Identity

@Apparition of Jack yeah!

Hmm, I think its more complicated than that. Maybe that’s the core of the feminist movement. However, I do think there are unhealthy parts to the movement. For example, I talked to a girl that actually clinged so much to her identity of being a woman, and to woman being supressed by man, that she started to project all her own insecurities and problems outwards. I talked about wanting to become an entrepreneur and that I had some struggles with it. She became angry about this comment, because for all men it is simply extremely easy to become an entrepreneur in her mind, only woman could struggle in this. The conversation basicaly ended there, because anything I said afterwards was ignored.

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If it is all about letting go and being in the moment, how come such enormous discipline is required? Why would god make it so hard for itself to know itself?

So wait a minute, do I exist or not? ??????

Why would you care about all this as a regular human being, just trying to libe a nice life? Sure, truth for truths sake sounds nice, but it sounds so complicated, there is all this suffering involved, so alianating and lonely. What is the motivation, what is the vision?

Building on this; whats the connection between limitation and oneness. How come you have a perspective that is limited, even when you awaken?

What happends to the body when you awaken? Supposedly, it feels like you transend it and go outside space-time, but when you come back, what do others observe? Ive had these Samadhi type experiences when others are around, they state that I stopped breathing for a while. Is it not dangerous? Also if there is no “objective reality” out there, how does it keep going if youre not there? how come you dont come totaly omniscient, in the sense of knowing every detail, when you realize you are god? What is the connection between god realisation and still being human, is this a gliding schale where in the end you die physicaly? If all is one, how come if you awaken, I dont? ill be back with more, enough confusion to go around ?

Eindhoven/Maastricht, The Netherlands

@tsuki Just sang songs with my girl for an hour, it was amazing ???

Around a year ago I decided to go to a chakra reading an healing session. I didn’t know much about chakra’s, I was just exploring and giving it a shot. As soon as the women touched me to make a connection, she started couching like crazy. Turned out I had a major troath chakra blockage. After I understood this, I did research on it and started to work on it. This resulted in quite a journey with a lot of stuff happening. Me communicating stuff to my mother, a girl I liked in the past but never expressed, crazy dreams, sexual expression. Also, I had major breakthroughs, especially during psychedelic trips, of opening my throath chakra. I think it also plays a major role in the backpain I have had, also for more than a year. The chiropraktor also thought it came from me neck, and gave my excercises for it, which Ive been doing. During sex I have had several times where all of a sudden I get this wierd feeling of frustration and wanting to scream. One time feeling my throath blocked so much I volentarely put my fingers in my throath to throw up, which relieved it a bit. Throwing up has also been a part of this. I used to fear it a lot. I overcame this fear for the most part, throwing up volentarely, and facing it during trips. I also had this period that I wanted to scream. Quite often I would go to my back yard and scream as hard as I could. Or going to a nearby bridge and doing the same. Also, I would swear people around me cough all the time. Especially when I become aware of my throath. Like an empathatic reaction. One time I was sitting in my room having a break-through opening, and my roommate downstairs started coughing very hard at the same time. Overall, I have become much more aware of my throath chakra, feeling when its blocked. Also I’m trying to fix my posture. However, I feel like I have worked on it a lot, but the problem keeps arizing. So often I feel like my throat is closed, almost like being choaked. I have that feeling right now as Im typing this. Anyone have any suggestions for how to fix this?

Simpy think about this question: What do I want to create in my life? see your life as a canvas think about what you want to paint on it and than go do it

@Aakash Hmm yeah, that might be physiological dynamic. But like you say, it feels like its some kind of survival mechanism I picked up from childhood, maybe perceiving that expression was dangerous (and I can see why). Thanks for your replies ??

@Yannik Thanks, watched that video a while back, and literaly just before making the post ?

@Aakash Daym, if thats true, it will take a long ass time lol. Better get my puking bucket and tissues out ? Not turning this into a limiting belief though ?

@Michael569 Ohh yeah, I forgot to me mention that part there was quite a lot of crying involved as well. Not for any particular reason it seemed like, just crying and letting go. Before that I had not cryed for years. The fear of being judget part hits home. Haven’t experienced any anxiety attacks though. Thank you for the breathing technique, I will try it out!

I feel like its connected to deep patterns from my childhood. Than on top of that came the whole actualized and spiritual journey, which I have mostly kept to myself. I feel like if I fully express myself my life would change radically. it already has, but that there are deeper and deeper layers

@Aakash Hmm yeah, I think there is something to that. Especially the breathing. ive been trying to breath more fully, and especially breathing through to my upper chest and neck helps. @tsuki Not really any serious effort no ?. When there is the opportunity I try to express myself through singing, not hold back, but haven’t done it as a regular practice. Would you recommend it?

+ what is education fundamentaly? + what makes for effective education? + how does education evolve?

