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Getting a lot of value out of my toastmaster group lately it seems like. I can really see how much I am improving. I am going to start working on doing a lot more deliberate practice with speaking. I need to really analyze my speeches and see how I can improve the best. I want to build more of this into a routine. I am starting to get more into helping the group as well. I am going to be doing the video editing and stuff for marketing. I am going to practice getting new members in and see how I can do. I can use these to build up some video editing skills. I am getting more drawn to building a life purpose around self help stuff. I guess a big issue that I think of is that I am not sure how I can even make it much different than the others I see. I would really want to make something that can be really potent and effective techniques. I guess I have not narrowed down a niche either. I mostly feel like just doing speeches on the concepts of stuff I learn about. I guess that would be a good start. I am starting to get more serious on the commitment of gear. This pc is going to be worth like $1,000 easily. If I get the other gear I want a good bit more. I think it would be worth it though if this is the route I want to do. I would want to work on getting closer to training 5 hours a day. I am still doing the reselling. It's been fucking hard to get my motivation fully up lately, but I got like 4 hours of good work in on it today. It will take a minute. I am not sure why I have so much resistance to the posters, but my goal is to list 5 of them tomorrow no matter what. I am going to get it done. I know I just need to break the ice on this and get the ball rolling. I have everything clean now too so I can access it easier. I broke a $600-$1,000 TV today while I was carrying it. The back just caved in. Made me quite down for a bit, but I am well over it. Just sucks that I invested all that time cleaning it and prepping it. I got it for free. I could probably still get like $300 or more in parts, but I am going to put it in the trash. It isn't worth shipping to me anymore. My wrists hurt pretty bad. I need to analyze how I am using them more. I don't even game that much or anything, so it seems unreasonable for them to be this weak. Today, I am thankful for: Working things out with my friend Great book Toastmasters

I have really been slacking offing I feel like. I am at least doing a bit at a time to get back into routine. I am getting up at 5am everyday right now again, which is amazing. I feel so good getting up at that time. It allows me to have so much more time to get things done. I am building a really powerful schedule. I am studying a lot of stuff for life purpose right now. I am working on building a lot of time into reading books again. I am just slowly ramping myself up, but I am starting to tear through books a bit again, but this time learning them much better. I am going to practice giving speeches on them in toastmasters too. The pc thing has been taking up a lot of my time and energy for sure. I had to learn quite a bit to figure this out. I am lucky I got the stuff I did too. The cpu sucks ass. But I have a 9th gen i7 set up I can use. I am selling that graphics card for $500 though for more liquidity. I don't really need to play ware zone right now and this would probably do what I need it to do for the time being. Plus I picked up a different version of deus ex from like 2011 and it kicks ass so far. I am really impressed. There is a lot this could play that would still be a lot of fun. Pretty sure it could edit videos and stuff fine too. The other set up will blow this out of the water though. I am just going to wait for gpu prices to come down more. I am 100% allergic to peanut butter. I tried one spoon full today and my symptoms came right back. That probably has caused me so much suffering over the years lmao. I stopped eating it for a couple years too without much thought. Too bad it was pretty tasty too. I notice I have a slight addiction to shopping for items to flip. Seems more compulsive. I am going to streamline the process and not get too deep in it. I did this before last time I was into it. It's getting me some good stuff for sure, but I need to cool it on time wasted and stick to my limits on screen time and periods of time to go on. Seems like the weekends are the best for it too. I almost had a $500 graphics card for $100 today too! I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Stimulus possibly coming Feeling optimistic about money Appreciative

@diamondpenguin The listing is the total value of stuff I have listed at a time. I don't do shopify. I use list perfectly and list to eBay, Merari, Facebook, Depop, and Etsy. I have like 2 items on Amazon too. Thanks for reading!

