Shadowraix

Context for what started this. Quotes from the person I was conversing with: "no you wont. spare us from this demonic wisdom. eastern mysticism=divination of the self. the same old trick. same as nihilists/atheists. same as marxists/anarchists. same deception as in the garden of eden. God is not subject to nature or nature itself. and certainly is not in us. we can become Gods in Christ, but thats a totally different thing. it requires humility, the underlying spirit of the east is pride. its sad that people arent gifted with the dicretion to discern all that. i guess thats why today eastern religions and new age are so ppular in the west. people want self divination not a relationship with a personal God and a concept of sinning/obligations." "calling it demoning is exposing it for what it is. demonic, luciferian, satanic, the spirit of pride, the spirit of revolt, the spirit of misotheism. it is what it is. same underlying principle. i'd advise reading the wonderful autobiographical book of klaus kenneth "born to hate reborn to love". he got very deep in your easter "spirituality stuff". so deep that they even made him a guru, had out of body experiences, travelled through walls and whatnot. and yet he sadly discovered all these were not of divine origin because they came from a spirit of pride and "self help". read the book, it will be an eye opener." I said to explore eastern spirituality as a starting point over western spirituality because from what I know, eastern culture got a lot closer. Reading the summary of the book, there seems to not be any conflict. I'm honestly posting because I am so confused and the person isn't really being helpful to me to understanding this. I've also had numerous occasions of people calling this kind of stuff satan and demonic before. The line of thinking really boggles my mind.

Humans are all highly "advanced" biological computers. You are this computer but much more. On a higher level you are just an observer of this computer. Actions, thoughts, and the separation of the two all a function of this computer. And the conscious aspect is only aware of so much the computer is doing. The conscious awareness is like the UI of a program, way more than that happening in the backend.

I had this issue. Look into your past for clues. I found that my dysfunctional family situation and lack of stability and love had impacted me in a way where I closed up and would get uncomfortable being emotional. I tried opening up to my earlier gfs in highschool, it would result in physical shaking. MDMA had showed me my pessimist outlook and how I reflected love from others instead of absorbing the love and then creating my own love to give to them. Reflecting instead of exchanging will be emotionally exhausting. What helped me was all of my realizations about reality itself. To look beyond the ego and imagine the God perspective. It had really opened me up to this carefree perspective. What people say about "me" (ego) doesn't mean that represents me. They compare what I show them to their own ideals. The relativity here is important. This helped me fight through the initial fear of opening up. Anxiety as well. Then you start small. Practice honesty. Be more open to what you are thinking. Doesn't have to be especially serious or emotional things. You just gotta build up to those.

With the discovery of the link between mind and body you can quickly discover a lot of "mental illnesses" such as depression and anxiety are actually fixable. Many people go on the presumption that the mind has no part and such illnesses can not be fixed by the mind and only by chemical alterations from other substances. I started wondering about the idea of addiction. Obviously there is a chemical aspect to it, but does this become more difficult to happen to you or rather give into it if you are highly developed/conscious? From my own experience my only "problem" with my drug use was when I did a dissociative a little too much which I discovered was out of boredom. These days I can use the dissociative sparingly and don't use it as an escape from boredom. Or does there come to a point where your personal development can't override the addiction potential of some substances?

Try including the word 'platonic' to clear up any misconceptions SFRL mentioned.

The overall gist is a website that resells products we get for extremely cheap.

Because im not just looking for information from Leo. An excuse would be me attempting to be less responsible for how I am, thats not the case. And thats why I am seeking information. I figured this community would provide me more diverse resources than one person. Especially from a community where many have worked on developing higher consciousness. I don't really care if you rag on me. I'm not looking to defend myself. If you have any other resources that you have verified through your own direct experience to be useful, please do share. My growth has been on a desire basis. I've been tackling issues bit by bit. So far its mostly been psychological stuff that contemplation has been successful at fixing. Given the suggestions here this focus issue won't just be fixed through psychology. I've noticed my desire to be healthier increase over time and its really just become a matter of it growing enough for me to want to do it. So now that I am tackling the focus issue, this seems like a good time to make these changes.

