-DMT will be more viable right now. I do have some pure recreational curiosity intent but I also am curious on both substances for some personal development work.

Yeah I didn't know if the actual extracted venom could be smoked or if there was some extra extraction process necessary. All the toxins and bufotinine getting burned off is something I did not consider. (Although I have no experience smoking any substance beyond weed and I know DMT is a tricky drug to smoke, maybe DMT smoking experience would aid me here?) I am a bit on a budget and im in a situation in which financials matter so the maximum drug/price possible matters a bit (not my decision) so I think I will reserve any receiving of 5-meo to when its for sole personal use not grounded in a budget.

@Feel Good

I don't think its ultimately that it will disappear but masturbation and pornography teaches one to give into the release of sexual urges. The more you do something the more you teach your body to expect it. So when you lack self-discipline in sexual urges you will find not being able to relieve them to be even more frustrating than before.

The thread Devil posted is what ultimately you'll come to. It is a simulation but its more complex than that because its not like a computer per se but the simulation is in the simulator and the simulator is in us so we are inherently the simulator unaware of it. But don't take anyones word for it. Do all the self inquiry yourself so that you can come to the only possible conclusion. Simulation theory in science is just science coming closer to the nondual paradigm