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Just completed a nice 50 minute session. I probably could have went longer, but oh well. That was really refreshing after struggling the last few days. I think a big chunk of it was the amount of pressure on myself or the feel of the need to work. I also did those at the end of the day aside from earlier in the morning. After cramming all the habits in later in the day to try to keep them together. I have not broken my fast yet either. I need to put higher importance on getting this done earlier in the day.

Going to allow myself to take it a bit easier today, but still going to get a good amount of work in. I need to sell a bit more of this inventory. I am actually doing really well this month coming up with the needed capital for bill and essentials. I am a week ahead of rent right now, so that is good for me. I need to get on top of stuff and keep selling more though. I would love to get so ahead at some point this year and maybe take a train or a plane somewhere and take a little vacation. Or maybe go on my first meditation retreat or something like that. That would be really good for me as I have not really had some sort of vacation in over a year now. I am going to focus in on a bit more life purpose course today and getting probably two chapters of think and grow rich in today. I have been really enjoying that book it seems to have a lot of solid information. I am learning more about redirection of sexual energy. I was surprised to find that most men have their most successful years in their 40s onward and a lot of it is due to chasing sex and getting wrapped up in it. I have got a good chunk of that stuff out of the way, but it is true that is one of the most powerful desires by the brain. I need to learn how to put this energy into my work. I do not want to get wrapped up in just chasing sex. I find a lot of this stuff to not have that high of value in my life at the moment. I enjoy having sex, but at what cost will it come? I kind of wonder a bit if I try to make some of my friends by buying them out in a way with sharing stuff with them. I noticed more in the past I was kind of like that and I feel like a lot of people are attracted to freeload off of you or just use you for whatever you are offering. It is hard to distinguish a genuine friend it seems like to me. But I think part of it may be that I need to offer less and not try to just give people a lot of things if is knowledge or actual things. I think just doing that will make it easier to tell the difference. I just notice with myself I have a tendency to try to offer people stuff as if just communicating and spending time with them is not enough. Like I have to offer something to get their time. That of course is not always the case, but sometimes I feel like that is subconsciously what I am doing. I need to give people more space as well. I feel as if I bombard people with communication, so as to where they may get tired of hearing from me. It is things that I need to work on and be more conscious of. My marathon training is going quite well. I am jogging 3 miles straight and walking 3 every other day. And filling in that other day into a 40 minute elliptical and right into and intense 10 minute full body workout. Having a bit harder of a time keeping the elliptical training some days lately it seems like. But I am going to stick myself to it and try to keep more positive motivation towards it. My meditation has been pretty difficult the last few days, but I feel like it is because I am trying harder and harder to press into a deeper meditation. I was having no issue going a whole hour without moving maybe besides swallowing saliva to like 20 minutes. I am going to keep powering through it. I think a lot of it is if I let my money mind control I totally forget about even itching and the sensations of that go away. Without the mind being occupied it becomes much stronger of urges to notice the discomfort. Some stuff I am grateful for today: My computer with access to unlimited information The home that I live in The friendships that I have

@Amandine Oh yeah, I can find pretty much anything when I go there. I have not had any of the issues you mentioned, but if I have a really good haul going I try to cash out sooner than later as I am not a big fan of leaving the cart around, but you pretty much have to. Yeah, I imagine a good chunk of the reseller community is just scrapping by. A fair chunk of them are older and on disability etc and just use it to get a little income coming in. But trust me I usually don't see a lot of people looking like they are making big money there. Although, looks can be deceiving. I see a lot of regulars at the one I go to. I have seen some people on youtube make close to 6 figures getting clothing and stuff from those all the time. Electronics would probably be too hard because it is really saturated. A lot of people want to get the electronics there. But even then you would be surprised at some of the stuff they are not aware of the value on and just leave it in the bins. There is a lot of resellers that make big money though too that I see. Most usually are just trying to make a little extra cash and are not taking it serious enough. It is a tremendous amount of work. I can't say that I am make any huge amounts of money right now though either. But I do fine. Most of my wealth is in inventory though, so not very liquid which is probably my only struggle. Just keep water on hand enough if you feel hungry. You adjust to it pretty well if you do it enough. Good work on the food today that looks like an excellent assortment of stuff.

