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Going to make sure I don't push too far too fast. I know that I am feeling well and seem to be making a lot of progress. I just don't want to hit a big set back by going too far. More meaning on the substance side. I think that I will still be cautious and keep to my once every two month limit. Not going to try anything new for awhile. I am not in a big rush and really have no need to do it. I have been having a good bit of ruminating thoughts lately. I still have some work to break through with this OCD. I don't tend to think about it a whole lot. Just the fact that I feed into thoughts that I am having and it seems to last. It's not nearly as bad as it use to be. Mediation seems to get rid of a lot this too. Mushrooms eliminated all of it for awhile. That's not too sustainable, but there might be something there to work with at least. I want to work on manually beating it though and not letting it persist. I seem to be feeling quite good doing my reselling work. I really need to get some more stuff listed, but this will work for now. I am trying to balance out the high dollar stuff and I am still actually sourcing some pretty good stuff. I had to cool it though because I need to come up with the money for taxes, but I seem to be selling pretty well even with the overall trend going back to normal for people buying. I think this approach is fairly good. I kind of wish that I could apply another day of work towards this some how. I probably just need to suck it up and apply several extra hours if I can. I bet if I just did that at least my income would grow well. On days like today to I felt really good working on this stuff. If I can manage to pay the taxes and have money to invest I am going to be killing it this month. I am going to go for it. I want to try to maintain my goal of the ira contributions. My reading is going really well in terms of comprehension. I am now blowing through books like I was, but I am reading more complex material right now. I should read something more fun though next to change it up. I really liked reading investing stuff and biographies a lot for fun. I will see what else I can do for the next one. I am focusing on taking much higher quality notes and really listening to audios about the book after. I notice my retention is much much higher than before. Goals for this year: $1,256.00 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,200 out of $3,000 savings 19 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Feeling good getting through work Feeling well Passing through ego back lash

No experience with it here, but some insight on starting a service type business. You can enter any industry you want and make money. Even the worst software engineer could make money. What will really determine how quickly you free yourself is the quality of your work. You will want to start off with higher prices than what you think. If you price yourself too low, then you will never be able to keep those customers as your raise your prices. I would rather offer discounts off a high price, than offer initially at a low price. Really shop around for the prices and see what you will find. I highly recommend that you take a few gigs on for free and don't expect to get much besides maybe a good review from them. This is really going to help you get a good understanding of what the customer is looking for and how to do your transactions. Plus you never know you could end up finding more clients that way. Ultimately it will come down to how often and how well your work. Balance out a good amount of time to watch pros in your industry and read some really good quality books on it too. Have a good balance of that mixed with actually getting in some work. As you start to build career capital it will get easier and easier. I highly suggest you try to find a 9-5 as closely relating to this work as possible to help boost the amount of experience you get in this field. As close as possible even if it is not the actual position. Sadly, it won't happen over night. This is why most people end up getting stuck at their jobs. Have the foresight to see how drastically this will influence your life and the amount of free time that you have in the future.

How long is it worth it to wait to try? I considered plugging, but not too sure about that. I would test the substance as well. It's kind of pink, so I assume it is what I am looking for. I have experience with about 4 trips so far. Two mushroom and two lsd. I am fine with waiting. I assume I should probably hit some higher level trips with these before I bother. I am seem to have made a lot of progress in terms of how I react to the substances. Very pleasant experiences so far.

It all comes down to the amount of numbers really. You have to consider that there might be a lot of other candidates. While you could be a good pick maybe you did not stand out as much as some others. I recommend working on your interviewing skills and really preparing a good resume. I have had great luck with going in and personally checking in on the application after I submitted it. It will be alright. Like I said it really comes down to it being a numbers game. I imagine that the job market is a bit more slim. I know in the US there is a a very high unemployment rate currently. I can imagine other places around the world are facing similar issues.

@Mind of a beast I have found a lot of luck looking into kriya yoga techniques. I highly recommend doing some research and finding techniques that best suit you. Well worth the time and worth buying a book or two on too.

