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Berkey is pretty good from what I looked at. Would be a good step up on most of those cheaper filters. I have the large one and it is pretty good. I would rather have a reverse osmosis system, but this has worked for now. Bigger is better with these for sure.

Use the book for sure. You are going to be spending hours doing the practice. I have reached a high energy state a few times already and have a good chunk of the book left. I have not done any of the audios or anything, so I cannot compare. I have had real success with the book though. I invest about an hour a day on it though consistently.

I did have another chance to talk to an attractive girl, but I blew it. We had actually looked at each other a few times before our path was going to cross. It is possible that she said something aside from good morning and I had my head phones in lol. I said good morning to her and I briefly looked down and looked back and just gave her a light smile. She did smile at first, but did not seem pleased with this by her facial expression. I immediately was able to let go of that and continue on. I have noticed the sedona method is starting to creep into stuff like this and it is very effective. I really should have tried to talk to here. I am not really worried about it. I did some introspection and I can see that relationships is something I really need to start working on more. I also have a good amount of shadow work to do from being abused. I think that tackling the OCD is a main priority at the moment though. I mostly want to do some approaches if I get the chance though and just get some numbers. I am not really pushing to get any relationship going. I just want to build the skill and I can see this will be a really good way for me to grow. I also notice I have a good chance with very attractive girls. I have been approached by women on multiple occasions and I can get really good looking girls to seem interested in me. I would guess I have good enough looks to help me with a bit of an edge. Not that it means everything. It definitely boosts my confidence for this stuff though. I feel a lot better without games for a few days. I really feel more energetic towards my work and just my general life. I feel really unfulfilled a lot of he time playing them already. Was disappointing from how fun they were, but I can see how this sacrifice would help me a lot. I can see my OCD flaring up just from playing them. I have significantly reduced my OCD as I have been working on it. I notice I rarely have issues in the shower, which I use to a lot. I can clearly and calmly think about stuff there now. I did have a realization in the shower today that it would likely be counter intuitive that I would be happier with actually less stuff. It does seem like that in a sense. I did experiment with eating bread again and I can see it likely gives me acid reflux. I did some research and it is a really shitty food anyway. It tastes fantastic, but from what I looked at and the issue relating to inflammation in my family it is probably worth it to not eat it. I did at least give it a shot and dived a bit deeper into it. I can't say my energy has been bad though. I have been really crushing it with my reselling work I am getting done it feels like. I really just need some more ours in on it. My strategy for reselling seems to be going really well. I was thinking that if I did have $100,000 listed that I would have quite a high level of financial freedom with my % of sales a month. A bit further off for sure, but something for me to keep in mind. just having that listed would be like me having 1k a month for a 1 months (it would gradually decrease, but even refilling 1k is not that hard). Something for me to think about as this would really allow me to work on a life purpose and stuff. I feel like part of my issue is still time wasting during the day though. to be fair I slept in today and still got a good bit done. I got less than 4 hours towards picturing and prepping items. That is alright I got a lot done with that time. I just know that I could bring that up. I do ship and do other stuff though too. today I did invest 1.5-2 hours into listening and getting more reselling information, so I can't say did nothing towards it. I just need to keep trying to up my motivation and I do need to build a vision for myself. I know this is going to help me a lot having this business. I just really need to max it out the best I can. I know I want a good amount of time for personal development though too. I can see massive strides happening in personal development. I feel more successful with money too. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. I am writing this out and working on visualizing this. That and using the sedona method to release Today I am thankful for: Getting good amount of items up Consistent work Consistent improvement

I was giving a guy a jump start one time, then once his vehicle turned on he had it in gear and hit my car lol. It messaged up my bumper and hit my fancy rim a bit. I actually did not call the insurance or anything and he assured me he knew how to fix it with years of experience in body repair. He actually did follow up with me to fix it, but I did not take it. I made the mistake again with a different driver, but they were uninsured anyway. I have uninsured motorist coverage now. I run a dash cam I got at a garage sale for $8 and would call the police and show footage immediately now. It is a tough lesson, but at least it is just a car and your are not hurt. To be fair it might just be worth forgetting about the bumper and moving on. You could probably find a different bumper at a junk yard and spend a couple hours installing if you are unfamiliar and save a grand most likely too.