@Amandine I might give the movies a try sometime. I have watched a fair share of Everest stuff for awhile lol. That's awesome. Yeah, oils are very calorie dense as well. So a lot of fat and calories in just a little bit of liquid. Compare like a whole cantaloupe calorie wise to a little thing of oil. They were at a friends place and etc. It took up a lot of space lol. It is just half a of a two bay, then I have a fair big shed, my room is quite filled with inventory, and then the one storage unit. Thanks going to tackle them as I can! Just trying to bring more and more awareness to them. Everyone is at different stages with everything in life. I am sure you are quite intelligent around relationships and other facets of life. Just remember it is a marathon and not a sprint. Progress can seem very slow sometimes.

One of the thrift type stores I travel too is like that. The unload a bunch of stuff into carts. Usually I just go to the ones everyone already went through though. They leave a lot of good stuff behind usually. Especially earlier in the day. This is sort of what it can look like. The one I go to is pretty laid back though. I would not even bother if I had seen that many people. Have you ever though about opening some sort of shelter? Might be a cool way to get a lot of fulfillment out of your passion and make the world a better place. That's really awesome to hear! I am going to take it a step at a time for sure. I want to be more evolved before I consider dating again. I have a lot of stuff I want to take care of before I even worry about it haha.

Another busy day, but I did manage to get the storage unit completely cleared out. So that will be $80 a month freed up. I looked in with the other unit and I really don't think it will be possible at all to get that stuff out of that one by the 13th. The items need climate control and if I did move all of them I would need like $600 worth of tubes that I would ship them in to get them sorted and stacked enough to bring them home that soon. So in sort that is not going to happen that fast. I am just going to have to keep eating the $80 a month for a while. I lucked out and one of the stores I supply took in 21 boxes of inventory I had in the first storage unit, so that really gave me a boost on space. The half garage I use as part of the business is totally maxed out right now though. I had a bunch of stuff I need to sell. I usually refer to this as "selling my way out" to get some much needed space back. It will be alright though be some extra money in my pocket and have it taken care of. I did try and focus in a bit and slow down with things a few times today, but it was not super easy. I did kind of build up too much work onto myself for the sort period, but I really want to get that stuff out of the storage unit and start processing stuff as soon as I can. I need to get some more cash together to keep things going well. It seems like I have just been spinning the wheels for a bit. While I keep gaining really good inventory I don't seem to get ahead as much as I need to. In a heavy workout last night I noticed I do have some negative subconscious motivators to work out. While they are not all bad of course my motivations on myself are definitely negative in some aspects. I need to work to eliminate these more and more. But identifying them is essential. I am working more on identifying anytime I see or feel any sort of jealousy. I know that this will not allow me to live a good life. I want to integrate more and more love and compassion for others. I want to accept more and more seeing others succeed and become their best selves. These feelings are more rare, but want to tackle them more as they are toxic. I am going to start adding 3 things a day I am thankful for here. I am working on having more gratitude. I want to be happier without I am thankful for the freedom I have with my schedule. I am thankful for my ability to be persistent. I am thankful for my suv. It is such a nice vehicle to me.

Yeah, I have a little bit of OCD, so I do try to let go, but it is not always easy. I am not too bothered by as much stuff like that now. I've really been pushing into not caring what people think though. Pushing the boundaries of it more and more. That's awesome! I quite nicotine after 5-6 years and it was a pain at the start. Best choice I ever made. Same with a lot of other bad habits I removed. I do not watch movies, besides some recommended in like the life purpose course. I have seen some pretty amazing youtube videos of mountain climbing though. I want to try to do Mt.Rainier, which is definitely a more difficult one. Are they like paid movies on there? I'm not really certain. I like to make creative solutions to my problems I suppose and ways of doing things. I have made some stuff like youtube videos and things like that. But not really sure what I would do. I would need to explore it more. I thought about trying to write a book possibly too. Very blissful. I purse sense of just joy from being would be the best way I can describe it. I have had a hard time getting in good session for a few days, but I hope I can have a good one here shortly. It will take you some time. My main suggestion is really just consistency even if you feel like it is not going anywhere. It is one of those habits that starts paying off big when you put a big investment of time into it. There are plenty of nutritionists that say there is good oils out there for you. Of course there are oils better than others. In my direct experience I have never felt good eating it or being around it cooking. I just simply do not add oil to anything to cook it. I make things like homemade sweet potato fries for example and they come out great on just a glass cooking dish. Things like an air fryer (high recommend a stainless steel rack type one) would also help not wanting to add oil. I just use water or sauces if the thing I am cooking might seem to stick. Don't just take this guys word for it. But there is a few other very well educated nutritionists that show it is not good. You have stumbled across some very good stuff. Life changing. It's going to take time though to integrate. Expect highs and lows doing this kind of stuff. I would be happy to lend some advice if you ever need it on something in this domain, but there are definitely a lot more advanced users here than me too. That's how it goes for me sometimes too. It piles up and up and you have to take down things one at a time haha.

