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@fridjonkI have thought of that. I mean with a lot of the stuff I sell my margins are really good. I don't pay much for the items. I am guessing my posters I have are worth about $25-$50 each. After all of my expenses in them I paid about $3-$4 each. It will cost about $4 to ship them and it will take a 15% fee. I have 1,000 of them, so I can crank out them really fast vs my regular items. Not everything I sell is like that. If I could find huge lots of the same thing often it helps a lot. I have found a few niches where I could start drop shipping on Amazon. I have considered it. However, I am now starting to sell on Amazon a little now. I have a couple items on there. Most of my products I can't sell there though, but I am building the account up gradually. Never know when I could get a lot of inventory for it. If I were ungated in collectibles my posters would actually be able to go there too. For affiliate marketing it is pretty tough. I would have to be able to get some serious traffic or find people spending a lot of money to get much out of it. I don't really have an audience for that sort of thing right now. I am sure there is ways with ads or something that could work. Mostly, I do this because I know how to do it well and I like it. The poster thing for example is a good bit of work up front, but they will actually be pre-packed for shipment. Those will be making money for years pretty easily on the side even if I switch to something else.

Seems as if I have just hit a slump that I have been in for a bit. I am not really even enjoying playing games really. I don't feel too bad or anything overall. Just in some aspects I don't feel like I have been up to the task as well. Really going to focus on my nutrition heavily and see what else I could be needing health wise. I feel as if I am probably towards the end of the blow back from tripping some months back, so it is likely that. I feel like a good chunk of it is from having the no-self experience and from how heavy that trip was. So doing more health stuff might not totally solve that. I might just need more time to work and integrate all of that. I am going to wrap up the items I have sitting out and just get into the posters tomorrow. I am going to store the stuff I was working on and just get it out of the way for now. I know I wanted to do those items, but the posters are my best bet right now and I have been saying I would do them for awhile. I have been super busy shipping. I literally sold like $700 worth of stuff on facebook in like a week! Not including other platforms. I have been shipping a lot of my large items, so it is taking up time. Going to work on buying boxes or having a larger variety to speed that up. I need to set aside some money, then I am going to work on buying the poster tubes, then the DVDs still. I am thinking that I should start working towards doing a life purpose project. I think the youtube and all of that is the right way. I feel like I am way too caught up in limiting beliefs and lack of direction with it. I am still reading books from the LPC, so I am building up a better sense of what I want to do. I am thinking about still doing this whole year fully focused on reselling just to get plenty of money to move out and be independent. I know I could structure the business well enough in that time frame. For now I need to work on it regardless. I need the cash flow to bother with anything else. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Getting some reading in Steady sales Time to think

My contact with people is so little I have not had it as much of a concern right now. I realize that we need to get most of the population to take it though. I am going to wait a bit, but I work from home and pick up groceries etc.

I would recommend slowly switching off of it. Gradually removing the items with it and the overall amount. Towards the end dropping things with small amounts in it. While you are doing that start switching to things that are naturally sweet. Fruits, honey, cocoa powder, etc. They will start to taste better and better the further you get away from processed sugars. I would also work on building your awareness while eating those items. Leo has some great videos on addiction and awareness. The Sedona method is also a powerful way to break addictions and habits.

Working on identifying and solving issues with my stomach currently. I am going to order a bunch of stuff in to start doing the detox from the toxin solution and see if that will help. It seems likely from the advice I was given recently that I likely have an issue with my gut. It would make sense from all of the BS I use to eat and I have not really done anything besides eat really clean to really promote it's healing. I am going to focus in on this heavily as I think that this is something key for me to do. It has blown me away the kind of traffic I am getting by listing items on Facebook for shipping. Some of my items are getting 1,000 views in a day! I would be lucky to get 100 on a really popular item on ebay. I am selling a ton of stuff on facebook and they waived all of my seller fees until the end of the month. I am going to make sure I get all of the rest of my items cross posted there asap. I am moving a ton of old inventory. I actually picked up some energy and got my work space clean today. I am starting to get back some momentum with my energy towards reselling. I even feel tired, so hoping I can get up on time tomorrow too. I have been crushing it with sales especially considering there has been a cool down on listing and me working on the business. I need to get back on top of it, so I can really milk the rest of 4th quarter. I am actually getting ahead on bills and getting savings etc going again well too. I am putting this as a top priority. I am really not sure how stable sales are going to be after Christmas time and I know there is a good possibility that people are going to be trying to return stuff heavily once the holiday season ends and they need money. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Getting the garage cleaned and items prepped Toast masters Sleeping reset