Starting to add micro greens into my diet. I had never heard of such a thing, but this seems to be something I could grow pretty easily. I am going to research more into this and I think this will be an awesome addition to my diet. I just added in Brussels sprouts today and they were actually quite good. I notice that I am actually peeing clear almost consistently after doing that fast. A bit to add here, but that would signify that I am in good health. I typically don't have clear pee that often, so the fast that the fast was able to remove that much stuff is incredible. I really need to research more about heavy metal detoxing. More information on micro nutrients and other stuff is really going to make my diet very powerful. I am still working on getting a reverse osmosis system set up here too. Getting back on track with the reselling. I am going to be putting in some extra work this week and trying to get my best stuff up for sale as soon as I can. I have a few high end items that should help push up sales a lot. I am going to start balancing out things with more long tail items and quick selling stuff. Depending on how the virus goes I could end up have a really good amount of sales this summer. People just blow their stimulus checks and stuff on a lot of the type of stuff I sell it seems like. That has cooled off for sure this month, but who knows if they do another I could have a fantastic summer of sales. I am building up some good momentum it feels like with all of the stuff I have going on and my habits. I really have a lot of stuff that I want to progress and work through. I would ideally like to have more funds to be able to pursue more of this work. I am not sure what route that I want to go fully yet is part of the issue too. I see pretty much all of the stuff in the life purpose course points to me doing some sort of life coaching or teaching this work. I realize that youtube is not going anywhere anytime soon, but I feel like my impact might be minimal there. I am sure if I really put my best in and got really good it would help for sure. Just the fact that I want to create something bigger than myself I suppose. I know at the same time I would probably just be happy doing this work full time. Goals for this year: $1,256.00 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,200 out of $3,000 savings 19 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Discovery of micro greens Adding new health stuff into diet Actually going to the store in person

I've been pondering a lot of the same stuff. Unfortunately, a lot of the answers will come from yourself.I did a full day of mostly meditation with a bit of contemplation and I found it helpful. I would suggest trying to do a retreat or something that gets you away from your electronics and such and really think about what you would like. I am starting to get closer and closer with what I want. Being something you have struggled with I imagine, then I am sure you could make a compelling purpose from it. Don't settle for neutral. Keep searching and exploring. It might even just come unexpectedly while you are doing something. Not necessarily what you will just plan out.

Look into the reports put out by the royal college of physicians. I was addicted for years to nicotine. It's well worth giving up if you want to progress in this work. Everyone is at their own pace though.

My day of fasting and meditation went incredible. I meditated for roughly 12 hours and made some huge gains with my meditation. I got some really good insights on my life purpose and what I am working on. I hit some really good points of clarity and feeling. The fasting was absolutely worth it and incredible. My serotonin feels like it was bursting today and I feel really healthy. I fasted for about 42 hours total and I will be doing this again for sure. I might try to make more of these sessions into my weeks as I think this will be huge for my growth. It was tough for sure, but I think that I if I can keep at it the long term gains will be massive. I would nearly compare this experience to a mild acid trip. I think before my next acid trip I am going to do a full day of meditation and a fast before I do it. I imagine I would be in a very peaceful state ready to explore. I called up my dad on the phone today as we have not talked in over a year now and it went great. He seemed to be really into the stuff I was talking about although it was just more stage orange type stuff I shared. I think we could possibly re-spark our relationship after not having one for almost 7 years. I am glad that I had the courage to call him up and do that. It probably would be good to have a bit more of him in my life and work on that relationship. I really don't talk to much of my family on either side at all. I have pretty much my mom and half sister as anyone that close to me in my family. I talk to two grandparents maybe once a year, but that is about it. Something I could work on though. I feel like I am transforming fairly rapidly, but I recognize this is likely a delta phase in stage green. I am sure I will keep pushing at this, but I will see how the backlash comes. It blows me away how far I have come even this year. I could not even imagine really going this deep as I have. This work is absolutely incredible and life transforming. I imagine this is just the tip of the ice berg. Goals for this year: $1,256.00 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,200 out of $3,000 savings 19 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: High energy Serotonin boost Deeply working on myself