@diamondpenguin Marektplace is super easy. I mostly ship on there, but that is probably one of the easiest and most potent platforms for selling. All depends on what categories you well in too. I sell a lot of older vintage items and a lot of the buyers on there are older adults that like that stuff. It actually rivals my ebay sales pretty well. I actually have a local order on there this morning. I would advise only meeting people less than 5 minutes from where you live. Easy to do contactless orders too. I just have them see the item in the back of my suv with it open and they can set the money in there if they want it. I don't share to all of my buy and sell groups always, but I always set for local pick up and shipping on all items. It's also a great site for sourcing your inventory as well.

The computer came in and I am impressed. All of these parts would have cost me about $600 to buy used separate, so this worked out good. It will be fun to try it out on some games sometime this weekend. I have really been going hard with the extra capital I have coming in and using it to buy things online right now. I am going to work on building a system and a habit of finding something that makes me $100 of profit a day after fees and shipping online. This can be part of my routine and it is pretty fun. The packaging that comes in is amazing too as it cuts out the time I would need to find odd shaped boxes for random large items. My pc came today with literally a box that was like 3X too big, but completely full of free packing material lol. My mood is really starting to uplift and I am feeling really grounded lately. I think that most of the effects from LSD have worse off now from doing it 3 months ago lol. Hopefully this can continue until I decide to do it again. I am in no rush and I don't have any anyways. I can see the need to really get work done aside from doing that. I really throws me around a lot from taking it. Major benefits though and massive improvments in my overall quality of life it seems like. The changes and things that I get from doing it are well worth it. I think I should aim to just do it more as the time feels right. Hard to believe that I am going to turn 25 this weekend. I have been kind of forgetting that it is my birthday. Honestly, the older I get it just becomes another day. I don't have any local friends or anything for the most part. I have been hanging out with the one friend a little, but he is not going to hang out if he knew most likely (maybe). I suppose I would need to invite him if that were the case. I should probably stay home though anyway. A hike would be kind of cool, but I think I am going to be doing some of those fairly soon in the snow. Strange to reflect on how far and how much this experience has changed. I should really make sure that I value this time period in my life and make the most of it. I am getting closer and closer to closing in on a life purpose. Working on a myself in every way that I can. Getting this most I can out of this experience. I am pretty sure I want to incorporate a good amount of reading into my LP. That is something that I enjoy a lot. I was reflecting on that quite a bit this week and that seems to be something I love that would be a well fitting piece to the puzzle. I allow myself to reaching listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Getting ears cleaned Getting doctors stuff done Really nice PC!

@fridjonk I do a lot of buying from other sellers right now. If you can spot items well you can just have them ship it right to you and make a good profit once you ship them out. Have to know what you are looking for though. The main thing I have a problem with is the reliability and quality of people. I can see instances where I could easily sell a product marked up really high and just buy it from people cheaper on platforms. I just don't like the risk of them canceling orders, or being low quality sellers.

@DocWatts This one right now just gives me some great nostalgia. Surprisingly holds up very well in 2020. I will have to check that out sometime if I am looking for some more.

I would start with ebay, mercari, or facebook to get going. You can get free items and learn how to sell them and get some capital. You would need to package and ship yourself, but this would be a good route. You can do FBA book scanning or something like that pretty cheap and easy. A lot of competition in that market though. I do merchant fulfilled for the stuff I do. Not as big on Amazon, but I might do more media there in the future. You can set your Amazon to start by paying the $1 per item until you get enough inventory to justify doing more. $1500 to start is a joke. You can scrounge together free stuff and sell it on facebook to get some cash going if you are serious. I have got plenty of free items that I sold for hundreds of dollars. I was mowing my neighbors lawn and completely stopped my last business to scrounge together enough money to get it off the ground. A year later I probably have close to $100,000 worth of inventory on hand. You mentioned in a post that you live in Oregon. You literally live in one of the best possible states to get inventory in. Anything about not being able to or needing a lot of money is just an excuse.

