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Good book if applied correctly. I have read this myself haha. Thank you.

@DreamScape It's not an easy task unfortunately. It can be really hard to come to terms with things like that. Take all the time you need to heal. But keep it as an option. You need to put your well being at the top of the list always though.

That looks pretty awesome for free. How far are you in on the course?

@TDW1995 Change is really refreshing sometimes. You might also find some big opportunities trying a new place to work too. Good luck to you.

I did not talk to my dad for about 5 years. It's been a year since we talked then though. I think maybe he has changed a bit now, but really hard to say. I found it helpful to try to view things through the other persons lens. A lot of the time whatever they are doing is because of something that had happened to them. She probably was trying to give you love, but was unaware of how to do that. I realized the other day that I do not treat my dog well enough. I had a small fit of rage at it, which usually never happens. I became more aware of the feelings of this anger that had came over me. Later when I thought about it I realized what had come over my father, when he had physically abused me. I felt as if just that moment had made me forgive him. I love that dog a lot, but it is hard to get it to act the way I want. I never really looked at it though the view of the dog. It likely had ignored my command just out of excitement to see something else. Now that is not to say if I decide to talk to him and he is still the way he was I am not going to bother. Your mom may or may not evolve. I would guess as she ages she will start to remove some of her older ways of thinking and acting.

I've reached a point where I can appreciate the beauty of the world so much more. Just going on long walk seeing a route that I have seen probably a thousand times I can still find a way to see how amazing it is. Although, I have to admit it is really easy to go through life without really stopping to enjoy those little things. We move in such a hurry that we never really see the beauty is such small things. Finished another book. I feel like I am progressing so much about learning about life purpose. But there is still a lot of dive in on and experience. I see for most that really the issue of reaching their dreams is just fear of what might happen. It is very hard to break out of this mindset. I have had issues with it most of my life and dealing with anxiety etc never helped. I notice that most of people who find their purpose had a really good environment to do so in early on. But I think anyone can achieve it if they work hard enough at it. Most will quickly toss the desire for money ahead of their own happiness as well. Today is just awesome. Nothing in particular has happened that is "special". But just some sun out and a lot of time to reflect and work on stuff that I find meaningful. I did start listening to a little bit of music again, but only have a couple of songs lol. I notice that I am kind of transforming more in the exterior world that reflects my inner world. I see more value in dressing for what I want to become. That and just my general posture and attitude. Today I am thankful for Sun Feeling well Persistence My top 9 values are Personal Development Knowledge Honesty Connection Contribution Creativity Fun Adventure Productivity

Why not just try to move closer to the area you work in now? Maybe I missed that if you mentioned it. If the cost seems more expensive add up the wear and tear to the vehicle, gas, and time cost.

Keep consistent towards what you want. Yes, you have to pay bills now. But the reason most cannot escape is they are not actively working towards it. If you think it is hard now try adding a house payment, children, spouse, etc. Take your time to invest in business education and stay on track. You will make it out if that is truly what you want. I know you want it bad enough. Keep honing your skills in your profession and you won't have an issue at all. I probably sound like a broken record, but I believe in you man. Do the work now with as much presence as you can too. The more you build the idea of shitty job in your mind it will just make you sad for no reason. Enjoy this beautiful experience as much as you can. Stop looking ahead at where you want to be. But focus in on what is right in front of you.

@DreamScape Thanks for giving it a read!

@LoveandPurpose The values would be 10. Yes Continue doing the course and you will work that out. Good luck!

I have a back to heal now as well, so my rate of recovery has been quite slow. None the less I am still being active, but nothing extreme. I am thankful that I am not even more limited that I am currently. I enjoy being able to do all of that stuff that I can do. Won my 3rd award in a row for best impromptu speech in toast masters that one of my toast masters does, so that was pretty cool. I think I found my mentor in that group too if he is willing to do it. He is over 70 and his speaking skills are incredible. Definitely a really cool guy that is happy an cheerful. I think so far he would be well worth working with. I am progressing really well. I am going to become a member in both groups as well. So I will be giving the same longer speeches twice in each group. This is really going to start ramping up my speaking skills. I really like that this group in particular likes hearing about self help stuff. They were all interested in my speech about Earl Nightingale. Going to start working on a more organized schedule for myself. I am going to start getting up even earlier I think. I really don't do a whole lot in the evening anymore and by getting up earlier I just leave less time that is distracted to get stuff done for my day. I am doing really good at adding and keeping habits. But I have worked really hard at it for a good length of time. I am starting to dive deeper into learning about OCD. I find it interesting that I have helped myself with this as much as I have without a lot of significant research. But a lot of the methods so far it seems like stuff that I just intuitively did to try to help myself. Granted I want to take it to the next level. Same with all other aspects of "defects" that I have. I want to gain as much knowledge on them as I can and I think this will boost me even further in life. Today I am thankful for Healing Not giving up Feeling passionate about the work I do My top 9 values are Personal Development Knowledge Honesty Productivity Adventure Fun Connection Contribution Creativity

I suggest getting the extra recommended content on that lesson and retaking what you did several times. You should look at them and get a bit of reflection to yourself. Although, some may not be as apparent.