Just by knowing the direction you want would put you way ahead of most. Read the book mastery. Work out ways to build your schedule into making this more of a focus in your week. If it is what you want to do you just need more time in it. It's just like playing golf really. You get better the more times you swing the club. You can use the engineering to help set yourself up financially to fully pursue this too.

I make a living selling physical products online and it is not something you cold easily do in a van. If you had a storage unit to pair with it, then it could be doable. Expenses would be low enough you could get by. If you plan on driving around much it would be harder, but you could do paper items. Making anything decent requires experience though. You will spend a good amount of time upfront losing money on bad buys and making poor distinctions. I enjoy it and it is starting to pay well, but most of of my background as allowed me to flourish with this business. I would recommend it as a side gig to supplement income. for a novice the amount of money you get will fluctuate pretty wildly sometimes. Knowing categories and when they sell best etc all makes a huge difference. You can actually find quite a bit of good stuff for free. Craigslist can be good if you are close to a big city in the free section. The prime season for item sourcing has just passed. Summer is great by far. You will need time and space to really bring anything decent. you will want the stability of a job and a good backing of income if you were to even consider going full time reselling. I am using this as a way to control my day and my time at this point. Plus it is pretty enjoyable. It is allowing me to really max out other areas of development and work on a life purpose. Don't get lost chasing a quick buck.

I live with my mom currently and I can see how loneliness could spike up more on my own. I have thought about this a good bit myself. With the amount of friends I have has reduced quite a bit. Not much family I talk to. I realize though that this is what a lot of this work will bring you to. You can give into your desires for a quick fix that will not sustain, or face that loneliness head on. I think it is healthy to have contact with others though, so I am not suggestion to just cut out everyone. It could not hurt to maybe join a club or something that helps you fill your social needs a bit more. I realize how difficult it can be to find quality relationships once you start to develop more highly, but you can find friends or a girlfriend. It would likely be a big push in your development to work on attracting women too. Go out and get some fresh air at a park or something. I talk to strangers fairly often it seems like doing that. They usually start contact with me though. That and possibly even meeting quality women there.

I am noticing much more how the video games have some negative effects on me. I am thinking about just trying to change the games I play. I thought about mostly cutting them out again though. I mostly used them as just a throw away day, but I will admit my reading has not been as good as quality as it was before playing them. I think part of playing them is just backlash from the trip. While I did want to try to see how it would be being a bit less strict with myself. I notice that it puts me in a lower conscious state and it fills my mind with garbage. I mean I am playing shit like call of duty war zone. It does have some cool aspects of war simulation. A lot has change since I played the old stuff years ago. I just think it is is time to try something new that actually challenges me or bring creativity maybe if I play. There is a lot more interest in survival style games it seems like for me. I do enjoy strategy a lot too. I had a full day of meditation and no electronics and I can feel the release of so much games and stuff. Even the sayings and things just fill my mind. I guess it is hard to not want those style of games even though the really do not promote me to be more conscious. I will think about this more and think about other things I could do. I am reducing the time played though for sure. I did consider quitting it all together again, but I will think about it. I enjoy having something like that to do, but I don't feel as though I am enjoying it as much as I think. I still think a bit about doing the youtube, but I realize how thin my efforts get with so many projects. I am crushing it with reselling overall and I know if I stick it out longer it will put my in a really good position to pursue whatever. Not to mention I still do toast masters twice a week and I still read and learn a lot of personal development stuff. My schedule is just less crammed and stressed. If I reached a level of even 100,000 worth of stuff listed and had some stuff going to keep a bit of fresh inventory up I would have a quite stable income that would provide me a lot of head room to work around. I will see how it goes with this. I am reworking my goals with this and trying to produce some good results. I think I am going to switch out video games on saturday for working for awhile. I really don't get all that much hours in as it is. I really want to crush it this holiday season. If another stimulus passes my sales are going to explode. I will have some time to relax, but I am going to mostly just tackle that. I might skip working out intensely on weekends too. Just really light exercise. Then trying to maintain having a day of meditation on the weekends as well. I notice I feel a lot better removing a lot of the crap from my life. While it is difficult to do sometimes once I am actually there it feels so much better. I feel like games pull me in the opposite direction. I allow myself to effortless reach my listing goal of $50,000. I am working on my wording and focus for my goal. I am working on using the sedona method to release on all aspects of it as well. I think this will be really powerful moving forward. Days of waking up on time in a row: 2 Items listed: $25,000 out of $50,000 Today I am thankful for: Sales picking back up Clean enough air Good start to the day