Going to spend the whole day tomorrow doing meditation and water fasting. I will be doing some contemplation tomorrow as well. This is going to be a challenge for me absolutely. I feel like I have been building up to this quite a bit. Contemplation seemed to set off my ego backlash this week, so I will see how this goes. I think these efforts will be well worth it for my growth. Starting to to study some peter ralston stuff and so far it is interesting. I am going to make the time to read the first book in his series this year for sure and if I enjoy that, then I will read the rest. I still want to keep going at the life purpose books a bit, but it is nice having a variety of stuff coming in. It kind of makes me question if I am dipping into too many larger pursuits, or if I am heading on the right track. I feel like my time is very much split, but I spend most of my time on inner work and habits it seems like. I think part of my lower energy might have been from low zinc levels. I am not really that sure though. I did a test with 15mg of zinc today and I did notice a pick up of mood and energy. I have been having a pretty rough time working on my projects and business stuff for a little it seems like. I am not too sure though. I suppose part of that might be because I am not really going out and doing anything since the lock down stuff. I do a little bit of stuff solo and walks and such. Nothing really social or adventurous though. I have to admit though with taking all of this time I am starting to really do a lot more inner work and my growth has been good since this time. Goals for this year: $1,256.00 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,200 out of $3,000 savings 19 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Possibly discovering fatigue cause Not being hard on myself for not getting out a video. Good sales

@Consept It will likely just be a trend for now while people are bored from the virus. Keep that in mind if you want to form a podcast right now, I would be sure you really want to voice that opinion long term. Look at where your growth is and heading. I bet you will surpass most of this stuff anyway. It is unfortunate that a big piece of the collective is ignorant on the topic. If you do go with it though you would want to pinpoint that infrastructure that is really keeping ways of old thinking. Most of this change will keep coming in waves as you have seen in the past. I should mention I have not looked at any of the news around the topic, but just have the general gist from the last run of protests. Look into becoming a spiral wizard if you want to advance others. It will require heavy research on spiral dynamics. I have thought about doing something similar myself, but on larger thinking themes as a whole.

I would try to narrow down the main thing that you want to do and put all of your focus into that. You can always do the other on the side as a hobby and even make youtube videos or something about the topic if you want to. I have this issue myself a bit with two businesses. However, one pays the bills and the other does not. Ideally I will solidify fully what I want to do and pursue that fully once I reach that level.

Most of the people stuck in that paradigm have very limited world views. You can learn how to bring blue up to orange maybe, but there is a lot of resources for that anyway. A lot of the issues are structural and not so much on people being unaware of the issue aside from older generations. Let another generation or so die off and most of these issues will reduce a good chunk. Newer generations are much more knowledgeable and accepting. If you find it highly valuable though, then go pursue it. If you do though look at the structure though and not so much trying to just educate older generations, which might be a waste of time. Look at issues like the education system, poverty, etc. You would need green systems and thinking in order to rid the "me" thinking in how a lot of structure is built.

