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Had a bit of an issue I was not sure of what to do... I wanted to express something that I felt society ect feels is taboo. however other are easily offended. How do I express my free will in a considerate way?? Or should i just not worry about the haters..?? I guess there will always be people who cant handel the truth of what oyour saying or try and sensor you , and restrict your point of view.. I had always felt I had to withhold my feelings and supress them. I know now not to but how do I express them without offendingf or disrespecting ?? I am just not sure.. I really dont understand disrespect from this perspective. i would think if you expressed from a loving creative way you cant disrespect others.

I think I have been using an opt out method whereas I should probably have an opt in method.. I dont think I should exspress my view to anyone.. I should just express myself outwards. but I should be conscious of who is around and keep my views to myself.. somehow I need to figure out how to find supporters in a neutral way. say for instance. bringing out a new product.. If people would like more then they can ask. Its a matter of testing asnd calibrating to audience?? calibrating is quickly becoming a rather important value to me..

@shouldnt Its not that I care for there view or opinion of me . I care about there right to have there own view .. I have no problem accepting others I guess sometimes i need to be more conscious of what does affect others and what does not... hard to do sometimes if you dont understand or know all the people around you.. i.e. wearing a shirt can offend some people..

@Clay Curl @Draconis Chaser Just thought of some more examples.. for instance I feel so happy sometimes I want to go up to people and say hi and give them a hug.. Or I just want to feel really happy and be really joyful around people who are sad Or I want to help people who think everything in the world is against them that its ok and they are actually in control of everything.. There are plenty of ways that I want to express myself but Those who are asleep would actually just get annoyed and offended or insulted.. Someone even mentioned that I was acting weird.. for being joyfull and happy.. How is that weird..??? Ok its not like I was a year ago, but its better than being all depressed and sad... hmmmm

Last week I had really hit some content hard and spent another two nights really working hard to get a hold of my life purpose.. I did not get very far with the self purpose but something got me really pumped.. I somehow stumbled onto an idea that there is only change in the experience. even if we stand still there is change. IOt may be inperceptible but it is always there and it is always going.. this followed onto the realisation that there is no such things as up down positive or negative forwards or backwards. there is only change.. The epiphany was that we had the power to be conscious of this change and to work with it or fight it.. tyo work with it all we had to do was to keep doing things differently and really appreciate that any slight change can reveal great fullness to life.. I became very grateful of the change that happens all the time all around us.. its kinda like the universe is always feeding us with continual opportunities for improving or not.. Nothing was right.. nothing was wrong and I could go anywhere I liked.. this flowed over into my weekend and peak one night when I was expressing this to a friend I learn this stuff with.. I was so pumped and rattled for ages to him and he got fairly pumped to.. I felt like energy was flowing out of me at one stage there.. it was pretty energetic.. After that peak It made me feel pretty comfortable with who I was and I was pretty keen to show the world that I was happy with who I was .. a couple of days after that I have fallen somewhat asleep again and feel that some of those around me have been commenting on my actions and saying that it was pretty weird.. So I have been working hard trying to understand how to best the best me without involving anyone else.. I dont want to tell the world so much.. I would just rather be the best me I can be and fuck everybody else.. But I want to do it in a respectful and graceful way.. I dont want to feel like I have learnt something everyone should learn.. i think on some level it sort of sprouts that I am better than them.. And I know I am not.. So my goal for the next week is to work out how to take the experiences I am having and to let them enrich my life without it disrespecting people who choose to live there lives in a particular way.. i.e. some people just dont want help from me.. they dont want to be happy they also may not want to see me be happy as it makes them feel shit about them,selves..