Get some stability with your other work, then start working on this if it is what you really find fulfilling. You can also do one on one voice lessons, or teach classes around that too for money as well. I know that people pay a lot of money for a voice instructor. So while you are building up your skills you can teach to make it profitable. I know this is profitable for a fact because I just bought a book on improving my speaking voice. Lots of options to work off of with voice acting and you can use the skills of it to generate money too. Which thing would you do if you were already rich?

Yeah, it is quite hard to make something profitable and hit the level of impact that you want. It takes a lot of extra effort and thought than just making up some garbage that contributes to a lot of the low conscious stuff out there. It can be really hard to decide if you want the profit or to make a change. But I will say that there is a lot of rewards that come from really helping people and adding contribution. The illusion of money keeps so many running on the treadmill for it their whole life. Society likes to make it seem as if money is what a successful person has, but really it is just the result of success. I would rather have a bit of impact changing the lives of a few, than destroying the lives of many for a big profit. Finding a good balance to get there is good though. I maintain myself by selling stuff on eBay and while I know that is not quite the contribution I want it really is not causing harm. I think there is some items that are really low conscious. But there is some good stuff too and general things that people need. Every business I have made has gradually got more and more towards making more of an impact. I quickly realized that selling some stuff was not really going to do that. But it does sustain me to explore more ventures. So if you find it now or later it is okay. The sheer fact that you are aware of this will make changes in your businesses as you evolve.

@Patt Great, keep working at it! Don't worry if you find something else that is giving you some spark too. Find a way for your music to change the world in a positive way! It will give it so much meaning and value to you. But be sure that it really puts you in your element while you are doing it. I get there is days that are not that great and things just go by. But make sure it really gives you the fire. It might even be a certain gene of music you have not explored, instrument, or creation style will do it.

Grading is total bullshit and not a real reflection of someones intelligence or value. I would not worry so much about that. Do you have a good habit of eating clean and I mean really clean? Mediation? Exercise? This stuff will help your cognition greatly. I have found the nootropic lion's mane to be extremely helpful with memory for myself as well.

I found it helpful to dabble in various classes in college. I had the opportunity to go to community college for a year without getting any debt and honestly I thought that it was worth it. You will reach a level or probably already have where you can see negative things in this culture and things like group think etc. So I would not worry a lot about that since you are aware of the limitations of college. It sounds like you are doing really well in school and might gain a lot of benefits from it. Especially from the fact that you will not have to worry about debt. That is the main reason I think college is not worth it is really the debt for most. I think there is a lot of great opportunities. It also depends a lot on the field you decide to go with though too. But I think it will really boil down to what you decide to do. I can't really sit here and say that investing this portion of your life is going to be worth it or not. I think your gap year sounds great. I think it would be well worth it honestly. It sounds like you have a good financial cushion and really supportive parents that want you to do well in life. You are at an age where what you want to do is likely going to fluctuate for awhile, but even the fact that you are in this work and have done the life purpose course you are much better off than most. Also, a lot of the time most people are not even going to have those opportunities at all. Think about that you don't have work, family, etc. So really this is a pretty opportune time for you to dive deep and explore. I mean alternatively you can see what $4,000 would grow to compounding it 8% yearly, but I have to admit there are a lot of things in life that experience will be worth any amount of money you can pay. I am taking a month off this summer for the first time in probably 8 years or so and traveling the US by car. Granted I am going to do some work with videos and stuff, but it sounds like an exciting adventure. What are you doing in your spare time? I find a big thing with purpose is really knowing that you are making a difference. I am still forming mine too and I have to admit it bugs me with all of the garbage food. I kind of have a good general idea of where I am heading. I want to find some uncharted territory I think though.

Had a pretty big insight yesterday that I think is going to help me move forward. I think I can change a lot of my behaviors and I have already been quite successful in improving them already. But I want to take it to the next level and really research them and get down to the core. I don't want little issues to follow me around for my whole life, when I could just figure out how to solve them by doing research and finding techniques. Just about finished with another book. I should be done in a couple of days. Really thinking about diving into this big steve jobs biography, but I really hope that it can sustain my attention for that long. I had hard time with he 48 laws of power and that was not nearly as big, but I also think a lot of the stories were not quite as interesting. So hopefully this is a really worthwhile read. I think he seems like someone well worth researching. I was watching his presentation of the first iphone awhile ago and it was awesome. It was worth watching the whole thing for that. Crazy how much this stuff has changed the lives around the world. Going to come back and finish this later. Was a pretty good day overall today. I expend a lot of time on things that are not really what I want to be doing right now, but it is not bad. I did actually get to read quite a bit today too and maybe only have 20 pages of this book left. Need to heal and rest my back a bit now unfortunately. I would like to still run the marathon coming up if I can, but I am not going to destroy my body to do it. There is going to be plenty more, but this would be an awesome thing to kick off my bucket list. Today I am thankful for Relaxation Hunt for items Good book My top 9 values are Personal Development Knowledge Fun Honesty Productivity Creativity Connection Contribution Adventure

What subjects are you trying to teach? You could try to teach them in some other type of setting if it does not work. There is a lot of options these days from things like youtube to one on one teaching. There is likely good pay where you are at for tutoring as well. You could even start your own business in that. That might be something to hold you by while you try again or you might find these other avenues more appealing since they would have less formal structure. I did not like the school system much in the first place, so I could not imagine enjoying working it. I do hope that you find a solution. There are plenty of other things you can do besides teaching as well. Not saying you have to stop following that, but just know that it won't be the end of the world.