A follow up to this thread I ordered the one that Leo suggested. Now that I am going to get the RO system my concern will be the actual result of the water. My water here is not that great. The water is fairly hard. I am looking to test the waters quality. I see I can get a cheap stick that is about $10 or so. I have seen some kits too. I know I could possibly send in the water too. Any suggestions?

I've been slowly chipping away at sources of toxins in my life. I was going to order some plain shirts, boxers, etc. Then I thought again I read in the toxin solution about clothes. I have been really working on chipping away at my toxin exposure and of course it seems like these have a bunch of bad stuff in them too. I don't mind paying up if needed. I just want plain clothes though. Is anyone familiar with brands that actually show what dyes they use? I am assuming I want 100% cotton clothes? I intend to update this thread with some findings I make on my own. I'd love to hear if anyone has any knowledge on this.

I was not really in the mood to do as much again today it seemed like. It seems like I have just hit some burnout with reselling. I worked my ass off for awhile there lol. I can go in and get some done tomorrow though. I shipped all of my stuff and did all the needed stuff. I got busy with toast masters and I decided to use my time to read and install my new reverse osmosis system. It took me a few hours to install and I am really excited to see how the quality of the water is tomorrow. It really was not that hard and I actually felt some flow doing a project like that. It was nice to do something else and I have really been wanting a nice water system for quite awhile. Everything will be ready in the morning for sure. I really want to work on doing self help videos next. I am feeling much more energized as pursuing this as my life purpose. I think this is part of why I have felt a lack of interest in the eBay thing more recently coupled with a bit of burnout. I want to build out a vision for what I what to complete and I might even continue to compile video ideas. At some point I am going to probably start making thumbnails gradually and start building up everything in advance. The idea will be to build enough content, so I can take a break and not have pressure to work on it when I need to. I notice that I seem to work really hard for about 6 months and I need a solid cool off period. If I can build this business around that it will be a lot more effective. I need all of the build up of content, so the algorithm actually picks up that I am active. I could have videos scheduled for the same time and day of the week and have them out consistently, so I can stay ahead. Building up an inventory of video ideas and stuff to shoot in a batch basically. That and I need to figure out a product that I can sell to make money. I need to be able to make money from this. I can probably manage eBay well enough part time to pay all of my bills if I build it up enough. I still want to do the life purpose course too. I just want to build this out and not feel overwhelmed in the process. The idea is for me to build something that I love and that I am passionate about. That and something that makes some money for survival. I am starting to put reading ahead of working out now. I would rather skip working out to read. I don't want to skip it all the time because I have to admit I enjoy running a lot too. I just need to prioritize value. I am definitely going to get some good runs in this week with how sunny it is. I really need to get as much sun as I can while it is still out. I am also going to be ordering some micro spikes too because I might climb a mountain again this winter. The one we were going to do only has a 24 mile path open and I am not doing that lol. I did the 8 mile one last time and it was a 12 hour round trip to the top and back with hardly any resting. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Getting to read in the fun This book Reverse osmosis system!

Next time you getting sucked into those feelings take a moment to introspect and see what feeling you are avoiding. I have found that compulsive usage of stuff like that is typically just to remove a feeling. It might even be that you don't want to be with your own thoughts or emotions. Take some time while you are using it to do that introspection, then allow yourself to fully feel the emotion. Take a deep breath and let go of the feeling. Go ahead an keep doing this behavior, but do it while using this technique. If you can manage to just do that you will notice results if you can keep at it. It isn't going to help you to become so strict and just watch stuff from actualized. In fact I would say that would be more harm that good even though I love the content too. You don't need to be overly strict on yourself to get the results you want. In fact you might find by just actually letting yourself enjoy something that you will find that you need less and less of it. Also, learning to introspect and feel, when you have actually had enough of those funny videos. Once you have had enough it will be much easier to stop watching them. This can help you get an actual sense of why you want to keep watching as well.