I did manage to get a fair amount listed with the time I had today. I really need to buckle down and get a good strategy going. I am going to take apart this big picture and set the glass on my posters to photo them. It is pretty close in size, so hoping that it works out well. I have 1k to go through and this is likely the best route with the smoke here for me to go right now. air quality is only at moderate, but it is supposedly going to get worse again. I don't plan on spending a lot of time outside just quickly grabbing orders again with the n95 on. The sedona method is really helping me a lot. I do forget to use a it a bit throughout the day, but I do notice that my overall energy has improved. It has helped me reflect more on stuff too. I am working more on introspection and this seems to pair well with that. I am going to have plenty of time to study videos while the smoke is here too. I want to get back on track with the LP course too. I have been inspired a bit lately with how good my speeches are going. I felt really good about the one yesterday, I did kind of fear if I tripped again it could remove my fear based urge to work a lot. It seems to have done that. I need to get more healthier motivation to work more on the reselling business. I have been struggling a bit with it for the last week or so. I am at least replenished back up to 25k listed. I have a decent amount of stuff photoed and ready to list as well. I am going to alter my goals to just one goal. I think that keeping track of all of this stuff is pointing me in the wrong direction. I want to focus on getting the 50k listed. That would be a massive milestone for my business. I am going to work more on the phrasing of it from what I am getting from the sedona method and I am going to work on repeating and reviewing it daily. I know I can do it if I really start targeting the right items. I am going to keep doing batch days too. This i going to make a huge difference with doing something like posters. Doing 30 prepared ones, then going in and listing them. I am going to work on stepping my game up with this. I do have good mental clarity and I did not feel bad at all listing myself today. Just need to solidify the routine with this and stop wasting time. Days of waking up on time in a row: 0 Items listed: $25,000 out of $50,000 Today I am thankful for: Sales picking back up (still mostly on other platforms) Ability to avoid smoke Good energy

I definitely have more time on my hands than I think and today proved that a bit. I realize the need to rest a bit during the day and pause for awhile. I just need to watch out in areas that take up a lot of time. It is easy for me to waste time really early in the day it seems like without thinking much of it. I did get a fair bit done today, but toast masters took up a lot of my working time that I had. I did manage to get a larger ticket item up for sale though. I really crushed it with my speech today. I did a good chunk of it all impromptu. I did glance at my key points to cover. I was worried I would not have enough to talk about since I did not prepare it heavily, but I actually went over my time. I could have done a 30 minute speech instead probably lol. The smoke is suppose to be coming back here. This is really disappointing. It hurts my health and it really limits the output from my business. This time I am more prepared though and I have a couple hundred movie posters ready to list and I am going to work on getting a fair chunk of items ready to list as well. I can do all of this in door. This should tide me over quite well this time and allow me to put up good items while I have to stay in. One of my main work areas is in the garage and I cannot really use that while it is smoky. It just is not worth me damaging my lungs. Going to pick up a replacement filter for my air filter too. Seems like I am tearing through money lately, but at least I had a couple larger sales the last few days. My ebay seems super slow. I am not sure if there is something wrong with it or not. I assume a good part is the fact that no stimulus went out. My returns have been through the roof too. I cannot deny a fair amount of them are my fault though too. I noticed that when money and stuff dried up when the lock downs came a lot of people started returning stuff too. Either else I seem to rarely get a return it seems like less than a couple percent of sales. But lately it seems like daily I get get a new one. I notice I don't as upset by this as I can understand that the people are just desperate for money. I can't really blame them for putting their survival first. Either way I think I can pull through on this. I just need to keep up with listing and it will put this in the past. This journal seems to be helping me out a lot more lately. Just gives me time to really think about what I am doing and what I can change. I can actually analyze a bit of what I am saying and gauge the level of the spiral I am engaged in as well. Days of waking up on time in a row: 2 0 Items listed: $25,000 out of $50,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Getting to enjoy a nice last day outside Larger sale today Awesome presentation in my toast masters!