The most OP will probably get out of it is bad smelling farts and a thinner wallet. Good advice.

I need to let myself slow down more and be in the moment. Less and less worry of getting to places at certain times or in a hurry. I don't do it as much these days, but it still happens. Very busy day for me. I did about 10 hours or so of work. But several hours of it were pretty passive just me bringing inventory into a store and letting them sort it for what they want to buy. It really helped me clear out some inventory. I hope my other place I sell to can take some tomorrow, so I can help condense this first storage unit. I should have it completely cleared out no problem. So that will open up $80 a month at least for a bit. Need to have the other one cleared out by the 12th and I can have the other $80 freed up to put into the business. I should probably forget about going to the thrift store everyday and just do it more for fun when I am in the area or just feel like it. I need to primarily focus on listing stuff for sale. I can spend one day a week and have more than enough inventory probably even with my sister working for me. I need to crunch out tax stuff, but thankfully I have been keeping good track of everything and I paid for the quickbooks to hook up to my bank and what not, so hopefully it goes smoothly. Then need to get everything in order to hire my sister. It will be quite a busy month, but I am really going to pace myself and do it as I can to not make it stressful. I am going at a good pace and getting it done. Tomorrow won't really be all that busy and I really hope that guy takes that inventory because I have been waiting for like 2 months for him to finish up with the old product to move this stuff around because it is taking up space. I have been finding it somewhat relaxing doing maintenance on my car. Replaced the gas cap, windshield wipers, and changed out the power steering fluid today. I need to change both differential fluids soon. Then hopefully get around to the fuel filter pretty soon. I see it as a good investment too because these things don't cost a fortune and really help make my vehicle last. It will be my first time really keeping up with all of the stuff as the owners manual recommends it. I hope it does last quite a while, but I seem to be getting my moneys worth with it. I don't want my work to get in the way of my good habits, but like today it kind of has. I am going to get this hour mediation done, then go workout for an hour. I would like to attempt to read for a bit. But at least I did get this post off so far.

@Amandine A lot of the reason someone is able to get rich is because they do not blow their money. It's kind of like stopping to work out just because you have a six pack now. I am a pretty big bargain hunter, but I try to let someone of the things go over a few dollars here and there. It doesn't sound like you are really greedy, so probably not a lot to worry about. That's awesome that you go and do all of that stuff. It sounds like you really enjoy it. You are in a really good position to self actualize because you have fulfilled all of your lower needs as this point in life it sounds like. It is really worth it from my experience, but you really have to stick with in and be consistent for quite awhile to see results. You have come to the right place finding this content though. I can't say I am super far into this journey, but I have a taste to see how big this will be to make my life excellent. I am going to try to do Neuro-linguistic programming (NLP) to try to work on my subconscious mind to heal from traumas. I had a considerable amount of abusive, but not only that a lot of money related trauma. I have only done one 50 minute session and found it helpful so far. But I want to try to work with it more and see what happens. I have tried some shamonic breathing as well. But need to stick with it more. Like doing once a week.