I need to get better at saying no to people. I need to pause and really decide if I want to help someone do something. I am probably hurting their feelings by blowing it off later. Not to mention it builds up resentment towards them. I am pretty busy and it isn't like I have time to do everyone else's errands or stuff they don't want to do. I am not one to ask for much in return myself and it really doesn't benefit me at all. It actually wastes a lot of my time. I am going to really set boundaries with people for what I am willing to do. I felt sick this morning and it seems like I am just struggling to get fully on top of reselling. I packed a bunch of orders today with a good feeling of flow from that. So that is a good start. Sales are doing pretty good also. I seem to be selling about $1,000 worth of stuff a week right now. I would like to try to build that into something more consistent. I am going to aim to list those posters, then revaluate what I want to do. I think I want to start mostly automating most of it and really work on a life purpose mainly. I can still sustain this business though with not as much effort. I just need to put in more time to build it up for that. Once I do that I will have a good amount of financial security and not be sweating bills and shit all the time. Not that I worry much now I just don't even want the thought of how much money I need for something or if I can afford it. I am doing so well with toast masters it seems like. I have been so good at keeping consistent with it and really putting in the work. I am basically past 50% of the way to DTM and it has not even been a year. I am starting a new pathways for presentation mastery, then I thing after this once I honestly might try doing the humor course. That will really put my out of my comfort zone, but I think that would be an amazing one to work on. I would like to work on being more expressive with humor in general. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Lots of orders! Great run at the park Progress

@fridjonk Sampled a bit of those and they seem awesome. Thanks!

The way my room is set up and cleared now makes me feel so good being in here. I am really glad that I have invested the time and energy into this recently. I think this will boost my overall productivity and happiness just from this. I am going to do a deep clean every 1-2 weeks as well to maintain this. I am going to keep working on minimizing the amount of stuff that I have as well. A lot of this stuff is just clutter and it is hard to decide, when to get rid of something. My room feels peaceful and clean. My meditation set up in here is awesome too now that it is on the fool. I am able to go much longer and deeper in my sessions. Seriously, I wish that I invested in the money into this earlier. One of the best investments in myself in awhile. I am back to reading books off the life purpose course list and the one I am reading now is great. I really felt into reading today. I am taking the pressure off myself. I notice that I am gradually already getting kind of bored with gaming. My mind felt much much active and even pleasurable while reading vs what I would playing the game. I mostly spent today playing Deus Exus from 2000, meditating, and reading. It was honestly an awesome day off. I was thinking of working, but I can see I really need the rest. I am working on recovering my habits a bit more too. I want to crush it on Monday with reselling. I don't want to keep putting off the posters either. I have a run of parts and repair stuff to list and after that I am going right into it. This should give me something to do for quite awhile. I am probably going to save up $600 to buy all of the tubes that I need for them too. Once I have the tubs I will have a lot of free space again. I could invest another $400 into bulk dvds and start back into that business too. That would be amazing for my income. I need to appreciate more how far that I have come with this. Sure, it would be nice to be getting more sales right now. I am sure that I could be. Strange to think I am only performing 31% better than last year at this time even with the improvements I have made. On the other hand if I compounded 30% a year it would not take long to be killing it either. I also did not work all year on the reselling business. I am thinking about trying something like playing the saxophone. I love the sound of it in music and maybe it could be a fun hobby to do. Something that I have had in mind. My painting stuff showed up today and I might give some of that a go too soon. I had some fun last time I did some painting, but it has been quite a few months. I lucked out and a company accidently sent me a big paint set and let me keep it for free, so my investment has be minimal. I do notice how much I love studying all of this kind of work. I feel like my life purpose is around this kind of stuff. A big part of me feels like I can't do it, or it won't be good. I realize this is a limiting belief. I know too though if I really want it that I could make it in this industry. I am just really not sure what route I would go. I don't want to make some crap that everyone else is making. I think setting too high of standards for myself is an issue. I did pretty good last time I did work with this stuff. My speaking skills are really good now too since I still train 1-2 times a week on speaking. I think what I need to do is keep girding out eBay as long as I need to. Really dive into this work deeply and get some serious results. While still mapping and planning this out. I am still going to work on the LPC and I suppose I am by reading this book anyway. I just need to get more serious about what I really want. Money is not going to get my happiness. I need it to build the foundation for where I want to go in life though. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for Feeling a lot better from yesterday Deep vivd dreams Amazing feeling in my room

