EternalForest

@111111 I'd keep them, just so you can see how much you've grown. I mean, there's things about your past that you may want to do away with, but I've found there are also things about your past that you may want to start doing again. While yes, it's good to do away with old bad habits, you also don't want to do away with old good habits in the process. A good example is riding your bike, something you probably did as a kid but don't do anymore but its still a lot of fun and great exercise. Also, talking on the phone. You probably talked to your friends on the phone a lot when you were younger but not so much anymore, but you'll find that talking on the phone can actually give you a lot more depth in conversation than texting can sometimes. Maybe you used to cook a lot at home but nowadays someone else cooks for you or you always go out to eat or eat too much takeout, why not start cooking again like you used to? Creatively speaking, why not make music in a different style than you normally do today? Over time we tend to get set in our habits and looking back can open our eyes to some of the good things we used to do that we can start doing again.

@111111 Oh, that's the worst! I've had drives die and that's like years worth of personal family videos and photos just gone, like an entire void in your history. I lost almost all our early videos that way, or the file just vanished somewhere else. Luckily the one hard drive I have that has all my early music is still safe. I really should buy another hard drive for all my music project files, since if my desktop crashes those are all gone. That stuff is really important to me since music is my life purpose (as well as filmmaking). And of course I'll get a drive to backup my Commonplace Book. Going through these files, it's actually an amazing phenomenon, making all these little documents, saving them away for later, and never coming back to them. Now that I'm coming back to them its almost like my brain is overwhelmed with information, its all coming back at once in kind of an intense way. Most of it I remember making but some of it I don't, or at least I thought I'd never re open them. Many are just named asd;jkfhasd'flasf or something like that. I know once its all organized it'll be a true goldmine.

What is the true meaning of dreams, and why do I experience such higher consciousness during lucidity?

Looking at interviews of this guy and it's kind of surprising how deeply he speaks about life, death, ego, etc.

It was mentioned in the last video, and I just realized I do this myself a few times throughout the week. Sometimes with relaxing music, but usually just driving in silence, listening to the hum of the engine, and taking in my surroundings for the course of the drive. Would there be anything wrong with making this someone's primary form of meditation? I would still get normal sits in during solo retreats and things like that, even though I haven't planned a solo retreat just yet.

Will you be posting videos of some of the talks to the blog?

Thought you guys would appreciate this

@K VIL Yeah I didn't expect it either. The way I was recalling the video at first made me think it was targeted at mediocre or procrastinating people, totally forgot the topic was about depression. Now as Leo said, some people are actually clinically depressed and it's not entirely their fault. I wasn't really depressed when I heard this video, but the message of being prepared and being willing to fight for a great life always stuck with me.

This was a video where Leo was talking about living an extraordinary life, and abandoning the average life. He talked about how most people let 20, 30, 40 years of their life would go by, doing the exact same thing. Talked about how you lie to yourself, saying that you'll do this, and maybe do that one day, but that day never comes. At one point in the video he said the viewer had to get themselves mobilized and he asked the viewer to make a commitment that from this moment foreward, they would put their nose to the grindstone and do it.

@TeamBills Thanks, that's just what I did, clicked on titles that looked like they could be it, pulled up the video transcript and did CTRL + F for the keywords I remembered. After re watching that video in particular, How to Deal with Depression, I remember why it affected me so much. It made me realize that to reach my goals it wasn't going to be a pleasant experience most of the time. It was going to be tough, and even though I was slightly prepared, I wasn't prepared enough. I had to buckle down and take the struggle of the winter and prepare for it to be a bigger struggle than anything I've faced in life so far. But the payoff has been tremendous.

@Joseph Maynor @K VIL Found it!

@7thLetter Thanks but that's not it because it doesn't have the word "mobilized" Thanks for the help guys, you've done enough. Feel free to keep looking but don't worry, I'll find it eventually when I go through Actualized.org's entire Youtube channel again.

@Joseph Maynor The reason I want to find this video so much is that I feel this was the exact video that flipped the switch for me in life and made me really push towards my dreams. It wasn't just as simple as listening to a video and then all of a sudden I'm a completely new person right off the bat. No, the video was more like a seed, and the things said in that video kept being watered and watered to allow me to have the success that I'm having today. Now you may say, if it was so important, why can't you remember the name of the video!? But when I listened to these videos I didn't know the name... You see, this was a period of time where I would download a bunch of mp3 versions of Leo's videos on CDs, or sometimes listen off my flash drive while driving in a car (my job involves a lot of driving). I listened to nearly all of Leo's videos this way, but that was probably my favorite of all. I don't have the CDs anymore, and I probably deleted the mp3s off my flash drives because I thought that since there were on actualized.org and youtube I could just watch them on there from now on. Here's everything I remember about the video, I may think of more stuff later. It was no longer than an hour, but no shorter than 30 minutes, definitely had a 2014 to 2016 vibe. 100% sure its not a 2018 video, but there's a small chance it could be a 2017 video. Most likely though, it came out between 2014 to 2016. First 1/3 of the video: Excuses people tell themselves for not living their best life possible, focused on procrastination and self-deception (lying to yourself, convincing yourself your life is fine as it is). 2/3 into the video: The commitment. Says from this moment there's a certain line you're going to cross, and you're never going to look back (if I recall correctly). You have to get "mobilized". After you cross this line you're no longer going to live the way you were living before. It was a very distinct part of the video, he may have asked you to repeat something to yourself, or to visualize some line that you were going to cross into becoming this new person. It was an official commitment and he emphasized this "mobilized" or "getting mobilized" thing. I did Ctrl + F on a few videos that I thought would be it by typing in "mob" or "mobilize" "mobilized". If the video doesn't have that term in it, its not the video. Last third: He talked about various techniques for how to implement this new mindset, how to live your best life possible.