@Amandine I definitely work on seeing things big picture even with someone getting something like that. Really all I had to do was pick up the item and it was mine. I just let them have it without checking it. There is a similar thing I go to that is pay by the pound and they unload the stuff in carts. I had competed with a person to get these wii consoles in there. They can turn a good profit at the pay by the pound because it is 69 cents a pound for electronics. The wii is probably about 2-3 pounds. There was two and we both grabbed the one and I got one. I just handed it to them later because it was not something I needed that bad. Even with it being profitable. I think that rewards come later on from not being selfish with stuff. I had found a lot of good stuff after giving that person that thing. And who knows that one wii could make them one step closer to being able to quit their job or something, That item in particular is not worth a fortune, but an easy flip. I had a really big haul of vintage posters that I still need to list. Genuine 27x41 movie posters. I was able to get them out of just being kind. I paid for them of course. But a local competing business owner who seemingly holds a grudge against me was buying part of their business too. She never gave him the opportunity to buy any of the posters. But originally she was going to even when I had waiting months to try to see these posters in person. He ignored me when I greeted him and I even helped him by lending him power tools and such because he was trying to remove counters and such for his business. Which he could not have got them without my help. He never thanked me and just seemed bitter. I was not really trying to help him to get them to want to just deal with me, but that is what my kindness brought me. I was okay with not getting all of those posters. I should turn a really good profit on them. I am not really sure exactly why the guy does not like me. I am sure I maybe stepped on his toes a little at some point. But to be upset at whatever it was is just childish. He has a well established business for over 10 years and I just buy some stuff to sell online locally lol. So whatever I did is irrelevant and I even use to shop in his store. He is a good guy I think, but he has always kind of acted like the towards me. I am not sure why. I would lend people product I made without having them pay. So I would give them stuff without having the return. But my cost in the product was very little compared to what they would pay. By doing that I really found that you cannot trust pretty much anyone. Even if people intend to pay you they always seemingly put themselves first even for frivolous stuff. I do not lend anyone money or really anything at this point of my life. I have lost some money on stupid stuff like that, but always learn something. My loss with lending product was more for the greed of getting money I did it I suppose, but not in a smart way. Edit: The guy who took the money was not homeless when he took it. He owned a couple cars and had an apartment and a job.

I am beginning to expand more and more into the views of other people and why they think or act in certain ways. I was doing a visualization around money and had the realization of why a guy had stolen $250 from me. It was this co-worker at the time years ago that everyone there trusted to do car work. I was sitting in his car with him one day and he was telling me why he has learned to do the things he does in order to not be homeless and etc. He taught himself supposedly how to fix cars and flip cars and etc. The guy would steal stuff from the place I worked at, so that should have been a big warning sign, but regardless I didn't really think much of it because it was a shit job and the higher ups were total frauds. Sexual harassment went on there and all sorts of shady stuff. But one day this guy had called me up and I advanced him $250 to do some car work for me later and you guessed it he never did it. He sounded in need and I was in a good position, so I helped him out and of course it was going to be to my benefit too. I was pretty gullible. But I realize why the guy did it. He had a felony on his record and probably no real way of making income for himself besides really low end jobs, which could not provide much. He probably did really not know enough about mechanics to make enough money without stealing. But in his view he needed it in order to survive at any cost. He likely lives a very sad life from the view I can see it as. I imagine a lot of trauma has caused him to get to this point in his life in order to do that to survive. I realized this while just having a reflection of my traumas that have caused me to have some negative motivations towards the things that I do within my own life. I know to a small degree what homelessness is like. What fear of not having a place to live is like. What losing your home is like. Same with having your money stolen in a variety of ways. Having my car stolen with all of my stuff in it. Or simply not having enough money to get the things needed for survival. Going to school and running up a debt to even just get lunch. Or not being able to have clothing. At one point these things made me into a similar thief to him because I allowed money to control me as a defense mechanism to protect myself from having those bad things happen. I don't want these mechanisms to have any control over my view point in life and what I do. I've defiantly worked through most of this stuff, but to take it to the next level and remove any subtle pressure this stuff adds to what I decide to do with my life and what really motivates me to do something. I'm rarely as reactive to money as I use to be. I acknowledge most of this journal is based towards reaching a goal of money so far. I could say some of the motivation is out of fear. But most of it is because I want to transcend survival sooner. The importance of financial freedom is very significant to not become a salve. But I also need to be very careful to not become attached and cling to it so much that it distracts me from advancing in other facets of my life. I realize the depth of money for happiness isn't very deep. I can't say I have every been all that much happier with some extra zeros in my bank account besides the relief of security. I can see it more clearly with anyone who I really think about their objective experience that would cause them to really do something or behave a certain way. It makes it much easier to understand why people are they way that they are. Their happiness is not possible with them living in a constant state of fear from these suppressed traumas. So maybe they have to try to change the reality as much as they think they can to try to avoid these things from happening to them again. It's completely unconscious survival. I have to be careful and examine my action more and find more of these that could be effecting my life. I think working on my subconscious mind will be a priority. I have already been taking some action with reading think and grow rich, but I want to jump into some other stuff to work on it.

