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Don't worry about if its normal or not. Go contemplate about it.

@eleveneleven On point. I acknowledged myself as polyamorous because I realized that I only thought I could love one person deeply at a time because society told me thats how relationships work. I eventually had the realization that I am fully capable of loving multiple people. That prior I was holding some form of ownership and expectations from them. I am currently in a monogamous relationship because I really do love my partner, but I am aware at some point feeling tied down to arbitrary rules will bite me in the ass. Sexual ownership in my case came from my desire to feel important by being the only person she'd want.

In the same way a person can call nondualists delusional, others can call Christians delusional, atheists delusional and so on. I can say Jesus was a nondualist, you can argue against it. There are explanations to both sides. Although cultures throughout history has expressed ideas that align with the nondual path in their own way. Taking the nondual path isn't escaping reality at all. If anything it is the opposite. We often try to escape reality in our own idealized version of it. The nondual path often leads people to accepting reality. To bite the bitter pill and accept the harsh truths of it. I side that rules stated in the Bible was made for the people of that time to keep the unconscious masses in check since they needed rules to suppress themselves. At the end of the day pushing some divine form of good/evil is a reflection of who we are not actual divine law. As if a deity who created us and knows everything we will think and do would have some messiah around the roman ages (damning those before it) to spread divine law to one specific species and that one specific species gets damned to hell for some arbitrary form of wrongdoing.

That is correct, nobody said that wasn't the case. Actually people try to give Buddhism a pass from being corrupt because they are so fed up with abrahamic religions.

@Emanyalpsid If anybody is following Leo blindly without putting into the work to verify it for themselves then they are already doing it wrong. Leo has always promoted not to just believe him but to put what he says into practice and truly figure out if it works or not. Everything he has said is nothing new. Nonduality has existed for thousands of years. Yes spiral dynamics can be used to dismiss people because people stuck in a specific part of the spiral don't see the inherent problems with it while those above it do. Turquoise has problems too, it'll take rising above that to figure it out though. All SD does is explain their way of thinking. You don't need drugs to experience such things, they just accelerate the growth of it. If somebody has an either-or thinking mentality you'd likely dismiss that too because its a false dilemma.

As a male who has dated many girls with plenty of guy friends (and I have plenty of female friends myself) I first acknowledged that if my SO found somebody better (Better in the sense of them feeling more in love and in tune with said person), then i'd want them to be with that person. My love for someone is my wish for them to be happy, not for me to feel entitled to them as if I own them. Physical attraction to someone is just that. Physical. It excludes all of the deep emotional bonding my SO and I have developed with each other. I can look at other girls and get horny in some sexual fantasy but thats all some surface level pleasure based desires. Once I get off and have sexual tension released, I feel nothing towards them. This also applies to people I've had casual sex with. Yet towards my SO I still feel a great deal of love and comfort and bonding when her and I have sex. Its these ideas that helped me let go or at least deal with any territorial side of me. I don't compete to be the reason she derives all of her pleasures in life. I strive to reduce her suffering which I am satisfied with whether it includes me or not. Even if somebody moves on it doesn't mean they don't cherish such memories shared.

A teaching is only as good as the teacher. So if a teacher is corrupt, their teaching will ultimately reflect that. You can give an overarching goal of Buddhism, but the implementation to achieve that goal will be what varies from teacher to teacher.

Interesting first choice. I'd probably recommend LSD due to AL-LAD being more niche as far as the amount of people who has experienced it. (Then again how many lsd trips were actually RC lysergamides?) But if you still want AL-LAD then all the advices should be the same as is with LSD. Your first psychedelic experience I would recommend is to just get accustomed to it. Don't think you need profound insights off the get go. It took me probably like 10+ LSD trips before I even got something insightful out of it. Have music on hand, preferrably non depressing music. Make sure your life is in good order and you are in a clean and comfortable environment. I'll leave a trip sitter to your discretion. My first time was solo, but most would recommend a sitter for safety. Be easy on yourself the first time, get accustomed to what things are like. Many people like to try out how enjoyable something is on psychs like games or puzzles. Treat it as learning another side of yourself. If you really want to get into self improvement then do what you already do for self improvement just on the drug. Meditation, contemplation etc. See where the thoughts lead you.

Same thing

"even what a relationship is supposed to be in the first place." You mean what you want a relationship to be. My point is being weak relative to your standards is not an arguing point against cheating. The only arguing point against it is if somebody doesn't desire the potential outcome of cheating.