Woke up late today. About 1-1:30 hours later than normal and I realize that I have a good chunk of time to still get most of what I normally would done. So there is definitely a good loss of time. Hard for me to recoup usually on days like this to get what I want done, but is no problem today it seems. Something for me to consider. I know I can't spend every waking minute scheduled, but I have to keep track of wasted time for sure.

Not at all. A good general rule of thumb for me is to be in a a positive mood for at least two weeks before a trip. It can definitely brighten your world and help your reach new perspectives, but you have to go in feeling good in my experience. You will play out a lot of the stuff in your subconscious in your trip and if it is feelings of low self worth it probably isn't going to be a good time.

Not getting as much work done as I should be. I have been gaming for 30 minutes a day at the end (I know I said I would not lol). It seems to be enough and is a nice little reward at the end of the day. I have been investing most of my time into the sedona method at the park. Of course my cooking takes up a good chunk of time too. Need to think about my day. What the day looks like: 25 mins meditation w/ 10-15 mins contemplation breakfast with some browsing Ship if needed Head to the park, run, sedona method, and contemplate - Takes 2-3 hours atm. Smoothie + shower roughly one hour Usually get a bit planted here from a bit of fatigue and fullness from what I have already done. Try to get 2 hours of work in here. 25 mins of mediation Make dinner 45 mins Work on reselling 4-6 hours depends what is left. Game 30 mins Journal 10 Mediate 25 Sleep Right now I really don't want to budge on the park time. I hit a high energy state today again too, and it lasted a few hours this time. This is the schedule without both toast masters group. So two days a week 1-1:30 is taken out of the time available too. I feel really good going to the park, but maybe it is a bit unsustainable. I have really been loving the weather and getting into it. I am still getting stuff done, but I just feel like I am not getting in what I should be. My mood is much better overall and I feel really good. I guess I hit a few points of fatigue usually that eat up time. After both the smoothie and dinner. Depends on the time I eat them and I eat a lot. I could try to cut down my serving size a bit and see what happens. I could cut out the 30 mins of gaming. I should stick to that at least for right now. I will do the 30 two days a week and leave it for the rest. I need to try to get myself to be in the game fully throughout the day. I could be working out too hard too. I jogged 7 miles straight on monday, Tues walked shy of 4 miles, and jogged about 4 miles today. I really like getting that in and I am not sure that is really the reason that I am not having the extra energy in me. I think a good bit of it is resistance though too, which I have been trying to release. I am not doing too bad on the days that I do work though. I am thinking I average about $100 a day worth of stuff going up if not more. I am sure well more than that, so it is not like I am not putting in enough stuff. I know tomorrow my schedule is going to get taken down a bit because I have a 45 hour toast master meeting and a one hour one plus I have to have my 15-20 minute presentation ready. I could limit the park to two hours, which I think is reasonable because I am combining my reading with the sedona method etc. I am going to try to leave earlier for the park tomorrow and not waste time. I am in a much higher energy state if I work out earlier. If I pull that off I should be able to get in at least an hour of reselling work and I will feel out how confident I am with my speech. I can put out a side note with bullet points of the topic and that will help me cut the time of remembering it if I need to. I can pretty much just impromptu of a few bullet points and I should be fine. Days of waking up on time in a row: 2 Items listed: $25,000 out of $50,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: High energy state Super relaxation Amazing weather Peaceful park