The course is still good to take, but I think it would be wise to focus on some other self help stuff. Something to consider might be working on just building a habit of going on a 15 minute walk, 15 minutes of mediation, or just a healthy breakfast everyday. Now I say to only work on one of those things until it is really solid ever day. This is really going to help ground you and give you more ability to start putting your life together. I would say exercise would be the most important habit you could work on first. It does not have to be the walk, but you can try getting a kettle bell, yoga matt for yoga, or some dumbbells etc. You can do workouts without any equipment too if you look on youtube. Doing this is really going to help you not be depressed and help you build energy and momentum in your life. The thing is you are really going to have to commit for a few months until it really becomes a habit. Try not to miss more than a day in a row. Also, stop trying to remove those bad habits all at once. Only work at one at a time and REPLACE it with one new habit that is good like the walk or etc. Every time you are having a hard time keeping the habit play this Some other good content to help: If you want you can message me if you want me to help try to keep you on track for a bit. I only want you to if you are really serious about improving your life. You have to make that decision.

@Amandine I will sometimes do the jog with the loading. The loading the items they are 4oz each and totaling 1000lbs, so I do lift some weight, but it is time consuming to transfer them into boxes and what not. Dog does not go in the car with me currently. But I like to listen to Leo on podcast while heading up sometimes. Depends on the day. I enjoy some music as well. I buy a lot of bags of frozen organic fruit. Costco is great for those and pricing is good. I only use the frozen in smoothies though. I buy fresh weekly usually. I'm working on it. I appreciate the words of encouragement. Yes, in the US here a lot of tax laws and such really favor owning properties for renting etc. Yeah, I only really just shop to resale mostly anymore aside from good stuff for me. I occasionally keep some things I find really good deals on. It is rather unfortunate how much people are just willing to toss stuff out. Society is so consuming based and it generates a lot of waste. What I do does keep things away from the land fill for longer periods of time and can curb people from buying new. I find a good chunk of spiritual material, educational material, fitness stuff, and other good things for people too. So not all of it is just crap. But I do all of it that will produce money. There is not enough money in just reselling spiritual material lol. That is awesome you guys acquired that wealth. What do you usually spend your time doing now? I would assume you have little to no financial drive now. I am still in the process of selling most of my stuff and keeping things to a minimum. I love having a car, but most of my need for it is to produce income. I would enjoy having another sports car eventually because I just enjoy car stuff in general, but I realize it is not the main satisfaction you can find in life. I have a second car I am fixing to sell soon to get that out of the way when I can. I had a time I actually owned 6 cars. But I was into reselling and them and what not. Partially was for materialistic "needs". It became too much of a hassle to even deal with. Having all of that stuff to maintain just becomes a big hassle. I really could not see society becoming that conscious in my life time sadly. All of this stuff is destroying our planet and a lot of it comes from people trying to find happiness through a bunch of garbage.

Getting more progress on my life purpose course. I see my highest value as personal development right now. Which is really true I feel like to me. I even put off work sometimes to work on this stuff. Always working on ways to improve the life that I am living and the mind that I have. It blows me away how much good fortune I have just discovering this stuff through a friend linking me a video. That and the ability to not give up and really want to make this change. I would have likely just went through life without much of a thought at why things are how they are. I'm not really sure how I would want to put this into a purpose yet though. I do like helping others get to higher levels of personal development, but I am not so sure that is directly what I want to do for purpose. Maybe a certain facet that I could master and go from there might be worth it. I have thought about mastering business and becoming a business coach, but have a sprinkle of other facets that would help the client succeed. I still really want to think about it. I am just not certain yet and still have more of the course to do. I am thinking about starting to go to my local goodwill by 8am everyday , when it opens. I need something to get me up early and this is what I enjoy most about the work I do. I was in last night for the fun of it since I had to sell something by it. I came out with $300 worth of inventory for $40. Which when I came in that has been picked through during the day. I got there by closing time. If I came right in the morning I imagine the shelves would be freshly stocked with new inventory. If I can average $100 worth of goods each day that would add in $36,500 of gross profit towards my goal. It takes about 10 minutes to drive there and back. So maybe spend 40 minutes or less there. Taking one hour of the day total. Then I will stack all items into a pile until I get a sizable amount ready to list. Not only will this make me money, but this will supercharge my ability to find items if I was consistent about it. I will be an absolute machine this summer when garage sales come in. I am getting a very refined skill of finding items. I find myself being pretty happy overall with my life right now. Of course making more money would be helpful, but it would not make me much happier. I find just being at peace with how things are going make me much happier. I think I am in a fortunate position right now. I hope to maintain this if things decide to change for the "worst:". I don't want to be happy from circumstances. I just want to enjoy this experience for whatever it decides to give me. If it be bad or good.