That is only relative to that standard. That standard doesn't say much outside of it. See what you consider smart and dumb just comes down to your own idealized version of things. Dumb and intelligent has to be compared to something so it is relative. In actuality smart and dumb are 1 thing.

Generally people get out the surface desires young and get into more developed relationships later in life. There's always a potential partner you can work and settle down with. There's no magical one person so whats the rush?

"But don't cheat, only boys make women cry." What blatant manipulation of language to push your own ideals of what makes someone weak or strong. Attacking the ego to make them feel threatened against something.

I wouldn't call this an alternative but my most profound drug experiences were 500ug LSD + 300mg DXM 500ug LSD + 200mg MDMA Do research before trying a drug but maybe these can satisfy the meaningful trip you desire until 5-MeO is in stock. Ayahuasca/DMT maybe?

This kind of stuff could definitely be good for learning. Understanding what reactions come from what thoughts in other people.

East side of Tennessee.

Feel free to experiment and what not. There's no one magical person for you so even if you give up a potential good monogamous relationship, there will be dozens of future potential matches. And with those future relationships you will have the satisfactions of having explored the open sexual route. One of the powerful tools we have is hands on experience. I'm polyamorous myself. I've had a couple of casual sex experiences, they are pretty nice but I was very self conscious during them on how well I was performing. Being a 1 year monogamous relationship as of now when you have sex with someone for so long you get pretty comfortable. So make sure you're secure with yourself before such exploration.

And wouldn't running a business just reassign the people responsible for your wages as the general public? Except with this your wage is never guaranteed.

Correct. 'better' depends what you want out of it. I actually sometimes miss the social nature of my old retail job so im not cooped up in the house so often. But at the same time the leisure of working from home is pretty great. I was mostly speaking in the severity of being a 'wage slave' that self employment can be a step above but doesn't inherently imply elimination of being one.

Yes, I am currently self-employed. Of course thats a sort of vague term. I do contracted work as of right now, but im working on some independent projects so I can stray away from contracted work. I would say there are severities of being a wage slave. Self-employment can definitely be way more ideal than working for some big (or small) corporation. More so if you can avoid contracted work. But all it really does is reassign who is "responsible" for your wages. You are still dependent on them. But as I said the amount of control and freedom you get can be much greater than being some employee. Not to mention a whole lotta diversity! Keeps the game interesting!

Using the topics listed as a guide, i'd peg myself at somewhere between 3-5

Self employment does not imply being free from being a wage slave.

You can postpone when senility occurs through much better ways of living, but it does not stop it from happening. You will eventually find the body no longer as capable as it was until the brain completely shuts down. Unless you've found the solution to living forever? I for one am for euthanasia for when senility happens.

You could try to ask her to sit down and work it out before making a decision. She feels some way, and is acting based on that without actually knowing how you actually feel? It really sounds like she is projecting how she feels onto who you actually are. Body language in how you express affection is important to learn and it seems like she hasn't learned yours. Are you aware of your body language and how it may be interpreted in usual social norms? That aside, its greatly concerning how one would just leave a relationship like that. "Oh a problem arised, lets just move on" her reasoning could be some excuse to hide an actual reason. Some people just genuinely lose feelings or want to move on to other people but they try to sugarcoat it with other bs reasonings than being honest. That aside, my relationship just turned 1 year myself a week ago, but I don't hold any expectations towards the longevity towards my relationship. People tend to toss the experience of a relationship as wasted or useless if they end up breaking up even though their time with the person could be enjoyable or truly growth inducing. If she wanted to leave me to move on then I would have no quarrels. There is always plenty of people to meet and grow from. Yeah you'll find a lot of people hanging around at orange/blue, still quite a few green though. Its a gamble game. There's no rush. Maybe think about how you on whereever you are on the spiral can work with an orange and vice versa

Work a job to support yourself or starve to death. Hmm... Just because working is optional doesn't really mean you aren't a slave. Its just not physically forced but its set up in a way to where you are dependent on it for survival. Any alternative means of survival will require $$$ at least initially. The 'being a slave' role is to help you see past an illusion. To understand the economic structure. Once you have a grasp on the economic structure you can strategize to overcome it. If your survival is dependent on someone else paying you for work, you are a wage-slave. As Leo said though true independence financially from other people is extremely rare and even then you are usually piggybacking off other wage slaves. You know the word slave used in Leo's videos were not used in the way like white on black slavery was done in the past.