Shadowraix

Limited intelligence. Infinite intelligence I would think wouldn't need memory to for example do trial and error. It would already be perfect. But on an absolute the universe does have memory but its not necessary for intelligence. I'm just talking out of my ass contemplating I haven't actually figured this out though.

From my experience, People tend to look down on the poor because they perceive them as lazy or not applying themselves. Settling for the bottom barrel. The poor don't like the rich because they feel like they are greedy and corrupt. Money driven over sustaining life. But i'd say a lot of the poor only feel that way because they are so low in the wealth scale. You want fairness more when it benefits you. The rich funny enough though depend on the poor to be poor in order to be rich. Not everybody can be rich. At least in a capitalistic society.

You are assuming that and even if they did it doesn't matter. I've only been approached a handful of times since I was in middle school. I am 20 now. I don't find my value or attractiveness in how many other people desire me. I find it within me. Your problem is from within not outside. How many people do you meet in your whole life compared to all of the people in the world. Just think about that. Everybody you meet in your life could find you ugly and it still wouldn't be enough to even make a statistical estimation. It would be such a small % of the population. So no guys approaching you in the area you are in isn't saying much and not even worth making a generalization over.

Basically sums it up. Our words won't instantly fix your problems. We can tell you how we improved ourselves but beyond that its all in your hands to improve yourself. I don't care if its 1 or 100 people that say you are hideous it does not mean you are factually hideous. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Its relative. You find yourself hideous and because of that you will always think anybody who finds you attractive will be lying. The problem is not what others think of you, its what you think of yourself.

I had a friend recommend modafinil to me and ive been interested in it since. Leo recommending it makes me even more interested. My friend told me he learned how to focus from modafinil and after some point doesn't depend on it anymore. I'm hoping this is feasible for me as well.

Does intelligence come before memory or after? Thinking of the human brain or computers etc memory seems to be the preservation of certain states things are in. And given the degree of infinity, every state is occurring and also not occurring. Thinking of the above I would say intelligence is not the same as memory. Intelligence does not depend on memory at all to function. Our initial limited access to intelligence is probably why we have memory, it helps us learn how to use it.

Thats only part of the problem because for someone to even get angry it takes said person to be in a conscious state where such situations illicit anger. When you tiptoe around people to cater to their levels of development, you may stumble into a degree of inauthenticity. This is why ideally you would be around those who are on the same page so you can be authentic. It won't be good for you if you have to suppress things you want to say. Highly developed people like Rumi I imagine are far better at tackling word games for the lower consciousness people whereas a lot of us on here probably aren't there yet. There's also considering what state of development his father is in during such conversations. Some are more receptive and open than others.

Of course there are people like you. The ending of suffering is just an added bonus. At the end of the day you are just following your desires. Thats where you find this path.

The fact you are getting antsy and worried shows that you aren't doing it enough. Meditation isn't a complicated practice. With this kind of work you often come in expecting complicated intensive stuff and then it ends up being as simple as can be. Techniques are techniques. Any one of them will get you where you want to go.

Also taken 1500ug. Although I don't plan to even do 1000ug again. The body load and intensity is rough. I could but it was so heavily distorted it might as well been a different reality. I remember watching my friend smoke pot while on the floor and as he inhaled afterimages of him would grow and shrink when he exhaled.

500ug LSD + 300mg DXM My mind had spun out into the sea of consciousness and yet back to back my mind was telling me fundamental truths that made so much sense. I saw the universe being built from nothing up to how I perceive it every day. I was shown Leo's channel during that trip as well. By the end of it I was so mind fucked because it had broken everything I ever thought. 500ug LSD + 200mg MDMA + weed This was one just pure visual orgasm. I had my first thought loop on this combo because I found myself following an aspect of reality thats paradoxical in nature but the weed chilled me out. Music was playing with me instead of me listening to it. Made my brain feel like it was being slung like a yoyo. And the colors. It was just bursting colors everywhere, everything was spinning, it was glorious. 300ug LSD I was on top of a mountain and watched a sunset. Absolutely fucking beautiful. 1000ug LSD Hard to remember this one, I was seeing monks meditating in the back of my eyelids, I saw time and on the come down everything just clicked like a lightbulb "All is one!" it was the roughest night of my life being stuck on the floor but it was great. This is more than one but all simply blew my mind.

I'm a male and am not subject to the degrees of this issue as women, so take this post as me contemplating. I have experienced sexual harassment at least once though. I've always wondered, our society holds sexuality/sexual contact as this super precious thing that must be protected. Its a very delicate intimate thing. A vulnerable thing. How much of this view from those around us does this affect how we treat sexual harassment and so on? What if sex (protected) was seen as a normal things friends do? Like how friends hug. You hug a friend without asking and they likely won't care, sex would be an entirely different story obviously, but would it be the same if everybody viewed it as such. Does this sacredness to sex contribute to the trauma of the act? On another note I imagine when trauma occurs due to the influence one person has on you, you might tend to get "triggered" by the sight of those who represent anything like them. I've seen dogs who have gotten physically abused become really hostile to the same sex of the abuser. Perhaps its our pattern recognition to look out for danger.

You don't. You just let it do its thing. The ego will persistently fight you to not go any further. Some ease their selves into the dissolution, others do it all in one go. Observe the feeling. Let it be. Let it pass.