Recovering a bit more from backlash now. I felt pretty crappy for a couple days there. I hit a really good energetic mood while I was listing stuff for sale today. I really need to get this stuff up, so that was pleasant. I am going to have to kick it into overdrive next week to help get sales high enough for the funds that I need. I really need to focus on high ROI items and getting as much stuff up for sales that I can. I really need to step it up a notch from where I was at. My meditation is going really well. I am starting to be able to handle longer times now. My main issue is still just my legs falling asleep. I am not sure how I can prevent that. If I could not have that issue, then I would be able to go a good chunk longer I imagine. All of my habits seem to be in order. It has mostly just been the amount of work I have been doing hasn't been up to par. It seems like I feel torn about what I want to do often. I really need to keep up this contemplation. I am going to try to focus my next trip on this as well. I want to create something great for the world. I feel like I am kind of in the right field though. I feel like I should go with my intuition and keep mastering my speech as well. I actually notice I am even better at talking to girls just from doing toast masters lol. I am still trying to keep myself out of a relationship since I am doing a lot of growth. Part of me feels like I am not as valuable with my living situation I suppose too. I have all of my other shit handled though at least. I realize that most of what keeps me stuck in stage orange is just what other people think of me. Like I feel like I need to achieve in orders to think highly of me. Or drive something so others don't see me as a failure. Obliviously, this sound stupid, but I notice that in a lot of the things I was doing. I feel better dressing nice and more appropriate for how I act, so that is not much of an issue there. I am going to keep working on finding more ways that I am still rooted there. I see the obviously good quality in orange though as I have learned a lot of stuff about business and making money. It seems like I am opening up much much more to a new chapter though in terms of my growth. Goals for this year: $1,256.00 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,200 out of $3,000 savings 19 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Feeling a bit more optimistic Good friendships Getting stuff listed!

Seem to have hit a good chunk of ego backlash the last few days. This seems pretty typical for me about a month after a trip. I am starting to feel like I am embodying stage green more and moving more away from orange. It feels like I am making more and more progress. The depth of this work is astonishing. I definitely notice I get down on my self a little with these backlashes. It has not helped my work progress the last few days, but I think I can get a really good work day in tomorrow and get a lot of stuff listed. I am going to want to trip again for sure, but I obviously want to keep spacing it out with these two month intervals. I have been really heavily studying spiral dynamics lately. I am really starting to get a much higher level grasp of it, than I had previously. I am really working through this large book. I am really interest in it and I notice that is making a huge difference in my interest and the rate I am going through the book. I feel like I am progressing a lot in terms of my knowledge. It blows me away how much information I really retain, when someone is asking for my advice with something. I am going to do a full day of water fasting and meditation this weekend. This is going to be my first experience for both for an entire day. I did look up to keep my sodium levels up though. I think this is going to help me make a lot of progress. I can really see me trying to work and build a life purpose somehow through this work. I am not really sure how I will go about it. I think something good may arise in the future. I want to keep doing more heavy contemplation and really dive deep. Goals for this year: $1,256.00 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,200 out of $3,000 savings 19 out 44 books (Still need to count the others lol) Marathon Today I am thankful for: Getting some work done A lot of reading Nailing the morning routine

@smurf88 @IJB063 @rNOW Thanks for the suggestions! @Calcifer Yeah, I have a bit of a hard time reading some stuff like that, but it seems to be a good challenge for my reading lol.

Didn't fully detach from electronics this weekend, but for the most part I did. I feel like I did not get as in depth like I wanted on reading etc. I did finish a book though and I am really into this new book I am reading now and already read a good portion of it. I feel like I wasted a bit of time sleeping in again, but it really comes from the result of not sleeping much during the week it seems like. I almost did some work this weekend to keep my sales high, but I let them drop and relaxed off it a bit. I am glad that I did even though it would be nice to get some extra stuff sold. I have really been thinking about pursing further into toast masters. I was reading some stuff about becoming a distinguished toast master and it seemed like it could be more of a challenge for me to grow my speaking skills. I feel like the path of master would be worth it with speaking. Although, I am not to sure. I still hold back a bit, but so far it does feel good the route I am going. I have been contemplating a bit more about what I want to do with my life. I think this is stuff that I could be good at and it would keep me challenged. I would like to get to the point where I take a full week off and contemplate this. First I need to grind out some more progress in my business though. I need to raise some capital and move some stuff that should get me closer to doing this. I have noticed a pretty fair improvement in my physical performance. I started increasing some of my supplements and now adding himalayan salt to my water because I currently have no salt at all in my diet. All of this seems to be giving me a bit more of an edge than normal paired with doubling up my lions mane dose. I am going to keep exploring this stuff a bit further. I believe I finished picking out a reverse osmosis system as well. My nutrition is becoming very well researched at this point it feels like, but there is always room for improvements. Goals for this year: $1,256.00 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,200 out of $3,000 savings 19 out 44 books ( I think I left a couple off because I was not really into using the one note at the start Will check back though) Marathon Today I am thankful for: Finding a interesting book! Feeling like I have made serious progress! Staying on track