I wasn't really blown away by the gameplay I was seeing. I am probably going to stick with Deus Ex 2000.

I would work on doing a lot of grounding practices and to a point where you are not bothered negatively by it. LSD for me will spike it up, but I notice that I am more grounded a few months after taking it. I feel like a good chunk of it the mind constructs. Just thinking about having that or saying I have that seems to "activate it" more. I would work on removing that thought from your mind more and more. Meditation helps a lot and releasing techniques help a lot too. I would work on reducing any depression or anxiety as well. Cutting out stuff like caffeine helps a lot. Diet and exercise are a massive help. Also, quit smoking weed if you do. This will hinder your progress with it greatly.

I found a company that could supply me with 18,000 dvds delivered to my house for $1,800. I am really pondering growing the dvd category of my business and working more on the wholesale aspects of it. If I am correct and these ones are not picked through it could be a really good niche for me to max out and specialize mostly in. This would allow me to start scaling my business really fast if I were to focus in on something like this. I am still laying the ground work right now, but I am going to keep this in mind. I am going to work on getting my 4,000 dvds again soon and building up businesses that I can supply with them. I am really starting to have some amazing insights into life purpose and things I want to do. I am still playing around a lot with what I am doing and it just seems great. These books are amazing that I am reading lately and it is bringing and abundance of insight to me. I have a lot of things to think about going forward. I have a good amount of things that I need to discover and figure out still. I can tell these books are full of so many juicy insights. I am working a lot of being able to retain the information better. I am starting to do toastmaster speeches on the books right now too. I am starting to feel so much better right now. I am feeling so much more full of energy it is crazy. I feel a lot more grounded and just good overall. It seems like I am going back into a much more pleasant state. I can tell my energy is not back fully and I am susceptible to becoming sick again it feels like. I do notice the longer I am away from the peanut butter it seems like I am feeling a lot better. I thought about it now since I had the bread. I actually introduced peanut butter into my diet at the same time. That is why I thought bread was making me feel like crap if I ate it once a month. I was progressively adding more peanut butter into other things with it. Strange how things like that work. It is good that I have such a regulated diet. I was able to solve this myself without even getting testing. I think I will still get allergy testing though if I can. Seems like a really viable way for me to get more knowledge of myself to improve my health. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Got big TV fully ready to list. Made a lot of progress cleaning the shed. Having a lot of good conversations with my friend.

I would prefer a company that is trading under 20 times earnings, profitable, good management, more assets than debt, and preferably in some sort of short term distress. I like to have a few companies in my roth IRA and accompany that with the S&P 500. So far I am doing really good out performing the S&P, but we are in a bull market. I prefer to do a bit of research, find a company I really want, then just invest in that. It requires me to not really have to stay up to date with it or think about it much. I enjoy reading an article on the companies every now and then. Mostly you want to listen to the earnings call, or read the transcript. You don't really need to know that much else. It really comes down to how much time and energy you want to invest into it. Investing is very lucrative if you are good at it, but most are not. Most people would make more just investing into the S&P 500. I enjoy learning about companies and how they operate, then being able to draw a conclusion on their future condition. A good place to look would be in the stocks the most % down for a given time period, then picking through those.