I had a chance to approach a good looking girl at the lake yesterday. I feel like I have the confidence and charisma to pull it off. She even initiated at me with a big smile. I have had many chances now it seems like to pick up a girls number. In the back of my mind I feel like I want to stay away from having a girlfriend. Then at the same time I feel this strong fuzzy feeling over me thinking about them. I do notice I don't really feel needy. Once I am able to detach from the "spell" I seem to be able to think more clearly. I feel like I have so much more work to do and this could deter me from the path. Who knows it could be what I need to grow more. I am at such a better position all around to have a healthier relationship. I feel like the longer I push this off the better. Maybe I should just get good at getting their number though. I guess part of me fears easily getting into a relationship or getting hurt subconsciously. Something to think about. My heart was not even racing and this was probably one of the more attractive girls I have seen. She was dressed with some stuff I would imagine someone stage green would wear and just looked like someone fun to be with. Starting to step up my game a bit with the toast masters. I am going to try to do a 20 minute project in one of my groups that gives me a bit more fear of a speaking. This is going to be a good challenge for me to help step my game up with this. I am making a ton of progress. I was able to leave most of my morning group nearly in awe it seemed today. I had such a good vibe in that group. I notice that it is easier to get a long with older people to some degree. The sedona method is going pretty good. I notice that I am getting a bit agitated the last few days, which I assume is some after effect from the trip. I am getting there though. I notice I am much more loving and accepting of others. I had a guy give me an angry look the other day after I just have a slight head nod and a light smile when we made contact. This still got to me a little, but I am getting better at dropping stuff like this. This type of garbage could run in my mind sometimes for weeks depending on the level of the actual interaction though too. Listened to some Allen Watts today it was the "dreams" video on youtube. I can definitely resonate with a good amount of the stuff he was saying. I am going to dig deeper with this. I need to expand my teachers a bit more for sure. I listened to probably way too much Leo lol. I highly resonate with his style and content, but I do realize that is limiting me and blocking off my mind if I mostly do that. I see the need for much more introspection too. I know that I do not get enough of that in. Thinking can be much better than doing. My sales have been really bad for almost 2 weeks. I am going to keep listing and prepping for q4. Not really too worried in the short term, but it has hurt my savings. Thankfully I have been using my money really wisely and I can cover my expenses well. I am hoping from this season I can get a really good boost to my savings and meet or exceed my savings goal. I did notice good stability from having a good variety of sales sites. Ebay in particular has been slow, but I managed to actually get a good amount of sales on 3 other platforms. If it were like this last year my income would have been gone for that time and I would not have sold anything. Hard to believe how much things change even with just little things in a year. Days of waking up on time in a row: 1 Items listed: $25,000 out of $50,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Awesome weather Good amount of work done today Back onto waking up easily

Feels as though I am not enjoying the video games quite as much as I thought. It kind of reminds me now how much more stuff I need to do and get done to actually keep progressing in life. Not going to just cut them out again completely, but I can see that it is not something that is as fun as it use to be. I guess I have a bit of an issue with a little excess time. I meditate and do a lot of self actualization work as it is. It is not as if I cannot handle being alone for a bit as I try to have days cutting this stuff out. I don't know. I feel like this time gap is holding me up from progressing as much. I still want balance with fun, self actualization, and the business. I am going to try to just play them on the weekends I think. Even then I still wanted to try to have a day for meditation and silence on the weekends. I did the research on the eggs and I found some really high quality ones. I can even actually view their living conditions with a special code on their site. I feel kind of gross sometimes slightly eating them, but they taste pretty good. I have added them into my evening dinner and it has changed it up. I have been doing a lot more additions to my diet with a huge variety from what I had previously. I no longer am taking the glucosmaine either and feel excellent. I notice I have had a good streak of not really feeling an muscles weakening and I seem to have a lot of energy. I have to admit I do not cheap out on running shoes and toss them out the first sign that they are losing their potency heavily. I think that was probably most of my issue with injuries. I am going to try to start hitting more hours a day on the business. I am coming into 4th quarter, which for this business is the most important part of sales each year. I am going to try to keep the balance, but I really need to step it up. I really want to start getting the ball rolling. I am already up way more inventory than last year and I have a few tricks up my sleeve to keep sales high. I might consider getting a virtual assistant to help me list items, but not sure yet. I am sure even with just what I have going I can get a lot of stuff out this year. I pulled the plug on getting more items and I literally cannot hold anymore right now anyway. Days of waking up on time in a row: 1 Items listed: $25,000 out of $50,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Getting bulk groceries Amazing day at the beach Feeling refreshed