Today after some more self Inquiry. definately feeling like head is spinning somewhat.. Went over a couple of my comments from yesterday even and it seems to be a very fluid flux. I am somewhat confused about what I am trying to do here now. I thought it was to be the best I can be and live a life with more purpose and passion. However

@Clay Curl @Draconis Chaser Thankyou both for your view points.. One thing came to mind when reading your replies.. I have to think carefully about why ity is so important as to why I need to express my self in the first place.. I guess i want freedom to be who i want.. Also I felt I wanted to stand in the face of society pressure and send a message that I am me... this is me. I have a fear that I cant be me because others wont accept me.. Part of me was also trying to see who would support me and see who the haters where.. Lastly I wanted to send a message that I was ok with who I was and that its ok for others to be that way too.. I want to encourage people to be who they are and maybe try and inspire people to be less judgemental and more unconditional.. I did not want it to come off as me telling the world how to live or force a particular view point but I think that's how some people took it.. I am Glad I stood up and voiced myself. It was definitely a learning experience..... Has anyone else felt like they wanted to stand up in front of peers and let the world know who they where?? how did it go for you. did it go well?? What would you have done different??

Just noticed today that I cant put my finger on my passion in life.. I have started Leos life purpose course and still working way through that. But for some reason I feel these days I have no passion. also i feel I am unsure of my fears.. I document things I watch a tonne of content I try to capture thoughts and ideas, I even practice several times daily trying to experience at some level my true self. Probably the only thing that is growing for me is my feeling that I dont get it.. I am not sure what I am, I am not sure if I am going in the right direction. I thought I would at least have more passion. Also I have just started noticing that I have this feeling that allot of other normal people who I imagine are not doing this actualizing work are just better than me somehow. Which is a bit of a worry.. I feel as though so many people are doing better than me in life in general without all this introspective work.. I am trying to justify it by saying that I am growing on the inside, But that is not helping at all.. hmm I imagined the more I focused on breaking down my ego and the more i concentrated on erasing misconceptions about my physical reality, the clearer i would get.. I guess not.. Does anybody else have this same type of feeling??

I would think that someone like Elon Musk , is an inspiration to living a grand purpose in life.. From what my limited knowledge is of him he sat down and decided when he was in his early years about what things would make the most change in the world. My quandary is how would I go about doing this for me, or should I not bother and just focus on my self actualization? I am currently working through Leo Life purpose exercises, But I am also trying to take in day to day learnings from multiple other sources and also keeping track of any issue that may come up and or I might want to have answered. And work and live at the same time.. I think I may be getting confused today..

Not quite sure how to handle all the responses here.. Firstly thankyou..!! All your perspective made me instantly explode and force me to rethink. So far I have. I agree Elon has some fantastic attributes but as a whole there may be some downsides.. To me he has allot of great passion but I do feel uncomfortable , that maybe some of his drive maybe coming from a place of fear rather than joy.. I.E. fear of AI.. Kinda feels like he has the same fear in him as darth vader.. best intentions but may end up being harmfull.. so is he happy Maybe , I dont know will it come back to bite him in the ass, possibly.. But he is, a massive warrior, just hope his foundations are there.. plenty to learn from .. would I like to be him..? In some respects.. certainly not for the money or power or the toys. however you want to label him he is an agent for change and growth.. I dont know if we need to many more of him but I think his presence is a great opportunity for us to learn allot and grow allot.. Thanks for any input.!!

So using my mind constructively and consciously. ?? I am pretty cautious at using the word contructively.. It implies I have any clue on what will be benefitial for me in the long run.. PS i have no idea what will really be benefitial for me in the long run.. I am still having some difficulty understanding how constructing new judgements can keep you unbiased. I am currently under the assumption that the more in touch with "what is? and the "true.. in the moment ..nature of things", the more beautiful they become..?? I thought the idea was to get rid of judgements..?? Thanks for your views..!!

Hmm, confused now.. Seems like I am trying to do two opposing tasks, Self actualise by breaking down misconceptions about This reality. And Trying to live a more passionate purposeful successful life.. Is this like a chicken and the egg thing. Would I do one to reach the other. Can I do both? I agree that I could lterally pick anything and go with it.. similar to dating girls.. My mind justifies i should be able to love any girl, but iot never quite works out that way in reality.. Somewhat raises more questions , Conditioning judgements in a healthy way!!?? I have a feeling that if I dig deep into myself and do some self inquiry I might come into contact with a deeper more beautiful part of life. Or is it the deeper I go The more I realise I am just part of the one tapestry of life and void of my own expression.. ..... hmmmm. maybe I should sleep on it a bit.