@Amandine I try lol. Yeah, she is quite a bit shorter than me and picked it up on the bottom shelf and was like I remember having this. I am being better about checking the low places as it is easier to miss stuff. I try to teach her good quality stuff if I can. She is incredibly lucky to be growing up how she is. My childhood was much more difficult. So I think it is good to help her while she is still young and open to ideas. I have thought about seeing how difficult it would be to build one of those tiny houses too on a blank property. Have to consider the costs of the water install and some stuff like that. I don't have much skill around building that stuff, but I don't see why I could not learn to do it. Either else I have seen nice pre-built ones for only like $30,000-$40,000. A lot up front including a property, but $100,000 where I live only gets you into a bad neighborhood and the mortgage keeps you paying money for years and years, so really by the time it is said and done you pay $160,000 for that $100,000 house. Inflation does help you out too. Thank you! The last time I ate some burger king was in 2017 now I think! I hardly keep up with anyone I knew. People that I cut off try to reach out to me, but I don't reply to them. I notice if when a person reaches out to me that normally would never if I say I am doing great the conversation doesn't go far. Most are not wanting you to be doing well. There was a day the other day at a goodwill I was standing looking at stuff on shelf. I reached right below an item I would have probably got to next. A guy said "wow glad you did not grab it they came all the way back for that". He just stood there as I had dominance of the space, but I just moved aside and let him have the item. I did not realize what the item was until he pulled it out and it was a neatscan they fetch about $180-$250 depending on condition etc. It might have been new open box. I recognized it when he grabbed it and knew it was desirable. That probably would have been my best goodwill find. But I just let it go. I thought that guy probably needed it more than I do. I have so much inventory I really just come to look for the fun and some extra profits. I am not sure what he paid for it, but nowhere near $250. Probably like $10-$20. I have found much better items, but at goodwill I do not. Granted in quantity I do better. I know about a big variety of items, so I can get many items that add up to that or more. I really try to embody allowing and encouraging others to be successful as it really does not effect me. I was a little disappointed of the neatscan, but I let it go. I can't say that I am pure of letting go of jealousy, but if I noticed any sort of it I will try and look at whatever it is and examine why it is good for that person. Or why that person is really deserving of the the things that they have worked towards. It is pretty much just stuff on social media though or youtube that ever gets my mind to think like that, which is no surprise as social media is pretty toxic lol. I have unfollowed all people I know on it and just conduct bussiness stuff. Granted it isn't something that comes to mind often.

@LfcCharlie4 I really like it so far. I just get pretty hungry right before it is time to eat haha. I let myself have the extra two hours if my schedule gets messed up.

@Amandine I will be on the look out for the sweetsop. Your meals look quite healthy by the way. I would move to right on the boarder of Oregon, but not actually in Oregon. Oregon has no tax on buying goods. That and Oregon is literally amazing for my business. There is so much stuff there it is nuts. I make money driving over an hour to get there and get stuff. When I go garage sale hunting there I fill up my 3rd row suv completely full to the ceiling most days with all seats down and passenger full. But even in winter I still get a massive amount of inventory there. I literally buy stuff by the thousand pounds from there. I have not really left around these states in quite a few years. I have been thinking of taking a train or flying and seeing what else is out there in other states. I don't usually venture out more than 5 hour drives. I see some of the other states are much cheaper to live in too. Cost of living here is getting kind of up there. I see properties nicer than here for $100,000 less or more in other states. I might consider it. Right now I really like this place. I don't think it matters how evolved the culture is because it really only moves so much from orange. So it might even be the case where I get the most bang for my buck elsewhere if I save up my money.

I like using brave browser and duck duck go search engine. My brave has tor build into it as well. Granted it is inconvenient to use tor on most sites because it will usually trigger puzzle to prove you are human lol. But I do use it on occasion.