Feels like I am starting to get back on track with where I was now in terms of energy and mood. I think the peanut butter does have an effect for sure. I did not eat it today and I have not had any itching issues or the massive fatigue. I still hit some fatigue mid day that is settled with meditation, but overall I don't think that is as large of a concern. One thing I notice is I really just fuck around on the internet or waste a shit load of time it seems like lately. I seem to have build up this habit of doing this crap and it really doesn't even feel good. It really messes up my energy early in the day. I think what I want to do is give myself a longer period before I check on the internet. I should check offers on my phone an hour after I get up, but I need to limit it to just that. I think I want to aim to check on that stuff around 10pm at a beak. I bet that my performance would dramatically increase just by doing that. I would much rather get some time back to play a game or read a book if anything. I am blowing it on total bullshit at certain points of the day. I did actually feel in flow a bit today while picturing items. That has not happened in a few weeks it seems like. I was so overloaded with how I felt. It seemed like I was just feeling really sluggish. I am not really feeling sick or anything now too. I am glad that I really gave myself a good amount of time to rest and heal this weekend. I need to keep that as a higher priority. I still should give myself a week off sometime soon. It would be cool to actually do a meditation retreat at some point too. I notice I have lost a bit of the habit of letting go, but some of it is automatic now too, so it is starting to work good. I am feeling up to working on it again. I think the course was dumped free on yotube plus I bought it lol. So I am going to work through the one on youtube, then see if this is the same. It really does feel good to have the habit of releasing going. I felt so good while I was working heavily on it. I think I am going to work on reading some work by Dale and Lester next. I think that would be a good read to go with. I am starting to think my life purpose should kind of feel like a hobby. From what I watch with other people I should really feel just compelled to do it. It should feel like something more interesting, than playing a game and stuff. Although, I can see the need to play some games a bit I think there is something much more deeper and fulfilling out there for me. I am still feeling the desire a bit to do the yotuube again. I think this PC would be amazing to work on videos with there too. I think I would be less frustrated with that. I think I might just do them really casually and just see how it feels. I don't think I need to just aim for success or something. I just want to create something good. I like the idea of helping people be more happy and not hurting others. I think this can be done simply by improving yourself. I feel like knowing that there is a little less evil going on in the world would make feel good. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Feeling better Pc stuff is shipped Resetting bed time

@Craigxt22 No problem. Check out some videos on it and look at what it takes. Yeah, the RO system is about the same as the Berkey depending on size/model. I would only consider the Berkey for something like camping maybe.

I think there is a good chance that I might be allergic to peanut butter. I am going to do some testing with this and see how it goes. The water fast seemed to help me snap out of my sickness for the most part. My energy is starting to come back online it seems like. I really messed up my sleeping schedule right now it seems like though. I am going to tough it out in the morning and get up early. I seemed to have got really lucky today and was able to order a bunch of nice used pc stuff for really cheap. I am going to be able to resell the higher end new parts that are coming and I could be able to double my money from $300 to $600 after fees and expenses. This does take a drain on the money I have on hand, which is a con to sourcing stuff like that. I was also able to find a nice gaming pc for $240 shipped. It did not have a full list of parts, but two parts on it were worth the asking price of the whole set up. The graphics card on it is about 3 years old and it is not the best one for sure, but it blows away the laptop I have right now. If this pans out and they send it will be a big upgrade for me to have for my business. If I do intend to get back into video editing, photoshop etc it will be awesome. I can game and stuff on it too. Let's be real though for right now the gaming sounds good, but this will be a really nice set up. I am thinking I want to do the video editing and stuff though and the laptop is not cutting it as much. I should actually be able to sell this laptop for close to $500 I think from the comps I had seen before. Maybe like $350-$500. I will come out ahead on that for sure. It makes sense to just upgrade it now. I am so glad that I waited to build a pc or anything. I hope it pans out. I am excited to see this stuff come in the mail. It is interesting that my mood uplifts so much over just some hardware and stuff. It is a nice come up for sure, but it seems to get me on edge emotionally a bit. I notice that I feel a bit more compulsive maybe? Maybe that is just excitement I am not sure. I guess I should not really shame myself for feeling like that. A few hundred dollars is not really that big of a deal, but it is cool to get something that I have wanted for awhile. I have wanted a nice PC for years. I just would never justify investing $500+ on a nice set up. I had the thought too that it isn't really good or bad too. The pick up in mood is nice and everything though. If anything it could be bad I suppose if I played more games. I think there is a good healthy balance with it though. It isn't going to get me to play it anymore realistically. I don't feel satisfied playing games for maybe more than a couple hours. I like having a good mix of reading etc. Mostly just a bit of games on the weekend. Plus once I start getting some more activities going and a LP I am sure it won't take up too much. Starting to feel a lot more charged up and ready to dig into reselling again tomorrow. I need to kcik it into gear and really pump out listings the rest of this 4th quarter. I am glad that I have been easy on myself and allowed myself to heal well. I allow myself to effortlessly reach listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Potential PC buys. Mood uplifting Might have found allergy cause