@fridjonk That is a good point. Something for me to think about. I have not really been looking at my notes much at all. I am starting to go to paperback and I am going to try some stuff there for remembering and rereading things. I do like the habit. I really enjoy reading, but it is hard for me to sit down and do it sometimes. Once I start though I could go for quite awhile. I can see going through the list of books I have read I have only retained maybe 4-5 really well this year out of close to 30. I have bits and pieces from some of the books, but I see what you mean. I do have good notes on all of them though. I should start listening to audios of them again and summaries on youtube. I have been really fighting with trying to break out of some of the structures I have set for myself. Not to mention I have just been having some difficult ego back lashes lately.

I buy a good bit of stuff on eBay too. You can shop smaller sellers. I sometimes pick the little guy, but if it is anything I don't want messed up or I can get a lot better deal I won't. You can shop 3rd party sellers too and you probably do without noticing it. I price shop for a lot of things and usually get better deals on eBay, especially with things like eBay bucks. I shop on Amazon quite a bit too and I will probably sell there more in the future. Also, those companies take a lot from the 3rd party sellers anyway and really don't treat them that well. If you slip up at all on a site like Amazon you could potentially lose your entire business/income. For me I am not really wanting to go to the store much at all. I do grocery pick up most of the time unless it is something like Costco. Online just makes more sense for me with pretty much anything aside from food.

Did super deep cleaning in my room today. I got rid of pretty much any sign of mold that I am aware of. If there is any scent of mold still I am going to try shampooing all of the carpet next. I probably should do that anyway though honestly. If that fails we are going to replace the carpet in here. I imagine this should give me a really good boost to my immune system and my overall well being. I have not really been in as much of a mood to work a lot of hours the last few days. A slight decrease in energy. Mostly a decrease in motivation. I am not really sure if I just need some time to reset or what the deal is. I am still going to rest on the weekend though, so it is not a big deal. I am going to get up early tomorrow and get some work in though. I need to get a bit caught up and I am going to take off the weekend still even though I did not do a bunch this week. I have been doing the facebook cross listing at least and that has been going great. I am starting to put reading as a priority above doing business work. I do my reading before I work on the business and I am getting a lot more consistent with it now. I am going to be able to crank out books more again I think. I am only reading like 1-3 hours a day, so not really anything crazy. Enough to learn some stuff though. I am having a hard time deciding what I really want to read. I feel an urge to work on a lot of different things. I know that I should try to keep an over arching focus on finances just so I can get closer to being more free in that area. It is starting to go pretty well there though. I just need to work on doubling my income. If I can double my income, then things will be changing really well for me. I really do want to pursue a life purpose still. I do feel a bit of a tug to do yotuube video, but it is one of those things where I am just not sure what I want to do. To be fair I am not really in as much of depressed state from that. I am still building up more and more of what I want in my life. I can tell I probably need to do the reselling to a fairly high level to get the finances well in order. I think with the pandemic it has been such a good opportunity to propel me forward. I have done great this year considering I spent a lot of months working on youtube. I am sure if I could tough out another year I should see a good return on this. Really if I could move out with it that would be the main thing. Being by myself would propel my growth really fast I think. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for Fairly big sale Room is super clean Room layout