I am going to take the opportunity of hiring my sister to help plant higher conscious mind sets towards business and life towards her. I took her with me yesterday to goodwill to look for inventory and she accidentally found me an $80 item for $11.99, so that was pretty cool. Easy to ship and easy to list as it is brand new open box Wii U Fit bundle. I talked with her a lot about building a good mindset and why so many people fail in business. She wants to use the money working for me to invest into her own business she said. I don't want to bias her too much, but she seemed to really like this idea once I helped her work through her limiting beliefs. I even offered to help her learn to ship her products and market them. Now I do want to have her help to generate my own advancement in my business, but I feel like it is a good opportunity to teach her lessons no one taught me. I am really taking this weekend off from work besides one small drive to drop off product. I am going to stick to that and really dive deeper into life purpose course and the book I am reading right now, which is think and grow rich. I really like this book so far. I am wanting to order all of the recommended books for the course when I can soon. I think about a quote Leo shared a lot lately which went something like "An investment in knowledge pays the best dividends" I really think that this statement has become so true for me in life. Even if if I just read a little of a book I start to gain so much life changing wisdom. I am really allowing myself to keep reinvesting in the business. I know that if I want to hit this savings goal it will not really come from saving money, but generating more of it. I am continually putting in the work over and over and paying myself the minimum I can to pay my expenses while reinvesting everything into the business. I rarely feel the need to splurge on myself because I really don't need a whole lot. I do like to buy expensive healthy items occasionally though, or spending a lot of money on self improvement, but I can't see those as wastes of money. Although, I should spend money to travel at some point or other sorts of things to get out more to vacation or something. I am going to be putting a pretty big work load on myself this month to get things flowing better. I am trying to compact all of my inventory down, so I stop paying for two storage units to help free up cash flow to invest. Which means selling a lot. Moving a lot and organizing a lot. I need to generate a good chunk of extra money to get me ahead this month and get me able to legitimately hire my first employee. I am really focusing on the structure of this business and every change I make I see my goal becoming a reality chip by chip.

@Amandine Thanks for reading! Yeah, we jogged over 3 miles straight today and walked the other 3, then she got to go on a run with someone else. She has been resting for a few hours now. @Thittato The other friend I hang out with now is pretty good. He is not really into any of the self actualization type stuff or anything. But he also isn't a loser and keeps himself well. I enjoy climbing mountains with him and going bowling. I would enjoy some company of people striving for more in there life though too. His friends are into more low conscious kind of stuff and I just don't get a kick out of that stuff anymore. Going to parties or similar things. I don't really go to meet a bunch of new friends. I have tried the meet up app and stuff and there is nothing local. I really don't want to drive an hour out of town to make new friends right now. I do have two friends I keep up with virtually that are into this work though, so that really does help too. Especially just communicating with people who are going through the same hoops or striving for greater things like me. I sometimes feel lonely, but not really that much anymore I really made myself face it and confront it.

@Amandine I appreciate it! I think a big thing with diet and everything is finding what works best for you. I think people get way to caught up in the tribalism of following certain diets and what not. Diet is very complex and there is always new research and new ways of eating being done. Your skin is one of the ways your body removes toxins, so a big thing that produces acne and all of that stuff in food. A lot of typical American style diets contain tons of things that cause inflammation. I had acne issues when I was younger, but I would not have even thought it had anything to do with food. I ate a ton of cheese, drank milk all the time, etc. Same with all of the sugar intake. That 3 day plan looks well rounded. I would always recommend as much veggies and fruits as you are wanting to add the better. But that still contains some and I see nothing processed, so that is a big plus. Fish is good, but I do see some stuff suggesting of over eating it they contain some mercury. So for fish it may be best to have maybe a couple times a week. Also, wild caught is always the way to go for the healthiest. I have not tried the sharon fruit yet, but I believe I had seen one before. I have not seen custard apples that I know of. I am not a huge apple fan though. But on occasion I like to have some with peanut butter or almond butter. Yeah, it is really too bad that we have to rely so much on junk foods and chemicals to feed the masses. It will take some time for things to really advance to a level where farming is much more efficient without causing that much harm. Wow, that sweetsop looks amazing I have never seen one before. Unfortunately, some of the most exotic I find is a papaya around my local town. Which, I did really like that papaya it was almost like a fruit that kind of tasted like coffee lol. Health food is very low value to most here. Almost all of the groceries stores besides one carries a decent amount of even organic stuff and of course the price is quite a bit higher to match that. I do like traveling into Oregon to get bulk food. I want to try to find some more specialty type shops to get some different kinds of veggies and fruits that I commonly can't get access to. For my local town I actually do not eat out at all. I would only eat out in Oregon if I do. There is not really any options that really accommodate what I eat here that I am aware of.