When you have a massive realization it feels so obvious yet you were oblivious to it this whole time. The laughter for me often comes from that dumbfounded "ah-ha!" moment.

Thanks for these recommendations. Also going to pass them on to my partner to read as well.

Gives me a larger set of information of different perspectives to weigh out. While I do take high regard for the content Leo makes, I don't act solely on what he says. I take in information beyond what he says. Watching something then immediately applying it with no consideration of alternate perspectives or recommendation is being hasty. If you don't have any other resources to provide for me to look into then you have done what I asked of you. Your contribution is much appreciated. I will take it upon myself to apply the information.

This is probably one of the biggest hurdles I have right now. I work online and I do quite a bit of programming as a long term career. When it comes to programming I can have bursts of focus where ill work on a project for 5 hours straight. But most of the time ill try and work on something then I feel this weird of discomfort as if I need to get up away from the computer and do something else. Its hard to explain but especially when im trying to figure out how to go about coding something this really gets in the way. I've had people recommend nootropics for this issue but I particularly don't want to depend on a substance to fix the issue. A temporary solution until long term is implemented at best.

Context for what started this. Quotes from the person I was conversing with: "no you wont. spare us from this demonic wisdom. eastern mysticism=divination of the self. the same old trick. same as nihilists/atheists. same as marxists/anarchists. same deception as in the garden of eden. God is not subject to nature or nature itself. and certainly is not in us. we can become Gods in Christ, but thats a totally different thing. it requires humility, the underlying spirit of the east is pride. its sad that people arent gifted with the dicretion to discern all that. i guess thats why today eastern religions and new age are so ppular in the west. people want self divination not a relationship with a personal God and a concept of sinning/obligations." "calling it demoning is exposing it for what it is. demonic, luciferian, satanic, the spirit of pride, the spirit of revolt, the spirit of misotheism. it is what it is. same underlying principle. i'd advise reading the wonderful autobiographical book of klaus kenneth "born to hate reborn to love". he got very deep in your easter "spirituality stuff". so deep that they even made him a guru, had out of body experiences, travelled through walls and whatnot. and yet he sadly discovered all these were not of divine origin because they came from a spirit of pride and "self help". read the book, it will be an eye opener." I said to explore eastern spirituality as a starting point over western spirituality because from what I know, eastern culture got a lot closer. Reading the summary of the book, there seems to not be any conflict. I'm honestly posting because I am so confused and the person isn't really being helpful to me to understanding this. I've also had numerous occasions of people calling this kind of stuff satan and demonic before. The line of thinking really boggles my mind.

Humans are all highly "advanced" biological computers. You are this computer but much more. On a higher level you are just an observer of this computer. Actions, thoughts, and the separation of the two all a function of this computer. And the conscious aspect is only aware of so much the computer is doing. The conscious awareness is like the UI of a program, way more than that happening in the backend.

I had this issue. Look into your past for clues. I found that my dysfunctional family situation and lack of stability and love had impacted me in a way where I closed up and would get uncomfortable being emotional. I tried opening up to my earlier gfs in highschool, it would result in physical shaking. MDMA had showed me my pessimist outlook and how I reflected love from others instead of absorbing the love and then creating my own love to give to them. Reflecting instead of exchanging will be emotionally exhausting. What helped me was all of my realizations about reality itself. To look beyond the ego and imagine the God perspective. It had really opened me up to this carefree perspective. What people say about "me" (ego) doesn't mean that represents me. They compare what I show them to their own ideals. The relativity here is important. This helped me fight through the initial fear of opening up. Anxiety as well. Then you start small. Practice honesty. Be more open to what you are thinking. Doesn't have to be especially serious or emotional things. You just gotta build up to those.

With the discovery of the link between mind and body you can quickly discover a lot of "mental illnesses" such as depression and anxiety are actually fixable. Many people go on the presumption that the mind has no part and such illnesses can not be fixed by the mind and only by chemical alterations from other substances. I started wondering about the idea of addiction. Obviously there is a chemical aspect to it, but does this become more difficult to happen to you or rather give into it if you are highly developed/conscious? From my own experience my only "problem" with my drug use was when I did a dissociative a little too much which I discovered was out of boredom. These days I can use the dissociative sparingly and don't use it as an escape from boredom. Or does there come to a point where your personal development can't override the addiction potential of some substances?

Try including the word 'platonic' to clear up any misconceptions SFRL mentioned.

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Because im not just looking for information from Leo. An excuse would be me attempting to be less responsible for how I am, thats not the case. And thats why I am seeking information. I figured this community would provide me more diverse resources than one person. Especially from a community where many have worked on developing higher consciousness. I don't really care if you rag on me. I'm not looking to defend myself. If you have any other resources that you have verified through your own direct experience to be useful, please do share. My growth has been on a desire basis. I've been tackling issues bit by bit. So far its mostly been psychological stuff that contemplation has been successful at fixing. Given the suggestions here this focus issue won't just be fixed through psychology. I've noticed my desire to be healthier increase over time and its really just become a matter of it growing enough for me to want to do it. So now that I am tackling the focus issue, this seems like a good time to make these changes.

They aren't excuses. I am telling you why I have no knowledge on healthy eating. Somebody who was raised to eat healthy will have more experience than someone who was not. I am telling you where I currently stand so you know how much guidance I need to fix the issue. Context to know where to start is important.