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@kieranperez Ok so your core goal is changing the world for the better yeah? You can be good at something and not have passion for it, which is fine. Being good doesn't necessarily translate it to being a core part of your path. However if what is separating you from enjoying writing is the disconnect between your goal and writing itself, then all this needs is a simple perspective shift. Writing can indeed promote a more conscious society and allow people to explore different ideas, after all there is no 'person' they see communicating it, it really helps break down walls that way. How many books throughout history has shared deep metaphysical insights or deep practices such as yoga? Its very good at documenting the knowledge of people and allowing the exploration of different worlds. Even fictional stories can contain deep messages to promote a more conscious society. I would not underestimate the power of writing. Is writing really not your passion, or are you just in a pit of self-doubt about how writing can accomplish a better world?

Inquire into this. Perhaps you have been addicted to the dopamine rush of success? Putting focus into being ok being stagnate is actually where a lot of growth can happen. Avoiding boredom is often a cause from being addicted to the stimulation. Put some time into being bored. Get with it. Flow with it. Don't beat yourself up for your meditation and attention levels, its counter-productive to getting better. Put attention into accepting those aspects of yourself. You are exactly who you are suppose to be right now, there is pretty of room in the future for doing better. Its ok.

Have you ever thought it seems toxic to you because you actually don't understand what is being said? Blaming Leo for your own misapplication of his teachings is just going to dig you further into the hole you are in. This is what happens when you have too much theory and not enough practice. Leo is teaching advanced stuff, more people should start with his earlier videos and work up. They work in a very progression-based order. Leo is not at fault for people getting ahead of themselves. Some responsibility needs to be taken here. Since you are still around, it gives me the impression you know all of this, but still have a lot of shit to sort through that you are projecting outward. I do hope you can move forward. Once you direct experience what is being told, it all becomes clear and your life will be much more fulfilling instead of torturing yourself with all this theory.

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You are just speaking about one side of the paradox.

This is why we create a distinction in absolute and relative matters. By piercing through the veil of the relative and see where its origins are, the absolute, you can then jump back to the relative perspective with much more insight. Get to know the box entirely before you begin working with the box. Good/bad right/wrong are of course all relative, but conscious politics is exactly that, politics to promote a more conscious society. So of course such words will be adapted to such a goal. Moralization is more of a map of direction. Those who truly understand the morals though are not bound by them. They become more of just rules to those who don't understand why they are said though.

You need to find something you love to do, a hobby, any activity. Your creativity is to turn mind to form. When you work on something you enjoy, you love it, your vision is filled with it, you get lost in its design and the details you wish for it to have. Pass all of your intelligent design onto it. I'm a programmer myself and when I start a project I am REALLY into, I will work on it for 5 hours/day or more. Passion and discipline will see it to start to finish.

We won't understand the map until we have explored the territory ourselves.

I love your sense of humor. You should show it more.

Sure, but that's not a very nuanced answer. Just saying that won't explain how you conclude that the ego is the root of it all.

They do read them but don't understand. Even Leo's words get constantly twisted and distorted by people and we think the mass population will take even more vague religious texts properly? Doubt it. How can you know what Jesus was saying without first getting some glimpse of such states of consciousness? Can't understand by words alone. This makes enlightenment work even more difficult.

Just a model to help you introspect into your own behaviors. The goal is to not get rid of it, but to not be limited by it. To transcend it. Ego is a great tool when you control it and are not lost in its attachments and reactionary mechanisms. You ever felt like someone threatened your survival or identity and caught yourself in the middle of that before you let yourself get out of hand? That's the power of awareness rather than getting lost in those feelings. That's disidentification with it. Shattered egos need love to heal too. It's a part of you. You are healing aspects of you that needed healing. Let the body experience what it needs to. That's how it heals and processes things. ?

@LastThursday Sometimes when pointing to the absolute it's better to use less words and let them figure it out else you'll run yourself in circles trying to be nuanced in every facet.