@Amandine Lol I did do the cold showers for a month or so. I might do them again, but usually after I run in the cold I am already pretty cold. I have not explored Seattle a whole lot, but a few times. It's really cramped and parking is expensive in my experience. I like Oregon a quite a bit though. quite a bit of places showing a bit more SD green. Kind, friendly, and unique people there. Of course there is bad apples too though lol. The town I live in has very little diversity. It's a pretty good place, but a lot of low conscious stuff here. Personally I would recommend other types of lettuces just because of low nutritional value in iceberg. I would recommend maybe even trying a variety and spinach is super health as a good one to add. If you like it keep eating it no problem, but try to explore some other ones that might be of interest. I buy organic when I can get it. Foods where the content is directly exposed end up with higher amounts of pesticides. So things like spinach, strawberries, blueberries, etc end up with the most. While pineapple and others with strong exteriors or removable exteriors end up with less. In the case of the pineapple it has some of the least. But I imagine in it's climate it naturally grows fine especially with that tough exterior keeping bugs away too. So typically something like spinach I put as a high priority for organic. However, I would say just consuming fruits and vegetables all together is better. I did eat a bit of lettuce recently that was not organic. I would wash it just because of the fact you can't really know what was on it and in my case mine still had dirt on it. You might be able to remove some pesticides by just washing with water, but I had seen some videos showing removing higher amounts with baking soda and water and letting them sitting. You would really have to look into that though because I don't know how valid those claims are. Yeah, I imagine lettuce is also high up on the list of the most contaminated. I made an exception this time for just a couple leafs haha. I made a vegan sloppy joe that contained all organic red lentils, tomato paste, maple syrup, mustard, apple cider vinegar, onions, garlic, and chili powder. I went a little overboard on the maple syrup and it ended up on the sweeter side. Still was really good. Then just stuck that on to a lettuce leaf. Will definitely make this again as it was really good. Oh and one avocado slice per leaf. I was the same way with getting into salads at first. Loaded them with cheese, meat, and the dressing all of which ironically make it harder to lose weight. But the salad was much less calorie dense than my taco bell or other stuff I regularly ate haha. Yeah, a lot of the time I eat generally around the same stuff with a lot of fruits and vegetables. If I eat out at a unfamiliar place I am sure I end up eating some, but I usually only go to a familiar place if I do and that is maybe once a month. But yeah, I have to check every label and it is good to I think in general anyway a lot of stuff is sneaked into products. I was going to buy some mango that was organic stored in a jar and I read the ingredients and it had a chemical in it that would de-ice roads. Not sure how bad it was, but that really did not sound healthy at all lol. But I usually would prefer to just buy fresh fruit. Sometimes dried if I want treat to eat. Dried mangos are probably my favorite. Have to be careful even with the dried though because a lot of companies like to add sugar on those too.

Growth is never linear. If you continue to work at it you are planting the seeds now. When the growth really comes it will come explosively if you keep tending to it now. As for backsliding it is hard. I have done a lot of back sliding with habits and there will always be a time where something kind of falls off a little easier than usual. I like to watch Leo's back sliding video if I am in a rut, but it seems that I don't usually need it anymore. You have to really create a vision for your life of why those things are important. You should really try to focus in on one thing or one habit and get that really strong before you try for other ones. It take a lot of time and patience. I have been mediating for over a year and it still is not easy. Today was a more difficult session and I did not complete the full hour. But I gained some progress in resisting temptation of itching and what not. I am mastering that control more and more. But it nicks at it a little piece at a time. When I really started seeing mediation results it came big, when my sessions seemed almost useless for most of that year. You should watch Leo's video on patience. I think that is one of the most important things you can master in life if you want to get good results.

@Amandine When I did the salads I did not know much about nutrition. I just had like iceberg lettuces and they were store bought ones. They had junk on them. But their high water content made it easier to lose weight. I am in the united states. West coast, in a high rain fall area. So usually "gloomy" but that is just perspective haha. I like it here now. I go for runs in the rain and even in freezing etc. I just enjoy that stuff at this point so much, but a lot of that is a result of removing all adding sugar I think. That and taste adjusts if you just eat that kind of stuff.