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Ok, so I took Leo's advice about the Neti Neti method to find your true self. In the video Leo talks about how you must be a constant thing. I really didn't understand why you must be a constant at first and I began questioning why this must be the case. After thinking about it I think it's because if you thought you were the thought saying "I'm me here I am dummy!" that would not be you because you are not always present like Leo said. If this is the case then you would cease to exist as it is not a constant present thing (I hope this makes sense and I hope i'm on the right track here). So if this would demonstrate that you must be a constant thing then anything that changes must not be you as that would not be a constant. As Leo says in the video things like sight and experience as well as feeling is not constant because they change so therefore they are not you. So essentially you are figuring out what you are through a process of elimination. At the end of the video Leo says that you should try right now and grasp what you are and I felt this kind of like throbbing feeling in my head. When this was occurring I also looked at my ceiling and I saw it warping and I was thinking to myself "Is this it?". Then Leo says that it's Ok if you did not have a direct experience with this as he said he has done thousands of hours of this work and only had one experience. Then I begin to think that well it probably didn't happen because if Leo only had one experience from his thousands of hours put into this practice then I probably did not find what is the true self. Then Leo says as long as you take this as an idea or belief you are back where you started. Leo goes onto say that if you practice this enough eventually your brain will just give up and stop associating the true self with the things that are not constants. Then I'm suddenly smacked in the face and I understand that me feeling the throbbing in my head and the warping of the ceiling is just an association and an attempt to grasp onto something which is not your true self as these are not constants. This was very eye opening for me.