They aren't excuses. I am telling you why I have no knowledge on healthy eating. Somebody who was raised to eat healthy will have more experience than someone who was not. I am telling you where I currently stand so you know how much guidance I need to fix the issue. Context to know where to start is important.

Enlightenment is just a radical recontextualization of everything around you. Self inquiry, meditation, yoga etc All good tools to make these realizations click.

Who said these beliefs are held by OP? OP is trying to ask a specific question from a specific perspective and you definitely are not on the same page.

Build a spaceship. I told you what you need to do. Do you know how to do it?

You binge one punch man recently?

Yet the act of blaming is something you don't choose either. Those are thoughts in of themselves.

You did it therefore it was the right decision. There is no 'right' or 'wrong' only what you do and don't do. Losing friends won't kill you. You will/can learn and move on. The regret comes from your attachment to them. Embrace the cold and aloneness don't try to prevent it.

You just described focus Try a different explanation.

I'd like to do that solely but my current life won't make it easy if I don't have the financials to make the time for it. When it comes to clean food I have 0 idea of what to do. I've been told what nutrients to go for what to avoid but I don't really have any idea of what actual foods follow such rules. I grew up in a fucked up poor household. I have no experience with having a "proper" life that works with what my body wants.

Depends how you look at it. God did create what the author considers evil.

I think you are thinking of equality/inequality a bit differently.

I do and it repeats itself constantly to the point I can't do anything productive. Literally. It only occurs when I actually try to do something productive. And its consistent. Doesn't seem to be about standing but about where my attention is directed. The standing up and walking away is attention diversion. No. At least not recently. Thats a sacrifice I can't work around right now. Same thing for the eye stuff.

This is mainly to share an experience and see if anybody else can relate. So I wouldn't say my current progress of actualization is as optimal as it can be but I do do a lot of contemplation if anything and it has been a major help to improving my life. But as of late I've noticed a major difference in how I dream. The first weird occurrence was i'd listen to Leo's videos before bed and fall asleep. I'd enter this half awake half asleep state where i can hear Leo but im not consciously processing anything. But at the same time I was experiencing dreams. I'd eventually snap back fully awake after 30 mins to an hour though. I haven't done that in a little bit, but the next occurrence was I had 2 lucid dreams in the same night. I just suddenly was able to realize this is different from my usual reality and I even gained a limited form of control. In the past few days I have discovered my dreaming becoming more vivid and real feeling. The realness feeling is what actually gets me questioning on if it is reality or not and if I can discover any out of the ordinary things I can realize its a dream. My last dream I didn't pick up any signs so I was afraid to start trying to mess around with the experience but thinking back there were some pretty clear signs. It seems no coincidence that I am experiencing this as I have been trying to raise my awareness. Lucid dreaming has been by far and extraordinary experience.

Not at all. I've only become interested in it when I experienced it for the first time. I will bookmark that book suggestion for when I can read it.

Prepare to be horrified but all are sorely lacking. Most of my development is through contemplation. But I know I am starting to peak out how far that can take me. Sleep schedule is whenever I wake up and feel tired. Diet is whatever. Sandwiches, fast food etc I used to get good exercise through some gymnastic related stuff but have since slacked. Meditation is far and few between. I don't have a particularly great financial situation which makes fixing some things a bigger challenge. No car doesn't help either. Perspective changes has fixed a lot of my problems so maybe I am a bit too reliant on that method.

You can tell and even demonstrate to a child to not touch a hot stove but they'll do it anyway and only learn when they experience it. Once you tell them what you experienced, tell them how they can experience it. The burden of proof part of an argument seems to be of a solely debate for the sake of debate nature and doesn't seem to display any true interest in what has no proof. If you were interested in validating/invalidating the existence of ghosts surely you'd go out and try to experience it yourself than debate online trying to get other people to prove their experiences to you. Truth is found. You can tell them where to find it all you want, but they gotta desire to do it.

Love. Something I definitely need to get more in tune with.

Thanks for the replies!@PsiloPutty I haven't tried that and will definitely try to next time. Lucid dreaming is some mind fuckery exciting shit Intriguing. I am definitely feeling like I am getting to a point where I can start working on where I am being compelled to go. Plenty of work to go but its exciting!