Slept in just for a little today, but I had a really nice 5 day streak of waking up on time. I did not really overdue it either, so I imagine that I will have an easy time going back into a streak. Starting to hang out at the park and work on the sedona method quite a bit more. I am rally enjoying the atmosphere there and it is a nice change from me just doing the run only. Especially since I am already going to spend that time reading and doing that practice I might as well do it somewhere nice. I am hoping to have another high energy experience again with the method soon. I notice that I am getting better about letting stuff go. I am not perfect of course though. I ate two organic free range eggs with dinner today. I have not at any of these types of products aside from maybe some stuff from pills in a few years. I seen the large amount of benefits from the eggs that it seems to be such a crucial part of the diet. I am going to see how I feel though from eating it. I tried eating some wheat this week and that made me sluggish although it was sprouted bread. I have not had bread in at least a year or so because I could never find one without sugar lol. I am not going to to make that a frequent part of my diet though as it mostly just tastes good. It does not seem to have any much benefits. I have broken out of most of the vegan dogma stuff at this point. I am seeing the eggs like bees making honey. I think if the chickens are raised and fed well it is not really a big deal. The same thing goes for bees. I am going to keep doing more research and learning more stuff. I want to have a very optimal diet. Going to really put in a plan to lay down some work on my reselling business. I do want to up my goal of $30,000 listed to $50,000. It is going to be a challenge to get all of this stuff up and keep it up with rampant sales from 4th quarter. I am going to give it all I got to sell as much as possible this year. Days of waking up on time in a row: 5 0 Items listed: $25,000 out of $50,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Nice day off Extra meditation Relaxing 1000 posts

Setting a good direction for what I need to do in my reselling business. Being more strategic with my time that I am able to invest in it right now. If I play this right I should have the best 4th quarter selling I have had by far. I might even 5X what I did last year. Working on detaching from the need of security and just letting this happen. I am thinking this will get me closer and closer to working on a life purpose. I had an an amazing emotional release yesterday using the sedona method. I really let go something that was really bothering me completely. I felt almost in a state of bliss while I was in a park. It was an extraordinary feeling. I am really starting to get results from working on this. This is by far one of the most powerful things I have found in this work. If I train this enough I could easily get rid of my ocd completely. I am already starting to notice a major decline with the compulsions from it. This was such a great experience for me. I cannot really put into words how much this allowed me to see what is possible. I have been playing about 2 hours of video games a day right now. I feel really good during the day and I am getting a lot done. I am only working on the reselling business about 6 hours a day. The key thing though is the time I am working is fully focused and I am getting a lot of output from that time. This only adds up to roughly 30 hours a week, but it really just depends. I know once sales start picking up the time involved is going to change a lot with how much I will be shipping. While I am tempted to add more hours I am going to keep the balance I have. I spend basically all of the other hours improving myself or making myself quality food. I am going to have some long days here and there though for sure. The quality of my work drops so much after 6 hours it seems like it is not quite as worth it. Of course some days I can go seemingly all day though. Days of waking up on time in a row: 3 Items listed: $25,000 out of $30,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Nearly reaching a big feedback milestone on ebay Having some fun on warzone Having so much extra time from getting up early