Honestly, I owned one for 11 months and it is a huge pile of shit. It broke within 11 months on it's top filter. The quality of water coming from it just from how it looks is not even close to the quality my reverse osmosis system is doing. The berkey was producing hard water and the reverse osmosis system is producing soft water from the same source. If you notice most of the reviews on youtube are by someone who sells the berkey. You are going to waste a ton of time filling it up every day. The quality is not that good, even if the reviews say it is good. It will not even close to a 6 stage system in terms of taste and purity. https://www.amazon.com/APEC-Certified-Alkaline-Water-RO-PH90/dp/B00SGGT14Q/ref=sr_1_3?dchild=1&keywords=RO-PH90&qid=1607881947&sr=8-3 I went with this system. It has been really good so far. Install took me about 2 hours without any plumbing experience. A few leaks showed up from the hoses needed to be trimmed. I guess you need to just clip a little off and it stops that. If the commitment of time is stopping you, this will actually save you a lot of time and energy vs a berkey. It is such a massive convenience to just get some water. If for some reason you cannot drill or something, then they do have counter top versions of this. I compared a lot of systems and the main reason I went with this is the fact it seemed to have the best chance of not leaking. The tubes are food grade on it. I did not see anything about it being BPA free, but they use a similar chemical in the plastic if BPA is not there. Just follow the instructions and it is really not that hard. I could install one of these in 30 minutes probably now.

I decided to do a water fast. I am about 26 hours into it. I am going to end it in the morning. I am curious to see if my itching will be greatly reduced from doing this. I think so far it has been. I think that would suggest that something that I am eating is causing the itching. I can try to space out my meals and see, when it will reappear. I cannot say it is fully gone right now though, so hard to say. I also wanted to kick start me feeling better and so far I did not hit any major fatigue today like I was from being sick. I feel like I have less energy obviously from not eating. I have been wanting to do one of these again for a bit, so I think the timing has been right. I got some actual sun today for about am hour. I did quite a bit of reading too. I stopped reading as much once I started feeling more fatigued though. I cleaned up my room again, which I am making into a habit. I pretty much spent the rest of the day playing video games and meditating since my focus is not as good. Was a good day to relax and heal. I am hoping that I will have overcome being sick fully tomorrow. I would like to do some work on the life purpose course and a good amount of reading. Some of the stuff I have been reading has just been fantastic lately. It is giving me a lot to think about with my life purpose. It has really helped me so far put some awareness on authentic and inauthentic desires lately. I have a good amount to think about still. Of course there has been more to consider in just how I live and what I do with my time. I still ponder the game thing a bit, but I think some time to play is fine. I can see myself building more into wanting to read, but I think I just need more hobbies. I have my paint brushes coming, so I am going to try that. I actually am going to go hiking again soon too, so I am excited about that. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: Sun! Reading Relaxing time

I would work to build your life around activities that you enjoy. Your life purpose will be one of them. Finding activities that you can challenge yourself, be creative, and work on ever increasing challenges is a good way to enjoy life. I don't think it is really one thing or the other. I think you should full your life with as many things that you enjoy and what brings you the most happiness. Life purpose is not just about chaining yourself to a ball and never doing anything else you would enjoy. To be fair you have the opposite problem of most people. Most spend their time watching TV and crap like that. Mastery in general is something that makes life enjoyable all around. You don't have to be only mastering one specific thing. All of life is one mastery project. Honing in on a couple thing swill help a lot though.

