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Truth is. Is is. But is it true?

@PsiloPutty I think they are asking if this is the first time they are living this life. I've been through that too... never came to a conclusion, and I see no reason the dream couldn't repeat itself. Would definitely explain deja vu though.

@Leo Gura Would the question, "what is not reality" be a valid one? I suppose the answer is: nothing. But what is a nothing? The moment you ask that question, you can no longer be asking about nothing, because it would be a something. And a something can only be in reality.

@here-now good one ? @FrgttnDeer good question!

Everything I do is a matter of expressing myself. Literally everything. And the more I express myself, the more I perpetuate this idea that there is a "Samuel" . But Samuel doesn't exist, because he was never born. He/it is an idea. And an idea never quite has a beginning, because it blends perfectly together with what came before it. The Idea of Samuel came about long before the body it mistakes itself for was conceived. The body in which it hitchhikes. A body that was going to exist with or without Sam's presence. Yet Sam mistakes himself to be this body-this body which has no name. Even the body itself is an illusion, but it is closer to truth than Sam will ever be. His parents had already decided before they were even aware of it: what a son should be and act like and do. This they learned from their parents, who learned it from their parents. Therefore Samuel's parents are also ideas. Sam is an idea of an idea of an idea. And he's out of ideas. But what is there without Sam? If he were stripped away? And why do I feel addicted to expressing myself as Sam? "I" is a concept, and can't be true. So who/what is addicted to expressing Sam's identity? Is it self aware? Or merely a program running on autopilot?

@FrgttnDeer @FrgttnDeer I get what you are saying as well. Samueling does not want to be still though! Perhaps it's a defense mechanism ?

@Serotoninluv thanks! Too bad the name wasn't something odd like "simulate". Then i could go around shouting "I'm simulating! I'm simulating!" Ok,that was corny, even for Samueling... Oh wait, I used it as a noun. I was just Samueling, that's all.

Thank you, that was very direct exactly where I needed it. I am still green with self inquiry and being still, but as I said to@FrgttnDeer I need to be still and see what is. Of course "seeing" in a visual context would be obsolete at that point. I absolutely need to have that deep realization. It will come. I will do the work. Thank you. At this point in my search, I don't disagree with you. One day perhaps, I'll look back and laugh at saying that. But I actually treasure and adore indiviuallity! I think it is one of the best miracles to come out of all of "this". This Sam doesn't exist, yet he does. I believe the idea that has been named Sam has become self aware. And is asking questions. Now, the body is typing these questions and ideas on the keyboard, so that they end up on this forum for discussion. But as of right now, I don't know if it's this self aware Sam (self aware idea) who decided to do this, or if it only influences "my" thoughts. And if I am not Sam, then who am I? That's what I will be searching for in inquiry. At the same time, I love the hell out of Sam, and thank him for being such a miracle. So perhaps saying that I'm addicted to self expression is not the right way to put it. It's more of an attachment, I guess. But they say all attachments must be let go.

Placebo, or physical exertion, or whatever.... As long as it works or helps is all that matters. Yes it should increase effect with practice. Not that I have any experience with it, but that's just how these things work, ha. Placebo or not.

I needed to hear that, thanks. Yep!

Yes there must be something there, right? But it's not Sam because Sam is an idea. I am still seeking what is there without Sam. If I find it I will share what I can. ? My addiction is not to being (or is it?). It is to expressing myself. As Sam... Not as Sam.... Doesn't matter. As long as there is self-expression, I exist. But I want to see if there is anything between expressions. I need to be still and see what is.

Yes I agree. I need to sit and strip away Sam and see what's left. There's no point to ask others to explain it. I've heard of this technique before but haven't tried it. I will look more into it. Thank you ?

That sounds nice to the ear, but I don't know what to make of it. What is the best way to see through this devil's influence? Ultimately he doesn't exist, like Sam. Knowing this should be enough to see through that Idea's ideas, but I often fall for its antics. Or is that Sam falling for it and "I" still identify as Sam? What is there without Sam? Anything that qualifies as an "I"?

Can't stop the winter from coming, and can't beg it back in the scorching heat of summer.