It feels so good to give myself a break. I am starting to remove stuff from my day that does not make me happy. I am finding that I even have time for video games from removing bullshit like facebook from my day. I know that games are not the most conscious thing for me to do. It makes me fairly happy right now and takes me out of my super strict day. I hardly seem to waste all that much time and I would rather exchange out shit that is not making me happy for a little time to relax. I noticed I actually got more done today that usual with playing games! I am going to work on giving myself a bit more room from my strictness. I am going to take a week off every quarter. I am going to keep trying to build myself up to the level of doing a 10 day mediation retreat too, but that will still take a bit. I am having a bit of a hard time as it is with just two days in a row without bs. I will get there though if I keep on training. I removed my strictness from having a 6 hour or less eating window and it has been amazing. I feel a lot better than I did before and I am getting in a ton of different healthy foods. The stuff I have been making tastes incredible lately and is still really healthy. I am starting to have a lot of energy and wellness I notice from keeping this so strong. It seems like I am improving all the time. My new supplements seem to be working great so far too. I am working a lot on using the sedona mehtod. This is going to be so powerful for me to be able to breakout of a lot of the stuff I am using to hold myself down. I am just getting a taste for this, but it is working well. I am getting much better at identifying emotions and releasing my reactions to stuff. Days of waking up on time in a row: 1 Items listed: $25,000 out of $30,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Getting one business area mostly cleaned Little pick up in sales from it being slow Feeling fucking awesome

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I had an intense trip that seemed to reveal my life purpose to me. I am still not fully sure how I will actualize this. I intended to get more serious about the life purpose course again though. I have really been getting deeper and deeper into taking the study of this work seriously. I have been building up great notes and working on the practices. So much to learn it is never ending. I have really been enjoying the process and the gains that are coming a long with it. I seem to have shredded my issues around money. I think I should still keep saving and investing goals though. I think I need to focus my aim more on having liquid cash though, so I can get myself closer and closer to living a life purpose out. Stocks are nice and would help me have money in the long run, but they are not going to make me satisfied in life. I no longer feel fear around money it seems like. I think this is going to help me break out of my bad habits around it. I am going to keep running this reselling business as this is the best way for me to generate profits for my freedom. I think that I should save up a lot and try to move to a different state and get a tiny house on a small piece of property. I would be able to work on a life purpose without a lot of bills nagging at me and I can work on pursuing my dreams. I think it would be good for me to leave my moms house sooner than later. I realize the tremendous saving and business opportunity this is giving me. I just don't want to take it for granted and not work hard enough to reach my goals. I notice I am getting a lot more control over my OCD. The more I do this work and the more aware I become I have less issues with it. I am working a lot of using the sedona method. I plan on practicing this a lot and I think this in general will help. I notice if I shy away from activities that are over stimulating that I do not have issues with OCD nearly as much. I want to try to do a day of meditation and away from stimulation once per week. I want to do 7 days off each quarter as well. I did allow myself to play videos games today. I basically made it a whole year. Maybe a few weeks shy. I had a lot of fun playing with my sister and I filled the craving to play some. I don't intend to use it as a major time fill or anything. It was fun to take some time out though and not be so hard on myself. It is okay to enjoy some things in life without being so strict. I notice that even towards the start of this journal I had issues with this stuff and I am just not loosening the strings a bit. I see much more value in relaxing and doing some of this stuff. I watch maybe 2-3 movies a year max. I mostly waste time on garbage like facebook. I actually removed the facebook app for now too. I notice that helps me get a lot more stuff done a day and I don't even actually think about it once the app is gone. It still has benefits and I plan to ship products from there coming up soon though too. I just want to remove it as much as I can, when I don't need it. I let myself sleep in a few days and get good rest. I have been taking better care of myself and allowing myself room. I don't get upset with myself if I don't do things perfectly. I see the need to sleep in etc. Going in this direction more has been great. I am actually taking 9 days of technically and it has been great. I actually really feel like getting a lot of reselling work done right now. I feel totally refreshed for toast master speeches that I was really lacking on concentrating in. Days of waking up on time in a row: 0 Items listed: $25,000 out of $30,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Playing some games Good friends Higher energy Amazing trip