I talked with my sister and it seemed like she was sick with similar symptoms for a couple weeks. So I don't know how much of it was ego backlash or depression. I think I have just been sick. I notice I am at like 50% energy levels sometimes, but I feel okay overall. I am going to work on getting allergy testing, stomach enhancement protocol, getting tooth repaired, and maybe some blood work if I can. I was happy to have a good chunk of earwax come out of the ear that has been ringing a lot. It seems like that issue is starting to go well. I am going to work on nailing down a few of these health things. I think this is going to really help me. I am really starting to enjoy and get into reading again. I even felt good playing a video game and talking to a friend last night. So it seems like I was just having a bit of a depression in that sense to how I felt doing that stuff. I feel a good bit better. I am quite itchy again though, so there has to be some sort of allergy that I can try to eliminate. I am hoping to get back on top of wanting to work on my reselling business a lot harder, but I am going to give myself time to recover and get back to the level that I was at. I am going to keep pace though and keep adding items and improvements as I can. Things are going pretty well. Sales are slowing down a bit though. Not too big of deal since I have been saving up money. It has really been helpful taking with my friend and exploring limitations that I have. I have a problem with being submissive in relationships to people. I have let people walk all over me in a lot of ways. I can tell this is something I have developed from being abused for many years. I don't think the problem is terrible right now, but it is definitely an issue that I have. I need to really give myself time to think before I agree to do anything for anyone. I am going to work on setting more boundaries and not trying to people please as much. I actually had a super deep conversation with my friend last night. It is so interesting what you can do with a deep friendship like that. I was afraid to say what I said, but they took it very well and it seemed to give both of us some clearer perspectives of each other. I would like to start setting more time during the week and weekend to work on the life purpose course. I am not going to rush right into making videos or anything right now. I am going to explore what I really want deeper. I am reading the books again and I am excited to be studying them. I am going to keep improving myself and working on building my income higher. I think that I am going to be able to start putting myself in the right direction much sooner. I just need to keep chipping away at the stuff I know I need to do. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: More energy Getting things cleaned and done Feeling more positive

Feels like I am getting back on track today. Toastmasters went great, business was good, and I seemed to get a lot done. I feel like I am starting to get more back in motion again with how I was. I am really starting to enjoy reading again, which is awesome. It feels so good and rewarding to pick up a good book. That and I just enjoy an interesting read all around. I have not really been doing my core workout at all. I am still jogging often and doing the bike machine at home though. I don't really enjoy the other stuff as much I think is part of it, but I should push myself more with workouts every now and then. I do pretty light jogs and just enjoy it mostly right now. I think it is a lot better than how I use to do it for sure and I have a lot more energy during the day. I want to build out the goal this year to really start to reach a good amount of financial independence. I don't want to do anymore of this bullshit of living at home with my mom. It's nice here and everything. I like my rooms and the business space is awesome. I just want to be able to create something myself. I feel like this has made me lazier, than if I just had my own place. I want to have a business full time and this really assists with that, but I need to take the training wheels off at some point. I want to be able to pursue a life purpose as well. I have been working at this mostly as the main theme anyway, but I really want to make this shit happen. I am working on selling on my stuff I don't need and going to really work on maximizing the reselling business as much as I can. I am still working on saying no. I have a guy wanting me to do a photoshop project for him for free and I don't want to. I just did a video editing project that I was pretty reluctant to do. I am not going to be on call to do this every other week. I did say I would do some of that stuff, but I am not doing that shit that often. I have a lot of other stuff going on in my life. I honestly don't want anything in return and I really just don't want to do it. Don't get me wrong a project every now and then to test some skills is cool, but not the next week I am not doing all of stuff. I need to really set a boundary with people. Most people I interact with are not like that to push on something like that and especially to set a deadline for some shit I am doing for free. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for: A little bit of sun Good reading session Feeling better

Just because 5meo was the last thing he did doesn't make it the cause. Sounds like he had a large cocktail of drugs going. Not to mention she might not even have known if he took anything else or if he redosed anything. Quality and quantity play a huge factor. That and drinking on top of all of that just seems extreme. Seems illogical to even go to a DMT forum assuming DMT is the culprit. Rest in peace.