I notice how hard it is for me to actually relax. I feel as if I am getting closer to leaving more of the achiever stage/Orange behind. I don't really resonate with a lot of the content and teachings there. Although, there is still useful nuggets in some stuff of course. A lot of the toxic concepts like over working and stuff are starting to not resonate. I actually added a bit of games in today and slept in to get a little recovery. I actually really feel like getting a lot done tomorrow. I think part of my energy issue was possibly from trying to remove some mold. I am going to take more precautions and try to remove everything of it tomorrow. I notice that it is not the end of the world if I enjoy myself with a game or something. I really do want to work hard and get myself closer to financial freedom. I ironically though it will probably be harder if I don't actually relax. Seems to be a constraint at a lot of stages seems to be a similar hang up with a particular kind of behavior. The thing is it is not like I am not going to keep my good habits or have a successful business if I play some games. I do want to keep them to more of a minimum. I am not trying to spend many hours a day doing it. I also don't want to play them every day. I notice it was easier to read a lot more with cutting out a lot of that stuff. To be fair I don't enjoy really much of a vice aside from some stuff like a game lol. Studying the EDT research has opened up a lot of information to me. I can see that I span from the achiever to autonomous. It pairs very well with spiral dynamics, but this seems to have so much more depth with a less text. I am seeing a lot more traps that are present in myself and for what I am going into. I am likely mostly in stage yellow/autonomous given from the information I have read, tests in spiral dynamics book and online. I still have two stages behind me present though and I can see even while reading that I do. I am not so sure that I have much above stage yellow, but one online test suggested I had a little turquoise, likely given that one of my answers was geared towards everything. Of course those tests and what not don't mean a lot. I realize the ego can sneak in and try to get me to believe I am more developed etc. I really seem to resonate with most of the stuff in autonomous/yellow. However, I notice that I lacked a lot of the deeper pieces of a green. Things like intuition and such I am putting more awareness on though. The EDT I think pairs so nicely with spiral dynamics. They are so interconnected, but still not the same. There is different distinctions that each one draws that really opens your eyes. I am excited to finish this research paper soon. I am sure I will be reading it more. I am starting to transition back to paper back books and using them to help me reference and understand the material better. I can tell that my comprehension will be better with the paper back, but I am still going to do some digital too. I think both have their place. I am going to allow myself to have some more recharge days like that. I was just really not feeling it fully today and I have been working so hard lately I just needed to let off the gas a little. I did get several hours of work done and a few hours of reading. So not like I just sat on my ass lol. I just don't need to grind and schedule out every minute of my day. I am sure at a certain point I will get more bored of the games. I actually kind of already am with the one I am playing lol. There is something really satisfying about solving things in the games though. I would wonder how I could get more of this feeling in my every day life. When I read books and stuff I suppose that does give me that. I like making new distinctions. One major trap I can see if how I am so strict etc and bringing that towards working on enlightenment. I think working on softening myself up and being more present will be the best strategy. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for Clean organic apple cider I found. Just in time for thanks giving lol EDT Less stress

@Dingo I would just filter the water. I am sure the water is better where you live, but there is no sense in taking a gamble on what is in the tap water. Even a cheap set up would do you go even if the water is already fairly good. I am sure you would benefit from testing it too. Not much of an expense for peace of mind and good health. @Michael569 I am planning on doing a heavy metal detox in the future. I think it will be worth it to really know what I am consuming and mitigate as much exposure as I can if I am going to go through the process. Of course I will test to see if I need to detox anyway too. We had someone come out and test the tap water I have and it had arsenic and all sorts of shit in it. This the water I will be running through the reverse osmosis system. I will take a look around though and see what else comes up. From what I gathered the free tests are not anymore comprehensive than the cheap ebay one lol.

