Shadowraix

You pursue spirituality because you want to. That's it. Just desire.

Ever noticed a lot of the time the people who didn't ask for it get it? Do you think spiritual gurus ask for Siddhis? ? Your envy itself might be the very thing blocking you

@Scholar Statements are statements which is not absurd and not untrue. /joke I get what you are saying that concepts need to be dropped eventually but they serve as useful pointers. Leo's whole work here is based on that and helps many. So while more constructions won't let you actually understand it can help you find what you are looking to understand.

Also take into consideration the reallocation of taxes from some places into others. Say take away some of our crazy military spending into the medicare for all. What classifies as ideal? There is always a better 'ideal' but advancing the transition to green is a step forward.

@Jed Vassallo has made beautiful posts on the scenarios that polyamory can work but this sounds like polyamory out of dysfunction. I think because you are asking here then this path may not completely align with you and is not a crossroad to pursue at least at this very moment. The slightest insecurity in polyamory can expand and grow beyond comprehension over time.

@Aeris 3d modeling has a lot more complexity in the tooling. It would benefit you just to jump into 3d modeling itself. Blender just got a huge update which improved usability in the UI so it's a great time to start learning how to use it. Start with box modeling and move up.

I don't think this is the case 100% of the time. There are a lot of aspects of projects that may be less interesting than others. Game development for example has quite a rollercoaster. There are going to be times and days when you might not feel it, but that hard-work, discipline, and big picture thinking is what helps one through those days. Flowing is a fantastic state to achieve, but I don't think its always practical all the time in the earlier days of personal development.

You're getting lost in semantics.

Amazing! Your abilities are like extensions or branches of yourself. You can nurture each one, but when you get the root of where it stems its like a chain reaction affecting dozens of branches connected.

It becomes meaning or a sign exactly because you chose to interpret it as such. Even if we see something and don't interpret it as a sign its still doing its job so to speak. The universe has a wonderful way of knowing how to navigate you exactly where you are suppose to be.

The thoughts and images are just a reflection of a state of consciousness. When that consciousness changes the thoughts and images change.

For me psychedelics can raise my awareness so high it can feel like sensory overload to experience certain sounds so I can see why that could be annoying. It definitely takes some conscious effort if you are in a less than ideal environment.

Dude! I have similar experiences on psychedelics with music in general. It feels like a 6th sense, nonverbal cosmic communication of art. I love it so much.

Late reply but thanks for the advice guys. Thanks to the platform it costs me $0 to maintain and I only have to maintain it for as long as I want, so basically as long as its making me money and I can move on. Good idea! I can definitely add in some green elements.

Hey, I'm a software programmer, mainly interested in game dev. I main on a platform with 100M concurrent users/mo and am currently making a game. This will be my first actual game. Its nothing ambitious and largely appeals to meme culture which I know will appeal to the majority of the user base which are kids. I mostly see it as an opportunity to add something to my portfolio and as a cashgrab. (Although I still have my own ethics in how I monetize due to my own distaste for modern video game monetization) To me this intent seems to be very orange stage, but being concerned with my own survival it seems to be the quickest option for me to become on my own. It has a high chance of success as developers with games of lower effort easily earn thousands of dollars. But this kind of revenue and securing my survival would pave way for me to have the time and security to push myself into a more green or yellow way of creating value. What do you think about such a path? I know its not the most conscious way, but it justifies in my head as aiding my survival so that I can have more room to produce more conscious value. Is there value in such a progression or should one try and jump straight up to more conscious avenues? I tend to embrace more green values which over-shadow a lot of orange in me I think.

Its the fundamental problem with models and its why we need so many models. We have a lot of variation. If the main goal of spiral dynamics is to map out human growth, you need to cut out nuances if you want it to be easy to follow. Because of this, it can never be fully representative. If you aren't a specialist who focuses on a specific nuance, your model is likely going to be for yourself, or try to fit as many people as possible.

A sign is a sign because you were meant to interpret it as a sign. This perspective radically changed how I viewed people seeing signs.

I've had some of my deepest awakenings with music to direct my consciousness. The old lobby music for Rocket League made me have an incredible awakening by just shifting my focus to it. I guess the best way to describe it is listen to or experience whatever helps you focus on what you ultimately are, which is what the song is. We are designed to love music, so that is a great aid for some people.

Thanks lmao. It was the most recent picture I had of myself. I think I took it before I tripped on top of a mountain which makes it even better. "Strap in and get ready to blast off" I and Leo are walking our own paths which include drugs so its hard to say what the limits are without them. I think you can realize anything you realize on psychedelics sober but its often highly impractical unless you are just born spiritually inclined. We must do what we can with the limited time we have in our lives. Its in our best interest to accelerate it if possible and if it aligns with your goals. Yes, psychedelics are tricky in that regard. I've mentioned it many times that it took me absurd doses to get me out of my materialist rationality mind. So while awakening can happen by " accident" like me who brute forced it, realization is much more effective when done with the proper intent and mindset. I'm just saying thinking that psychedelics only show what you understand is a great under-estimation of the power of a psychedelic induced awakening. It might be more accurate to say psychedelics mainly shows you where your intent directs. If your intent is to grow spiritually you'll be more likely to grow than someone who does it just for fun or escapeism.

@Serotoninluv beautififul explanation? I wrote one more elaborate but the forum instantly got a http 500 error for a bit ?

@possibilities Well you hen you're mapping out a general progress of human growth you are more concerned about the. Global progress than a small percentage of nuances.

Two trips is not enough. You've got much to learn. Try 20-30 then we'll talk.

@Leo Gura this is good advice. I often try to fit people into a the best model I can but it's good Is good to remember life dynamics are more complicated

@Michael569 Dude! Your responses continue to be invaluable to me. Thank you for your contributions here. ?

Having a bad trip on mdma is something you gotta try to have. It's basically a flood of serotonin and it makes it very hard not to embrace the world in love. I'm not sure about the legalities so I won't give any advice. Perhaps you might still get benefit in a personal setting though. It would be obvious you are on it. You go full talkative extrovert. Even if you are introverted.