I would not do a long fast like that without some sort of supervision. I would do maybe 24-48 hours of water fasting and call it good. I think a fast here and there can really help recharge the system. I actually might do one again here soon as I have not done one in awhile.

I am fairly depressed lately it seems like. It feels like I am in a state of apathy fairly often. I did try to do some work today and it was kind of just a wasted day. I did make a little progress though. I did get what I needed to do done. Now I am just reading. I skipped working out and just kind of blew off the day it seemed like. Spent a lot of time just looking at the internet and not feeling that great. I am alright with it though. I need to get through this state in order to get back a more balanced state. I think it is due to LSD still a few months ago, but probably just a lot of burnout. I think I don't really give myself much credit for the amount of stuff I do. I guess a big part of that is I just feel like I have not really acquired the material rewards to show for it much with my business. It seems like all to often I have just enough money to get by and sometimes a bit more. Right now I am making pretty good money, but it is the best time of the year for reselling. To be fair even then I don't feel like I am even selling that much compared to what I am really capable of. I felt like spending a good chunk of the day just sleeping it seemed like. After a mediation session that is all that really sounded good. Or just being in a meditative state. Reading feels pretty good right now too. I am going to work on build more things into my life that make me happy and produce flow more. I notice that I am rarely bothered to do toast masters, so I can see that is one thing that I get a lot of enjoyment out of. It is nice to be able to train speaking skills and keep focus. I want to expand that to more of my pass time though too. I notice my brain feels great while reading books. I don't really get much satisfaction playing games now. It seems like that burst of wanting to play (probably from not playing for a year) has pretty much went away. I get a nagging feeling like I should do something more productive while I am playing. It is hard to just let myself enjoy something like that anymore. I guess it might just be that I don't enjoy it as much though. I just realized how many months in a row I have missed the club meeting for toast masters. I have so much to think about and do I just totally forget about it. I mean I am still doing the role. I am actually getting some cool stuff done for it. Just surprises me that no one says anything about it. I would imagine that I seem fairly flakey to some of those people in those groups. I am trying to commit to less and less stuff. To be fair there is no one even there to take that role if I did not, so I assume they are just taking what they can get for it. To be fair I could share my idea in a couple minutes and an hour meeting talking about the club is a waste of time. I did actually give my idea to the group in a couple minutes for an improvement. I work on the marketing for both of the clubs I am in. I have totally half assed my effort on it for awhile. To be fair I don't think anyone in those really cares much either, but my ideas are really good. I am rolling out some really good video footage for advertising and might even do some video editing. I was probably going to use it to train skills I would use to make videos and stuff. I allow myself to effortlessly reach my listing goal of $50,000. Today, I am thankful for Supportive friend Book Feeling a bit better right now

@fridjonk Yeah, I am having a good amount of inner conflict over it. I need to max out income for a bit and get to a place where I am ready to move onto the next thing. I am still training my skills and though and doing a lot of personal development. I have been struggling a bit with energy towards this business right now. Feels like an extended break is needed soon.

@fridjonk It's good. I like shipping stuff quite a bit and just giving people a good experience. It mostly satisfies my survival right now, but ideally I want to create something that contributes more. This just meets a material need for people. While it is not really harmful it isn't as creative or helpful as I would like. It also doesn't make me huge sums of money right now either lol. It can scale well for sure though. I am sure I could make more money being more creative and making a bigger contribution. There isn't anything too special with this type of business I have. It is one of those things that scales and can profit though. I have no doubt if I kept at it I could make $100,000 a year if I keep working at it longer.