I need to start finding improvements I can make each week with the reselling if I want to actually make enough money with it. I have been doing really good so far it seems like though. My energy level is great going into it. I feel like I am getting a lot of quality focused work done now. I think this week it will be important for me to try to put some time aside to cross list to facebook. I could spend about 4 hours doing my regular work on it and two hours cross listing it. I am going to work on putting this into action. I think this is going to help me net some extra sales for the holidays. I would like to build up a habit of listing myself. I feel like I need to get to the posters to be able to do that though. I think this would work as a good alternative. I made a lot of little changes last week that are really snowballing into this week. (Edit I am going to spend 1 hours revising old listings and price checking, then one hour cross listing. That will be the most beneficial.) I have been contemplating a lot more about how I am dishonest in ways that benefit my survival. It has been itching at me for awhile. I know a few things that I think I need to work on would be how I negotiate how much space I use with my mom. She gives me a lot of leeway with how much space my business takes. It takes up a fucking lot of space. She also gives me a good deal. I feel like in conversation I am able to leverage it into my favor. I am a much better negotiator and I am very convincing. Probably even a bit manipulative. Not to say that I am terrible with this, but it is something in my awareness. I am going to work on reducing this and giving up things that would hurt my survival. Or paying more money to use the space. Another thing is that I am not always 100% honest with people in my reselling business. I have a small section in my store of stuff that I don't test and I say that the stuff works. I offer a 60 day money back for any reason, but I am sure to someone it can waste a lot of their time and they might really need the item. They might not even return it at all if there was an issue, which is not fair to them. To be fair I never make them return those types of items if I know I did not test them. There are some items that I think would be fine to list them like that without testing them. Some things you can know with a high degree of certainty that it would work. If you take a car head unit for example. Most people remove those to put in an after market stereo, so the likelihood of it working is 95% or better. Now if you said you did not test it you would get half the money. So that is a bit of an issue for my survival. I am going to work on not buying items that I cannot test or spending the extra money for the stuff to test them. I am going to work on revising listings to just saying I did not test it and will offer the 60 day refund for any reason. I am going to give myself a bit of wiggle room with something that I know with a high degree of certainty works, but I am going to avoid doing this. To be fair this would probably cut down on some of my expenses, but not only that it will give all of my customers a better experience. I already feel like I do really well in terms of customer satisfaction, but I should strive to be fully honest. I do also have a good chunk of items I list for parts, and untested. I just need to work on including the more expensive items. I am sure this will save me money and headache anyway in the long run. I am sure I have some self deception around other stuff that I do as a benefit to survival. These two are probably my biggest ones though. I try to be as open and honest as I can in my relationships. It is not at the level I learned about in radical honesty, but pretty good. I am going keep working on this stuff, but even bringing it up here is a good start. Even posting this here I notice subtly that I feel others reading might even think I am dishonest or whatever. I am releasing that. I also feel the need to justify or make excuses for those actions. I won't do that or more of that at least. I want to make this here to improve myself. Not to improve the image of what others think of me. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Great run at the park Good day A little progress daily

I had OCD all through childhood and I am getting to a point where I have a pretty much removed it. If you do a lot of this work it will start to gradually go away. However, I think there is a lot of key things that will help. - Very Strong mediation Habit - The ability to let things go. This is going to require more emotional intelligence. I recommend the sedona method. - Great diet and exercise. - Ability to let things be as they are. Ability to accept the thoughts and not fight them. - Building in awareness into times where you are getting sucked into OCD related habits. For example awareness while washing hangs. - Letting go of the thought that "I have OCD." You are creating and perpetuating the problem. Change that into I Had or I use to have. - Figure out how having OCD Benefits you. Write out the pros and cons of it and really think about it. I have found some stuff like NRP useful. I doubt you are going to find anything worthwhile in modern medicine to help. However, a therapist could be beneficial maybe to some, but I don't think so. It never helped me and to be fair anyone I had talked with usually did not understand the problems well. They will also continually reinforce the idea that you have it in the first place.

I allowed myself to binge on games today. I played probably way too much lol. I had to do a lot of mediation sessions just to be able to play that much. I spent a good chunk of time introspecting and releasing during it. Becoming aware of any compulsive behavior and and my actual feelings of playing. My eyes hurt a bit not to look at the screen. I did not have any issues at all with any compulsive behavior. I also had a realization that a lot of the issues stem from competitive games. I also noticed there was a lot of underlying almost anxiousness and jitteriness/monkey mind playing something like warzone. I downloaded a nostalgic rpg game and noticed I was having a lot more fun doing that. I still have a bit of a feeling that I am wasting my time etc. I thought about how much I could be getting by reading books instead etc. I realize that a lot of this is probably coming from a more blue/orange toxic mind set that I have created around discipline and habits. Granted, I want to read more. I love reading and the benefits I get from it. It isn't the same as having some time to just blow off some steam. I seriously think this gave me a pretty major break through in my feelings and the thought of OCD having control. I have been leaving OCD in the past a lot more. Also, the idea of playing a game right now makes me feel sick lol. I notice that I really like the aspect of solving and strategy in games. Being able to place something at a high difficulty allows me to have to really think about it more. I think there could be a way for me to turn the games into a way for me to develop more of a strategic mind set. I feel like I would not enjoy puzzle games, but I could give it a try too. I am still gong to work on adding things fun to do that I can relax with. I think photoshop could be something fun to work on and play with. I finally ordered myself some painting canvases too because I thought of it while writing this that I need to. I am going to keep investing in myself in any way that I can. I feel like I have cheaped out on too much stuff. I spend a large majority of every single day in a routine. My entire days are compiled of habits etc. I believe that I have created a lot of stress on myself by not just having some time to fuck off honestly. Granted, I am getting a lot of stuff done this is likely hurting my performance overall. I am going to keep practicing self love. I know that it would actually be more healthy for me to just have some actual time off to do something. Not like a day of no electronics and just meditation. I of course want to find some other stuff to mix it. I don't really have any local friends that I hang out with and it isn't really the season for hiking. I prefer hiking with a friend if I can, but that has not happened for awhile. I don't really enjoy movies much, but I will work on making a list of things I want to do. Maybe compile some educational documentaries or something too. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for Deus Ex Meditation Sedona method

