Average Investor

This was my first time giving this a go. I had a hard time sleeping with the anticipation that I was going to get up at 2am and drop acid, so I missed a bit of sleep. I took a half tab right away and let it sit for 30 minutes while meditating. I felt light effects and right away put a tab of like a paste based lsd? It was not on blotter paper, but was a little block that looked like candy, but turned to mush fairly fast. I tested both to be sure of the substance though. After waiting the first hour things started to kick in. It was fairly reminiscent of my shroom trip. I sat for awhile and turned on some music to help set a good vibe for the trip. I figured I would be in for something good. For a bit it seemed a bit overwhelming. Hard to concentrate and keep out of my mind. I decided to head to the shower as it was getting pretty strong and wanted to go to a place I would feel good. It amplified the feelings heavily. I hit a point in the shower, where I just decided I was okay with dying and to let this take me where it wants to go. The effects super intense. It took me awhile to adjust to how I was feeling. It felt acutely familiar to depersonalization, so I was not really having much trouble controlling it as the peak began to wear off more, but it was still really intense. I had some visual movement on things and just some intense thoughts. I found a sweet spot as the effects were not too overwhelming to work on the questions I had preset for myself. Master using my power of knowledge to teach others and create powerful businesses. Learning Live to my highest potential It is to create (This was accompanied by visuals of things evolving from others and the planet and all things producing creating in various arts and births) Some other thoughts I had: You are in certain control of your own future (accompanied by visuals of me achieving anything I had set my mind to) Be more grateful. Intense visions of Steve Jobs and how he effected the world. I thought how I could really teach myself to learn the masterful showmanship he had of presenting a product. That and accompanied by many other things around him. This felt extremely powerful and insightful. This was all accompanied by strong visuals of of me achieving anything I wanted. Hearing quotes from Napoleon Hill and Earl Nightengale fully in their voices. These even seemed to guide me away from any bad thoughts as I was harnessing the power of taking control of my thoughts. I came up with about two pages of business ideas and notes. Even writing out strategies and coming up with ideas that should surely help me out tremendously. This seemed to help me care a lot less about what people think of me as well. I thought a lot about interactions I have in my personal life a bit too. There did not seem to be anything too significant to come of that. After about 8 hours I was still feeling some effects and decided to go on a walk. I did a 6 mile walk and really enjoyed it. I timed it perfectly as I knew the rain and time would keep most away from where I wanted to go. I am probably going to spend the rest of the day meditating and maybe doing some stuff in photoshop as that sounds really enjoyable to do right now. I can dose this same amount exactly, so I know a bit more for the future. I think this is a really sweet spot for me to trip.

Wow, love the way you articulate your craft. I feel like I was reading a poem for part of that. I have a bit of a hard time expressing emotions as much. I am working on it though. I notice they are gradually coming in more, while I continue this work. I can't really do any of that on command, but I suppose I have never really tried to do it. What kind of stuff do you enjoy acting out in? Or particular character? I thought it was quite interesting to see a guy with a successful yotuube channel, who could not get acting gigs, but went his own route and does comedy acting. That might be something worthwhile to think about if enjoy that type of thing. But it really shows that you don't have to go the "normal" route to reach Independence in that field either.

@Raptorsin7 Yeah, I am already working on some of the business ideas that I had thought of from it. Some things were really reinforcing what I needed to do or things I already knew, but had no clarity on. Some things are not going to be easy to do, but I could do them. I could try 5meo, but probably going to hold off on that for quite a bit.

@Ibn Sina I sometimes will just flat out not respond to someone if they are acting negatively towards me. It all depends on the situation though. A lot of it is just learned really. Try to imagine what things might be like for the other person and their views. I am not sure of the drama that is occuring, but a lot of the time you might be better avoiding it all together. I would suggest just not supporting it or giving it a big reaction really. People start to pick up, when you set a boundary for something and lot of the time they just stop doing it. If this happens frequently, then I would analyze if you are lacking in one of the list of pleasing personality traits A Positive Mental Attitude Flexibility of the Mind Sincerity of Purpose Promptness of Decision Common Courtesy Tactfulness Pleasing Tone of Voice Facial Expression and the Habit of Smiling Tolerance Frankness in Manner of Speech A Keen Sense of Humor Faith in Infinite Intelligence A Keen Sense of Justice Appropriateness of Words Effective Speech Control of the Emotions Alertness of Interest Versatility Fondness for People Control of Temper Hope and Ambition Temperance Patience Humility of the Heart Appropriateness of Dress Effective Showmanship Clean Sportsmanship Ability to Shake Hands Properly Personal Magnetism I think most of us are not perfect, so I imagine there is stuff for improvement with anyone in the list. I find stuff for myself to work on as well and I seem to have no issues getting a long with others typically.

@dimitri It came really quick to me, but without any substance I would not have came up either much of an answer. That was a really interesting insight.

@Raptorsin7 Thanks, I am excited to see how it evolves from here. Yeah, I think it was something quite notable in his biography. I can definitely see how it could help. Not only that just an enjoyable experience all together.