Good morning monday! Spent a weekend of being somewhat normal, taking daughter to dancing, Wakeboarding with friends. eating sleeping and being merry. Not much actualizing here. There is some thought to this type of life getting in the way of being the best I can be. I justified it away by saying that that spending time with my family and freineds is important top me.. Hmm.. I better be carefull that this is actually on the top 10 of my values.. Actually good to be back to work. I drive all day so its a great chance to listen to all the greatest videos I can find on whatever is important to me. If I have something I want to remember later or I have a good idea i want to capture. I found that using the audio recorder on my phone is a great quick convenient way of at least capturing it. although I have not downloaded any of them yet.. These days is just about getting used to the terminology of self improvement and getting inspired and starting some habbits that will help to keep me on track. That is. do some mindful planning and being grateful of day ahead keep conscious of thoughts and feelings throughout the day label thoughts some consideration to my thoughts and actions throughout my day Try and catch myself doing something I would normally do automatically Listen and be inspired and educated by others capture my thoughts and questions and ideas think at least once a day about how this life is not permanent and very short try a bit each day to understand that I am not my body or my thoughts ect. do some kind of reflection or some journalling before bed what inevitably is happening is that if I do all these things each days i have a few lists that i change and update. I cant perceive any traction or any noticeable improvement in my life, but that may be similar to when you see someone day in day out, you only notice a change after a few months. Big questions and or learnings from today are how come I dont have a hugely obvious passion in my life Not sure of what my big fears are I get the feeling I am only doing menial things I mostly feel others are doing better than me in life, more confident more money, more knowledge on life or being social and marriage I tried hard today to realise that anything I could think feel or conceptualize was not what I was and hopefully that would help me to find my true self. well, I am here typing this now and thinking today was ok, at l;east a small step in the right direction. I could definately do better. I guess I can build this into my plan each night and see how that goes.. Time to sign off For now .. I am, You are, all is..

Just wanted to put a link in for two stand outs from this week that where relevant to me..

Hi there all, Reporting in today. Had a weekend of just doing weekend kind of activities. Feel kind of out of flow with the weeks focus on personal development. it is interesting to note how conscious I am becoming of the differnt task and activites I do and how I feel about them.. I did the usuall house tidying duties, looking after my daughter taking her around toher different events. meeting up with a girlfriend and her child. Did some of my hobbies. Hung out with some friends. Before you know it. the weekend is over and I have not really given any focuis to personal development.. I would say my mood is ok, and i dont feel guilty for not making progress on my self actualization but , its ok.. Biggest learning from the week is around the new idea of treating any desire or habbitual craving.. New method called willingness.. Very similar to what I am already doing. trying to be more aware of what I am doing thinking saying allowing m,yself to feel and trying to allow feelings to be resigning to those feelings.. Not sure how to do this yet.. Looking forward to work as I get great opportunities to complete some of my daily habbits . My dayly habbits do help me to focus and stay in track with my development.. Signing off!!

OK. Today was another day.. Got up the usual way. 5.20, i actually got up this time.. smiled and had a cuppa, No sleep in this morning.. For some reason I believe that sleep ins feel great but are evil , I cant go into it here.. Went through the day with the usual flood of audible in my drive around work. This would probably have to be one of the most life changing things I do.. I constantly stay aware of what I am trying to achieve by constantly listening to people and learning about this bottomless topic of developing. When i find my confidence weaning or I get disillusioned by something, things keep me focused are.. listening to those who get it done and learning something from new perspective, hearing others stories. When I get home, writing about any issues I have and updating and consolidating all my lists. I have developed a system of lists. no real rhyme or reason. whatever comes up in my thoughts I just capture it.. try to systematically, brainstorm around it to try and form a picture of all the biases I have about that topic. I.e. all the traits of the top performing

I think this site is all about understanding your own bias , learning to be in the moment with your current situation. Not think of the future or bring up the past. I read stories of people here and I ask myself how am I lying to myself and or how am holding myself back from reaching my ultimate potential.. its becoming more clear to me as I progress that I dont need a partner. Do you still need or want a partner? What is it about this guy that you want? What purpose would he fill if you had him in your life?? Could you get this from yourself ? Why do you hang onto this one person.. Do you think he is the only match for you in the entire world? It is not for me to label your relationship as toxic or not. I guess I am trying to help you answer that for yourself. also whether it is serving a purpose for your actualization. Will you be a better person with him in your life?? I think his life situation and how he feels and what he tells you is pretty irrelevant to you and your life..