Had a good trip to the beach today. I noticed I am able to be mindful throughout the day much easier. I did not get thrown off nearly that much today. I am working on trying to reduce any stress in my life as much as possible. I want to work hard of course, but not in a way that is damaging to me. I want to avoid over doing it in all areas if I can. I don't think of myself as that stressed, but life has a lot of stressing varibles that happen all the time. I found quite a bit of black mold building up in my window. I knew there was some, but definitely not nearly as much as I found. I did a major deep cleaning on my room today and I can tell the air quality is way better in here. I am sure that mold has been causing me all sorts of issues. I am glad that I have been running the air filter every day though. I still need to get into the window a bit better as some of the spots are hard to reach, but I got almost all of it. I am likely going to bring a dehumidifier in here soon too. I am working on getting my room much less crowded if I can as well. I am going to work on keeping this habit of regularly deep cleaning this. I know there is a good correlation with health and a clean environment. Going to do a little gaming tomorrow after a good break. I am going make sure I release while I play. I am going to work on getting a better read for how I feel while doing it too. I think it could be a good break occasionally, but I don't want it to jumble my mindfulness. I think I can obtain that with a good balance and more introspection while playing. I have really been kicking some ass in all facets lately. My reselling business is starting to do phenomenal. I am making good spiritual gains, health gains, etc. I feel really good all around. I would like to be able to step it up on the reading though. I feel like the reading is the key to making a lot of progress. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today I am thankful for: Beach Finally getting some sun Clean room

Had an awesome night walk at the park and got to contemplate. That was an amazing experience. It really allowed me to relax after a long day. I have really been putting in the work lately. I got a bunch of harder items shipped today. I have been building up a large stream of items getting ready to picture them. I would guess it will be about 30 big ticket items coming up at least. I was having a guy pick up some speakers for shipping today and he mentioned these police auctions. I found a place I could source large surplus police/government lots. I will have to dig into it more, but this would step me up to the next level for sure. Some people should be moving out of the house I live at soon, so that should really free up the environment. It should eliminate a majority of the hostility. It has definitely be a test to me growth with interacting with them, but it has helped me a lot. I imagine I will feel much more free here now. I have been thinking a lot of about building the youtube. I will start working on more of a plan after Christmas. I would like to try to take a week break after Christmas and contemplate it a lot more. I am feeling a lot more confident with going that route or at least committing a good amount of years to it. I am still doing some tests with the toast masters group too. I really enjoyed the photoshop the other day. I feel like doing some of that for fun, so it definitely is enjoyable. I would like to be able to look back on my life and feel like I made a change. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Awesome walk Good sales Good idea

@fridjonk lol, I can imagine. Now that you mention it like 4 hours went by like nothing with music for me last time.

Sounds like quite the experience. I have never really watched much in a trip. Music on LSD is incredible for me though. I might have to try out some of those practices you mentioned in a trip.

I have not cooked with oil in a few years. I think it is a huge misconception by most that that oils are needed. Even oven baking and stuff has never been an issue. It is slightly annoying if something gets stuck to a pan, but it works fine. I actually had a point where I eliminated all oils entirely and it was not an issue. Even making things like sweet potato fries it is not needed at all. I cook on glass in the oven typically too. @Michael569 What do you think about coconut oil without cooking it? I have some in my vitamin D. I considered changing what I have anyway, but I choose coconut oil as I figured it was one of the better. I see them with extra virgin olive oil too. I use it for my skins as well if it is dry. @Eren Eeager The only oil I have is flaxseed oil and and algae oil. Super small amount of cocnut oil in my vitamin D I seem to like it quite a bit so far.