So, Ive been dating a girl Im really starting to like the past few months. However, things have not been easy. Actually, Its all going smooth, except for spirituality coming into the mix. There have been several times now when I have gone into some chakra openings and samadhi states when we are together. This really freaks her out, because it can take quite a while without me communicating, or not breathing, or moving wierd, or whatever. This makes her feel really lonely and uncomfortable. She has been on the brink of a panic attack a few times. In the meantime, at that moment. I aint in no position to comfort her either. She isn’t into spirituality, and knows little about what is going on. Were trying to figure out how to move forward. Our plan now is to communicate more, tell her more about spirituality and what these experiences are. Hopefuly we can create understanding and trust, so we can transform it into something beautiful rather than something sad. Does anyone have similar experiences, or any advice?

Interesting. I have started to notice indeed how big of an impact it can have. Thanks for the post, made a lot of sense to me. ??

Flying in with another update. Woohoo we're getting close to the opening. From the 1st of August I will get the keys to my room! So let's see what the situation is like, where I stand, and what steps I still need to take. I've made quite a bit of progress once again and am happy with where I am at. I have: - The first version of the site is complete! Check out Satoris.nl! In a week and a half I'm meeting with my friend to update some more things, but this is good enough to start marketing, and start the launch. - The logo is done (also visible on the website). Managed to do create one for only 100 euro's - I've practiced more. The support I have received is quite amazing. Literally,I've a friend of mine bought a foldable massage table for me out of the blue, so I have had the chance to practice more at home. - I've been spreading the message more. Found some places and connections to market with flyers and stuff. Been getting more comfortable with the overall idea, internalizing it. Watched more video's on techniques and stuff. So, from the first of August, I will have my spot. I decided I am not in a huge hurry to fill my time up with clients in the first weeks. The first weeks I plan to massage a lot of friends and family for free/low prices (I am open only the full Sunday and Monday evening). Just so I can get comfortable in the place, practice my techniques and really feel ready. However, it might also take a while before clients from the outside will start coming in. So, I will use this week to get some more things in place, and start marketing from next week onwards. What I will do this week: - Make and print flyers. Now that I have the logo, pictures, text and everything, I can make the flyers. I will to this in the next couple of days and print a bunch of them. - Make the Facebook page. I've already opened one and linked it to my website. However, it's still empty. Therefore I want make it nice with pictures and texts etc. - Google search. I have to figure out how to become more visible on google searches. I expect this will be an important stream of potential clients. At least, that's how I have looked for massages in the past. Just google it and see what pops up and resonates with me. I know someone who is specialized in this, so I will contact him and see if he wants to help me for free/cheap. Otherwise I will have to look for some other source, or see if I can find something online myself. - I have already planned a few massages with friends and family in the first weeks, but I want to plan more. So, that's what I want to do this week. After this week I will have everything in place to really start the marketing process. I will start spreading the flyers to stores and contacts I have gathered, and going door-to-door near the area of my business. I will start calling hotels and stuff to see if I can collaborate with them. I will make a post on my personal facebook. And overall just get the word out through my social circle and whatever opportunities I get!

My highest value is growth. I value growth a lot in both my personal life and see it as a huge component of my life purpose to help others to grow. I'm still young and have been on the path of mastering my own life relatively shortly, around two years. Now, the progression I've made that time is quite amazing to me, and I feel like I'm really on the right track now. I'm convinced that my life purpose will be centered around helping others to grow as well. However, at this point, I feel like I'm not developed enough to help others. Ultimately my life purpose will be centered around spirituality I think, but it feels like that is definitely 5, 10, 15, 20 years down the line. For the upcoming years I want to do it through having my own business that provides training and maybe coaching for people within organizational settings. I've got a little bit of experience with this, but starting my own company is a different animal. The plan I made recently is to open my own massage salon, part-time, besides my studies. I've got little experience with massage, but loved it from a young age. I figured it would be a nice stepping stone. Getting experience with starting my own business, gathering clients, building self-esteem etc. However, I had my first lesson today out of a 10-lesson 1-on-1 course I'm doing. This made me doubt whether I am ready for this step as well.. as my notions of giving massage were quite naive. I didn't take into account the emotional and energetic maturity that is required to successfully help both clients whilst remaining stable yourself. I've got just over a year of studying left, after which I have to become financially independent. Therefore I am now trying to build something up that can at least partly support me by then. The problem is that I don't feel ready enough to do it through the paths I can imagine for myself now. Feels like I need a few more years of self-mastery to actualize any of them. I'm not really sure what to do. Are these mostly limiting beliefs I have that I just need to bust through with radical action? Or should I listen to my self-doubt and build my self-esteem in these areas more slowly and gradually?

@Pilgrim Interesting. I don’t know much about this subject, but appears to me that you are taking a healthy approach. Good luck ?

I think there might be more to this twin flame business than merely fulfilling each others needs well. I personaly have no experience with it, but was talking to a women yesterday with a quite intense experience. she explained how she met this guy who totally blew her away from the moment they met. Everything was clicking, as if they knew eachother for decades. They had the exact same favorite songs, ideas, styles, all that. More than that she also had intens energetic experiences whilst being around him. She could start shaking like crazy and other things like that. They separated after a few months because it was too intens. They worked on themselves for a year or so, and now he appeared back into her life.