I assume the only way to uncover hidden limiting beliefs is to meditate and record and random thoughts and then digging into them and seeing what comes up?? I guess just living life and being aware of issue that arise.. I want to primarily try and find really big ones that are lurking in the shadows..

absolutley!! Smiling again.. its 11 o clock.

Today i think I just want to Blog a bit about how i feel today.. I am obviously ne to this sort of thing I have very little experience in Self development, I have done some in the past but its pretty fruitless and has not really shown any benefit. in some cases it has put me back and made me feel really bad in myself for not having achieved more in my life.. right now, it valentines day and this morning I was feeling somewhat glum. I allowed it to wash over me . I knew it would not last and waitied until I would know when to get out of bed.. so I started the day and did all the usual things poeple do . eat shower clean organise procratinate.. My one thing thats keeps me going and on track I think is my desire to be where i want to be.. I have a real deep down desire to be what I want.. I have this belief that I can become anything i like.. Effort required is a totally other issue.. so I have that battle day in day out.. Is it all worth it.. Most day s I can say yes, but some days like this morning I could not.. But i have these habits that keep me focused and honest.. I write down as much as i can. I have to-do list everywhere.. I review them all dally. what I find by reviewing them I find things that I dont agree with today that i did yesterday. it reall helps for me to realise that I am not this static thing. I am forever evolving and I am such a function of my environment... anyway. today was a great day of lazing about the house tidying up attending to plants, getting organised and pouring over my thoughts and sorting them out in there myriad of electronic systems I have .. ever note is your friend people! so today was a great day , ;probably a 6 or 7 .. but it was a day of forward momentum even though it started of shakilly Mind you allot of the successs of the day came down to the self pride of doing so much work while I had the time.. I really took advantage of the spare time I had today to get ahaed.. I am keenly aware of the fact that the next moment may not come for me so Id better be ok with whatvere id do in that moment.. Be lazy or work hard it my choice but I d better be fine what ever i choose.. i think thats keeps me honest.. Thankls for reading..!!

Was watching this guy Sadhguru, Just liked his delivery. He makes complicated things seem soo simple.. After watching a couple of his vids I felt like i did not have to try and just had this ridiculous smile on my face all day.. something about his delivery which really appeals to me . Let me know what you think..

ANy views on jumping stages.. I have not sorted out belonging and love yet, but I am making significant progress in esteem?? Should it be around the other waY. I just think that you should feel good about yourself before you kind find you place in the world??

No need to get too hung up on doing it well. its just that it an embryonic thing. the more you do it, the better you get but also the harder it gets. no reall technique is universally correct, but try a bunch of your own ways.. You might be lucky and learn it fairly quickly or not it does not really matter.

I think a specific want could be a limiting belief because it limits your possibilities. i.e. people hide behiond spcificity because they are scared ?? I dont know.. I just wasnt sure if being too specific is a limit or if its just an excuse?? I fully expect that some woman are just not a match I think thats my core problem.. If you look for people in a pub scene there probably going to like alcohol.. If I like girls with boobs they are probably going to be very rare.. I have to step up some more and accept the reality of the situation and workl oput how to maximise my success by going to different places and using different techniques. But I am not willing to use tricks to shock and awe I girl I just cant see that being suatainable.. I like the idea of being relaxed at ease cool and sensual and vunerable yet strong and centered.. NOt sure what I am going to do yet discussing is helping me to work it out.. Interseting to hear other views and experiences!! Thanks!!

Believe it or not . hearing your story and realting to you and empathising is actually helping me a great amount too.. Keep us upto date..!!You will help us greatly if you keep in touch. and let us know how you go.. I am sure many people could learn from your struggles.. Peace!! PS ultimately I dont think anyone is to to learn from others, But in sharing and doing this together that is what happens. So as you share you also help.. xx