I went into this trip with the intention to solve my fear around money. I took about 200ug of lsd. Having set up with mediation, then taking it while meditating. The come up was vary rapid this time compared to normal. I took double what I had previously after doing a bit of testing to gauge how much I could handle. In my meditation I hit a point where there was nothing. I was able to then become aware of it. The effects were very powerful and I had no resistance. I felt completely with nothingness. I seemed to be completely separated from any attachment to "reality" or being. I felt an extremely powerful force over me. I had an extremely strong feeling I should master speaking. I felt as is there could be nothing else I could do. I felt as if I was chosen from god. I felt like I was completely tapped into a divine power. That I needed to master this skill. I was crying at the sheer power I felt of the need to do this. I transitioned to taking a shower. I had a complete break down of reality in what seemed piece by piece. I realized that I am god. I could see imagery of all sorts of life. After the shower I looking at my paper saying "fear around money". This seemed completely preposterous given the experience I had just had. I realized just really how lucky I am. The fact that I am even knowledgeable on any of this was just luck. This experience is amazing with or without money. I realized that I need to use these tools to get to a point of financial security. I had fully realized that I want to teach personal development for a life purpose. I realized how much I love this stuff. It is the only thing I can think about in a way. This type of work would not feel like work at all if I were working on personal development stuff. I could spend my whole life studying this field and enjoy it. I wrote "I could spend my whole life teaching people how to improve themselves". I had a break down of all sorts of past relationships I had and how I evolved from them. Analyzing my dating relationships to all of my previous friendships. I bluntly realized that I don't care about my father. I felt a complete detachment from any need or desire from that relationship. I will continue to talk to my father, but this put things in a new perspective. I had just started a relationship with him for the first time in 7 years. I think a lot of my money chasing through the years was because I wanted to feel I would make my dad proud. I had a break down of my current relationships and interactions with people. I was able to drop all of my tensions I built up in one of my toast masters groups. I feel like I will be able to utilize these groups much more effectively now. I have a lot to take in and work on from this.

@zeroISinfinity In what way could I hack the mind? Not super deep on a quest for spiritual stuff right now. Although, I think this trip gave me a glimpse of what enlightenment could be like.

@Leo Gura Yeah, it is time to get to work! I have noticed that now. Counter intuitive to what seems like would make the most. I am curious about something. You mentioned in your psychedelics video that people can see their sub conscious in a trip. Being that I have read and heard that I am god. Couldn't it seem likely I could have just subconsciously put that in my trip? How do you draw a distinction on what the ego could have placed in the trip vs an authentic finding?

I have a fair amount of fear in the achiever stage holding me back. Since my last trip I can see how this has came into place as I was starting to move a good bit more out of this stage of ego development. I noticed this, but did not really want to stop it. In a way I have felt like I have really been able to "achieve" like I had never before. I have been kicking some serious ass in my business, but honestly more rest and caring less about the results would probably get me a lot further. I can see this has me chasing my tail a bit. I do like looking at the stock stuff and it is enjoyable. I notice that I do have OCD directly relating to over use of electronics and thinking about doing stuff like that though. I had a full day of mediation and almost all of the symptoms of that went completely away. I notice my use of facebook has not been that good either watching a lot of low quality pick up material and stuff on there. I removed the app to reset again from it. It seems to have the ability to hook me back to it even after spending months off of it. It is one of those tools that is really helpful, when you need it. Just spending too much time there and going into crap is useless. I am going to trip again and I am going to have a list of good quality stuff to contemplate this time. I have had fear of tripping again because I feared that it might remove my material desires all together. I am going to go ahead and do it again and see where this growth takes me. I know that the materialism is foolish, but it's hard to break off some of the stuff from it. It's not like I care much about getting a bunch of stuff as it is more for the survival and feeling of comfort. I am not going to be foolish and not use these skills survival as it will allow me to advance much further. Days of waking up on time in a row: 3 Items listed: $25,000 out of $30,000 $2,701 out of $6000 IRA contribution $1,000 out of $3,000 savings 25 out 44 books Marathon Today I am thankful for: Not going into the smoke Day off Meditation