@Artiekee Thanks for watching! Well, it took time to form the speech about 2 hours or so. I presented it in my toast master group and practiced in the car etc quite a few times. I drove to that spot to record the week before and the wind was too strong two days in a row lol. Then I struggled to film it when I actually did and was at the beach for like 3 hours lol. The thumbnail took about an hour to make. The video editing took me about two and a half hours. The editing takes me quite a bit, but I am learning how to do it well. The B-Roll footage (the little scenes) are pretty easy to film though. I invested too much time to get the right shot and stuff that I am working on. I ordered in a fluffy mic protector to help block wind, and I might use a full on a camera stand for shoots like this. The other stuff I will get better at. It is quite difficult to get the environment to do what you want, when you go to film lol.

@Aquarius Get it checked for sure. Keep in mind though that the average person they're comparing you to is not healthy at all. I am not sure how healthy in your country, but here in the US the average person is nearly obese and is not healthy. I like to clean up my environment, when I get stuck in a rut too. It makes me feel a lot better and gets my energy going well. Give that a shot and see how you feel.

I put in a ton of work onto this new video. I know I could always spend more and more time, but I am really happy that I was able to finish it. It took a lot of preparation. I see a lot of filler words that I need to work on and some word stumbles. I am making some really good progress with my speaking though. I have been practicing this skill a lot and I am really seeing the results from it. The reselling business is going quite well. I am getting a lot of product coming in through my online sourcing. I am starting to find really good items with good margins. It's pretty fun to find them like that and I don't even have to leave the house. I would like to do some garage sale hunting this season, but if not this will work fine. I need to catch up on rest and definitely do a day without any technology this weekend. I need to get back on doing that and really taking care of myself. I am working really hard right now at all of my projects and everything. I feel really full of life and I have a lot of energy. I can see how all of this stuff I am building up is starting to pay of gradually. Goals for this year: $1,256.00 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,200 out of $3,000 savings 18 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Building up the courage to shot the video Getting better at speaking Creativity

@Raptorsin7 It's a great feeling! That is what was roughly on when I quit. I still think back on some of the games and what it took to overcome to do it. Keep it up. You're well on your way.

@Raptorsin7 Great progress! Sounds like you found a few hacks to step up your game for sure.

@DreamScape You could start a business, but you should go with what aligns most with what you want for your life. It sounds like you have the option to tough it out there until you figured out an alternative route if you wanted it. You can also have roommates, save for trailer, etc if you wanted to live cheaper. There is some costs to that though for sure in terms of quality of the space and lifestyle.

How much do you see college being needed for your purpose? Just because you have some credits does not mean you need to pursue it further. I believe college is more important for industries that really require it and hands on type of stuff. If you have came to the conclusion that it is the best route to take, then go for it. If you feel that you just want to take it because of security, then you need to really look into the statistics of how much more "successful" you might be from it. Like I said though it depends on the education that you are receiving. Modern college is scam in many aspects, but there is a high value in education. You need to weigh out what course is going to benefit you the most. If you simply just want to move out, then there is many ways to do that without loading yourself up with a bunch of debt. If you feel that having the college is essential for your vision, then go for it.

I would work towards getting to the root cause of your depression. Research micro nutrients, water purification, clean eating, heavy metal detoxing, and make sure you are getting plenty of exercise and sun. If you are not getting enough sunlight you like most people are vitamin D deficient, which I would recommend look into. That would be the the category of micro nutrients as well. How about for a change your stop yourself, when you are having those thoughts. Think about how good it is to have the experience at all. Think of how thankful you might be for things like your boyfriend and other things that are going well. I'd bet you have quite a bit of good stuff going for you to be thankful for. Work on the internal issues first, then start focusing in on what you can do externally. You are really young and have a lot of time to build skills and develop a life purpose.