@Joseph Maynor It's strange because that seems like almost the exact video without the section in the middle where he talks about "getting mobilized". Another great video, but that's not it. Can you think of any Actualized.org video where there's a section in the middle talking about making a commitment to getting yourself mobilized?

@Preetom Thanks! One thing I know for sure, throughout the video he kept saying the word "mobilized", "get mobilized" "mobilize yourself". I'm actually watching through all of Leo's videos right now, got through about 30 or 40 so far so I'll find it eventually haha! But thanks guys for the help.

@Preetom Nah it wasn't that one, but that is one of his best!

@Preetom That wasn't it, I remember I watched this video way before that one was made.

@K VIL It was a 2014 - 2016 era video. The commitment was around the middle of the video actually, and then after that he set up sort of a gameplan for how to move foreward and transform your life in this new way. So it was a motivational video of sorts, but not like the recent motivational speech. The closest video I can compare it to is "How To Get Shit Done - The Inner Game Of Being A Results-Maker", but I don't think that was it. He went through a lot of thought patterns in the video, emphasized that after a certain point you get so acclimated to a mediocre life that you lose the ability to recognize its mediocre and your life passes you by.

@d0ornokey No it was an older video from the 2014 - 2016 era.

Thanks, great resource!

Totally agree, he pushed thinking outside the box and seeing the bigger picture. I really admire his life, even if he did have faults but don't we all?

@SoonHei When your body is still for long enough it will begin to naturally twitch and jerk. This is also experienced when attempting lucid dreaming and astral projection. It will eventually pass during your session.

@Joseph Maynor I thought Leo said Stage Coral was a waste of time? I believe in the Stage Turquoise video he said embodying Turquoise was a lifelong pursuit in itself and after a certain point you would outgrow the Spiral altogether.

To me a thought is sensory activity in the brain. You hear your inner dialogue. You see past memories. Even something like a scent can take you right back to your Grandparent's living room when you were 8. Thoughts commonly get pulled up when triggered by something else. But a thought is not "reality", it is a construction of the mind and it's internal perceptions. However, thoughts can be powerful, like in the case of imagination, thoughts that inspire you to do or create something positive in physical reality. For me where it becomes truly bizarre is when you consider that the thought of a car is really not that much different to the brain than seeing an actual car. The mind believes almost any thought it came up with; we're skeptical of others but not ourselves. Visualize yourself leaning off the end of a skyscraper, about to fall down. Really try to put yourself there in your mind, visualizing the street below, the wind to your face, the sound of birds above you, the feeling of being off balance...after long enough you'll start to feel physically dizzy. Try it!

What I'm about to describe is NOT: - The experience of music aided by drugs - The feeling of listening to your favorite song - Related to meditation music, meditating with music, etc. - Being affected by lyrics - Dancing / Being at a concert Sometimes I get this jolt of higher consciousness / (nonduality?) when I'm spending time with friends I'm very close to while listening to music. This can happen when I'm alone as well but it's more common with other people. We'll go for walks in the forest, go on long drives, spend time at the beach, take pictures, have dinner, make music together, and have deep conversations. Usually while we're hanging out we're listening to a certain hip hop / rock / electronic album or sometimes just pop music from different eras. There are certain moments during these hangouts / trips that the weather is just perfect, the vibe is just perfect, the music hits perfectly and for a brief moment all pain fades, I'm one with the universe so to speak. Just being, content with existence, relishing the moment, seeing the beauty in everything and where whats in my imagination and whats in my perceptions lose boundaries. I know this is more than just a good feeling in the music, because it doesn't happen all the time when listening to these songs. But in the right environment, with the right mindset, the music is the thing that just pushes me over the edge into this euphoric state. I believe the music is part of it, but its moreso that the music opens me up emotionally so to speak and in that moment I am able to fully embrace being. It's in these moments where I think I understand what Leo often talks about as nothingness and infinity, it's like an infinite nothingness, and all I can respond with is awe. I sometimes wonder if that is what enlightenment is, to experience this feeling nonstop, if so that would be a bit overwhelming! I wanted to get your opinions on this, and any other music that opens you up to experiencing being in this way. If you're curious, here's a few "magic moments" in songs where my friends and I have experienced this feeling.