Going to rest up today had a trip and don't want to spend a lot of time wiring in journal as I already wrote this out: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/46369-lsd-trip-report/

You would be surprised at the quality of people you can meet. I made friends with a guy that is over 70 years old and I am 24. We hit it off really well and he is the leader of a club I am in. We have a lot of similar interests in personal development and he is a great speaker. I have went many months without really having many close friends. Especially not any that I could see in person. It just takes the right time and place. Find out where you could meet higher quality people at. Also, never assume the issue might not be you as well in the relationships. A lot of being a good friend is being able to tolerate peoples faults. That goes for really any relationship in life. But I am not saying to allow yourself to be in toxic relationships either.

Almost done with all of the tax stuff, so that will be a big relief. I am going to be able to put all of my energy into more important tasks. I think I know how to do it well enough, that next time it will be really fast. It just annoys me how much little things are there and just different terminology. I am happy I did put the time into learn it though, so it will not be too big of a deal. Now it will just be plugging in some numbers and I will not have as much headache. Really happy with how much I have been able to accomplish in the last month or so. I am surprised I have got this far. I am really getting so much growth doing this work it blows me away. I can't believe how lucky I am to live this life that I have been given. I want to make the most out of it no matter what hand I get dealt. I want to make a lasting change to this world. I think that I can have an impact and help many people. I just need to make sure that I stick to my goals and not let the negative thoughts get to me. I am going to be tripping on LSD later. I am excited to see how this experience goes. This is going to be my first time giving it a go. I did not fill my mind with too much of other experiences. I am going to ask myself questions that I think will be interesting to answer. I have some good music picked out that I am going to give a shot while tripping this time. I think is going to be a great experience. I did test my tabs and make sure that everything was legitimate too. I think I am ready to see where this will take me. Today I am thankful for Getting the tax stuff mostly done Making progress Feeling better! My top 9 values are Personal Development Knowledge Honesty Creativity Connection Contribution Productivity Fun Adventure

@Mohammad That looks good! I went ahead and added that to my car on ebay. Thank you for the suggestion!

There is always survival advantages to being around others and being liked. That can come in the form of promotions, more pay, and just more opportunities in general. I notice the more I am around people I usually end up with a network of stuff that benefits my survival. The more people, then the larger that network becomes. I don't try to aim for anything like that in a friendship anymore, but more in the fact if I enjoy the persons company or not. I think a good pleasing attitude and character will get you plenty far in that industry along with some good skills built up.

Starting to build up energy and momentum again. It sucks having so many tasks that just suck up time it seems like. I think that is one of my larger issues with not getting as much done sometimes. Granted I do get quite a bit done in a single day. It just seems like I waste a good chunk of it on useless stuff. I am going to try to see what I can do to cut out more that stuff. I imagine if I have to I can just pay for stuff like taxes and things like that. I will see how it goes, but honestly that seems like the best route. I want to focus on the quality of my work. Not only that, but really lay out what I want for it in the future. I want to build goals that I am going to reach. I want to set things up to be the best that I can do. I don't want my work to be half ass. I want to learn to produce the highest quality that I can. I know it will take me some time to improve, but I want to improve at least a little each time I do something. I think that is the right mindset for me to stick to for getting the best results. I am starting to get really good at the toast masters from going so much. I mean sure I have a lot of improvement to go, but I hardly have much of a hang up at all speaking lately it seems like. I am excited to see how it goes in the future. I am a member of both of my local clubs now, so I will be doing longer speeches now as well as the shorter impromptu ones. I am excited to see how I progress. I can't even imagine how it would be if I kept this up for a year. I would be quite the speaker I imagine. Today I am thankful for Feeling better Making progress to LP Finding a good mouse for my laptop My top 9 values are Knowledge Personal Development Honesty Productivity Creativity Fun Adventure Contribution Connection

Yeah, that is why I do not enjoy being around negative people. I don't think that many really do. The energy is really powerful and it starts to get to you after awhile. It might be worthwhile to try to find someone motivated in similar pursuits as yourself that pushes you to do more. I found that to be really powerful.

@ElenaO I did not even think about that! Yeah, I love his work. I have think and grow rich spoken by him on the podcasts app (like 2 hours long) and I love it! Thanks so much for the suggestion.

@Robert Leavitt I would be curious to see some of your work. If you want to show me it. Yeah, I agree with you in the fact there is not really a need to reinvent the wheel. There is a lot of working things out there that can work for anyone. It is good to add your own touch and personality to it of course though. I have just had some product ideas come to mind and I think that last part of what you talked about would be useful for me to think more about while doing it. Not sure if you directed it at OP or myself. If myself I have not fully went to where I am going for sure. I am more or less just getting the ground work to build up some larger ideas of what I want to do. I have thought about doing a lot more business stuff. But I enjoy personal development stuff as a whole and I notice if I teach and share things my knowledge and retention of them skyrockets.