You can, but I usually don't. I don't know what the forum rule is for sourcing legal otc substances so I'll avoid any store or branding mentions but there are two main forms of dxm. Hbr and polisterex. Poli is extended release so it takes double the time to get the dosage, while Hbr is all at once. I Mainly use Hbr. Syrup is one route it's found in, which I could handle in my early experimenting days, but quickly became too repulsive to my stomach. I eventually moved to Hbr gel caps which I would take anywhere from 20-65 15mg gelcaps. I also found them to in general have less impact on the body avoiding all of the he syrup contents. I found a website that'd sell me 5400mg bulk for super cheap. You really don't need to go to rc vendors or dark net if you are ok with getting the medicine brands. Some brands in the US even clearly target dxm users. Especially when they go to events and set up beside weed stands ? Extracting poli from syrup is incredibly easy and there are many guides. I hear Hbr is less practical and needs extensive chemistry knowledge though.

Leo doesn't recommend dissociatives due to safety reasons but he has confirmed it can be used for this work too. I was a big experimenter of dxm doing 1g doses at times. 3rd and 4th plateau doses can directly make you realize God. It helps you see through the veil that is form into the formless. It's habit forming though so proceed with caution with this substance but I think it has incredible spiritual potential. My awakening happened with 300mg dxm and 500ug lsd in which I was shown and understood consciousness and nothingness. I could see the universe arising from the formless. It was beautiful. Mind shattering. This was before I even knew of Leo and I was saying many of the stuff he said. Dxm is the vast infinite formless sea, while the lsd navigates the formed sail. Form and formless of both substances harmonizing to show the grand paradox.

@Pouya Don't start with 5meo, start with more traditional psyches like lsd and shrooms and work up. Also never do 5meo alone so you don't choke on your own vomit if you do puke. You'll be fine as you'll be consciously aware on traditional substances.

@thetrut11 Mental scaffolding, friend. Leo has said this many times before. You lack contextualization. @Shaun People have told you many times that your understanding is extremely distorted. I would advise you to focus on the more practical self actualization stuff before the spiritual stuff if you are going to continue to get anything beneficial out of this place. Otherwise your ego will torture you, not Leo.

Feels like we are just running in circles.. Spinning is fun too I guess.

@Leo Gura Great video.

Sounds more like a difference in linguistic pointers than a difference in insight.

Really depends on your intent and meaning behind the word devil. As a sense of rejection and demonization, sure. As a sense of understanding and path direction, I would think it be applicable.

Always wanted an ouroboros and unalome tattoe'd on me as a reminder of the path I am on whenever I get strayed into the dirt road.

@Pav I really enjoy your post, I think it hits the nail on the head. The actual use of the world in modern day use is a bit iffy. I completely get what people are pointing to when they say toxic masculinity. Often times societal perceptions of masculinity can be extremely distorted than if you found masculinity yourself. But the use of the word often comes with an idea of demonization because nobody wants to be perceived as toxic which the word toxic can be a bit buzzy in of itself. Very easy way to hijack it for ideology. First it was the north vs south and now its men vs women, everybody seeing where the other might go wrong but not accepting where they can go wrong. If the good points about inequality and fairness from mgtow and feminism were integrated I think that would be egalitarianism and people are just trying to tip the see-saw in their favor these days. They're all hurt and they can't seem to look past the quality of the sex of the person who hurt them I assume cause of pattern recognition. I've seen animals also fear men or women in general if they were hurt by one of them.

Thanks for this. This seems to resonate very well with me.

This is really bizarre to me. Most of the time it is extremely difficult to bring me into a phase of resistance. It does happen though. When I try to self reflect on where it's coming from, it seems to come from nowhere. Almost feels like it originates from being rather than a thought based process. But this makes it kinda difficult to learn surrender. Most of my work to this point has been unraveling my intellectual mind and resolving where thought causes problems.