In my experience if you feel the need for a relationship heavily, then I would not get into one. It sounds like you are dealing with loneliness. Since you mentioned the issue of wanting to find friends as well. I have found it really helpful to try to work through these things. It is still good to have contact with people though, so I am not saying for you to just remove everyone. But I was in a similar situation to yourself removing friends and a girlfriend about a year ago and it was totally worth it. I would suggest getting yourself to the point you can work through this issue because no matter how much you cover it up it will be there. As you age it will only get harder to not be lonely. So the sooner that you start to work through the issue the better. Take good care of yourself though. Keep your hygiene up, exercise, eat well, etc. Believe it or not you will actually reach a point where you can handle it. Getting there is not pleasant in my experience. Now I am not telling you to go to a point where you are majorly depressed or something. If you need some interaction try posting here, join a club, etc.

Going to start looking into effective ways to express emotions more healthy. I don't really convey a lot of emotions all that often. I just let them build up over time. I think a lot of that has to to with my upbringing and the fact that I could not really express myself or be authentic. I was always in a more defensive and protective mode to keep myself from any harm. I do remember having a lot of anger though as a kid at certain points. I imagine all I did was distract myself if I could from it. So I will try to research more of what I can do. I think this will be fairly significant for me in journey. Setting a more well rounded schedule for myself and going to make sure that I am not overworking myself. I am going to dedicate certain days of the week to really maximizing on single task. I think is going to help me keep things fresh and help me to not let things slide past me. I need to make sure I am focusing enough on my reselling business too. I did actually manage to save up $400 from selling my wheels of the car I am going to part out, so that was good. But I have been cutting it close with bills by spending so much time working on the life purpose stuff. I notice I have a lot of women interested in me. Just in one of my toast masters club two of them are showing interest in me. I am getting pretty good at picking up on that. Although, I am pretty slow to it sometimes lol. I feel like I am in a place where being in a relationship would just limit my growth. A lot of it sounds fun and stuff, but even sex really does not sound super exciting. Of course my brain is wired to want it, but I have other stuff going on that keeps me focused. I might consider it eventually, but I feel like I have so little time doing the tasks I do not that I don't really want to do that. I want to be more independent before really considering that. Today I am thankful for Mediation Walking Sun My top 9 values are Personal development Knowledge Honesty Fun Adventure Connection Creativity Contribution Productivity

It really depends on the employer. I have had a boss that was laughing and sharing about someones mental illness to others. Not trying to discourage you just saying that some people really don't care. Possibly instead of coming to them and saying "I have depression" just make a list of things that are effecting you and see if you can come to a solution with them on how to solve them. That is probably one of the better ways to phrase it. I think that you should especially if you plan to continue working there for a extended amount of time.

Glad to see you still doing well with your schooling. When we talked it sounded like you were really set on exploring this education. I think it is a massive opportunity for you. But you are really going to have to decide what you think is the best for your well being. Are you getting enough exercise in? Eating well? Regular mediation? These should help curb some of that depression, but to be fair a lot of teens face depression these days. I did myself and you will get through it. Just make sure you take care of yourself and you have a vast amount of resources out there to help you. You can totally come back if you decide to later. Just make sure you really get control over what you would study etc. Really spend the time in these next few years exploring your options. But maybe you have decided stuff to major in?

@Gili Trawangan Glad that I could help you out!

Had a guy I do business with totally take advantage of me. Maybe it was a mistake, but I would not assume so. Thankfully the product I gave him was pure profit, but when I say a price that is lowest I can take and you give me half of that and say any more is "tight" and take 3 months to sort through product our relationship is done. It's possible he might have forgot or something like that, but I will not tolerate that type of business. I am sure he will need the product bad after not having my service. I can get more money than he paid multiple other ways, so I do not need him. I personally would not forget a price set with someone or an agreement. Sure no contract, but there should not have been. It should not have taken 3 months in the first place. I didn't do anything about it because there was really no way for me to haul all of that stuff out of his store otherwise. I didn't mention what he agreed to, but I don't need to. Just going to end it there and sell my products elsewhere. Going to do some exercise today. No running or probably walking though. The injured muscle hurt still at weird angles yesterday and I just don't want to keep re injuring this. I want to be back and able to jog fully again. I am not really sure what I want to do with it. I just have to let it heal I suppose. But I will go on walks again soon. Going to do some work today. I think I took enough time off this week and it has been really good for me. I never fully recovered from being sick, but oh well. I am not super sick really, but I don't feel excellent. I am going to work on doing a detox sometime soon probably too. Today I am thankful for Feeling better Time to work Meditation My top 9 values are Personal Development Knowledge Honest Productivity Connection Contribution Creativity Fun Adventure