@electroBeam I see what you mean now. I mean something like that I don't really think is that big of a deal. I would just see how you can make your service more unique or more deserving. If there is really only a couple other options for that service in that area the people giving the grants are already going to be familiar with how they conduct their service. What I would try to do is win over smaller grants that they might not be as after to help establish your non-profit more. Once you have more funding it will be easier to show the value of yours. Also, when you look at it you all want to help in the same way. So really no one is losing by you just doing your thing. I feel as if there is enough demand for more of that service, then there will be more money for grants towards it over time.

Let myself sleep a couple extra hours to heal up a bit more. I actually feel a bit better today. Not quite as fatigued from being sick. I imagine if I give it another day or two I will pass it completely. I managed to almost finish up some tax work I had been working on for awhile. I am happy to have that just about done finally. That has been a big headache. But I know a lot more for next time, so I suppose I always learn something new while I am going doing this. I kind of want to just hire someone for next time I think lol. It just depends though. If I have two businesses operating at once it might be too much for me. Going to do some video editing work tonight. Then I feel like I have got a few big tasks off my list this week. That is something I have been trying to get to for a few days and just never really got around to it. Being sick and just not having the energy makes it a bit hard. I hope I can maintain better health coming soon. I do kind of suspect some of the issues is from doing too much work and causing myself to get sick in some way. I get some exposure to more people as well now too. I had a really good idea today. I think I want to start working on this project a bit. I am not sure 100% what route I want to go. I do find some importance in helping people with business stuff. I think that is something I can put more efforts into and get really good at doing it. I like knowing that I have really made an impact with a few peoples businesses so far. I think that is probably one of the more meaningful things that I could do right now. I think having a business is one of the best experience this life has to offer if you love what you do. That and if you can get away from something that is sucking your energy out of you that you do not like. Today I am thankful for More energy Rest Finally getting this tax crap done My top 9 values Personal Development Knowledge Honesty Fun Adventure Productivity Connection Contribution Creativity

It all comes down to the market you are trying to enter. Steve Jobs was pretty spiritual and yet Apple needed to make sure it would stand out from IBM, Commodore, Xerox, etc. It is hard to make a balance. Because most of the most effective marketing is lower conscious. You will have to come up with a balance that best suits you. I would not just allow yourself to just not sell your product. You have to play to some of things the industry is doing. Take a look at Eckhart Tolle's thumbnails on YouTube for example. He does a lot of current marketing with that kind of stuff and keeps up with other channels, but the content is much high conscious once you click into the video. You can't really reach anyone lower on the spiral without effectively doing that. Now if you plan to sell products that are not really raising consciousness at all, then you will have a much harder time trying to avoid that kind of marketing. You have to remember that a very small portion of the population is even at stage yellow. If you want to attract stage orange investors, then you probably are going to have to meet them on that level in some regard.

@Cocolove Nice, no debt and you can explore what you would like. Congrats! That is is awesome opportunity.

I would find ways that maximize your strengths and put them to full use. I personally used college to dabble in many things. Granted it really depends on what you want to do and if you want a degree. I think with any pursuit though you can always have enough stuff to research and learn. It all depends on what you find the most interesting and meaningful. Now if you want to be doing all sorts of different thing and combining them, then there is the possibility of being some sort of general teacher. But that depends on how far you want to go in each of those pursuits. If you really want to have all of that stuff going at once and work to go deep into them, then you are likely going to want to start your own gig. I think narrowing things down a bit more will help you achieve the most. It will be hard to become a master of all of that stuff. Likely you would spend about 10 years on each to really become really efficient. But there could be ways to combined all of those interests together. Curiosity could vary from what kind of meaning you give it too. Someone doing research on a topic they like could always leave them curious. That could range from doing science experiments to just analyzing data. I would try to narrow things down a bit more though find something that you really want to break down and put a lot of hours into learning. A specialist is going to likely get the most fulfillment, enjoyment, and success. What are you caught up interest wise? Anything that has been long and persistent? I see some of the mentioned above, but not sure if you are leaving more out.

@fridjonk I have purchased stuff and resold from Alibaba. Never made my own brand around the stuff. Not really too big in that kind of merchandise. I know there can be good money in it though if you are able to keep up with trends and such. I found more enjoyment in learning about unique items and going to search for them.

This amount is just about enough to fill up my gas tank. Sort of valuable, but goes fast. It feels like $15-$20 did, when I was younger. I bought one bag of organic groceries yesterday for $40. Celery, bananas, kimchi, 5 avocados, spicy fruit drink, and 5 roma tomatoes. Granted the kimchi and the drink were a luxury since I felt a bit sick. The equaled about $10. I have lost a larger amounts than that. $50 is pretty easy to make I feel like. I have had a person con me with a fake $50. I was annoyed, but not for that long lol. Kind of depends on the scenario. This is about the cost of a date most of the time.

@TheSomeBody Honestly, I would consider keeping your research up and consider trying them. If it is something you want to put your life into I think that would be most important to see the results yourself. But I can respect the fact if you want to wait until a certain age too.

@Hemant Yeah, I suppose it depends what lens you want to look through while asking the question. I was assuming a more material based standing due to it being in this section of the forum. I think there is a lot more, than we are knowing of to be possible.